The table was a small round one with the two places set at right angles, and very close.
It was the first occasion upon which Zara had ever been so near Tristram, and every time she looked up she was obliged to see his face.
She could not help owning to herself, that he was extraordinarily distinguished looking, and that there were strong, n.o.ble lines in his whole shape.
At the end of their repast, for different reasons, neither of the two felt calm. Tristram"s anger had died down, likewise his suspicions; after a moment"s thought the sane point of view always presented itself to his brain. No, whatever her reasons were for her disdain of him, having another lover was not the cause. And then he grew intoxicated again with her beauty and grace.
She was a terrible temptation to him; she would have been so to any normal man--and they were dining together--and she was his very own!
The waiters, with their cough of warning at the door, brought coffee and liqueurs, and then bodily removed the dinner table, and shut the doors.
And now Zara knew she was practically alone with her lord for the night.
He walked about the room--he did not drink any coffee, nor even a Chartreuse--and she stood perfectly still. Then he came back to her, and suddenly clasped her in his arms, and pa.s.sionately kissed her mouth.
"Zara!" he murmured hoa.r.s.ely. "Good G.o.d! do you think I am a stone! I tell you I love you--madly. Are you not going to be kind to me and really be my wife?"
Then he saw a look in her eyes that turned him to ice.
"Animal!" she hissed, and hit him across the face.
And as he let her fall from him she drew back panting, and deadly white; while he, mad with rage at the blow, stood with flaming blue eyes, and teeth clenched.
"Animal!" again she hissed, and then her words poured forth in a torrent of hate. "Is it not enough that you were willing to sell yourself for my uncle"s money--that you were willing to take as a bargain--a woman whom you had never even seen, without letting your revolting pa.s.sions exhibit themselves like this? And you dare to tell me you love me! What do such as you know of love? Love is a true and a pure and a beautiful thing, not to be sullied like this. It must come from devotion and knowledge.
What sort of a vile pa.s.sion is it which makes a man feel as you do for me? Only that I am a woman. Love! It is no love--it is a question of sense. Any other would do, provided she were as fair. Remember, my lord!
I am not your mistress, and I will not stand any of this! Leave me. I hate you, animal that you are!"
He stiffened and grew rigid with every word that she said, and when she had finished he was as deadly pale as she herself.
"Say not one syllable more to me, Zara!" he commanded. "You will have no cause to reprove me for loving you again. And remember this: things shall be as you wish between us. We will each live our lives and play the game. But before I ask you to be my wife again you can go down upon your knees. Do you hear me? Good night."
And without a word further he strode from the room.
CHAPTER XVII
The moon was shining brightly and a fresh breeze had risen when Tristram left the hotel and walked rapidly towards the pier. He was mad with rage and indignation from his bride"s cruel taunts. The knowledge of their injustice did not comfort him, and, though he knew he was innocent of any desire to have made a bargain, and had taken her simply for her beautiful self, still, the accusation hurt and angered his pride. How dared she! How dared her uncle have allowed her to think such things! A Tancred to stoop so low! He clenched his hands and his whole frame shook.
And then as he gazed down into the moonlit waves her last words came back with a fresh lashing sting. "Leave me, I hate you, animal that you are!" An animal, forsooth! And this is how she had looked at his love!
And then a cold feeling came over him--he was so very just--and he questioned himself. Was it true? Had it, indeed, been only that? Had he, indeed, been unbalanced and intoxicated merely from the desire of her exquisite body? Had there been nothing beyond? Were men really brutes?--And here he walked up and down very fast. What did it all mean?
What did life mean? What was the truth of this thing, called love?
And so he strode for hours, reasoning things out. But he knew that for his nature there could be no love without desire--and no desire without love. And then his conversation with Francis Markrute came back to him, the day they had lunched in the city, when the financier had given his views about women.
Yes, they were right, those views. A woman, to be dangerous, must appeal to both the body and brain of a man. If his feeling for Zara were only for the body then it was true that it was only l.u.s.t.
But it was _not_ true; and he thought of all his dreams of her at Wrayth, of the pictures he had drawn of their future life together, of the tenderness with which he had longed for this night.
And then his anger died down and was replaced by a pa.s.sionate grief.
His dream lay in ruins, and there was nothing to look forward to but a blank, soulless life. It did not seem to him then, in the cold moonlight, that things could ever come right. He could not for his pride"s sake condescend to any further explanation with her. He would not stoop to defend himself; she must think what she chose, until she should of herself find out the truth.
And then his level mind turned and tried to see her point of view. He must not be unjust. And he realized that if she thought such base things of him she had been more or less right. But, even so, there was some mystery beyond all this--some cruel and oppressing dark shadow in her life.
And his thoughts went back to the night they had first met, and he remembered then that her eyes had been full of hate--resentment and hate--as though he, personally, had caused her some injury.
Francis Markrute was so very clever: what plan had he had in his head?
By what scorpion whip had he perhaps forced her to consent to his wishes and become his--Tristram"s--wife? And once more the disturbing remembrance of Mimo returned, so that, when at last dawn came and he went back to the hotel, tired out in body and soul, it would not let him rest in his bed. His bed--in the next room his wife!
But one clear decision he had come to. He would treat her with cold courtesy, and they would play the game. To part now, in a dramatic manner, the next day after the wedding, was not in his sense of the fitness of things, was not what was suitable or seemly for the Tancred name.
And when he had left her Zara had stood quite still. Some not understood astonishment caused all her pa.s.sion to die down. For all the pitifully cruel experiences of her life she was still very young--young and ignorant of any but the vilest of men. Hitherto she had felt when they were kind that it was for some gain, and if a woman relented a second she would be sure to be trapped. For her self-respect and her soul"s sake she must go armed at all points. And after her hurling at him all her scorn, instead of her husband turning round and perhaps beating her (as, certainly, Ladislaus would have done), he had answered with dignity and gone out of the room.
And she remembered her father"s cold mien. Perhaps there was something else in the English--some other finer quality which she did not yet understand.
The poor, beautiful creature was like some ill-treated animal ready to bite to defend itself at the sight of a man.
It spoke highly for the strength and n.o.bility of her character that, whereas another and weaker woman would have become degraded by the sorrows of such a life, she had remained pure as the snow, and as cold.
Her strong will and her pride had kept completely in check every voluptuous instinct which must certainly have always lain dormant in her. Every emotion towards man was frozen to ice.
There are some complete natures which only respond to the highest touch; when the body and soul are evenly balanced they know all that is divine of human love. It is those warped in either of the component parts who bring sorrow--and l.u.s.t.
The perfect woman gives willingly of herself, body and soul, to the _one man_ she loves.
But of all these things Zara was ignorant. She only knew she was exhausted, and she crept wearily to bed.
Thus neither bride nor bridegroom, on this their wedding night, knew peace or rest.
They met next day for a late breakfast. They were to go to Paris by the one o"clock boat. They were both very quiet and pale. Zara had gone into the sitting-room first, and was standing looking out on the sea when her husband came into the room, and she did not turn round, until he said "Good morning," coldly, and she realized it was he.
Some strange quiver pa.s.sed over her at the sound of his voice.
"Breakfast should be ready," he went on calmly. "I ordered it for eleven o"clock. I told your maid to tell you so. I hope that gave you time to dress."
"Yes, thank you," was all she said; and he rang the bell and opened the papers, which the waiters had piled on the table, knowing the delight of young bridal pairs to see news of themselves!
And as Zara glanced at her lord"s handsome face she saw a cynical, disdainful smile creep over it, at something he read.
And she guessed it was the account of their wedding; and she, too, took up another paper and looked at the headings.
Yes, there was a flaming description of it all. And as she finished the long paragraphs she raised her head suddenly and their eyes met. And Tristram allowed himself to laugh--bitterly, it was true, but still to laugh.
The lingering fear of the ways of men was still in Zara"s heart and not altogether gone; she was not yet quite free from the suspicion that he still might trap her if she unbent. So she frowned slightly and then looked down at the paper again; and the waiters brought in breakfast at that moment and nothing was said.
They did not seem to have much appet.i.te, nor to care what they ate, but, the coffee being in front of her, politeness made Zara ask what sort her husband took, and when he answered--none at all--he wanted tea--she was relieved, and let him pour it out at the side-table himself.