"Much more convenient," echoed Rose sharply. "And you have known this all the time, and not----" she broke off, as if incredulous of her own half-uttered thought.
"Certainly, I have known it, and we would have kept the secret too, Fitzgerald and I, but for this unfortunate business," he retorted, and his tone was not pleasant.
"Ah! _he_ is different; _he_ did not know! _he_ thought George had done it for his sake, to screen him. But you? What did you believe?" The girl"s very voice was a challenge.
"I must say, Miss Tweedie, that I scarcely see how my belief affects the question; or, pardon me, what it matters to you," he replied, taking refuge once more in his indifference.
"Do you not? Then I do. Not that it matters now," she added in sudden pa.s.sion, "for I will have my own way in the future. If you won"t help me, I can"t help that; but I will have the truth. I will go down to this woman in the bazaar and make her tell me. Whether her story is a lie or not, there shall be no more concealment. I will not have it."
"And George Keene"s memory?" he suggested, angered almost beyond his self-control by her unmistakable defiance. "My advice is unwelcome, of course, but if you took it, and Mrs. Boynton"s--only that is unwelcome too--you might save all scandal. I cannot say for certain that it would, but as I have told you, I would do my best. Officially even, I would do my best. That seems to be an offence also, for some reason, but I would do it as much for the sake of the Department as for the boy"s. You--I know--think only of him----"
She turned upon him like lightening, carried out of herself by her scorn, by her pa.s.sion.
"Of him! I was not thinking of him at all! I was thinking of you--of you only, as I always do. Why should you not know the truth? You will not care a pin whether I think of you or not. And I? I care for nothing--nothing so long as you do not blindfold yourself wilfully--so long as you are just and honest. Ah! you may think I am mad--perhaps if what you believe about men and women is true, I am--but it means everything--everything in the world to me that you should be so--just and honest; because what you are is more to me than all the world beside. That is the truth." The last words came slowly as the fire of her pa.s.sion died down; yet there was no uncertainty in them. "I suppose I oughtn"t to have said this," she went on, turning from him to lean her elbows on the table, and rest her head on her hands wearily. "But you won"t mind, and I don"t care. It can"t hurt any man to know that he is loved--it can"t."
"_Loved!_" The word sent a thrill through the man such as he had never felt before. "_Loved!_" was that what she meant? The thought broke through even his armour of surprise. He stood for an instant looking down at her, then turned slowly and walked to the window, to return, however, in a second, with quick clear steps breaking the silence of the room.
"What do you mean!--I can"t believe it. What do you mean?"
His impatience would not wait for a reply in words. Her face would give it truly, that he knew, and he stooped over her, taking her by the wrists, in order to draw her hands apart. She turned to him then bravely enough.
"Rose!"
It was almost a cry, as, stooping lower still, he knelt before her, his eyes on hers incredulous, yet soft. Then suddenly, still clasping her slender wrists, he buried his face upon them on her lap, muttering--
"Oh, I am sorry!--I am sorry!"
Never since, as a child, he had said his prayers at his mother"s knee, had Lewis Gordon so knelt to man or woman. And something of the child"s unquestioning belief in an unselfish love came back to him, joined to a perfect pa.s.sion of the man"s clear-sighted remorse and regret for long years of past disbelief.
"Don"t," she said, gently bending over him; "please don"t. There is nothing for you to be sorry about--indeed, there isn"t."
Nothing to be sorry about! Once more he echoed this girl"s words to himself with that strange thrill, as, recovering his self-command, he stood straight and stiff beside her, conscious only of one vehement desire to care for and to protect her.
"What is it you want me to do?" he said at last unsteadily. "Tell me, and I"ll do it."
Then, woman-like, she began to cry; it is a way the good ones have when they succeed in imposing their own will on those they love.
"I don"t think I want you to do anything--particular," she answered, trying to conceal her tears. "I don"t know; besides, I would much rather you did it your own way."
If the uttermost truth could be told about a man"s emotion in such scenes, as it can be regarding a woman"s, it would have to be confessed that Lewis Gordon came very near to crying also over this foolish unconditional surrender on Rose Tweedie"s part. For he understood the irresolution of a generous nature before its own success, and what is more, the woman"s desire to give the man she loves the glory of justifying her belief in him. He felt quite a lump in his throat, and had to seek escape from the tenderness of one s.e.x in the decision of the other; for in nine cases out of ten these are but different methods of showing the same emotion.
"I will go down and see this woman to-day; and then----" He paused, not in order to think over his next move--that undoubtedly would be to see Gwen Boynton--but to overcome a dislike to mentioning her name at all which suddenly a.s.sailed him. Why, he scarcely knew, except that it seemed mean, unmanly. Rose, however, saved him from the necessity by again repeating--this time almost abjectly--that she would rather not know; that she would be quite content to leave the matter in his hands.
"Thank you," replied Lewis, in such a very low tone that it was almost a whisper. It did not lead, however, as might have been expected, to a silence, but to a louder, more aggressive grat.i.tude. "I have to thank you--for many things. I won"t affect to ignore or set aside what--what you did me the honour of telling me just now. That would be sheer impertinence on my----"
Now, when he had got so far in a perfectly admirable sentiment, calculated to soothe both her feelings and his, why he should suddenly have found his hands in hers again, his heart full of an unpremeditated a.s.sertion that he was glad she loved him, cannot be explained logically; but so it was. Yet before the scared look in her eyes his own fell, he loosened his clasp, and the appeal died from his lips.
There was no place for him or his questionings in her avowal. That hedged itself about from intrusion with a dignity he recognised. So what remained, save to pa.s.s on with as much of the same quality as he could compa.s.s to the work a.s.signed to him.
"I will come in and tell you what I have done this afternoon about five o"clock," he said quietly; "that is, if it is convenient."
"Quite, thank you."
The baldest, most conventional of tones on both sides. The baldest, most convenient holding open of the door for her to pa.s.s out--to pa.s.s out from a scene that would linger in his memory; in nothing else. The descent to normal diapason comes sooner or later, no matter how highly strung the instrument may be to begin with, and melodrama fades into padding. In real life it generally leaves some of the actors dissatisfied with the way the scene has played. Lewis Gordon felt this distinctly as he was left looking at his own chair, as if he still saw a girl"s figure seated there, her elbows resting on the litter of official papers, and the great coils of her burnished hair showing beyond the hands which hid her face.
"It can"t hurt any man to know that he is loved."
She had said so; but she was wrong. It did hurt confoundedly. So that was what she meant by love, was it?----
If any of the trivial interruptions which Lewis Gordon so much dreaded had come during the following five minutes, they would have found the coveted chair vacant, though the owner"s face was buried in his hands among the files of memorandums and reports. Apparently he gained little consolation from them, for when he resumed work he looked about as upset and disordered as a tidy man can do when he is cool and properly clothed. Nor did they gain much from him during the next hour, which ticked away remorselessly from the chronometer by which Lewis loved to map out his day. He thrust them aside at last impatiently, and ordered his pony, thinking that may be when he had been through that visit to the bazaar he might feel less of a fool, and not quite so much depolarised. And yet she had said there was nothing to regret,--that he would not care,--that it would not matter to him if she thought of him or not!
It was a queer world! He set his teeth over it as he rode reluctantly between the shingled arcades of the big bazaar, and then through a narrow paved alley, pitching, as it were, sheer down into the blue mists of the valley below; and so on to the balconied house where, from inquiries at the Kotwali, he learned that Chandni was lodging. The task before him was a disagreeable one, and he swore inwardly as he thought that but for his abject capitulation Rose would have attempted it herself. Rose! of all people. He began to understand that the feminine world could not be divided into two cla.s.ses, since there was a third composed of one specimen. As he went on into the house the very cleanliness and order, contrasting so sharply with the dirt of surrounding respectability, struck him offensively on the girl"s behalf, the giggling in the lower storey gave him a vicarious shock, and the obsequiousness of his introduction into the higher one, where Chandni sat secluded, actually made his cheek burn.
"It can"t hurt any man to know that he is loved."
He set aside the haunting words angrily, and began his task so soon as the patchwork drapery at the door fell behind him, leaving him face to face with white-robed salaaming grace.
"See here, my sister, this is for the truth. "Tis not often thy sort are asked for it; but I ask nothing else. I will take nothing else."
Checked thus in her languid welcome to the unknown guest, Chandni looked distastefully at the hundred-rupee note thrust into her hand, then at the giver; though both were to her liking. The latter she recognised instantly, having seen him among the party at Hodinuggur. So her seed of slander had taken root already.
"My lord shall have that which he requires, surely. Wherefore else are there such as I?"
The cynical truth of her answer showed him her wit at once, and he acknowledged it frankly when, half an hour afterwards, he felt himself baffled by the calm simplicity of her story. Most of it he had already heard, and the rest showed still more unpleasant details to have raked up should the worst come to the worst. Azizan, he was told, had been a palace lady, with whom George had had clandestine meetings, over which he had first become mixed up with the intrigues about the water. The key of the sluice had been sent from Simla, whether by the Mem or the Miss, or the sahib himself, Chandni did not know, could not say. Was she not telling the Huzoor the bare truth she knew to be true, and nothing else?
"And how much do you want to keep all this quiet?" he asked calmly, when she had finished. It was as well to know her price, at any rate.
For an instant the immediate temptation to take the bird in the hand made the courtesan hesitate. Then she struck boldly for higher game.
"The pearls, Huzoor! The pearls, or my revenge!" This man, with the cool, refined face and the contempt which made her involuntarily remember the Miss sahib"s also, affected indifference now, and would most likely offer her some paltry sum. She could afford to wait for the change which was sure to come; for she was not in the least afraid of anything Lewis could do, and, without being absolutely insolent, took care to show him the fact as she lolled about at her ease, chewing betel ostentatiously. She had nothing to gain here by affecting delicacy, so he might see her at her coa.r.s.est and worst; it contrasted better with his brains.
The result being that Lewis Gordon came into Gwen"s Boynton"s drawing-room for his next interview looking depressed; partly because he had been riding through a tepid shower-bath. For recurring rain had washed away the bright promises of the morning and was falling drearily over the rank, dank gra.s.ses and beating down the fringes of delicate ferns growing upon the dripping branches of the oak trees, until they lost shape and became nothing but a green outline against the grey mist.
Within, however, by the light of a blazing pine-wood fire, Mrs. Boynton looked bright yet soft, like a pastel painting, or a figure seen in a looking-gla.s.s; for she soon recovered from her emotions, and took pains to hide their effects even from herself. So the fact that she had lain awake half the night wondering if by chance Chandni"s impudent lies had been prompted by any flaw in the chain-armour of security which George and the flood had forged for her, did not show in her face. For they were lies; even that tale of the dear lad"s death, which had given her such a shock at the time, was nothing but the vile woman"s wicked, cruel invention. Rose had evidently heard nothing and still knew nothing of it; besides, Dan did not know, and even if he had wished to keep the pain of such knowledge from her, Lewis, with his jealous blame, would have been sure to point a moral; a pointless moral at best, since George could have had no cause for despair. Had not the flood come to end even his anxiety? unless, indeed, there was any truth in the tale about the portrait. Yet why should truth be supposed in one incident when causeless wicked lying was evident in all the others? No; it was an impudent attempt at extortion, and must be met by denial.
Therein lay safety, both for her and for poor George Keene"s memory, since the conspirators would never face the evidence of those papers which they knew she held. So, as her cousin came in she greeted him with a smile changing to sweet concern at his ill looks.
"I have a headache," he replied curtly. "No wonder; the smells and general abominations of the bazaar are enough to kill one, and I had to go down there. Besides, I"m damp, and I"ve had no lunch. Isn"t that a long enough catalogue of ills? No, thanks; don"t order anything for me.
I"d rather have a cup of tea by and by."
It was the worst thing for him, he knew that. Nothing but a quiet cigar and a man"s drink would have restored his balance. But he told himself captiously that he had been in a melodramatic atmosphere all the morning, and might as well go through with it to the bitter end. He felt demoralised, and so, almost out of contrariety, put himself at a further disadvantage by rushing at his fence.
"Gwen," he began abruptly, "I"ve come to ask you for the truth." He did not hand her a bank-note as he had to the other woman; yet the thought had crossed his mind bitterly that one of sufficient value might be useful. He had set it aside, of course, as utterly unworthy since, in common justice, he had no more right to prejudge Gwen"s implication than he had to prejudge Rose Tweedie"s. There was, no doubt, the fact of George Keene"s suicide against the one; but that was no new thing.
She had been judged on that count before, and he had decided to save her from the pain of knowing it; to that decision, also, he meant to keep if it were possible.
Gwen"s heart gave a great throb; she understood in an instant that the crisis had come sooner than she expected. Yet she was prepared for it.
"I suppose Rose Tweedie"--she began coldly.
"Yes; Rose Tweedie asked my advice, and I"ve been down to that woman in the bazaar. She sticks to her story. So now I have come to you----"