She got into a taxi quickly, finding one in Grosvenor Street because she was afraid to wait to look in Park Lane, in case, by chance, she should be observed; and at last she reached the Neville Street lodging, and rang the noisy bell.
The slatternly little servant said that the gentleman was "hout," but would the lady come in and wait? He would not be long, as he had said "as how he was only going to take a telegram."
Zara entered at once. A telegram!--perhaps for her--Yes, surely for her.
Mimo had no one else, she knew, to telegraph to. She went up to the dingy attic studio. The fire was almost out, and the little maid lit one candle and placed it upon a table. It was very cold on this damp November day. The place struck her as piteously poor, after the grandeur from which she had come. Dear, foolish, generous Mimo! She must do something for him--and would plan how. The room had the air of scrupulous cleanness which his things always wore, and there was the "Apache" picture waiting for her to take, in a new gold frame; and the "London Fog" seemed to be advanced, too; he had evidently worked at it late, because his palette and brushes, still wet, were on a box beside it, and on a chair near was his violin. He was no born musician like Mirko, but played very well. The palette and brushes showed he must have put them hurriedly down. What for? Why? Had some message come for him?
Had he heard news? And a chill feeling gripped her heart. She looked about to see if Mirko had written a letter, or one of his funny little postcards? No, there was nothing--nothing she had not seen except, yes, just this one on a picture of the town. Only a few words: "Thank Cherisette for her letter, Agatha is _tres jolie_, but does not understand the violin, and wants to play it herself. And heavens! the noise!" How he managed to post these cards was always a mystery; they were marked with the mark of doubling up twice, so it showed he concealed them somewhere and perhaps popped them into a pillar-box, when out for a walk. This one was dated two days ago. Could anything have happened since? She burned with impatience for Mimo to come in.
A cheap, little clock struck seven. Where could he be? The minutes seemed to drag into an eternity. All sorts of possibilities struck her, and then she controlled herself and became calm.
There was a large photograph of her mother, which Mimo had colored really well. It was in a silver frame upon the mantelpiece, and she gazed and gazed at that, and whispered aloud in the gloomy room:
"_Maman, adoree!_ Take care of your little one now, even if he must come to you soon."
And beside this there was another, of Mimo, taken at the same time, when Zara and her mother had gone to the Emperor"s palace in that far land.
How wonderfully handsome he was then, and even still!--and how the air of _insouciance_ suited him, in that splendid white and gold uniform.
But Mimo looked always a gentleman, even in his shabbiest coat.
And now that she knew what the pa.s.sion of love meant herself, she better understood how her mother had loved. She had never judged her mother, it was not in her nature to judge any one; underneath the case of steel which her bitter life had wrought her, Zara"s heart was as tender as an angel"s.
Then she thought of the words in the Second Commandment: "And the sins of the fathers shall be visited upon the children." Had they sinned, then? And if so how terribly cruel such Commandments were--to make the innocent children suffer. Mirko and she were certainly paying some price. But the G.o.d that _Maman_ had gone to and loved and told her children of, was not really cruel, and some day perhaps she--Zara--would come into peace on earth. And Mirko? Mirko would be up there, happy and safe with _Maman_.
The cheap clock showed nearly half-past seven. She could not wait another moment, and also she reasoned if Mimo were sending her a telegram it would be to Park Lane. He knew she was coming up; she would get it there on her return, so she scribbled a line to Count Sykypri, and told him she had been--and why--and that she must hear at once, and then she left and hurried back to her uncle"s house. And when she got there it was twenty minutes to eight.
Her maid had been dreadfully worried, as she had given no orders as to what she would wear--but Henriette, being a person of intelligence, had put out what she thought best,--only she could not prevent her anxiety and impatience from causing her to go on to the landing, and hang over the stairs at every noise; and Tristram, coming out of his room already dressed, found her there--and asked her what she was doing.
"I wait for _Miladi_, _Milor_, she have not come in," Henriette said.
"And I so fear _Miladi_ will be late."
Tristram felt his heart stop beating for a second--strong man as he was.
_Miladi_ had not come in!--But as they spoke, he perceived her on the landing below, hurrying up--she had not waited to get the lift--and he went down to meet her, while Henriette returned to her room.
"Where have you been?" he demanded, with a pale, stern face. He was too angry and suspicious to let her pa.s.s in silence, and he noticed her cheeks were flushed with nervous excitement and that she was out of breath; and no wonder, for she had run up the stairs.
"I cannot wait to tell you now," she panted. "And what right have you to speak to me so? Let me pa.s.s, or I shall be late."
"I do not care if you are late, or no. You shall answer me!" he said furiously, barring the way. "You bear my name, at all events, and I have a right because of that to know."
"Your name?" she said, vaguely, and then for the first time she grasped that there was some insulting doubt of her in his words.
She cast upon him a look of withering scorn, and, with the air of an empress commanding an insubordinate guard, she flashed:
"Let me pa.s.s at once!"
But Tristram did not move, and for a second they glared at one another, and she took a step forward as if to force her way. Then he angrily seized her in his arms. But at that moment Francis Markrute came out of his room and Tristram let her go--panting. He could not make a scene, and she went on, with her head set haughtily, to her room.
"I see you have been quarreling again," her uncle said, rather irritably: and then he laughed as he went down.
"I expect she will be late," he continued; "well, if she is not in the hall at five minutes to eight, I shall go on."
And Tristram sat down upon the deep sofa on the broad landing outside her room, and waited: the concentrated essence of all the rage and pain he had yet suffered seemed to be now in his heart.
But what had it meant--that look of superb scorn? She had no mien of a guilty person.
At six minutes to eight she opened the door, and came out. She had simply flown into her clothes, in ten minutes! Her eyes were still black as night with resentment, and her bosom rose and fell, while in her white cheeks two scarlet spots flamed.
"I am ready," she said, haughtily, "let us go," and not waiting for her husband she swept on down the stairs, exactly as her uncle opened the library door.
"Well done, my punctual niece!" he cried genially. "You are a woman of your word."
"In all things," she answered, fiercely, and went towards the door, where the electric brougham waited.
And both men as they followed her wondered what she could mean.
CHAPTER x.x.xVIII
The dinner for Ethelrida"s betrothal resembled in no way the one for Zara and Tristram; for, except in those two hearts there was no bitter strain, and the fiances in this case were radiantly happy, which they could not conceal, and did not try to.
The Dowager Lady Tancred arrived a few minutes after the party of three, and Zara heard her mother-in-law gasp, as she said, "Tristram, my dear boy!" and then she controlled the astonishment in her voice, and went on more ordinarily, but still a little anxiously, "I hope you are very well?"
So he was changed then--to the eye of one who had not seen him since the wedding--and Zara glanced at him critically, and saw that--yes, he was, indeed, changed. His face was perfectly set and stern, and he looked older. It was no wonder his mother should be surprised.
Then Lady Tancred turned to Zara and kissed her. "Welcome back, my dear daughter," she said. And Zara tried to answer something pleasant: above all things, this proud lady who had so tenderly given her son"s happiness into her keeping must not guess how much there was amiss.
But Lady Tancred was no simpleton--she saw immediately that her son must have gone through much suffering and strain. What was the matter? It tore her heart, but she knew him too well to say anything to him about it.
So she continued to talk agreeably to them, and Tristram made a great effort, and chaffed her, and became gay. And soon they went in to dinner. And Lady Tancred sat on Francis Markrute"s other side, and tried to overcome her prejudice against him. If Ethelrida loved him so much he must be really nice. And Zara sat on one side of the old Duke, and Lady Anningford on the other, and on her other side was Young Billy who was now in an idiotic state of calf love for her--to the amus.e.m.e.nt of every one. So, with much gayety and chaff the repast came to an end, and the ladies, who were all old friends--no strangers now among them--disposed themselves in happy groups about one of the drawing-rooms, while they sipped their coffee.
Ethelrida drew Zara aside to talk to her alone.
"Zara," she said, taking her soft, white hand, "I am so awfully happy with my dear love that I want you to be so, too. Dearest Zara, won"t you be friends with me, now--real friends?"
And Zara, won by her gentleness, pressed Ethelrida"s hand with her other hand.
"I am so glad, nothing my uncle could have done would have given me so much pleasure," she said, with a break in her voice. "Yes, indeed, I will be friends with you, dear Ethelrida. I am so glad--and touched--that you should care to have me as your friend." Then Ethelrida bent forward and kissed her. "When one is as happy as I am," she said, "it makes one feel good, as if one wanted to do all the kind things and take away all sorrow out of the world. I have thought sometimes, Zara dear, that you did not look as happy as--as--I would like you to look."
Happy! the mockery of the word!
"Ethelrida," Zara whispered hurriedly--"don"t--don"t ask me anything about it, please, dear. No one can help me. I must come through with it alone--but you of Tristram"s own family, and especially you whom he loves so much, I don"t want you ever to misjudge me. You think perhaps I have made him unhappy. Oh, if you only knew it all!--Yes, I have. And I did not know, nor understand. I would die for him now, if I could, but it is too late; we can only play the game!"
"Zara, do not say this!" said Ethelrida, much distressed. "What can it be that should come between such beautiful people as you? And Tristram adores you, Zara dear."
"He did love me--once," Zara answered sadly, "but not now. He would like never to have to see me again. Please do not let us talk of it; please--I can"t bear any more."
And Ethelrida, watching her face anxiously, saw that it wore a hopeless, hunted look, as though some agonizing trouble and anxiety brooded over her. And poor Zara could say nothing of her other anxiety, for now that Ethelrida was engaged to her uncle her lips, about her own sorrow concerning her little brother, must be more than ever sealed.
Perhaps--she did not know much of the English point of view yet--perhaps if the Duke knew that there was some disgrace in the background of the family he might forbid the marriage, and then she would be spoiling this sweet Ethelrida"s life.