"Yes, I know that you were expressly informed."
"But I hope I have not done any harm by my congratulations," he laughed. "And if Stepan Trofimovitch..."
"What, what"s the congratulation about?" Pyotr Stepanovitch suddenly skipped up to them. "What are you being congratulated about, Darya Pavlovna? Bah! Surely that"s not it? Your blush proves I"ve guessed right. And indeed, what else does one congratulate our charming and virtuous young ladies on? And what congratulations make them blush most readily? Well, accept mine too, then, if I"ve guessed right! And pay up. Do you remember when we were in Switzerland you bet you"d never be married.... Oh, yes, apropos of Switzerland-what am I thinking about? Only fancy, that"s half what I came about, and I was almost forgetting it. Tell me," he turned quickly to Stepan Trofimovitch, "when are you going to Switzerland?"
"I... to Switzerland?" Stepan Trofimovitch replied, wondering and confused.
"What? Aren"t you going? Why you"re getting married, too, you wrote?"
"Pierre!" cried Stepan Trofimovitch.
"Well, why Pierre?... You see, if that"ll please you, I"ve flown here to announce that I"m not at all against it, since you were set on having my opinion as quickly as possible; and if, indeed," he pattered on, "you want to "be saved," as you wrote, beseeching my help in the same letter, I am at your service again. Is it true that he is going to be married, Varvara Petrovna?" He turned quickly to her. "I hope I"m not being indiscreet; he writes himself that the whole town knows it and every one"s congratulating him, so that, to avoid it he only goes out at night. I"ve got his letters in my pocket. But would you believe it, Varvara Petrovna, I can"t make head or tail of it? Just tell me one thing, Stepan Trofimovitch, are you to be congratulated or are you to be "saved"? You wouldn"t believe it; in one line he"s despairing and in the next he"s most joyful. To begin with he begs my forgiveness; well, of course, that"s their way... though it must be said; fancy, the man"s only seen me twice in his life and then by accident. And suddenly now, when he"s going to be married for the third time, he imagines that this is a breach of some sort of parental duty to me, and entreats me a thousand miles away not to be angry and to allow him to. Please don"t be hurt, Stepan Trofimovitch. It"s characteristic of your generation, I take a broad view of it, and don"t blame you. And let"s admit it does you honour and all the rest. But the point is again that I don"t see the point of it. There"s something about some sort of "sins in Switzerland." "I"m getting married," he says, for my sins or on account of the "sins" of another," or whatever it is-"sins" anyway. "The girl," says he, "is a pearl and a diamond," and, well, of course, he"s "unworthy of her"; it"s their way of talking; but on account of some sins or circ.u.mstances "he is obliged to lead her to the altar, and go to Switzerland, and therefore abandon everything and fly to save me." Do you understand anything of all that? However... however, I notice from the expression of your faces"-(he turned about with the letter in his hand looking with an innocent smile into the faces of the company)-"that, as usual, I seem to have put my foot in it through my stupid way of being open, or, as Nikolay Vsyevolodovitch says, "being in a hurry." I thought, of course, that we were all friends here, that is, your friends, Stepan Trofimovitch, your friends. I am really a stranger, and I see... and I see that you all know something, and that just that something I don"t know." He still went on looking about him.
"So Stepan Trofimovitch wrote to you that he was getting married for the "sins of another committed in Switzerland," and that you were to fly here "to save him," in those very words?" said Varvara Petrovna, addressing him suddenly. Her face was yellow and distorted, and her lips were twitching.
"Well, you see, if there"s anything I"ve not understood," said Pyotr Stepanovitch, as though in alarm, talking more quickly than ever, "it"s his fault, of course, for writing like that. Here"s the letter. You know, Varvara Petrovna, his letters are endless and incessant, and, you know, for the last two or three months there has been letter upon letter, till, I must own, at last I sometimes didn"t read them through. Forgive me, Stepan Trofimovitch, for my foolish confession, but you must admit, please, that, though you addressed them to me, you wrote them more for posterity, so that you really can"t mind.... Come, come, don"t be offended; we"re friends, anyway. But this letter, Varvara Petrovna, this letter, I did read through. These "sins"-these "sins of another"-are probably some little sins of our own, and I don"t mind betting very innocent ones, though they have suddenly made us take a fancy to work up a terrible story, with a glamour of the heroic about it; and it"s just for the sake of that glamour we"ve got it up. You see there"s something a little lame about our accounts-it must be confessed, in the end. We"ve a great weakness for cards, you know.... But this is unnecessary, quite unnecessary, I"m sorry, I chatter too much. But upon my word, Varvara Petrovna, he gave me a fright, and I really was half prepared to save him. He really made me feel ashamed. Did he expect me to hold a knife to his throat, or what? Am I such a merciless creditor? He writes something here of a dowry.... But are you really going to get married, Stepan Trofimovitch? That would be just like you, to say a lot for the sake of talking. Ach, Varvara Petrovna, I"m sure you must be blaming me now, and just for my way of talking too...."
"On the contrary, on the contrary, I see that you are driven out of all patience, and, no doubt you have had good reason," Varvara Petrovna answered spitefully. She had listened with spiteful enjoyment to all the "candid outbursts" of Pyotr Stepanovitch, who was obviously playing a part (what part I did not know then, but it was unmistakable, and over-acted indeed).
"On the contrary," she went on, "I"m only too grateful to you for speaking; but for you I might not have known of it. My eyes are opened for the first time for twenty years. Nikolay Vsyevolodovitch, you said just now that you had been expressly informed; surely Stepan Trofimovitch hasn"t written to you in the same style?"
"I did get a very harmless and... and... very generous letter from him...."
"You hesitate, you pick out your words. That"s enough! Stepan Trofimovitch, I request a great favour from you." She suddenly turned to him with flashing eyes. "Kindly leave us at once, and never set foot in my house again."
I must beg the reader to remember her recent "exaltation," which had not yet pa.s.sed. It"s true that Stepan Trofimovitch was terribly to blame! But what was a complete surprise to me then was the wonderful dignity of his bearing under his son"s "accusation," which he had never thought of interrupting, and before Varvara Petrovna"s "denunciation." How did he come by such spirit? I only found out one thing, that he had certainly been deeply wounded at his first meeting with Petrusha, by the way he had embraced him. It was a deep and genuine grief; at least in his eyes and to his heart. He had another grief at the same time, that is the poignant consciousness of having acted contemptibly. He admitted this to me afterwards with perfect openness. And you know real genuine sorrow will sometimes make even a phenomenally frivolous, unstable man solid and stoical; for a short time at any rate; what"s more, even fools are by genuine sorrow turned into wise men, also only for a short time of course; it is characteristic of sorrow. And if so, what might not happen with a man like Stepan Trofimovitch? It worked a complete transformation-though also only for a time, of course.
He bowed with dignity to Varvara Petrovna without uttering a word (there was nothing else left for him to do, indeed). He was on the point of going out without a word, but could not refrain from approaching Darya Pavlovna. She seemed to foresee that he would do so, for she began speaking of her own accord herself, in utter dismay, as though in haste to antic.i.p.ate him.
"Please, Stepan Trofimovitch, for G.o.d"s sake, don"t say anything," she began, speaking with haste and excitement, with a look of pain in her face, hurriedly stretching out her hands to him. "Be sure that I still respect you as much... and think just as highly of you, and... think well of me too, Stepan Trofimovitch, that will mean a great deal to me, a great deal...."
Stepan Trofimovitch made her a very, very low bow.
"It"s for you to decide, Darya Pavlovna; you know that you are perfectly free in the whole matter! You have been, and you are now, and you always will be," Varvara Petrovna concluded impressively.
"Bah! Now I understand it all!" cried Pyotr Stepanovitch, slapping himself on the forehead. "But... but what a position I am put in by all this! Darya Pavlovna, please forgive me!... What do you call your treatment of me, eh?" he said, addressing his father.
"Pierre, you might speak to me differently, mightn"t you, my boy," Stepan Trofimovitch observed quite quietly.
"Don"t cry out, please," said Pierre, with a wave of his hand. "Believe me, it"s all your sick old nerves, and crying out will do no good at all. You"d better tell me instead, why didn"t you warn me since you might have supposed I should speak out at the first chance?"
Stepan Trofimovitch looked searchingly at him.
"Pierre, you who know so much of what goes on here, can you really have known nothing of this business and have heard nothing about it?"
"What? What a set! So it"s not enough to be a child in your old age, you must be a spiteful child too! Varvara Petrovna, did you hear what he said?"
There was a general outcry; but then suddenly an incident took place which no one could have antic.i.p.ated.
VIII First of all I must mention that, for the last two or three minutes Lizaveta Nikolaevna had seemed to be possessed by a new impulse; she was whispering something hurriedly to her mother, and to Mavriky Nikolaevitch, who bent down to listen. Her face was agitated, but at the same time it had a look of resolution. At last she got up from her seat in evident haste to go away, and hurried her mother whom Mavriky Nikolaevitch began helping up from her low chair. But it seemed they were not destined to get away without seeing everything to the end.
Shatov, who had been forgotten by every one in his corner (not far from Lizaveta Nikolaevna), and who did not seem to know himself why he went on sitting there, got up from his chair, and walked, without haste, with resolute steps right across the room to Nikolay Vsyevolodovitch, looking him straight in the face. The latter noticed him approaching at some distance, and faintly smiled, but when Shatov was close to him he left off smiling.
When Shatov stood still facing him with his eyes fixed on him, and without uttering a word, every one suddenly noticed it and there was a general hush; Pyotr Stepanovitch was the last to cease speaking. Liza and her mother were standing in the middle of the room. So pa.s.sed five seconds; the look of haughty astonishment was followed by one of anger on Nikolay Vsyevolodovitch"s face; he scowled....
And suddenly Shatov swung his long, heavy arm, and with all his might struck him a blow in the face. Nikolay Vsyevolodovitch staggered violently.
Shatov struck the blow in a peculiar way, not at all after the conventional fashion (if one may use such an expression). It was not a slap with the palm of his hand, but a blow with the whole fist, and it was a big, heavy, bony fist covered with red hairs and freckles. If the blow had struck the nose, it would have broken it. But it hit him on the cheek, and struck the left corner of the lip and the upper teeth, from which blood streamed at once.
I believe there was a sudden scream, perhaps Varvara Petrovna screamed-that I don"t remember, because there was a dead hush again; the whole scene did not last more than ten seconds, however.
Yet a very great deal happened in those seconds.
I must remind the reader again that Nikolay Vsyevolodovitch"s was one of those natures that know nothing of fear. At a duel he could face the pistol of his opponent with indifference, and could take aim and kill with brutal coolness. If anyone had slapped him in the face, I should have expected him not to challenge his a.s.sailant to a duel, but to murder him on the spot. He was just one of those characters, and would have killed the man, knowing very well what he was doing, and without losing his self-control. I fancy, indeed, that he never was liable to those fits of blind rage which deprive a man of all power of reflection. Even when overcome with intense anger, as he sometimes was, he was always able to retain complete self-control, and therefore to realise that he would certainly be sent to penal servitude for murdering a man not in a duel; nevertheless, he"d have killed any one who insulted him, and without the faintest hesitation.
I have been studying Nikolay Vsyevolodovitch of late, and through special circ.u.mstances I know a great many facts about him now, at the time I write. I should compare him, perhaps, with some gentlemen of the past of whom legendary traditions are still perceived among us. We are told, for instance, about the Decabrist L-n, that he was always seeking for danger, that he revelled in the sensation, and that it had become a craving of his nature; that in his youth he had rushed into duels for nothing; that in Siberia he used to go to kill bears with nothing but a knife; that in the Siberian forests he liked to meet with runaway convicts, who are, I may observe in pa.s.sing, more formidable than bears. There is no doubt that these legendary gentlemen were capable of a feeling of fear, and even to an extreme degree, perhaps, or they would have been a great deal quieter, and a sense of danger would never have become a physical craving with them. But the conquest of fear was what fascinated them. The continual ecstasy of vanquishing and the consciousness that no one could vanquish them was what attracted them. The same L--n struggled with hunger for some time before he was sent into exile, and toiled to earn his daily bread simply because he did not care to comply with the requests of his rich father, which he considered unjust. So his conception of struggle was many-sided, and he did not prize stoicism and strength of character only in duels and bear-fights.
But many years have pa.s.sed since those times, and the nervous, exhausted, complex character of the men of to-day is incompatible with the craving for those direct and unmixed sensations which were so sought after by some restlessly active gentlemen of the good old days. Nikolay Vsyevolodovitch would, perhaps, have looked down on L-n, and have called him a boastful c.o.c.k-a-hoop coward; it"s true he wouldn"t have expressed himself aloud. Stavrogin would have shot his opponent in a duel, and would have faced a bear if necessary, and would have defended himself from a brigand in the forest as successfully and as fearlessly as L-n, but it would be without the slightest thrill of enjoyment, languidly, listlessly, even with ennui and entirely from unpleasant necessity. In anger, of course, there has been a progress compared with L-n, even compared with Lermontov. There was perhaps more malignant anger in Nikolay Vsyevolodovitch than in both put together, but it was a calm, cold, if one may so say, reasonable anger, and therefore the most revolting and most terrible possible. I repeat again, I considered him then, and I still consider him (now that everything is over), a man who, if he received a slap in the face, or any equivalent insult, would be certain to kill his a.s.sailant at once, on the spot, without challenging him.
Yet, in the present case, what happened was something different and amazing.
He had scarcely regained his balance after being almost knocked over in this humiliating way, and the horrible, as it were, sodden, thud of the blow in the face had scarcely died away in the room when he seized Shatov by the shoulders with both hands, but at once, almost at the same instant, pulled both hands away and clasped them behind his back. He did not speak, but looked at Shatov, and turned as white as his shirt. But, strange to say, the light in his eyes seemed to die out. Ten seconds later his eyes looked cold, and I"m sure I"m not lying-calm. Only he was terribly pale. Of course I don"t know what was pa.s.sing within the man, I saw only his exterior. It seems to me that if a man should s.n.a.t.c.h up a bar of red-hot iron and hold it tight in his hand to test his fort.i.tude, and after struggling for ten seconds with insufferable pain end by overcoming it, such a man would, I fancy, go through something like what Nikolay Vsyevolodovitch was enduring during those ten seconds.
Shatov was the first to drop his eyes, and evidently because he was unable to go on facing him; then he turned slowly and walked out of the room, but with a very different step. He withdrew quietly, with peculiar awkwardness, with his shoulders hunched, his head hanging as though he were inwardly pondering something. I believe he was whispering something. He made his way to the door carefully, without stumbling against anything or knocking anything over; he opened the door a very little way, and squeezed through almost sideways. As he went out his shock of hair standing on end at the back of his head was particularly noticeable.
Then first of all one fearful scream was heard. I saw Lizaveta Nikolaevna seize her mother by the shoulder and Mavriky Nikolaevitch by the arm and make two or three violent efforts to draw them out of the room. But she suddenly uttered a shriek, and fell full length on the floor, fainting. I can hear the thud of her head on the carpet to this day.
PART II
CHAPTER I. NIGHT
EIGHT DAYS HAD Pa.s.sED. Now that it is all over and I am writing a record of it, we know all about it; but at the time we knew nothing, and it was natural that many things should seem strange to us: Stepan Trofimovitch and I, anyway, shut ourselves up for the first part of the time, and looked on with dismay from a distance. I did, indeed, go about here and there, and, as before, brought him various items of news, without which he could not exist.
I need hardly say that there were rumours of the most varied kind going about the town in regard to the blow that Stavrogin had received, Lizaveta Nikolaevna"s fainting fit, and all that happened on that Sunday. But what we wondered was, through whom the story had got about so quickly and so accurately. Not one of the persons present had any need to give away the secret of what had happened, or interest to serve by doing so.
The servants had not been present. Lebyadkin was the only one who might have chattered, not so much from spite, for he had gone out in great alarm (and fear of an enemy destroys spite against him), but simply from incontinence of speech. But Lebyadkin and his sister had disappeared next day, and nothing could be heard of them. There was no trace of them at Filipov"s house, they had moved, no one knew where, and seemed to have vanished. Shatov, of whom I wanted to inquire about Marya Timofyevna, would not open his door, and I believe sat locked up in his room for the whole of those eight days, even discontinuing his work in the town. He would not see me. I went to see him on Tuesday and knocked at his door. I got no answer, but being convinced by unmistakable evidence that he was at home, I knocked a second time. Then, jumping up, apparently from his bed, he strode to the door and shouted at the top of his voice:
"Shatov is not at home!"
With that I went away.