Waking at dusk, Matilda checked Lydia"s blog. Lydia had posted a reply: Meet us at the Festival of Sinners. Meet us at the Festival of Sinners.
Five kids sat at the top of the stairs, watching her with liquid eyes.
"Are you awake?" the black-haired girl asked. She seemed to pulse with color. Her moving mouth was hypnotic.
"Come here," Matilda said to her in a voice that seemed so distant that she was surprised to find it was her own. She hadn"t meant to speak, hadn"t meant to beckon the girl over to her.
"That"s not fair," one of the boys called. "I was the one who said she owed us something. It should be me. You should pick me."
Matilda ignored him as the girl knelt down on the dirty mattress and swept aside her hair, baring a long, unmarked neck. She seemed dazzling, this creature of blood and breath, a fragile manikin as brittle as sticks.
Tiny golden hairs tickled Matilda"s nose as she bit down.
And gulped.
Blood was heat and heart running-thrumming-beating through the fat roots of veins to drip syrup slow, spurting molten hot across tongue, mouth, teeth, chin.
Dimly, Matilda felt someone shoving her and someone else screaming, but it seemed distant and unimportant. Eventually the words became clearer.
"Stop," someone was screaming. "Stop!"
Hands dragged Matilda off the girl. Her neck was a glistening red mess. Gore stained the mattress and covered Matilda"s hands and hair. The girl coughed, blood bubbles frothing on her lip, and then went abruptly silent.
"What did you do?" the boy wailed, cradling the girl"s body. "She"s dead. She"s dead. You killed her."
Matilda backed away from the body. Her hand went automatically to her mouth, covering it. "I didn"t mean to," she said.
"Maybe she"ll be okay," said the other boy, his voice cracking. "We have to get bandages."
" She"s dead dead," the boy holding the girl"s body moaned.
A thin wail came from deep inside Matilda as she backed toward the stairs. Her belly felt full, distended. She wanted to be sick.
Another girl grabbed Matilda"s arm. "Wait," the girl said, eyes wide and imploring. "You have to bite me next. You"re full now so you won"t have to hurt me-"
With a cry, Matilda tore herself free and ran up the stairs-if she went fast enough, maybe she could escape from herself.
By the time Matilda got to the Festival of Sinners, her mouth tasted metallic and she was numb with fear. She wasn"t human, wasn"t good, and wasn"t sure what she might do next. She kept pawing at her shirt, as if that much blood could ever be wiped off, as if it hadn"t already soaked down into her skin and her soiled insides.
The Festival was easy to find, even as confused as she was. People were happy to give her directions, apparently not bothered that she was drenched in blood. Their casual demeanor was horrifying, but not as horrifying as how much she already wanted to feed again.
On the way, she pa.s.sed the Eternal Ball. Strobe lights lit up the remains of the windows along the dome, and a girl with blue hair in a dozen braids held up a video camera to interview three men dressed all in white with gleaming red eyes.
Vampires.
A ripple of fear pa.s.sed through her. She reminded herself that there was nothing they could do to her. She was already like them. Already dead.
The Festival of Sinners was being held at a church with stained-gla.s.s windows painted black on the inside. The door, papered with pink-stenciled posters, was painted the same thick tarry black. Music thrummed from within and a few people sat on the steps, smoking and talking.
Matilda went inside.
A doorman pulled aside a velvet rope for her, letting her past a small line of people waiting to pay the cover charge. The rules were different for vampires, perhaps especially for vampires accessorizing their grungy attire with so much blood.
Matilda scanned the room. She didn"t see Julian or Lydia, just a throng of dancers and a bar that served alcohol from vast copper distilling vats. It spilled into mismatched mugs. Then one of the people near the bar moved and Matilda saw Lydia and Julian. He was bending over her, shouting into her ear.
Matilda pushed her way through the crowd, until she was close enough to touch Julian"s arm. She reached out, but couldn"t quite bring herself to brush his skin with her foulness.
Julian looked up, startled. "Tilda?"
She s.n.a.t.c.hed back her hand like she"d been about to touch fire.
"Tilda," he said. "What happened to you? Are you hurt?"
Matilda flinched, looking down at herself. "I?.?.?."
Lydia laughed. "She ate someone, moron."
"Tilda?" Julian asked.
"I"m sorry," Matilda said. There was so much she had to be sorry for, but at least he was here now. Julian would tell her what to do and how to turn herself back into something decent again. She would save Lydia and Julian would save her.
He touched her shoulder, let his hand rest gingerly on her blood-stiffened shirt. "We were looking for you everywhere." His gentle expression was tinged with terror; fear pulled his smile into something closer to a grimace.
"I wasn"t in Coldtown," Matilda said. "I came here so that Lydia could leave. I have a pa.s.s."
"But I don"t want to leave," said Lydia. "You understand that, right? I want what you have-eternal life."
"You"re not infected," Matilda said. "You have to go. You can still be okay. Please, I need you to go."
"One pa.s.s?" Julian said, his eyes going to Lydia. Matilda saw the truth in the weight of that gaze-Julian had not come to Coldtown for Matilda. Even though she knew she didn"t deserve him to think of her as anything but a monster, it hurt savagely.
"I"m not leaving," Lydia said, turning to Julian, pouting. "You said she wouldn"t be like this."
"I killed a girl," Matilda said. "I killed her. Do you understand that?"
"Who cares about some mortal girl?" Lydia tossed back her hair. In that moment, she reminded Matilda of her brother, pretentious Dante who"d turned out to be an actual nice guy. Just like sweet Lydia had turned out cruel.
"You"re a girl," Matilda said. "You"re mortal."
"I know that!" Lydia rolled her eyes. "I just mean that we don"t care who you killed. Turn us and then we can kill lots of people."
"No," Matilda said, swallowing. She looked down, not wanting to hear what she was about to say. There was still a chance. "Look, I have the pa.s.s. If you don"t want it, then Julian should take it and go. But I"m not turning you. I"m never turning you, understand."
"Julian doesn"t want to leave," Lydia said. Her eyes looked bright and two feverish spots appeared on her cheeks. "Who are you to judge me anyway? You"re the murderer."
Matilda took a step back. She desperately wanted Julian to say something in her defense or even to look at her, but his gaze remained steadfastly on Lydia.
"So neither one of you want the pa.s.s," Matilda said.
"f.u.c.k you," spat Lydia.
Matilda turned away.
"Wait," Julian said. His voice sounded weak.
Matilda spun, unable to keep the hope off her face, and saw why Julian had called to her. Lydia stood behind him, a long knife to his throat.
"Turn me," Lydia said. "Turn me, or I"m going to kill him."
Julian"s eyes were wide. He started to protest or beg or something and Lydia pressed the knife harder, silencing him.
People had stopped dancing nearby, backing away. One girl with red-glazed eyes stared hungrily at the knife.
"Turn me!" Lydia shouted. "I"m tired of waiting! I want my life to begin!"
"You won"t be alive-" Matilda started.
"I"ll be alive-more alive than ever. Just like you are."
"Okay," Matilda said softly. "Give me your wrist."
The crowd seemed to close in tighter, watching as Lydia held out her arm. Matilda crouched low, bending down over it.
"Take the knife away from his throat," Matilda said.
Lydia, all her attention on Matilda, let Julian go. He stumbled a little and pressed his fingers to his neck.
"I loved you," Julian shouted.
Matilda looked up to see that he wasn"t speaking to her. She gave him a glittering smile and bit down on Lydia"s wrist.
The girl screamed, but the scream was lost in Matilda"s ears. Lost in the pulse of blood, the tide of gluttonous pleasure and the music throbbing around them like Lydia"s slowing heartbeat.
Matilda sat on the blood-soaked mattress and turned on the video camera to check that the live feed was working.
Julian was gone. She"d given him the pa.s.s after stripping him of all his cash and credit cards; there was no point in trying to force Lydia to leave since she"d just come right back in. He"d made stammering apologies that Matilda ignored; then he fled for the gate. She didn"t miss him. Her fantasy of Julian felt as ephemeral as her old life.
"It"s working," one of the boys-Michael-said from the stairs, a computer cradled on his lap. Even though she"d killed one of them, they welcomed her back, eager enough for eternal life to risk more deaths. "You"re streaming live video."
Matilda set the camera on the stack of crates, pointed toward her and the wall where she"d tied a gagged Lydia. The girl thrashed and kicked, but Matilda ignored her. She stepped in front of the camera and smiled.
My name is Matilda Green. I was born on April 10, 1997. I died on September 3, 2013. Please tell my mother I"m okay. And Dante, if you"re watching this, I"m sorry.
You"ve probably seen lots of video feeds from inside Coldtown. I saw them too. Pictures of girls and boys grinding together in clubs or bleeding elegantly for their celebrity vampire masters. Here"s what you never see. What I"m going to show you.
For eighty-eight days you are going to watch someone sweat out the infection. You are going to watch her beg and scream and cry. You"re going to watch her throw up food and p.i.s.s her pants and pa.s.s out. You"re going to watch me feed her can after can of creamed corn. It"s not going to be pretty.
You"re going to watch me, too. I"m the kind of vampire that you"d be, one who"s new at this and basically out of control. I"ve already killed someone and I can"t guarantee I"m not going to do it again. I"m the one who infected this girl.
This is the real Coldtown.
I"m the real Coldtown.
You still want in?
A Reversal of Fortune
Nikki opened the refrigerator. There was nothing in there but a couple of shriveled oranges and three gallons of tap water. She slammed it closed. Summer was supposed to be the best part of the year, but so far Nikki"s summer sucked. It sucked hard. It sucked like a vacuum that got hold of the drapes.
Her pit bull, Boo, whined and sc.r.a.ped at the door, etching new lines into the frayed wood. Nikki clipped on his leash. She knew she should trim his nails. They frayed the nylon of his collar and gouged the door, but when she tried to cut them, he cried like a baby. Nikki figured he"d had enough pain in his life and left his nails long.
"Come on, Boo," she said as she led him out the front door of the trailer. The air outside shimmered with heat and the air conditioner chugged away in the window, dribbling water down the aluminum siding.
Lifting the lid of the rusty mailbox, Nikki pulled out a handful of circulars and bills. There, among them, she found a stale half-bagel with the words "b.u.t.ter me!" written on it in gel pen and the crumbly surface stamped with half a dozen stamps. She sighed. Renee"s crazy postcards had stopped making her laugh.
Boo hopped down the cement steps gingerly, paws smearing sour-cherry tree pulp and staining his feet purple. He paused when he hit their tiny patch of sun-withered lawn to lick one of the hairless scars along his back.
" Come on. on. I have to get ready for work." Nikki gave his collar a sharp tug. I have to get ready for work." Nikki gave his collar a sharp tug.
He yelped and she felt instantly terrible. He"d put on some weight since she"d found him, but he still was pretty easily freaked. She leaned down to pat the solid warmth of his back. His tail started going and he turned his ma.s.sive face and licked her cheek.
Of course that was the moment her neighbor, Trevor, drove up in his gleaming black truck. He parked in front of his trailer and hopped out, the plastic connective tissue of a six-pack threaded between his fingers. She admired the way the muscles on his back moved as he walked to the door of his place, making the raven tattoo on his shoulder ripple.
"Hey," she called, pushing Boo"s wet face away and standing up. Why did Trevor pick this moment to be around, when she was covered in dog drool, hair in tangles, wearing her brother"s gi-normous t-shirt? Even the thong on one of her flip-flops had ripped out so she shuffled to keep the sole on.
The dog raised his leg and p.i.s.sed on a dandelion just as Trevor turned around and gave her a negligent half-wave.
Boo rooted around for a few minutes more and then Nikki tugged him inside. She pulled on a pair of low-slung orange pants and a black T-shirt with the outline of a daschund on it. Busy thinking of Trevor, she stepped onto the asphalt of the self-service car wash-almost to the bus stop-before she realized she still wore her broken flip-flops.
Sighing, she started to wade through the streams of antifreeze-green cleanser and gobs of snowy foam bubbles. They mixed with the sour-cherry spatter that fell from the trees to make the summers smell like a chemical plant of rotten fruit.
There were only a couple of people waiting on the bench, the stink of exhaust from the highway not appearing to bother them one bit. Two women with oversized gla.s.ses were chatting away, their curled hair wilting in the heat. An elderly man in a black and white houndstooth suit leaned on a cane and grinned when she got closer.
Just then, Nikki"s brother Doug"s battered grey Honda pulled into the trailer park. He headed for the back-the best place to park even though you sometimes got a ticket. Her brother antic.i.p.ated a big winning in another month and seemed to think he was already made of money.
Nikki ran over to the car and rapped on the window.