"Well, that"s an argument I rather like, because what a man has once been he may be again." Thomasin blushed. "Except that it is rather harder now," Venn continued.
"Why?" she asked.
"Because you be richer than you were at that time."
"O no-not much. I have made it nearly all over to the baby, as it was my duty to do, except just enough to live on."
"I am rather glad of that," said Venn softly, and regarding her from the corner of his eye, "for it makes it easier for us to be friendly."
Thomasin blushed again, and, when a few more words had been said of a not unpleasing kind, Venn mounted his horse and rode on.
This conversation had pa.s.sed in a hollow of the heath near the old Roman road, a place much frequented by Thomasin. And it might have been observed that she did not in future walk that way less often from having met Venn there now. Whether or not Venn abstained from riding thither because he had met Thomasin in the same place might easily have been guessed from her proceedings about two months later in the same year.
3-The Serious Discourse of Clym with His Cousin
Throughout this period Yeobright had more or less pondered on his duty to his cousin Thomasin. He could not help feeling that it would be a pitiful waste of sweet material if the tender-natured thing should be doomed from this early stage of her life onwards to dribble away her winsome qualities on lonely gorse and fern. But he felt this as an economist merely, and not as a lover. His pa.s.sion for Eustacia had been a sort of conserve of his whole life, and he had nothing more of that supreme quality left to bestow. So far the obvious thing was not to entertain any idea of marriage with Thomasin, even to oblige her.
But this was not all. Years ago there had been in his mother"s mind a great fancy about Thomasin and himself. It had not positively amounted to a desire, but it had always been a favourite dream. That they should be man and wife in good time, if the happiness of neither were endangered thereby, was the fancy in question. So that what course save one was there now left for any son who reverenced his mother"s memory as Yeobright did? It is an unfortunate fact that any particular whim of parents, which might have been dispersed by half an hour"s conversation during their lives, becomes sublimated by their deaths into a fiat the most absolute, with such results to conscientious children as those parents, had they lived, would have been the first to decry.
Had only Yeobright"s own future been involved he would have proposed to Thomasin with a ready heart. He had nothing to lose by carrying out a dead mother"s hope. But he dreaded to contemplate Thomasin wedded to the mere corpse of a lover that he now felt himself to be. He had but three activities alive in him. One was his almost daily walk to the little graveyard wherein his mother lay, another, his just as frequent visits by night to the more distant enclosure which numbered his Eustacia among its dead; the third was self-preparation for a vocation which alone seemed likely to satisfy his cravings-that of an itinerant preacher of the eleventh commandment. It was difficult to believe that Thomasin would be cheered by a husband with such tendencies as these.
Yet he resolved to ask her, and let her decide for herself. It was even with a pleasant sense of doing his duty that he went downstairs to her one evening for this purpose, when the sun was printing on the valley the same long shadow of the housetop that he had seen lying there times out of number while his mother lived.
Thomasin was not in her room, and he found her in the front garden. "I have long been wanting, Thomasin," he began, "to say something about a matter that concerns both our futures."
"And you are going to say it now?" she remarked quickly, colouring as she met his gaze. "Do stop a minute, Clym, and let me speak first, for oddly enough, I have been wanting to say something to you."
"By all means say on, Tamsie."
"I suppose n.o.body can overhear us?" she went on, casting her eyes around and lowering her voice. "Well, first you will promise me this-that you won"t be angry and call me anything harsh if you disagree with what I propose?"
Yeobright promised, and she continued: "What I want is your advice, for you are my relation-I mean, a sort of guardian to me-aren"t you, Clym?"
"Well, yes, I suppose I am; a sort of guardian. In fact, I am, of course," he said, altogether perplexed as to her drift.
"I am thinking of marrying," she then observed blandly. "But I shall not marry unless you a.s.sure me that you approve of such a step. Why don"t you speak?"
"I was taken rather by surprise. But, nevertheless, I am very glad to hear such news. I shall approve, of course, dear Tamsie. Who can it be? I am quite at a loss to guess. No I am not-"tis the old doctor!-not that I mean to call him old, for he is not very old after all. Ah-I noticed when he attended you last time!"
"No, no," she said hastily. ""Tis Mr. Venn."
Clym"s face suddenly became grave.
"There, now, you don"t like him, and I wish I hadn"t mentioned him!" she exclaimed almost petulantly. "And I shouldn"t have done it, either, only he keeps on bothering me so till I don"t know what to do!"
Clym looked at the heath. "I like Venn well enough," he answered at last. "He is a very honest and at the same time astute man. He is clever too, as is proved by his having got you to favour him. But really, Thomasin, he is not quite-"
"Gentleman enough for me? That is just what I feel. I am sorry now that I asked you, and I won"t think any more of him. At the same time I must marry him if I marry anybody-that I WILL say!"
"I don"t see that," said Clym, carefully concealing every clue to his own interrupted intention, which she plainly had not guessed. "You might marry a professional man, or somebody of that sort, by going into the town to live and forming acquaintances there."
"I am not fit for town life-so very rural and silly as I always have been. Do not you yourself notice my countrified ways?"
"Well, when I came home from Paris I did, a little; but I don"t now."
"That"s because you have got countrified too. O, I couldn"t live in a street for the world! Egdon is a ridiculous old place; but I have got used to it, and I couldn"t be happy anywhere else at all."
"Neither could I," said Clym.
"Then how could you say that I should marry some town man? I am sure, say what you will, that I must marry Diggory, if I marry at all. He has been kinder to me than anybody else, and has helped me in many ways that I don"t know of!" Thomasin almost pouted now.
"Yes, he has," said Clym in a neutral tone. "Well, I wish with all my heart that I could say, marry him. But I cannot forget what my mother thought on that matter, and it goes rather against me not to respect her opinion. There is too much reason why we should do the little we can to respect it now."
"Very well, then," sighed Thomasin. "I will say no more."
"But you are not bound to obey my wishes. I merely say what I think."
"O no-I don"t want to be rebellious in that way," she said sadly. "I had no business to think of him-I ought to have thought of my family. What dreadfully bad impulses there are in me!" Her lips trembled, and she turned away to hide a tear.
Clym, though vexed at what seemed her unaccountable taste, was in a measure relieved to find that at any rate the marriage question in relation to himself was shelved. Through several succeeding days he saw her at different times from the window of his room moping disconsolately about the garden. He was half angry with her for choosing Venn; then he was grieved at having put himself in the way of Venn"s happiness, who was, after all, as honest and persevering a young fellow as any on Egdon, since he had turned over a new leaf. In short, Clym did not know what to do.
When next they met she said abruptly, "He is much more respectable now than he was then!"
"Who? O yes-Diggory Venn."
"Aunt only objected because he was a reddleman."
"Well, Thomasin, perhaps I don"t know all the particulars of my mother"s wish. So you had better use your own discretion."
"You will always feel that I slighted your mother"s memory."
"No, I will not. I shall think you are convinced that, had she seen Diggory in his present position, she would have considered him a fitting husband for you. Now, that"s my real feeling. Don"t consult me any more, but do as you like, Thomasin. I shall be content."
It is to be supposed that Thomasin was convinced; for a few days after this, when Clym strayed into a part of the heath that he had not lately visited, Humphrey, who was at work there, said to him, "I am glad to see that Mrs. Wildeve and Venn have made it up again, seemingly."
"Have they?" said Clym abstractedly.
"Yes; and he do contrive to stumble upon her whenever she walks out on fine days with the chiel. But, Mr. Yeobright, I can"t help feeling that your cousin ought to have married you. "Tis a pity to make two chimleycorners where there need be only one. You could get her away from him now, "tis my belief, if you were only to set about it."
"How can I have the conscience to marry after having driven two women to their deaths? Don"t think such a thing, Humphrey. After my experience I should consider it too much of a burlesque to go to church and take a wife. In the words of Job, "I have made a covenant with mine eyes; when then should I think upon a maid?""
"No, Mr. Clym, don"t fancy that about driving two women to their deaths. You shouldn"t say it."
"Well, we"ll leave that out," said Yeobright. "But anyhow G.o.d has set a mark upon me which wouldn"t look well in a love-making scene. I have two ideas in my head, and no others. I am going to keep a night-school; and I am going to turn preacher. What have you got to say to that, Humphrey?"
"I"ll come and hear "ee with all my heart."
"Thanks. "Tis all I wish."
As Clym descended into the valley Thomasin came down by the other path, and met him at the gate. "What do you think I have to tell you, Clym?" she said, looking archly over her shoulder at him.
"I can guess," he replied.
She scrutinized his face. "Yes, you guess right. It is going to be after all. He thinks I may as well make up my mind, and I have got to think so too. It is to be on the twenty-fifth of next month, if you don"t object."
"Do what you think right, dear. I am only too glad that you see your way clear to happiness again. My s.e.x owes you every amends for the treatment you received in days gone by."*
* The writer may state here that the original conception of the story did not design a marriage between Thomasin and Venn. He was to have retained his isolated and weird character to the last, and to have disappeared mysteriously from the heath, n.o.body knowing whither-Thomasin remaining a widow. But certain circ.u.mstances of serial publication led to a change of intent.
Readers can therefore choose between the endings, and those with an austere artistic code can a.s.sume the more consistent conclusion to be the true one.
4-Cheerfulness Again a.s.serts Itself at Blooms-End, and Clym Finds His
Vocation Anybody who had pa.s.sed through Blooms-End about eleven o"clock on the morning fixed for the wedding would have found that, while Yeobright"s house was comparatively quiet, sounds denoting great activity came from the dwelling of his nearest neighbour, Timothy Fairway. It was chiefly a noise of feet, briskly crunching hither and thither over the sanded floor within. One man only was visible outside, and he seemed to be later at an appointment than he had intended to be, for he hastened up to the door, lifted the latch, and walked in without ceremony.
The scene within was not quite the customary one. Standing about the room was the little knot of men who formed the chief part of the Egdon coterie, there being present Fairway himself, Grandfer Cantle, Humphrey, Christian, and one or two turf-cutters. It was a warm day, and the men were as a matter of course in their shirtsleeves, except Christian, who had always a nervous fear of parting with a sc.r.a.p of his clothing when in anybody"s house but his own. Across the stout oak table in the middle of the room was thrown a ma.s.s of striped linen, which Grandfer Cantle held down on one side, and Humphrey on the other, while Fairway rubbed its surface with a yellow lump, his face being damp and creased with the effort of the labour.
"Waxing a bed-tick, souls?" said the newcomer.
"Yes, Sam," said Grandfer Cantle, as a man too busy to waste words. "Shall I stretch this corner a shade tighter, Timothy?"
Fairway replied, and the waxing went on with unabated vigour. ""Tis going to be a good bed, by the look o"t," continued Sam, after an interval of silence. "Who may it be for?"
""Tis a present for the new folks that"s going to set up housekeeping," said Christian, who stood helpless and overcome by the majesty of the proceedings.
"Ah, to be sure; and a valuable one, "a b"lieve."
"Beds be dear to fokes that don"t keep geese, bain"t they, Mister Fairway?" said Christian, as to an omniscient being.
"Yes," said the furze-dealer, standing up, giving his forehead a thorough mopping, and handing the beeswax to Humphrey, who succeeded at the rubbing forthwith. "Not that this couple be in want of one, but "twas well to show "em a bit of friendliness at this great racketing vagary of their lives. I set up both my own daughters in one when they was married, and there have been feathers enough for another in the house the last twelve months. Now then, neighbours, I think we have laid on enough wax. Grandfer Cantle, you turn the tick the right way outwards, and then I"ll begin to shake in the feathers."
When the bed was in proper trim Fairway and Christian brought forward vast paper bags, stuffed to the full, but light as balloons, and began to turn the contents of each into the receptacle just prepared. As bag after bag was emptied, airy tufts of down and feathers floated about the room in increasing quant.i.ty till, through a mishap of Christian"s, who shook the contents of one bag outside the tick, the atmosphere of the room became dense with gigantic flakes, which descended upon the workers like a windless snowstorm.
"I never saw such a clumsy chap as you, Christian," said Grandfer Cantle severely. "You might have been the son of a man that"s never been outside Blooms-End in his life for all the wit you have. Really all the soldiering and smartness in the world in the father seems to count for nothing in forming the nater of the son. As far as that chief Christian is concerned I might as well have stayed at home and seed nothing, like all the rest of ye here. Though, as far as myself is concerned, a dashing spirit has counted for sommat, to be sure!"
"Don"t ye let me down so, Father; I feel no bigger than a ninepin after it. I"ve made but a bruckle hit, I"m afeard."
"Come, come. Never pitch yerself in such a low key as that, Christian; you should try more," said Fairway.
"Yes, you should try more," echoed the Grandfer with insistence, as if he had been the first to make the suggestion. "In common conscience every man ought either to marry or go for a soldier. "Tis a scandal to the nation to do neither one nor t"other. I did both, thank G.o.d! Neither to raise men nor to lay "em low-that shows a poor do-nothing spirit indeed."
"I never had the nerve to stand fire," faltered Christian. "But as to marrying, I own I"ve asked here and there, though without much fruit from it. Yes, there"s some house or other that might have had a man for a master-such as he is-that"s now ruled by a woman alone. Still it might have been awkward if I had found her; for, d"ye see, neighbours, there"d have been n.o.body left at home to keep down Father"s spirits to the decent pitch that becomes a old man."
"And you"ve your work cut out to do that, my son," said Grandfer Cantle smartly. "I wish that the dread of infirmities was not so strong in me!-I"d start the very first thing tomorrow to see the world over again! But seventy-one, though nothing at home, is a high figure for a rover....Ay, seventy-one, last Candlemasday. Gad, I"d sooner have it in guineas than in years!" And the old man sighed.
"Don"t you be mournful, Grandfer," said Fairway. "Empt some more feathers into the bed-tick, and keep up yer heart. Though rather lean in the stalks you be a green-leaved old man still. There"s time enough left to ye yet to fill whole chronicles."
"Begad, I"ll go to "em, Timothy-to the married pair!" said Granfer Cantle in an encouraged voice, and starting round briskly. "I"ll go to "em tonight and sing a wedding song, hey? "Tis like me to do so, you know; and they"d see it as such. My "Down in Cupid"s Gardens" was well liked in four; still, I"ve got others as good, and even better. What do you say to my She cal"-led to" her love"
From the lat"-tice a-bove, "O come in" from the fog-gy fog"-gy dew"."
"Twould please "em well at such a time! Really, now I come to think of it, I haven"t turned my tongue in my head to the shape of a real good song since Old Midsummer night, when we had the "Barley Mow" at the Woman; and "tis a pity to neglect your strong point where there"s few that have the compa.s.s for such things!"
"So "tis, so "tis," said Fairway. "Now gie the bed a shake down. We"ve put in seventy pounds of best feathers, and I think that"s as many as the tick will fairly hold. A bit and a drap wouldn"t be amiss now, I reckon. Christian, maul down the victuals from corner-cupboard if canst reach, man, and I"ll draw a drap o" sommat to wet it with."
They sat down to a lunch in the midst of their work, feathers around, above, and below them; the original owners of which occasionally came to the open door and cackled begrudgingly at sight of such a quant.i.ty of their old clothes.
"Upon my soul I shall be chokt," said Fairway when, having extracted a feather from his mouth, he found several others floating on the mug as it was handed round.
"I"ve swallered several; and one had a tolerable quill," said Sam placidly from the corner.
"Hullo-what"s that-wheels I hear coming?" Grandfer Cantle exclaimed, jumping up and hastening to the door. "Why, "tis they back again-I didn"t expect "em yet this half-hour. To be sure, how quick marrying can be done when you are in the mind for"t!"
"O yes, it can soon be DONE," said Fairway, as if something should be added to make the statement complete.
He arose and followed the Grandfer, and the rest also went to the door. In a moment an open fly was driven past, in which sat Venn and Mrs. Venn, Yeobright, and a grand relative of Venn"s who had come from Budmouth for the occasion. The fly had been hired at the nearest town, regardless of distance and cost, there being nothing on Egdon Heath, in Venn"s opinion, dignified enough for such an event when such a woman as Thomasin was the bride; and the church was too remote for a walking bridal-party.
As the fly pa.s.sed the group which had run out from the homestead they shouted "Hurrah!" and waved their hands; feathers and down floating from their hair, their sleeves, and the folds of their garments at every motion, and Grandfer Cantle"s seals dancing merrily in the sunlight as he twirled himself about. The driver of the fly turned a supercilious gaze upon them; he even treated the wedded pair themselves with something like condescension; for in what other state than heathen could people, rich or poor, exist who were doomed to abide in such a world"s end as Egdon? Thomasin showed no such superiority to the group at the door, fluttering her hand as quickly as a bird"s wing towards them, and asking Diggory, with tears in her eyes, if they ought not to alight and speak to these kind neighbours. Venn, however, suggested that, as they were all coming to the house in the evening, this was hardly necessary.
After this excitement the saluting party returned to their occupation, and the stuffing and sewing were soon afterwards finished, when Fairway harnessed a horse, wrapped up the c.u.mbrous present, and drove off with it in the cart to Venn"s house at Stickleford.
Yeobright, having filled the office at the wedding service which naturally fell to his hands, and afterwards returned to the house with the husband and wife, was indisposed to take part in the feasting and dancing that wound up the evening. Thomasin was disappointed.
"I wish I could be there without dashing your spirits," he said. "But I might be too much like the skull at the banquet."
"No, no."
"Well, dear, apart from that, if you would excuse me, I should be glad. I know it seems unkind; but, dear Thomasin, I fear I should not be happy in the company-there, that"s the truth of it. I shall always be coming to see you at your new home, you know, so that my absence now will not matter."