"That"s for me to judge!"
"Of course. To me it seems that you only torment yourself." And then, to change the subject, she asked him if he had seen Henrietta Stackpole.
He looked as if he had not come from Boston to Florence to talk of Henrietta Stackpole; but he answered, distinctly enough, that this young lady had been with him just before he left America. "She came to see you?" Isabel then demanded.
"Yes, she was in Boston, and she called at my office. It was the day I had got your letter."
"Did you tell her?" Isabel asked with a certain anxiety.
"Oh no," said Caspar Goodwood simply; "I didn"t want to do that. She"ll hear it quick enough; she hears everything."
"I shall write to her, and then she"ll write to me and scold me," Isabel declared, trying to smile again.
Caspar, however, remained sternly grave. "I guess she"ll come right out," he said.
"On purpose to scold me?"
"I don"t know. She seemed to think she had not seen Europe thoroughly."
"I"m glad you tell me that," Isabel said. "I must prepare for her."
Mr. Goodwood fixed his eyes for a moment on the floor; then at last, raising them, "Does she know Mr. Osmond?" he enquired.
"A little. And she doesn"t like him. But of course I don"t marry to please Henrietta," she added. It would have been better for poor Caspar if she had tried a little more to gratify Miss Stackpole; but he didn"t say so; he only asked, presently, when her marriage would take place. To which she made answer that she didn"t know yet. "I can only say it will be soon. I"ve told no one but yourself and one other person--an old friend of Mr. Osmond"s."
"Is it a marriage your friends won"t like?" he demanded.
"I really haven"t an idea. As I say, I don"t marry for my friends."
He went on, making no exclamation, no comment, only asking questions, doing it quite without delicacy. "Who and what then is Mr. Gilbert Osmond?"
"Who and what? n.o.body and nothing but a very good and very honourable man. He"s not in business," said Isabel. "He"s not rich; he"s not known for anything in particular."
She disliked Mr. Goodwood"s questions, but she said to herself that she owed it to him to satisfy him as far as possible. The satisfaction poor Caspar exhibited was, however, small; he sat very upright, gazing at her. "Where does he come from? Where does he belong?"
She had never been so little pleased with the way he said "belawng." "He comes from nowhere. He has spent most of his life in Italy."
"You said in your letter he was American. Hasn"t he a native place?"
"Yes, but he has forgotten it. He left it as a small boy."
"Has he never gone back?"
"Why should he go back?" Isabel asked, flushing all defensively. "He has no profession."
"He might have gone back for his pleasure. Doesn"t he like the United States?"
"He doesn"t know them. Then he"s very quiet and very simple--he contents himself with Italy."
"With Italy and with you," said Mr. Goodwood with gloomy plainness and no appearance of trying to make an epigram. "What has he ever done?" he added abruptly.
"That I should marry him? Nothing at all," Isabel replied while her patience helped itself by turning a little to hardness. "If he had done great things would you forgive me any better? Give me up, Mr. Goodwood; I"m marrying a perfect nonent.i.ty. Don"t try to take an interest in him.
You can"t."
"I can"t appreciate him; that"s what you mean. And you don"t mean in the least that he"s a perfect nonent.i.ty. You think he"s grand, you think he"s great, though no one else thinks so."
Isabel"s colour deepened; she felt this really acute of her companion, and it was certainly a proof of the aid that pa.s.sion might render perceptions she had never taken for fine. "Why do you always comeback to what others think? I can"t discuss Mr. Osmond with you."
"Of course not," said Caspar reasonably. And he sat there with his air of stiff helplessness, as if not only this were true, but there were nothing else that they might discuss.
"You see how little you gain," she accordingly broke out--"how little comfort or satisfaction I can give you."
"I didn"t expect you to give me much."
"I don"t understand then why you came."
"I came because I wanted to see you once more--even just as you are."
"I appreciate that; but if you had waited a while, sooner or later we should have been sure to meet, and our meeting would have been pleasanter for each of us than this."
"Waited till after you"re married? That"s just what I didn"t want to do.
You"ll be different then."
"Not very. I shall still be a great friend of yours. You"ll see."
"That will make it all the worse," said Mr. Goodwood grimly.
"Ah, you"re unaccommodating! I can"t promise to dislike you in order to help you to resign yourself."
"I shouldn"t care if you did!"
Isabel got up with a movement of repressed impatience and walked to the window, where she remained a moment looking out. When she turned round her visitor was still motionless in his place. She came toward him again and stopped, resting her hand on the back of the chair she had just quitted. "Do you mean you came simply to look at me? That"s better for you perhaps than for me."
"I wished to hear the sound of your voice," he said.
"You"ve heard it, and you see it says nothing very sweet."
"It gives me pleasure, all the same." And with this he got up. She had felt pain and displeasure on receiving early that day the news he was in Florence and by her leave would come within an hour to see her. She had been vexed and distressed, though she had sent back word by his messenger that he might come when he would. She had not been better pleased when she saw him; his being there at all was so full of heavy implications. It implied things she could never a.s.sent to--rights, reproaches, remonstrance, rebuke, the expectation of making her change her purpose. These things, however, if implied, had not been expressed; and now our young lady, strangely enough, began to resent her visitor"s remarkable self-control. There was a dumb misery about him that irritated her; there was a manly staying of his hand that made her heart beat faster. She felt her agitation rising, and she said to herself that she was angry in the way a woman is angry when she has been in the wrong. She was not in the wrong; she had fortunately not that bitterness to swallow; but, all the same, she wished he would denounce her a little. She had wished his visit would be short; it had no purpose, no propriety; yet now that he seemed to be turning away she felt a sudden horror of his leaving her without uttering a word that would give her an opportunity to defend herself more than she had done in writing to him a month before, in a few carefully chosen words, to announce her engagement. If she were not in the wrong, however, why should she desire to defend herself? It was an excess of generosity on Isabel"s part to desire that Mr. Goodwood should be angry. And if he had not meanwhile held himself hard it might have made him so to hear the tone in which she suddenly exclaimed, as if she were accusing him of having accused her: "I"ve not deceived you! I was perfectly free!"
"Yes, I know that," said Caspar.
"I gave you full warning that I"d do as I chose."
"You said you"d probably never marry, and you said it with such a manner that I pretty well believed it."
She considered this an instant. "No one can be more surprised than myself at my present intention."
"You told me that if I heard you were engaged I was not to believe it," Caspar went on. "I heard it twenty days ago from yourself, but I remembered what you had said. I thought there might be some mistake, and that"s partly why I came."