"If I might go into the kitchen and get the tea ready for papa and mamma like you do, I"d never want to stay out late," said Bridget thoughtfully.
Celestina considered.
"You don"t need to do that," she said. "It wouldn"t be any good to your mamma, for she"s got servants to do it. But there must be other things you could do if you want to help her."
"No," said Biddy, shaking her head, "there"s nothing. And I don"t think I want very much; it"s just sometimes. Alie helps mamma because she"s the eldest."
Celestina scarcely knew how to answer this, though she felt there was something wrong about her little companion"s way of looking at things.
But Celestina had not much power of putting her thoughts and feelings into words. Her solitary life had made her a very silent child, not intentionally, but by habit. She found it difficult to express her meaning even to herself. Just now she gazed at Biddy without speaking, so that Biddy began to laugh.
"What are you looking at me so for?" asked the younger child.
"I don"t know," said Celestina. "I was only thinking."
"What?" asked Biddy again.
"You should help too, even though you"re the youngest," said Celestina bluntly.
"Oh, bother," was all Biddy"s reply.
They were at the Rectory gate by this time.
"Good-bye, Miss Biddy," said Celestina. "I must run home fast. But I don"t think it"s late."
"Good-bye," said Biddy. "I"ve got my sh.e.l.ls; have you got yours? Oh yes," as Celestina held up a tiny little basket she was carrying. "How dreadfully careful you are! Good-night. I"ll ask mamma to let me come and see you very soon."
On her way up the short drive to the house Bridget came face to face with Randolph.
"Oh, you"re there, are you?" he said. "Mamma was just asking if you"d come in, so I came to look out for you."
Biddy was silent. This did not seem very like mamma"s "not caring," as she had been saying to Celestina.
"It isn"t late," she remarked at last. "Mamma said I might stay half an hour."
"She was beginning to worry about you a little, all the same," said Rough. "Were you with the little Fairchild girl?"
"Yes," said Biddy.
"Is she a nice little girl?" asked Rough.
"Yes," said Biddy again.
"Then why don"t you like her? Why are you so cross?" asked her brother.
"I"m not cross, and I never said I didn"t like her," replied Bridget impatiently.
Rough began to whistle.
"I can"t say I agree with you," he said. "Well, I"ll run on and tell mamma you"re all right;" and off he set.
Biddy followed him slowly, feeling rather depressed.
"I didn"t mean to be cross," she said to herself in her usual way, though she really did feel what she said this time. "It was kind of Roughie to come to meet me. They"re all good "acept me. Celestina"s good too. I"m made all the wrong way," and she sighed deeply.
She brightened up again, however, when she met her mother at the door.
"That"s right, Biddy dear," said Mrs. Vane. "You"ve not stayed too late."
Rough was there too; he had not told about her being cross evidently, and Biddy felt grateful to him. It was very nice when mamma spoke like that; it reminded her of the way her hand had been pressed that afternoon. But a sudden thought rather chilled her satisfaction. Biddy was beginning to be troubled with thoughts, and thoughts too that would not be driven away and forgotten, as she had been accustomed to drive away and forget anything that made her feel at all uncomfortable. This thought teased and p.r.i.c.ked her for a few seconds, and though she wriggled herself about and stamped her feet down with hard thumps on the gravel, it would not go.
"Biddy," it said, "Biddy, you know what you should do."
So that at last, in sheer impatience of its teasing, she gave her mother"s sleeve a little tug.
"Mamma," she said, "it was _her_ that made me not stay longer than you"d said. I wanted to. I wasn"t very good, but she"s good."
Mrs. Vane turned with real pleasure in her face.
"I"m very glad you"ve told me, Biddy," she said. "Yes, it was nice and good of Celestina to remind you. I think she must really be a very conscientious child."
"I don"t know what that is," said Bridget. "At least, p"raps I do know, but it"s such a trouble to think. But Celestina _is_ good. I almost think she"s a little too good."
Her tone was very melancholy. Rough burst out laughing, but Mrs. Vane looked rather disappointed.
"It will be so vexing if Biddy takes a dislike to her just when I was hoping it would be a good thing," she thought to herself.
Still, the remembrance of the little talk with Mrs. Fairchild was in her mind. She took no notice of Biddy"s remark, only telling her cheerfully to run in quickly and get ready for tea, as it was almost ready.
The children"s mother went to Seacove again the next day, but this time she did not take either of them with her. She went straight to Pier Street, and as soon as Mrs. Fairchild saw her coming into the shop she came forward with a smile and showed her into the parlour. There Celestina was sitting quietly working at some new clothes for her little dolls: she wanted them to be very smart indeed, in case the Rectory young ladies came to see them. She rose from her seat at once when Mrs.
Vane came in, but a shadow of disappointment crossed her face when she saw that the lady was alone.
"I have not brought Biddy this time," said Mrs. Vane kindly. "I have come to see Mrs. Fairchild myself. But Biddy shall come some day soon.
I want you to show her your doll-house, for I should be glad for her to get into the way of playing with one. She has always been a difficult child to amuse," she went on; "she is so restless, and never seems to get interested in her toys or games."
Celestina opened her lips as if she were going to speak, but said nothing.
"What is it, my dear?" said Mrs. Vane, seeing the look in the little girl"s eyes. Celestina grew pink.
"It was only," she began. "It"s not so nice to play alone."
"No, that is true," said Biddy"s mother, "and true of other things as well as play." Then she turned to Mrs. Fairchild: "Have you been able to----" she was beginning, but with a little gesture of apology Mrs.
Fairchild glanced at her daughter.
"Go upstairs, Celestina, for a few minutes," and in a moment Celestina gathered together her small concerns and noiselessly left the room.
"How obedient she is," said Mrs. Vane with a little sigh. "I should have had quite an argument with Biddy, or at least cross looks."
"Children are very different," said Mrs. Fairchild. "Still there is not much you can do with them without obedience. And if they get the habit of it quite young, it costs them so much less; they obey almost without thinking about it."