The May evening was delicious in its balmy air and the deepening purple of its twilight haze. The spirit of the springtime, wooing in its tone of softest music, voiced a message to the sons and daughters of men.
Marjie came out at sunset and slowly took her way through the sweetness of it all up to the "Rockport" of our childhood, the trysting place of our days of love"s young dream. Her fair face had a womanly strength and tenderness now, and her form an added grace over the curves of girlhood.
But her hair still rippled about her brow and coiled in the same soft folds of brown at the back of her head. Her cheeks had still the pink of the wild rose bloom, and the dainty neatness in dress was as of old.
She came to the rock beyond the bushes and sat down alone looking dreamily out over the Neosho Valley.
"You"ll go to prayer meeting, Phil?" Aunt Candace asked at supper.
"Yes, but I believe I"ll go down the street first. Save a place for me.
I want to see Dr. Hemingway next to you of all Springvale." Which was my second falsehood for that day. I needed prayer meeting.
The sunset hour was more than I could withstand. All the afternoon I had been subconsciously saying that I must keep close to the realities.
These were all that counted now. And yet when the evening came, all the past swept my soul and bore every resolve before it. I did not stop to ask myself any questions. I only knew that, lonely as it must be, I must go now to "Rockport" as I had done so many times in the old happy past, a past I was already beginning numbly to feel was dead and gone forever.
And yet my step was firm and my head erect, as with eager tread I came to the bushes guarding our old happy playground. I only wanted to see it once more, that was all.
The limp had gone from my foot. It was intermittent in the earlier years. I was combed and groomed again for social appearing. Aunt Candace had hung about my tie and the set of my coat, and for my old army head-gear she had resurrected the jaunty cap I had worn home from Ma.s.sachusetts. With my hands in my pockets, whistling softly to abstract my thoughts, I slipped through the bushes and stood once more on "Rockport."
And there was Marjie, still looking dreamily out over the valley. She had not heard my step, so far away were her thoughts. And the picture, as I stood a moment looking at her--will the world to come hold anything more fair, I wondered. It was years ago, I know, but so clearly I recall it now it could have been a dream of yesterday. Before me were the gray rock, the dark-green valley, the gleaming waters of the Neosho, the silvery mist on the farther bluff iridescent with the pink tints of sunset reflected on the eastern sky, the quiet loveliness of the May twilight, and Marjie, beautiful with a girlish winsomeness, a woman"s grace, a Madonna"s tenderness.
"Were you waiting for me, dearie? I am a little late, but I am here at last."
I spoke softly, and she turned quickly at the sound of my voice. A look of dazed surprise as she leaped to her feet, and then the reality dawned upon her.
"Come, sweetheart," I said. "I have been away so long, I"m hungering for your welcome."
I held out my hands to her. Her face was very white as she made one step toward me, and then the love-light filled her brown eyes, the glorious beauty of the pink blossoms swept her cheek. I put my arms around her and drew her close to me, my own little girl, whom I had loved and thought I had lost forever.
"Oh, Phil, Phil, are you here again? Are you--" she put her little hand against my hair curling rebelliously over my cap"s brim. "Are you mine once more?"
"Am I, Marjie? Six feet of me has come back; but, little girl, I have never been away. I have never let you go out of my life. It was only the mechanical action that went away. Phil Baronet stayed here! Oh, I know it now--I was acting out there; I was really living here with you, my Marjie, my own."
I held her in my arms as I spoke, and we looked out at the sweet sunset prairie. The big cottonwood, shapely as ever, was outlined against the horizon, which was illumined now with all the gorgeous grandeur of the May evening. The level rays of golden light fell on us, as we stood there, baptizing us with its splendor.
"Oh, Marjie, it was worth all the suffering and danger to have such a home-coming as this!" I kissed her lips and pushed back the little ringlets from her white forehead.
"It is vouchsafed to a man sometimes to know a bit of heaven here on earth," Father Le Claire had said to me out on this rock six years before. It was a bit of heaven that came down to me in the purple twilight of that May evening, and I lifted my face to the opal skies above me with a prayer of thankfulness for the love that was mine once more. In that hour of happiness we forgot that there was ever a storm cloud to darken the blue heavens, or ever a grief or a sin to mar the joy of living. We were young, and we were together. Over the valley swept the sweet tones of the Presbyterian Church bell. Marjie"s face, radiant with light, was lifted to mine.
"I must go to prayer meeting, Phil. I shall see you again--to-morrow?"
She put the question hesitatingly, even longingly.
"Yes, and to-night. Let"s go together. I haven"t been to prayer meeting regularly. We lost out on that on the Staked Plains."
"I must run home and comb my hair," she declared; and indeed it was a little tumbled. But from the night I first saw her, a little girl in her father"s moving-wagon, with her pink sun-bonnet pushed back from her blowsy curls, her hair, however rebellious, was always a picture.
"Go ahead, little girl. I will run home, too. I forgot something. I will be down right away."
Going home, I may have walked on Cliff Street, but my head was in the clouds, and all the songs that the morning-stars sing together--all the music of the spheres--was playing itself out for me in the shadowy twilight as I went along.
At the gate Aunt Candace and my father were waiting for me.
"You needn"t wait," I cried. "I will be there presently."
"Oh, joined the regular army this time," my father said, smiling. "Sorry we can"t keep you, Phil." But I gave no heed to him.
"Aunt Candace," I said in a low voice. "May I see you just a minute? I want to get something."
"It"s in the top drawer in my room, Phil. The key is in the little tray on my dresser," Aunt Candace said quietly. She always understood me.
When I reached the Whately home, Marjie was waiting for me at the gate.
I took her little hand in my own strong big one.
"Will you wear it again for me, dearie?" I asked, holding up my mother"s ring before her.
"Always and always, Phil," she murmured.
Isn"t it Longfellow who speaks of "the lovely stars, the forget-me-nots of the angels," blossoming "in the infinite meadows of heaven"? They were all a-bloom that May night, and dewy and sweet lay the earth beneath them. We were a little late to prayer meeting. The choir was in its place and the audience was gathered in the pews. Judge Baronet always sat near the front, and my place was between him and Aunt Candace when I wasn"t in the choir. Bess Anderson was just finishing a voluntary as we two went up the aisle together. I hadn"t thought of making a sensation, I thought only of Marjie. Pa.s.sing around the end of the chancel rail I gently led her by the arm up the three steps to the choir place, and turning, faced all the town as I went to my seat beside my father. I was as happy as a lover can be; but I didn"t know how much of all this was written on my countenance, nor did I notice the intense hush that fell on the company. I had faced the oncoming of Roman Nose and his thousand Cheyenne warriors; there was no reason why I should feel embarra.s.sed in a prayer meeting in the Presbyterian Church at Springvale. The service was short. I remember not one word of it except the scripture lesson. That was the Twenty-third Psalm:
The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures; He leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul; He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for His name"s sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for Thou art with me.
These words had sounded in my ears on the night before the battle on the Arickaree, and again in the little cove on the low bluff at Fort Sill, the night Jean Pahusca was taunting me through the few minutes he was allowing me to live. That Psalm belonged to the days when I was doing my part toward the price paid out for the prairie homes and safety and peace. But never anybody read for me as Dr. Hemingway read it that evening. With the close of the service came a prayer of thanksgiving for my return. Then for the first time I was self-conscious. What had I done to be so lovingly and reverently welcomed home? I bowed my head in deep humility, and the tears welled up. Oh, I could look death calmly between the eyes as I had watched it creeping toward me on the heated Plains of the Arickaree, and among the cold starved sand dunes of the Cimarron, but to be lauded as a hero here in Springvale--the tears would come.
Where were Custer, and Moore, and Forsyth, and Pliley, and Stillwell, and Morton, if such as I be called a hero?
Cam Gentry didn"t lead the Doxology that night, he chased it clear into the belfry and up into the very top of the steeple; and his closing burst of melody "Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost," had, as Bill Mead declared afterwards, a regular "You-couldn"t-have-done-it-better-Lord-if-you-had-been-there-yourself"
ring to it.
Then came the benediction, fervent, holy, gentle, with Dr. Hemingway"s white face (crowned now with snowy hair) lifted up toward heaven. After that I never could remember, save that there was a hush, then a clamor, that was followed pretty soon by embraces from the older men and women, pounding thumps from the younger men and handshaking with the girls. And all the while, with a proprietary sense I had found myself near Marjie, whom I kept close beside me now, her brown head just above my shoulder.
More than once in the decades since then it has been my fortune to return to Springvale and be met at the railway station and escorted home by the town band. Sometimes for political service, sometimes for civic effort, and once because by physical strength and great daring and quick cool courage I saved three human lives in a terrible wreck; but never any ovation was like that prayer meeting in the Presbyterian Church nearly forty years ago.
The days that followed my home-coming were busy ones, for my place in the office had been vacant. Clayton Anderson had devoted himself to the Whately affairs, although n.o.body but those in the secret knew when Judson gave up proprietorship and went on a clerk"s pay again where he belonged. Springvale was kind to Judson, as it has always been to the man who tries honestly to make good in this life"s struggle. It is in the Kansas air, this broader charity, this estimation of character, redeemed or redeemable.
My father did not tell me of his part in the Whately business affairs at once, and I did not understand when, one evening, some time later, Aunt Candace said at the supper table:
"Dollie Gentry tells me Dr. John (so we called John Anderson now), reports a twelve-pound boy over at Judsons". They are going to christen him "John Baronet Judson." Aren"t you proud of the name, John?"
"I am of the Judson part," my father answered, with that compression of the lips that sometimes kept back a smile, and sometimes marked a growing sternness.
I met O"mie at Topeka and brought him to Springvale. It was not until in May of the next year that he went away from us and came not back any more, save in loving remembrance.
In August Tillhurst went East. Somehow I was not at all surprised when the Rockport, Ma.s.sachusetts, weekly newspaper, that had come to our house every Tuesday while we had lived on Cliff Street, contained the notice of the marriage of Richard Tillhurst and Rachel Agnes Melrose.
The happy couple, the paper said, would reside in Rockport.
"They may reside at the bottom of the sea for all that I care," I said thoughtlessly, not understanding then the shadow that fell for the moment on my aunt"s serene face.
Long afterwards when she slept beside my father in the quiet Springvale cemetery on the bluff beyond Fingal"s Creek, I found among her letters the romance of her life. I knew then for the first time that Rachel"s uncle, the Ferdinand Melrose whose life was lost at sea, was the one for whom this brave kind woman had mourned. Loving as the Baronets do, even unto death, she had gone down the lonely years, forgetting herself in the broad, beautiful, unselfish life she gave to those about her.