"That"s just it," Jerry replied. "I"ve been let to have my own way until Aunt Jerry thinks I must go on having just what she thinks I want, and to do that I must be dependent on her. And--Wait a minute, Gene--you will be dependent on her, too. You have only your gift. So both of us are to be pensioners of hers. That"s her plan."
"I won"t be," Eugene Wellington declared, stoutly. And then, in loving thought of Jerry, he added: "I don"t want to, Jerry. I want to do great things, the best that G.o.d has given me to do, not merely for myself, but for your sake--and for all the world. That seems to me to be what artists are for."
"And I won"t be, either," Jerry insisted. "I won"t. You needn"t look so incredulous. Let me tell you something. The evening before Uncle Cornie died--" Jerry broke off suddenly.
It seemed unfair to betray the one burst of confidence that the colorless old man had given up to on the last evening of his earthly life. Jerry knew that it was to her, and for her alone, that he had spoken.
"This is what I want to tell you. I have no income now. Aunt Jerry is right, although she never told me that herself. But I have a plan to make a living for myself."
Eugene Wellington leaned back and laughed aloud. "You, Miss Geraldine Swaim, who never earned a dollar in your precious life! I always knew you were a dreamer, but you are going wrong now, Jerry. You must look out for belfry bats under that golden thatch of yours. Only artists dare those wild flights so far--and they do it only on canvas and then get rejected by the hanging committee."
Jerry paid no heed to his bantering words as she went on with serious earnestness: "My estate--from my father--is a claim out at New Eden, Kansas. Twelve hundred acres. It has never been managed well, consequently it has never paid well. Look at "Eden" here"--Jerry lifted a hand for silence as Eugene was about to speak--"it has only two hundred acres. Now multiply it by six and you"ll have New Eden out in Kansas. And I own it. And I am going to manage it. And I am not going to be dependent on anybody. Won"t it be one big lark for me to go clear to the Sage Brush Valley? If it is as beautiful as the Winnowoc, just think of its possibilities. It will be perfectly grand to feel oneself so free and self-reliant. And when we have won out, you by your brush and I by my Kansas farm, then, oh, Gene, how splendid life will be!"
The big, dreamy eyes were full of light. The level beams of the sun stretched far across green meadows and shaven lawns, between tall lilac-trees, to the rose-arbor, just to glorify that rippling ma.s.s of brown-shadowed golden hair.
"Jerry"--Eugene Wellington"s voice trembled--"you are the most wonderful girl in the world. I am so proud of you. But, dear girl, it is an old, threadbare fancy, this going to Kansas to get rich. My father tried it years ago. He had a vision of great things, too. He failed. Not only that, he ruined everybody connected with him. That"s why I"m poor to-day. Truly, little cousin mine, I don"t believe the good Lord, who makes Edens like this in the Winnowoc Valley, ever intended for well-bred people to leave them and go New-Eden-hunting in the Sage Brush Valley. We belong here where all the beauty of nature is about us and the care of a loving G.o.d is over us. Why do you want to go to Kansas? I wouldn"t know how to pray out there where my father made such a botch of living. I really wouldn"t."
"I don"t know how to pray here, Gene," Jerry said, softly, with no trace of flippant irreverence in her tone. "I forgot how to do that when G.o.d took my father away. But listen to me." The imperious power of the uncontrolled will was Jerry"s always. "You don"t _live_ here; you _stay_ here. And you take a piece of canvas and go to the ends of the earth on it, or down to the deeps, or into the heavens. You make what never did and never will be, with your free brush. And folks call it good and you earn a living by it. You are an artist. I am a foolish dreamer, but I am going out to Kansas and work my dreams into reality and beauty--and money--in a New Eden. If the Lord isn"t there, I shall not mind any more than I do here. I am going to Kansas, though, because I _want_ to."
"Look, Jerry, at the sunset yonder," Eugene said, gently, knowing of old what "I want" meant. "They couldn"t have such pictures of green and gold out West as we see framed in here by the lilacs. You always have been a determined little girl, so you will have your own way now, I suppose. We can try it, anyhow, for a while. And if you find your way a rocky road you must come back to "Eden." When your new playthings fail, you can play with the old ones. But I really love your spirit of self-reliance.
I don"t want you ever to be dependent. I don"t want any other Jerry than I have always known. And I want to work hard and make my little talent pay me big, and make you proud of me."
"We are living a real romance, Gene. And we"ll be true to our word to make the best of ourselves and not let Aunt Jerry frighten us into changing our plans, will we, Gene? My father"s wish for me was that I should not always be a spender of other folks"s incomes, but that I would find out what it means to live my own life. I never knew that until last week. Everything seems changed for me since Uncle Cornie died. Isn"t it strange how suddenly we drop off one life and take up another?" Jerry"s eyes were on the deepening gold of the sunset sky.
"Yes, we have been two idlers. I"m glad to quit the job. But, somehow, for you I could wish that you would stay here, if you were only satisfied to do it," Eugene replied.
"I don"t wish it." Jerry spoke decisively. "I couldn"t be happy, now I"ve this splendid Kansas thing to think about. Let"s go and tell Aunt Jerry and have it out with her."
"And if she says no?" the young man queried.
Jerry Swaim paused in the doorway and looked straight into Eugene Wellington"s face, without saying a word.
"Geraldine Swaim, there was a big mistake made in your baptismal ceremony. You should have been christened "The Sphinx." Some day I"ll make a canvas of the Egyptian product and put your face on it. After all, _are_ you really in earnest about this Sage Brush Valley New Eden?
It is so lovely here, I want you to stay here."
Again Jerry looked at him without speaking, and that faint line of indecision that scarcely hinted at its own existence fixed itself in the substratum of her memory.
Mrs. Darby met the young people in the parlor, where only a few nights ago the three had watched the summer storm, not knowing that it was beating down on the unconscious form of Cornelius Darby. Mrs. Darby felt sure that the young people would be coming to her to-night. Well--the end of her plan was in sight now. Really, it may have been better for Cornelius to have gone when he did, since we must all go sometime.
Indeed, it would have been better--only Jerusha Darby never knew that--if Cornelius had gone before that discus-throw. Everything might have been different if he had gone earlier. But he lost the opportunity of his life to serve his wife by staying over and making one awkward fling too many.
The June evening was cool after the long rains. Aunt Jerry had a tiny wood fire burning in the parlor grate, and the tall lamps with the rose-colored shades lighted to add a touch of twilight charm to the place, when the young lovers came in.
"Aunt Jerry, we want to tell you what we have been talking about,"
Eugene began, when the three were seated together. "Jerry and I have decided that we must look on life differently now since--" Eugene hesitated.
"Yes, I know." Mrs. Darby spoke briskly. "We must face the truth now and speak of Cornelius freely. He was fond of both of you. Poor Cornelius!"
"Poor Cornelius," Jerry Swaim repeated, under her breath.
"Of course I know it is difficult for a girl reared as Jerry has been--"
Eugene began again.
"She can go on living just as she has been. This will be her home always," Mrs. Darby broke in, abruptly.
"And I know that I have nothing but the prospect of earning a living and winning to a successful career in my line--" the young man went on.
"Hasn"t Jerry the prospect of enough for herself? I"ll need you to help me for several months. You know, Eugene, that I must have some one who understands Cornelius"s way of doing things." There was more of command than request in the older woman"s voice.
"I"ll be glad to help you as long as I am needed, but I am speaking now of my life-work. When I cannot serve you any longer I must begin on my own career. I have some hopes and plans for the future."
"Humph! What"s the use of talking about it? I tell you Jerry will have enough for all her needs, and I want you here. I shall not consider any more such notions, Eugene. You are both going to stay right here as you have done. Let"s talk of something else."
"We can"t yet, Aunt Jerry, because I have not enough for myself, even if Gene would accept a living from you," Jerry Swaim declared.
Jerusha Darby opened her narrow eyes and stared at her niece. If the older woman had made one plea of loneliness, if she had even hinted at sorrow for the loss of the companion of her business transactions, Jerry Swaim would have felt uncomfortable, even though she knew her aunt too well to be deceived by any such demonstration.
"Geraldine Swaim, what are you saying?" Mrs. Darby demanded, in a hard, even voice. Something in her manner and face could always hold even the brave-spirited in frightened awe of her.
Eugene Wellington lost courage to go on, and the same thing came again that Jerry Swaim had twice seen on his face in the rose-arbor this evening. The two were looking straight at the girl now. The firelight played with the golden glory of her hair and deepened the rose hue of her round cheeks. The dark-blue eyes seemed almost black, with a gleam in their depths that meant trouble, and there was a strength in the low voice as Jerry went on:
"I"m talking about what I know, Aunt Jerry. All there is of my heritage from my father is a "claim," they call it, at New Eden, in the Sage Brush Valley in Kansas; twelve hundred acres. I"m going out there to manage it myself and support myself on an income of my own."
For a long minute Jerusha Darby looked steadily at her niece, her own face as hard and impenetrable as if it were carven out of flint. Then she said, sharply:
"Where did you find out all this?"
"It is all in a doc.u.ment here that I found in the rose-arbor this afternoon," the girl replied. "Aunt Jerry, I must use what is mine. I wouldn"t be a Swaim if I didn"t."
"You won"t stay there two weeks." Mrs. Darby fairly clicked out the words. Her face was very pale and something like real fright looked through her eyes as she took the paper from her niece"s hand.
"And then?" Jerry inquired, demurely.
"And then you will come back here where you belong and live as you always have lived, in comfort."
"And if I do not come?"
Jerusha Darby"s face was not pleasant to see just then. The firelight that made the girl more winsomely pretty seemed to throw into relief all the hard lines of a countenance which selfishness and stubbornness and a dictatorial will had graven there.
"Jerry Swaim, you are building up a wild, adventurous dream. You are Lesa Swaim over and over. You want a lark, that"s what you want. And it"s you who have put Eugene up to his notions of a career and all that.
Listen to me. Nothing talks in this world like money. That you have to have for your way of living, and that he"s got to have if he wants to be what he should be. Well, go on out to Kansas. You know more of that prosperous property out there than I do. I"ll let you find it out to the last limit. But when you come back you must promise me never to take another such notion. I won"t stand this foolishness forever. I"ll give you plenty of money to get there. You can write me when you need funds to come back. It won"t take long to get that letter here."
"And if I shouldn"t come?" Jerry asked, calmly.
"Look what you are giving up. All this beautiful home, to say nothing of the town house--and Eugene--and other property."
"No, no; you don"t count him as your property, do you?" Jerry cried, turning to the young artist, whose face was very pale.
"Jerry, must you make this sacrifice?" he asked, in a voice of tenderness.