"Is he? How awful! But, then, he"ll have to go somewhere. You know we can"t have him epilepsing all over the place here."
The old lady dropped her knitting to raise her hands.
"Minnie! Minnie! Have a little Trust. He may never come at all."
"He will. Trust _him_."
"After all," said Kate reflectively, "why should he?"
"Why? Why?" The girl came forward, spreading her large red hands before her. "Because we"ve paid all his debts. Because we"ve saved money and got straight again. Because we"re getting to know one or two decent people, and it"s taken us fifteen years to do it. Because we"re beginning to enjoy ourselves for the first time in all our miserable lives. Because I"ve set my heart on staying with the Tanquerays, and Fred Tanqueray will be there. Because"--a queer, fierce light came into her eyes--"because I"m happy, and he means to spoil it all, as he spoilt it all before! As if I hadn"t suffered enough."
"You? What have you suffered?" Kate"s sharp face was red as she bent over a dropped st.i.tch. Her hands trembled. "You were too young to feel anything."
"I wasn"t too young to feel that I had a career before me, nor to care when it was knocked on the head. If it hadn"t been for him my music wouldn"t have come to an end as it did."
"Your music! If it hadn"t been for him my engagement wouldn"t have been broken off--as it was."
"Oh _that_? It was the one solitary good day"s work Stephen ever did."
The old lady nodded shrewdly over her needles. "Yes, my dear, you might be thankful for that mercy. You couldn"t have married Mr.
Hooper. I"m afraid he wasn"t altogether what he ought to be. You yourself suspected that he drank."
"Like a fish," interposed Minnie.
"I know"--Kate"s hands were fumbling violently over her st.i.tch--"but--but I could have reclaimed him."
Her eyes lost their meanness with the little momentary light of illusion.
Minnie laughed aloud. "If that"s all you wanted, why didn"t you try your hand on Stephen?"
"Don"t, Minnie."
But Minnie did. "Fred Tanqueray doesn"t drink; I wouldn"t look at him if he did. What"s more, he"s a gentleman; I couldn"t stand him if he wasn"t. Catch him marrying into this family when he"s seen Stephen."
"Minnie, you are _too_ dreadful."
"Dreadful? You"d be dreadful if you"d cared as much for Charlie Hooper as I do for Fred Tanqueray."
"And how much does Mr. Tanqueray care for you?"
A dull flush spread over Minnie"s sallow face; her lips coa.r.s.ened.
"I don"t know; but it"s a good deal more than your Hooper man ever cared for anybody in his life; and if you weren"t such a hopeless sentimentalist you"d have seen that much. Of course I shan"t know whether he cares or not--now."
And she wept, because of the anguish of her thirty years.
Then she burst out: "I _hate_ Stephen. I don"t care what you say--if he comes into this house I"ll walk out of it. Oh, how I hate him!"
Her loose mouth dropped, still quivering with its speech. Her face was one flame with her hair.
But Kate was cool and collected.
"Don"t excite yourself. If it"s only to influence Fred Tanqueray, he won"t come," said Kate.
Then the red-haired woman turned on her, mad with the torture of her frustrate pa.s.sion.
"He _will_ come! He _will_ come, I tell you. I"ve felt him coming.
I"ve felt it in my bones. I"ve dreamt about it night after night.
I"ve been afraid to meet the postman lest he should bring another letter. I"ve been afraid to go along the station road lest I should meet _him_. I"m afraid now to look out of that window lest I should see him standing there with his face against the pane."
She crossed to the window and drew down the blind. For a moment her shadow was flung across it, monstrously agitated, the huge hands working.
The man outside saw nothing more, but he heard his mother"s voice and he took hope again.
"For shame, Minnie, for shame, to speak of poor Steevy so. One would think you might have a little more affection for your only brother."
"Look here, Mother" (Minnie again!), "that"s all sentimental humbug.
Can you look me in the face and honestly say you"d be glad to see your only son?"
(The son"s heart yearned, straining for the answer. It came quavering.)
"My dear, I shall not see him. I"m a poor, weak old woman, and I know that the Lord will not send me any burden that I cannot bear."
He crept from his hiding-place out into the silent lane. He had drawn his breath tight, but his chest still shook with the sob he had strangled. "My G.o.d!" he muttered, "I"ll take off the burden."
Then his sob broke out again, and it sounded more like a laugh than a sob. "The dollars--they shall have them. Every blessed one of the d.a.m.ned five million!"
He looked at his watch by the light of the gas-lamp in the lane. He had just time to catch the last train down; time, too, to stop the carrier"s cart with the gifts that would have told the tale of his returning.
So, with a quick step, he went back by the way he had come, out of the place where the dead had buried their dead--until the Day of Judgment.
THE GIFT
I
He had not been near her for two months. It was barely five minutes"
walk from his house in Bedford Square to her rooms in Montagu Street, and last year he used to go to see her every week. He did not need the reminder of her letter, for he had been acutely aware, through the term that separated them, of the date when he had last seen her. Still, he was not sure how much longer he might have kept away if it had not been for the note that told him in two lines that she had been ill, and that she had--at last--something to show him.
He smiled at the childlike secrecy of the announcement. She had something to show him. Her illness, then, had not impaired her gift, her charming, inimitable gift.
If she had something to show him he would have to go to her.
He let his eyes rest a moment on her signature as if he saw it for the first time, as if it renewed for him the pleasing impression of her personality. After all, she was Freda Farrar, the only woman with a style and an imagination worth considering; and he--well, he was Wilton Caldecott.
He would go over and see her now. He had an hour to spare before dinner. It was her hour, between the lamplight and the clear April day, when he was always sure of finding her at home.
He found her sitting in her deep chair by the hearth, her long, slender back bent forward to the fire, her hands glowing like thin vessels for the flame. Her face was turned toward him as he came in.