"It means she shouldn"t be so foolish," said their father. He tried to tempt her with a frond of bitter herb in a gloved hand, but she was so insubstantial that she pa.s.sed through him without causing harm and drifted out to the gardens.
"It"s my fault," said Alice.
But the ghostly shape of Mirabelle merely laughed her whispery laugh.
The next day Alice went out to meet the blacksmith"s apprentice and kissed him until he died. It did not bring her sister back. It did not help her grief. She built a fire and threw herself on it. She burned until she was only a blackened shadow.
No tears were enough to express how Cecily felt, so her eyes remained dry as her sisters floated like shades through the halls of the estate and her father locked himself in his study.
As Cecily sat alone in a dim room, her sisters came to her.
"You must bury us," Alice said.
"I want it to be in the gardens of one of our suitors. Together, so that we won"t be lonely."
"Why should I? Why should I do anything for you?" Cecily asked. "You left me here alone."
"Stop feeling sorry for yourself," said Alice. Lack of corporeal form had not made her any less bossy.
"We need you," Mirabelle pleaded.
"Why can"t you bury yourselves? Just drift down into the dirt."
"That"s not the way it works," Mirabelle told her.
And so, with a sigh of resignation, gathering up the lockets of her sisters, Cecily left the estate and began to walk. She was not sure where she was headed, but the road led to town.
It was frightening to be on her own, with no one to brush her hair or tell her when to sit down to lunch. The forest sounded strange and ominous.
She stopped and paid for an apple with a silver ring. As she pa.s.sed a stall, she overheard one of the merchants say. "Look at her blue mouth, her pale skin. She"s the walking dead." As soon as he said it, Cecily knew it to be true. That was why Alice and Mirabelle would not die. They were already dead.
She walked for a long time, resting by a stream when she was tired. After she rose, she saw the imprint of herself in the withered gra.s.s. Tears rolled over her cheeks and dampened the cloth of her dress, but one fell where ants scurried and stilled them. After that, Cecily was careful not to cry.
At the next town, she showed the pictures in each of the lockets to the woman who sold wreaths for graves. She knew only the first boy. His name was Vance-not Nicholas-and he was the son of a wealthy landowner to the East who had once paid her for a hundred wreaths of chrysanthemums to decorate the necks of horses on Vance"s twelfth birthday.
She started down the winding and dusty road East. Once she was given a ride on a wagon filled with hay. She kept her hands folded in her lap and when the farmer reached out to touch her shoulder in kindness, she shied away as though she despised him. The coldness in his eyes afterward hurt her and she tried not to think of him.
Another traveler demanded the necklace of opals she wore at her throat, but she slapped him and he fell, as if struck by a blow more terrible than any her soft hand should have delivered.
Her sisters chattered at her as she went. Sometimes their words buzzed around her like hornets, sometimes they went sulkily silent. Once, Mirabelle and Alice had a fight about which of their deaths was more foolish and Cecily had to shout at them until they stopped.
Cecily often got hungry, but there was no salad of bitter parsley, so she ate other leaves and flowers she picked in the woods. Some of them filled her with that familiar cold shakiness while others went down her throat without doing anything but sating her. She drank from cool streams and muddy puddles and by the time she reached Vance"s estate, her shoes were riddled with holes.
The manor house was at the top of a small hill and the path was set with smooth, pale stones. The door was a deep red, the color berries stained eager fingers. Cecily rapped on the door.
The servants saw her tattered finery and brought her to Master Hornpull. He had white hair that fell to his shoulders but the top of his pate was bald, shining with oil, and slightly sunburnt.
Cecily showed him the locket with Vance"s picture and told him about Alice"s death. He was kind and did not mention the state of Cecily"s clothing or the strangeness of her coming so suddenly and on foot. He told servants to prepare a room for her and let her wash herself in a tub with golden faucets in the shape of swans.
"If you kiss him once, then I will be able to kiss him forever and ever," Alice told her as she dried off.
"I thought you liked the blacksmith"s apprentice," Cecily said.
"I always liked Nicholas better." Alice"s ghostly voice sounded snappish.
"Vance," Cecily corrected.
Servants came to ask Cecily if she would go to dinner, but she begged off, pleading weariness. She planned to doze on the down mattress until nightfall when she could steal out to the gardens, but there was a sharp rap on the door and her father walked into the room.
Cecily made a poorly concealed gasp and struggled to stand. For a moment, she was afraid, without really knowing why.
He pushed back graying hair with a gloved hand. "How fortunate that you are so predictable. I was quite worried when I found you had gone."
"I was too sad to be there alone," Cecily said. She could not meet his eyes.
""You must marry Vance in Alice"s place."
"I can"t," Cecily said. What she meant was that Alice would be mad, and indeed, Alice was already darting around, muttering furiously.
"You can and you will," her father said. "Every thing yearns to do what it is made for."
Cecily said nothing. He drew from his pocket a necklace of tourmalines and fastened them at her throat. "Be as good a girl as you are lovely," he said. "Then we will go home."
The earliest memory Cecily had of her father was of gloved hands, mail-over-leather, checking her gums. She had been very sick for a long time, lying on mounds of hay in a stinking room full of sick little girls. She remembered his messy hair and his perfectly trimmed beard and the way his smile had seemed aimed in her direction but not for her. "Little girls are like oysters," he told her as he pried her eyelids wide. "Just as a grain of sand irritates the oyster into making nacre, so your discomfort will make something marvelous."
"Who are you?" she had asked him.
"Don"t you remember?" he had said. "I"m your father."
That had upset her, because she must be very sick indeed to not know her own father, but he told her that she had died and come back to life, so it was natural that she"d forgotten things. He lifted her up with his gloved hands and carried her out of the room. She remembered seeing other sick girls on the hay, their eyes sunken and dull and their bodies very still. That, she wouldn"t have minded forgetting.
Cecily thought of those girls as she drifted off to sleep in the vast and silky bed Master Hornpull provided for her, cooled by the twining limbs of her ghostly sisters.
The next day, Cecily"s face was painted with brushes: her mouth made vermillion, her eyelids smeared with cerulean, her cheeks rouged rose. They had brought pots of white stuff to smear on her skin but she was already so pale there was no need. Cecily waved the servants off and pinned up her hair herself. She wasn"t very good at it and locks tumbled down over her shoulders. Mirabelle a.s.sured her that it looked better that way. Alice told her that she looked like a mess. Mirabelle said that Alice was just jealous. That might have been true; Alice had always been a jealous person.
In the parlor downstairs, Cecily"s father grabbed her elbow with one gloved hand and spoke through a broad, forced smile.
Vance was nothing like their made-up stories. He was short and slender, but handsome just the same. They danced and Cecily was conscious of the warmth of his hands though the fabric of her dress and the satin of her gloves, but she was even more conscious of the tender glances he gave to a small, curvy girl in a golden gown.
"He would have liked me," Alice crowed. "I am exactly the kind of girl he likes."
"Maybe you should have thought of that before you-" Cecily started, forgetting for a moment that she was speaking to the dead. Vance turned toward her, face flaming and lips spilling apology. He must have thought she was offended that someone else caught his eye.
But when the priest asked Cecily to take Vance in marriage, she was named as Mirabelle. She repeated the words anyway.
"Does that mean Nicholas is mine?" Mirabelle whispered, her ghostly voice filled with surprised delight. He was her clear favorite in the stories. Cecily had made the boy in Mirabelle"s locket too bookish for her tastes.
"Vance," Cecily corrected under her breath.
"Kill him already," Alice hissed. "Stop mooning around."
And, indeed, Vance was leaning toward Cecily to seal their vows with a kiss. She pulled back at the last moment, so that his mouth merely brushed her veil, then tried to smile in apology. As she turned to depart the ceremony with her new husband, she saw her father in the crowd. He nodded once in her direction.
At the party following the wedding, one of the guests remarked to Cecily how good it was that her father was taking an interest in society again, after falling out of favor with the King.
"He seldom talks to me about politics," Cecily said. "I did not know he was ever a friend of his Majesty."
The woman who had said it looked around, seemingly torn between guilt and gossip. "Well, it was when the King was only the youngest Prince. No one expected him to take the throne, because his father was so young and his two older brothers so healthy. But illness took all three of them, one after another, and once his Majesty was on the throne, your father was well favored. He was given money and lands beyond most of our-well, you know how vast and lovely your father"s land is."
"Yes," Cecily said, feeling very stupid. She had never wondered where these things came from. She had merely a.s.sumed that there had always been plenty and there would always be plenty.
"But after the Prince was born, your father fell out of favor. The King would no longer see him."
"Why?" Cecily asked.
"As if I know!" The woman laughed. "He really has kept you in another world up there!"
Later, she went to a large bed chamber and changed into a pale shift that was still, somehow, darker than her skin. She stared at her arms, looking at the tracery of purple veins, mapping a geography of paths she might take, a maze of choices she did not know her way out of.
"You look cold," Vance said. "I could warm you."
Cecily thought that was a kind thing to say, as though he was more interested in her well-being than in her vermillion-painted mouth or the sapphires sparkling on her fingers. She didn"t have the heart to stop him from taking her hand and pressing his lips to her throat. Lying beside his cold body afterward reminded her of sleeping with her sisters before they were only shades. The chill touch of his skin comforted her.
In the morning, the whole house wept with his sudden death. Alice and Mirabelle wept, too, because although he was dead, he did not live on as they did. They could not catch his spirit as he pa.s.sed.
She rode in a fast coach with her father and Liam was dead before word reached the household of Vance"s burial. The second boy was much easier than she expected. At this wedding, her name had been Alice. In their bedchamber, he"d barely spoken; only torn off her gown and died. There was no time to steal out to the gardens. No time to bury her sisters.
Cecily"s father was so pleased he could barely sit still as they pressed on to the palace. He ate an entire box of sweetmeats, chuckling to himself as he watched the landscape fly by.
He had brought something for her to eat, too, a familiar mix of herbs that she left sitting in their bowl.
"I don"t want them," she said. "They make me sick."
"Just eat!" he told her. "For once, just do as you are bid."
She thought about throwing the bowl out of the window and scattering the herbs, but the smell of them reminded her of Mirabelle and Alice, who barely smelled like anything now. Besides, there was nothing else. Cecily ate the herbs.
She could still taste them in her mouth when the carriage arrived at the palace. She half expected to be clapped in irons and as she pa.s.sed whispering courtiers, Cecily thought that each one was telling the other a list of her evil deeds.
We first met in the library. I was tall and plain, with pock-marked skin. Yes, I"m the prince in this story. Did you guess, Paul? Cecily later told me that when I first smiled at her, I still appeared to be frowning. What I remember was that she had the blackest eyes I had ever seen.
"This is your betrothed, Cecily," Cecily"s father told me.
"I know who she is," I said. She looked very like the picture I had been given. Most girls don"t. Your mother certainly didn"t.
That afternoon, Cecily washed the dirt of the road off her clothing and went to walk in the gardens of the palace while her father made the final arrangements. The gardens were lush and lovely, more beautiful, even, than those of her father. Plants with heads full of seeds, large as the skulls of infants, lolled from thick stems. She touched the vivid purple and red fronds of one and it seemed to twitch under her fingers. The lacy foliage of another seemed like the parsley plant of her salad. Crushing it produced a pungent, familiar scent. It was like the breath of her sisters. She bent low for a taste.
"Stop! That"s poisonous!" A gardener jogged down the path, wearing steel and leather gloves like those that belonged to her father. He had hair that flopped over his eyes and that he brushed back impatiently. "You"re not supposed to be in this part of the garden."
"I"m sorry," Cecily stammered. "But what are these? I have them in my garden at home."
He snorted. "That isn"t very likely. They"re hybrids. There are no others like them in all the world."
She thought of the woman at her wedding telling how her father had once been close to the king. He must have taken cuttings from these very plants.
She began walking, hoping she might leave the gardener behind and be about her burying business. He seemed to misconstrue her wishes, however, pacing alongside her and pointing out prize blooms. She finally managed to put off a lengthy explanation of why the royal apples were the sweetest in the world by pretending a chill and retreating into the palace.
That night there was a feast in Cecily"s honor. She sat at a long table set with crisp linens and covered with dishes she was unfamiliar with. There was eel with savory; tiny birds stuffed with berries and herbs, their bones crunching between Cecily"s teeth; pears stuffed into almond tarts and soaked in wine; even a sugar-coated pastry in the shape of the palace itself, studded with flecks of gold.
"Oh," Mirabelle gasped. "It is all so lovely."
But Cecily realized that no matter how lovely, it disgusted her to bring the food to her mouth. She looked across the table and saw her father in deep conversation with the king, not at all behaving as though he was out of favor.
Later, Cecily left her room and went out to the garden. Her walk with the gardener had revealed where he kept his tools and she stole a spade. With her sisters fluttering around her, Cecily looked for the right spot for them to rest. In the moonlight, all the plants were the same, their glossy leaves merely silvery and their flowers shut tight as gates.
"Be careful," Mirabelle said. "You"re the only one of us left."
"Whose fault is that?" Cecily demanded.
Neither of them said anything more as Cecily finally chose a place and began to dig. The rich soil parted easily.
That was what I saw her doing as I walked out of the palace. I had been looking for her, but when I found her, digging in the dirt, I didn"t know what to say.
She saw me standing there and crouched. Her fingers were black with earth and she looked feral in the dim light of the palace windows. I don"t think she knew it, but I was afraid.
"Please," Cecily said. "I have to finish. I am digging a grave for my sisters."
I thought she was mad then, I admit it. I turned to go back to the house and get the guards, thinking that my plans were in shambles.
"Please," she said again. "I will tell you a secret."
"That you have come to kill me?" I asked her. "Like you killed Vance and Liam?"
She frowned.
It was then that I told her the part of her story she did not know and she told most of what I have said tonight. I will summarize for you, Paul. I know how tedious you find this sort of thing.
When he was a prince like yourself, my father had hired hers to kill those before him in line to the throne. He was very efficient; no one doubted but they had merely fallen ill. Mother told me this much before her death and I told it to Cecily.
Apparently, it was my birth that made Father send Cecily"s father to the country. It made him uncomfortable to look at his own son and to consider the sort of son he had once been.
As I got older, however, he grew increasingly certain I was planning his death. He wrote to Cecily"s father and coaxed him from retirement. Her father had a price, of course-Liam and Vance-some grudge avenged. I have forgotten the details. It doesn"t matter. Our engagements were arranged.
"How did you find out?" Cecily asked when I finished speaking.
"My mother taught me to go through Father"s correspon-dence." I had not expected her to be both the poison and the poisoner, and I found myself studying her pale skin and black eyes for some sign that it was true. I leaned toward her unconsciously and something about her smell, sweet as rot, made me dizzy. I stepped back abruptly.
"I will make this bargain with you," I said. It was not the bargain I had planned to make, but I tried to speak with confidence. "Kill my father and yours and you may bury your sisters in this garden. I will keep them safe for as long as I shall reign, and I shall make a proclamation so that the garden remains when I am no more."