"When is the time it is harvested and fit to be carried round?" inquired I.
"It is now turning fast," said she; "all that you see hanging in the drying sheds has been already drawn; in three or four weeks it will be housed, and then we begin to pack: in about two months from this the sloop will take it round."
"But is it not expensive keeping a sloop on purpose, with men to have her in charge?" inquired I, to hear what she would say.
"The sloop lies at anchor, without a soul on board," said she. "No one ever comes up this river. I believe Captain Smith, who made the settlement, did so once. There is another river, about twenty miles further down, which is occasionally frequented by buccaneers, I am told--indeed, I know it, for my husband had more to do with them than perhaps was good for his soul, but this little river is never visited."
"Then your servants take her round?"
"Yes; I leave one in charge, and take two with me."
"But you have but two."
"Not till you came--one died; but now I have three," and she smiled at me again.
If I had not been so afraid of affronting her, I certainly would have said to her, "Do anything, I beg, but smile."
I said no more on that point. She called Jeykell, who was in the tobacco-shed, and desired him to kill a couple of chickens, and bring them in. We then entered the cabin, and she observed--"I don"t doubt but you are tired with so much fatigue; you look so; go and sleep on one of their beds; you shall have one for yourself by night."
I was not sorry to do as she proposed, for I was tired out. I lay down, and I did not wake till she called me and told me that dinner was ready.
I was quite ready for that also, and I sat down with her, but the two convict servants did not. She ate in proportion to her size, and that is saying enough. After dinner she left me, and went with her two men on her farming avocations, and I was for a long while cogitating on what had pa.s.sed. I perceived that I was completely in her power, and that it was only by obtaining her good-will that I had any chance of getting away, and I made up my mind to act accordingly. I found a comfortable bed, of the husks of Indian corn, prepared for me at night, in an ante-room where the two servant-men slept. It was a luxury that I had not enjoyed for a long while. For several days I remained very quiet, and apparently very contented. My mistress gave me no hard work, chiefly sending me on messages or taking me out with her. She made the distinction between me and the convicts that I always took my meals with her and they did not. In short, I was treated as a friend and visitor more than anything else, and had I not been so anxious about going to England, I certainly had no reason to complain except of my detention, and this, it was evident, it was not in her power to prevent, as, until the sloop went away with the tobacco, she had no means of sending me away. One day, however, as I was walking past the tobacco-shed, I heard my name mentioned by the two convicts, and stopping I heard James say:
"Depend upon it, that"s what she"s after, Jeykell; and he is to be our master, whether he likes it or not."
"Well, I shouldn"t wonder," replied the other; "she does make pure love to him, that"s certain."
"Very true; everything"s fierce with her--even love--and so he"ll find it if he don"t fancy her."
"Yes, indeed:--well, I"d rather serve another ten years than she should fall in love with me."
"And if I had my choice, whether to be her husband or to swing, I should take the cord in preference."
"Well, I pity him from my heart; for he is a good youth and a fair-spoken and a handsome, too; and I"m sure that he has no idea of his unfortunate situation."
"No idea, indeed," said I to myself, as I walked away. "Merciful Heaven! Is it possible!" And when I thought over her conduct, and what had pa.s.sed between us, I perceived not only that the convicts were right in their supposition, but that I had, by wishing to make myself agreeable to her, even a.s.sisted in bringing affairs to this crisis.
That very day she had said to me: "I was very young when I married, only fourteen, and I lived with my husband nine years. He is dead more than a year now."
When she said that, which she did at dinner, while she was clawing the flesh off a wild turkey, there was something so ridiculous in that feminine confession, coming from such a masculine mouth, that I felt very much inclined to laugh, but I replied:
"You are a young widow, and ought to think of another husband."
Again, when she said, "If ever I marry again, it shall not be a man who has been burnt on the hand. No, no, my husband shall be able to open both hands and show them."
I replied, "You are right there. I would never disgrace myself by marrying a convict."
When I thought of these and many other conversations which had pa.s.sed between us, I had no doubt, in my own mind, but that the convicts were correct in their suppositions, and I was disgusted at my own blindness.
"At all events," said I to myself, after a long cogitation, "if she wants to marry me, she must go to James Town for a parson, and if I once get there, I will contrive, as soon as extra constables are sworn in, to break off the match." But, seriously, I was in an awkward plight.
There was something in that woman that was awful, and I could imagine her revenge to be most deadly. I thought the old Indian squaw to be bad enough, but this new mistress was a thousand times worse. What a hard fate, I thought, was mine, that I should be thus forced to marry against my will, and be separated from her whom I adored. I was a long while turning over the matter in my mind, and at last I resolved that I would make no alteration in my behaviour, but behave to her as before, and that if the affair was precipitated by my mistress, that I would be off to the woods, and take my chance of wild beasts and wild Indians, rather than consent to her wishes. I then went into the cabin, where I found her alone.
"Alexander," said she (she would know my Christian name, and called me by it), "they say widows court the men, and that they are privileged to do so," (I turned pale, for I little thought that there was to be an explanation so soon;) "at all events, whether they are or not, I know that a woman in my position cannot well expect a young man in yours to venture without encouragement. Now, Alexander, I have long perceived your feelings and your wishes, and I have only to say that mine are such as yours," (oh, I wish they were, thought I), "and therefore you have but to ask and to have."
I was mute with fear and despair, and could not find a reply to make to her.
"Why do you not answer, Alexander? Do you think me too forward?"
"No," stammered I; "you are very kind, but this is so unexpected--so unlooked for--so unhoped for--I am so overcome."
Observe, Madam, how strangely the s.e.xes were changed. I was the woman in this instance.
"I should like to consult my friends."
"Consult your fiddlesticks," replied she, quickly. "Who have you got to consult? I hope, Alexander," said she, setting her broad teeth together, "that you are not trifling with me?"
"Indeed, I never should think of trifling with your mistress," replied I. "I feel much obliged to you for showing such a preference for me."
"I think, Alexander, that you ought; so now then, if you please, give me your answer," replied she.
"Had I been prepared for your kindness, I would have done so at once, but I have many serious questions to put to myself, and, if you please, we will renew the subject to-morrow morning. I will then tell you candidly how I am situated; and if after that you do not withdraw your proposal, I shall be most happy to be yours as soon as we can go to James Town to be married."
"If," replied she, "you mean to insinuate, Alexander, that you have a wife in England, that is of no consequence in this settlement; for those who live here are free from all English marriages; and as for going to James Town, that is quite unnecessary. If the people in the settlement were to wait for a parson when they married, they would never be married at all. All that is necessary is, that we shall draw up an agreement of marriage on paper, sign it, and have it witnessed. However, as I perceive that you are flurried, I will wait till to-morrow morning for your decision."
My mistress then rose from her stool, and went into her chamber, shutting to the door with more emphasis than was at all agreeable to my nerves. I walked out into the open air to recover myself, and to reflect upon what course I should take in this awkward and dangerous dilemma. Marrying was out of the question--but how to avoid it? It was almost like being stopped by a highwayman. He says, "Your money or your life." My mistress"s demand was, "Marriage or your life." There was but one hope, which was to escape that very night, and take my chance in the woods, and so I resolved to do.
I did not go in till dark; my mistress was in her own room; the two convicts were sitting by the fire. I took my seat by them, but did not speak, except in a whisper, telling them that their mistress was not well, and that we had better go to bed, and not talk. They stared at me at the idea of the mistress being ill; they had never known her to complain of anything since they resided with her; but the hint was sufficient. They went to bed, and so did I with my clothes on, watching the crevices of the door of her room to see if her lamp was out. In about half an hour the little thin beams through the c.h.i.n.ks of her door disappeared, and then I knew that she had gone to bed. I watched two hours more before I ventured to stir. The convicts were both snoring loud, and effectually drowned any slight noise I might make in moving about. I went to the locker, secured all the cold meat for provision, took down one of the muskets and ammunition-belts, and, having put the latter over my shoulders, I then took the musket in my hand and crept softly to the door of the cabin. Here was the only difficulty; once out, but five yards off, and I was clear. I removed the heavy wooden bar, without noise, and had now only to draw the bolt. I put my finger to it, and was sliding it gently and successfully back, when my throat was seized, and I was hurled back on the floor of the cabin. I was so stunned by the violence of the fall, that for a short time I was insensible. When I recovered, I felt a great weight upon my chest, and opening my eyes found my mistress sitting upon me, and giving orders to the convicts, one of whom had already lighted the lamp.
"For mercy"s sake, get off my chest," said I, in a faint voice.
"Yes, I will, but not yet," replied my mistress. "Now, James, hand them to me."
James handed some chains to his mistress, who, turning round as she sat on my body, made the manacle at the end of the chain fast round my ankle. This went with a snap-spring, which could not be opened without a key belonging to it. At last she rose off my body, and I could breathe free. She then called to the convicts, saying:
"Go both of you into the tobacco-shed, and wait there till I call you out. If I find you one foot nearer to us, I"ll flay you alive."
The servants ran off as fast as they could. When they were gone, my mistress said:
"So you were about to escape, were you? You would avoid the chances of matrimony, and now you have other chances which you little dreamt of."
"I thought it was the wisest thing that I could do," replied I. "Since I must be plain, I am sacredly betrothed to another person, and I could not even for you break my faith. I meant to have told you so to-morrow morning, but I was afraid it would annoy you, and therefore I wished to go away without giving you any answer."
"Well, Sir, I offered to be your wife, which would have made you my lord and master. You refuse it, and now I make you my slave. I give you your option; you shall either consent to be my husband, or you shall remain as you are, and toil hard; but any time that you think better of it, and are willing to embrace my offer, you will be free, and I will be as a wife in subjection."
"So you say," replied I; "but suppose I was to make you angry after I married you, you would do to me as you have done now. I may, perhaps, one day get free from this chain, but, once married to you, I am a slave for ever."
"You may think otherwise before long," replied she; "in the mean time, you may walk out and cool yourself."
She then returned to her room, and I rose, having determined to walk out and cool myself, as she proposed; but when I was on my legs, I found that to the other end of the chain, which was very heavy and about two yards long, was riveted an iron ball of about thirty pounds weight, so that I could not walk without carrying this heavy weight in my hands, for it could not be dragged. I lifted up the iron ball, and went out of the house. I was no longer afraid of her. I was in too great a rage to fear anything. As I calmed, I considered my case, and found it to be hopeless; as I thought of Amy, and the many months of hope deferred, I wept bitterly; and I had no consolation, for the reader may recollect that I lost my Bible when I was sent on sh.o.r.e, naked almost, by the rascally captain of the Transcendant.