Fulbert looked up. "You don"t mean that you would take me out?"
"Yes, I do, if you are inclined to come and try for work at Albertstown."
Fulbert, instead of answering, quickened his pace to a walking run, dashed on, nearly upsetting half a dozen people, and was only checked by a collision with a perambulator. Then he stood still till Mr.
Audley came up to him, and then again muttered under his breath, "Go out to Albertstown!"
They walked on a little way, and then the boy said, "Say it again, please."
Mr. Audley did say it again, in more detail; and Fulbert this time exclaimed, "It is the very thing! Thank you, Mr. Audley;" and his face clearing into a frank, open look, he added, "I"ll try to do my best there. I wonder I never thought of it before. I would have worked my way out as a cabin boy if I had. Where is Lance? Does Felix know?"
There was no sentiment about Fulbert. He jumped at the offer as instinctively as a young swallow would prepare to migrate, seemed to brighten all over, and shake off his dull, defiant mood, and gave no sign of feeling about brother or sister--except that he said he believed Felix would get on better without him; and that he told Lance that they would have splendid fun together when he was big enough to come out and ride a buck-jumper.
CHAPTER XIII
PEGASUS IN HARNESS
"Fear not on that rugged highway Life may want its lawful zest, Sunny glens are on the mountain, Where the weary heart may rest."
CHARLES GAVAN DUFFY.
There was much relief and comfort in that visit of Mr. Audley"s. For one thing, Geraldine was able to pour out all her troubles, as she had been used to do ever since her father had left her in his charge --her repentance for the stirrings of her naturally fretful, plaintive temper, for her fits of impatience and her hard judgments, and, what surprised him chiefly, for jealousy.
"Yes," she repeated, at his word of surprise, "I am jealous!"
"Indeed!"
"I never knew it till the choral festival. I used to be very fond of her, but-- I"m sure it is jealousy; I don"t like to see her more eagerly attended to than myself. Not that there is anything to complain of. He never neglected me in his life."
Mr. Audley smiled. "People would tell you it is the natural lot of sisters.
Then she saw that he knew all about it; for, in fact, Felix had, rather to the general surprise, observed that the Miss Pearsons would like to meet Mr. Audley, and the trio had spent a musical evening with the Underwood party.
"Oh," she cried, "is it all my own horridness? Or is it really--"
"My own horridness or my own discernment?" said he, taking the words out of her mouth. "My dear, such an affair as this would be generally the family jest."
"Oh!"
"It is just as well it should not be so here," continued Mr. Audley, "for nonsense is not always a cure, and the talk would be mischievous; besides, I think both are unconscious."
"He is, I believe," said Cherry.
"At any rate, he is more than ordinarily full of sense and self- control, and may safely be trusted to do nothing imprudent. She is pretty and attractive, and of course he likes to be with her; but I should think it very unlikely it would go farther. Has any one else observed it?"
"Not Wilmet, only Lance."
"And has not made fun of it? That speaks well for Master Lance"s discretion. Yet you all feel the weight of life too heavily. I had rather have found you amused by these little prepossessions, than weighing them seriously, and wearing yourself to fritters."
"I _will_ try not to mind, but I can"t help being afraid for him! It must be very wrong to be almost turned against her because he likes her; and yet, what is all very well as my friend does not seem enough for Felix."
"Nor will it be. My dear Cherry, such things come on and go off twenty times in a man"s life. You will treat the symptoms more lightly before you have done with your seven brothers. Meantime, don"t fret your conscience over fancies, unless you have spoken or acted unkindly or fretfully."
"O Mr. Audley, what shall I do when you are quite gone? All this time I have felt as if I were without my pilot."
Mr. Audley, too, had been thinking this over, and wished to put her more formally under the spiritual charge of Mr. Willoughby of St.
Faith"s, feeling that the morbid and sensitive nature needed external support, and that it was not right to deprive it of what the Church sanctions.
Her only doubt was Felix"s approval. His nature did not readily accept progress beyond that to which he had been bred up; and in border lands like these, an unfavourable medium made much difference to the clearness of the sight. Clement"s contempt for what had satisfied his father annoyed him: and his mind was self-reliant, his soul accustomed to find its requirements met by the system around him, and his character averse to intermeddling, so that it was against the grain with him that spiritual guidance should be sought outside the family, or, at any rate, outside the parish. He thought such direction weakened the nature, and Mr, Audley, after warning him against taking the disease for the effect of the remedy, had to laugh at him as a British householder. After all, he yielded, because he thought Mr. Audley had a certain right over Geraldine, and that it was proper to defer to his judgment; while his guardian trusted to a sight of St. Matthew"s for the overthrowal of the prejudices that Clement had managed to excite.
Before leaving England, Mr. Audley was resolved that little Theodore should be shown to some London physician. The child was five years old, but looked no more than three. He could totter in an uncertain run, and understood a few simple sentences, but came no nearer to language than the appropriation of a musical sound to every one whom he knew. There was nothing unpleasant about him, except his constant purring and humming; he was perfectly docile, loved music, and could be amused by simple recurring games. His affections seemed to have gone out chiefly to Felix and to Sibby; and as to his twin-sister, he seemed lost without her, and she seemed to view him as the complement of herself--like a sort of left hand, giving him things to hold in his feeble grasp, saying her lessons to him, and talking as if to a doll. There was something sad in the very resemblance; for their eyes were of the same shade of deep blue, their long soft hair of the same flaxen tint, their faces equally fair, but while hers was all colour, light, and life, his was pale and vacant, and scarcely ever stirred into expression.
Mr. Audley thought it right to ascertain whether treatment could be of any use; and finding that his father"s London house was only occupied by his brother the Captain, he arranged that Felix should come up to town with the child and Sibby, when the law business could be arranged, and there would be an opportunity of his seeing something of the world.
He had never had a holiday before, and Mr. Froggatt rivalled his guardian in his desire that it should not be too short. The first call was by appointment on the doctor. He was not used to have patients like Theodore brought by youths of Felix"s age, and was touched by the care and tenderness of the young man, as he tried to overcome the alarm that was rendering the little one impracticable, when it was desirable to exhibit his slender store of accomplishments. His nearest approach to his natural state was when perched on his brother"s knee, with his back to the strange faces, listening as Felix whistled the tunes he loved best.
After all, little was gained by the consultation, except the a.s.surance that the poor little fellow was as well situated as was possible. A few directions for treatment and discipline were given, but very little hope was held out of any important change for the better.
The verdict disappointed Felix to an extent that surprised Mr.
Audley, who had better understood the hopelessness of the case. Of all the family, Felix had the most of the parental instinct for the most helpless; and while he warmly thanked his friend, he looked so mournfully at the child who clung to him, that Mr. Audley said in a voice of sympathy, "It is a burthen, but one that will never bring the sting of sin."
"Not a burthen," said Felix. "No; as my father said when he gave him to me, he is the Gift of G.o.d, the son of my right hand. May it always be able to work for you!" he murmured, as he bent his head over the little one.
"And I think the gift will bring a blessing!" said Mr. Audley.
Theodore was sent home with Sibby, thus restoring Stella to herself, for she had been greatly lost without her speechless companion: but Felix remained in London for a week of business and pleasure. Captain Audley was very good-natured and friendly, and abetted his brother in all his arrangements for showing Felix as much of life as was possible in a week, a.s.suring him that every new experience was a duty to the Pursuivant--a plea that Felix, with his lover-like devotion to every detail of his paper, admitted with a smile. Edgar was of almost all their expeditions, and dined with them nearly every day.
That young gentleman"s peculiar pleasantness had very nearly averted the remonstrances with which his brother and his guardian had come up armed. There he was, finding his work real, and not a royal road to immediate wealth, idling, lounging, and gratifying his taste for art and music; and when his employer stormed and threatened, listening with aggravating coolness, and even sweetness, merely hinting that his occupation was a mistake; and living all the time as a son of the house, with a handsome allowance, and free access to society and amus.e.m.e.nt. Thus, when Mr. Audley talked to him, he smiled with a certain resignation, and observed that he was concerned for poor old Tom, to have been unlucky enough to have drawn such a fellow as himself. Probably it was a judgment on him for not having come forward sooner, when he might have had Felix! And when Mr. Audley upheld Felix as an example of hearty sacrifice of taste and inclination, it was to obtain an enthusiastic response. n.o.body breathed equal to dear old Fee, and it was the most ardent desire of Edgar"s heart to take some of the burthen from his shoulders! When it was hinted that such an allowance as Tom Underwood gave afforded the opportunity, Edgar smiled between melancholy and scorn, saying, "Times must have altered since your time, Mr. Audley.--No, I forgot.
Expense is the rule in our line. Swells can do as they please."
However, there things rested; Mr. Underwood treated him exactly like an idle son, storming at him sometimes, but really both fond and proud of him, and very gracious to Felix, whom he invited once to a very dull and dazzling dinner, and once sent to the opera with his ladies.
Felix"s Sunday was chiefly spent at St. Matthew"s, which he was very glad to see without Tina"s spectacles. He was amazed to find so much more good sense and reality than the effect on Clement had led him to expect; and Mr. Fulmort, who struck him as one of the most practical- looking men he had ever seen, spoke in high terms of Clement"s steadiness and wish to do right; but added, "I am afraid we have rather spoilt him. He came up to us so unlike the kind of boy we generally get, that we may have made rather too much of him at first."
Felix smiled. "Perhaps we had knocked him about, and made too little of him at home," he said.
"Besides, esprit de corps in so small a place as this is apt to become so concentrated as not to be many removes from egotism. I daresay we have been a terrible bore to you."
Felix laughed. "We have always been very grateful to you, Sir."
"I understand. I am glad he is going farther a-field. He will be much improved by seeing other places, and having his exclusiveness and conceit shaken out of him; but we shall always regard him as the child of the house, and I only hope he may end by working among us."
"Poor fellow! Conceit has been pretty well shaken out for the present," said Felix.
"I hope it may last. He was rather hurt at my not making his misfortune of more importance: but it seems to have been accident, all except the priggish self-confidence that led to it."