I clamped my bayonet into its standard and rested the cold steel on the parapet, the point showing over; and standing up I looked across to the enemy"s ground.
"They"re about three hundred yards away," somebody whispered taking his place at my side. "I think I can see their trenches."
An indistinct line which might have been a parapet of sandbags, became visible as I stared through the darkness; it looked very near, and my heart thrilled as I watched. Suddenly a stream of red sparks swooped upwards into the air and circled towards us. Involuntarily I stooped under cover, then raised my head again. High up in the air a bright flame stood motionless lighting up the ground in front, the s.p.a.ce between the lines. Every object was visible: a tree stripped of all its branches stood bare, outlined in black; at its foot I could see the barbed wire entanglements, the wire sparkling as if burnished; further back was a ruined cottage, the bare beams and rafters giving it the appearance of a skeleton. A year ago a humble farmer might (p. 090) have lived there; his children perhaps played where dead were lying. I could see the German trench, the row of sandbags, the country to rear, a ruined village on a hill, the flashes of rifles on the left ... the flare died out in mid-air and darkness cloaked the whole scene again.
"What do you think of it, Stoner?" I asked the figure by my side.
"My G.o.d, it"s great," he answered. "To think that they"re over there, and the poor fellows lying out on the field!"
"They"re their own bloomin" tombstones, anyway," said Bill, cropping up from somewhere.
"I feel sorry for the poor beggars," I said.
"They"ll feel sorry for themselves, the beggars," said Bill.
"There, what"s that?"
It crept up like a long white arm from behind the German lines, and felt nervously at the clouds as if with a hand. Moving slowly from North to South it touched all the sky, seeking for something. Suddenly it flashed upon us, almost dazzling our eyes. In a flash Bill was upon the banquette.
"Nark the doin"s, nark it," he cried and fired his rifle. The (p. 091) report died away in a hundred echoes as he slipped the empty cartridge from its breech.
"That"s one for them," he muttered.
"What did you fire at?" I asked.
"The blasted searchlight," he replied, rubbing his little potato of a nose. "That"s one for "em, another shot nearer the end of the war!"
"Did you hit it?" asked our corporal.
"I must "ave "it it, I fired straight at it."
"Splendid, splendid," said the corporal. "Its only about three miles away though."
"Oh, blimey!..."
Sentries were posted for the night, one hour on and two off for each man until dawn. I was sentry for the first hour. I had to keep a sharp look out if an enemy"s working party showed itself when the rockets went up. I was to fire at it and kill as many men as possible. One thinks of things on sentry-go.
"How can I reconcile myself to this," I asked, shifting my rifle to get nearer the parapet. "Who are those men behind the line of sandbags that I should want to kill them, to disembowel them with my sword, blow their faces to pieces at three hundred yards, bomb them into (p. 092) eternity at a word of command. Who am I that I should do it; what have they done to me to incur my wrath? I am not angry with them; I know little of the race; they are utter strangers to me; what am I to think, why should I think?
"Bill," I called to the c.o.c.kney, who came by whistling, "what are you doing?"
"I"m havin" a bit of rooty (food) "fore goin" to kip (sleep)."
"Hungry?
""Ungry as an "awk," he answered. "Give me a shake when your turn"s up; I"m sentry after you."
There was a pause.
"Bill!"
"Pat?"
"Do you believe in G.o.d?"
"Well, I do and I don"t," was the answer.
"What do you mean?"
"I don"t "old with the Christian business," he replied, "but I believe in G.o.d."
"Do you think that G.o.d can allow men to go killing one another like this?"
"Maybe "E can"t help it."
"And the war started because it had to be?
"It just came--like a war-baby." (p. 093)
Another pause.
"Yer write songs, don"t yer?" Bill suddenly asked.
"Sometimes."
"Would yer write me one, just a little one?" he continued. "There was a bird (girl) where I used to be billeted at St. Albans, and I would like to send "er a bit of poetry."
"You"ve fallen in love?" I ventured.
"No, not so bad as that--"
"You"ve not fallen in love."
"Well its like this," said my mate, "I used to be in "er "ouse and she made "ome-made torfee."
"Made it well?"
"Blimey, yes; "twas some stuff, and I used to get "eaps of it. She used to slide down the banisters, too. Yer should "ave seen it, Pat.
It almost made me write poetry myself."
"I"ll try and do something for you," I said. "Have you been in the dug-out yet?"
"Yes, it"s not such a bad place, but there"s seven of us in it," said Bill, "it"s "ot as "ell. But we wouldn"t be so bad if Z---- was out of it. I don"t like the feller."
"Why?" I asked, Z---- was one of our thirteen, but he couldn"t (p. 094) pull with us. For some reason or other we did not like him.
"Oh, I don"t like "im, that"s all," was the answer. "Z---- tries to get the best of everything. Give ye a drink from "is water bottle when your own"s empty; "e wouldn"t. I wouldn"t trust "im that much." He clicked his thumb and middle finger together as he spoke, and without another word he vanished into the dug-out.