Chapter 1092: Choosing You Meant Losing Your Child
She used the words “not worth it”, because it was really not worth it. She could not give him a happy home.
Chen Jiahang just grasped He Xiyan’s shoulder harder, looking at her eyes which were s.h.i.+ning with tears.
This was what she said, but her eyes were not s.h.i.+ning with such emotions.
“I’ve told you. My family will not care about this, and they are now in Jingzhou, who will not live with us. You don’t have to worry about them. Besides, they have figured it out, believing that as long as I feel happy, it will be fine. Yanyan, your worry is not necessary.”
Chen Jiahang reached out his hand and gently caressed the corner of her eyes, wiping away the tears from her eyes.
This woman always made him very sad. She knew all his experiences.
“As for your two children, I will take care of them with you and treat them as my own children.” Chen Jiahang said. This was what he thought of at the bottom of his heart. Even when he was at the bottom of the world, Yanyan did not leave him. He could not leave her live a lonely life in the rest of her life.
He Xiyan took a deep breath, but she shook her head.
“You are wrong, Jiahang…” He Xiyan smiled bitterly. At this time, a breeze blew her long hair. She reached out her hand and put her hair behind her ear and said, “Yuanyuan and Xixi are not willing to have a father who has no blood relations.h.i.+p with them, and they are not willing to live with you.”
After experiencing so much, she knew that some things were not as simple as she thought. Besides, her two children were with their fathers since childhood, so they had deep feelings with their fathers.
This kind of feeling could not be replaced by Jiahang or any other man.
“Yanyan, believe me, I will let the children…”
“You can’t…” He Xiyan interrupted Jiahang directly. She knew what he was going to say. He wanted to say that his relations.h.i.+p with children could be cultivated gradually. But she knew that it was impossible.
“Jiahang, do you know? If I choose you, it means I can’t be with my two children.” He Xiyan bit her lips tightly, suddenly looking at the roof beam above her head, holding back the tears that were about to burst out.
“I’m sorry…” He Xiyan looked at Jiahang again, seeing him becoming depressed.
She was biting her white lips, and at this moment her heart ached.
In fact, she was also reluctant to leave Jiahang. Although she left with great determination three months ago, it was simply because she was afraid that she would hesitate and make a regretful decision.
She knew that she couldn’t remarry with two children, Xixi and Yuanyuan. Xixi and Yuanyuan wouldn’t be willing to call a strange man dad. If she indeed formed a family with Jiahang, Xixi and Yuanyuan would choose to live with their fathers.
What’s worse, even if she could remarry with Xixi and Yuanyuan, after remarriage, Ye Hao and Mo Yixuan would inevitably come to see their children and have much contact with her. At that time, she couldn’t imagine how bad the situation would be.
“Yanyan…”
At this time, Chen Jiahang held He Xiyan’s hands tightly and said, “you think too much. The children are not as difficult to get along with as you think.”
Chen Jiahang knew what Yanyan meant. She was just worried that her two children would object to them staying together and would choose to live with their fathers instead of her.