She brightened visibly. "If you like I can show you a better one than this. It"s not so very far;"--she hesitated--"we might go to-morrow, perhaps; though it wouldn"t be very amusing, I"m afraid."
Again he felt a touch of compunction. She had so clearly grasped the situation; she was so evidently sorry for him, so conscientious, even if mistaken, in her efforts to make amends, that he found her positively pathetic. He answered humbly that he would be delighted if she would be so good.
Then, conscientiously again, she left him. He watched her tall figure departing with energetic strides, and he decided that Miss Tancred was not so bad out of doors, but that she needed a large background.
The next morning he had the grace to remind her of her promise. They started at a rapid pace. Durant left the paraphernalia of his art behind him by way of intimating delicately that the hour was hers.
Miss Tancred was evidently prepared for vigorous walking. She was dressed suitably and inoffensively in brown holland. She took him up a long, gradually rising hill to where a group of firs stood on an isolated mound.
Here Miss Tancred paused, with tilted profile, sniffing the ambient air. "This," she said, "is the highest point in the county; there is always a fresh breeze here; to-day you can smell the sea."
"Impossible; we must be right in the very center of England, about a hundred miles from the nearest coast."
"You can hear it, then. Shut your eyes and listen."
He obeyed. The wind moved and the firs gave out their voice. He opened his eyes and glanced at Miss Tancred. She was leaning up against a fir; her eyes looked straight past him into the distance; the wind had loosened the hair about her forehead; her lips were parted, her eyes shone; there was an eagerness in her face he had not yet seen there. It was as if a dead woman had been suddenly made alive before him. She was gazing and listening.
"If you"ve never been out of Wickshire, where have you heard the sea?"
She answered curtly, "I don"t know where I"ve heard it"; then added, as if by way of apology for her manner, "Do you like it?"
"Immensely."
"Then you must come up whenever you want to. You can always be alone here."
She spoke as if she were giving him the freedom of her private sanctuary.
"Have you any sketches of those places you"ve been to abroad?"
"Sketches? Any amount."
"Have you brought them with you?"
He blushed. He had brought many sketches in the hope of showing them to a wealthy G.o.dfather and an admiring G.o.d-sister.
"Some--a few."
"I wish you"d show them to me."
"I shall be delighted." He blushed again, this time for pleasure.
With the desire to bestow a little of it, he asked rashly, "Do you sketch, Miss Tancred? I saw some water-colors----"
"They were my mother"s. I do nothing."
"Oh, I see." (They were going home now.) "I was wondering what on earth you found to do here."
"I? A great many things. Business chiefly. My father is secretary to the Primrose League. I write all his letters for him."
"That"s one way of being secretary to the Primrose League."
"The usual way, I think. Secretaries generally have under-secretaries, haven"t they? My father dictates."
Durant smiled. He could see him doing it. "What else does Colonel Tancred do?"
"He does no end of things. All the business of the estate; and he speaks, at meetings, everywhere. He has lectured----"
It was pathetic, her eagerness to vindicate his intellect, to record his achievements, to convince Durant that she was proud of him, not to let him see.
For the rest of the way she was silent, the light died out of her eyes with every turning, and by the time they had reached Coton Manor Miss Tancred was herself again.
At whist that evening n.o.body was pleased. The Colonel looked sulky and offended, possibly at Durant"s disaffection; Durant was moodier than ever, and even Mrs. Fazakerly seemed depressed. Miss Tancred remained imperturbable and indifferent, she won every trick without turning a hair, but when it was all over she left the table abruptly. She was visibly distressed. Mrs. Fazakerly gazed after her with an affectionate stare. She turned to Durant.
"For goodness" sake," she whispered, "say something nice to her."
For the life of him Durant could think of nothing nice to say, beyond congratulating her on her success in the accursed game.
Mrs. Fazakerly chimed in, "With or without a partner Miss Tancred wins!"
"I always win. So, I imagine, does Mr. Durant."
"And why should I always win?"
"You? You win because you care nothing about the game."
V
If you had told Durant that the end of his first week would find him sitting under the firs in lonely conversation with Miss Tancred, he would have smiled at you incredulously. Yet so it was. Her fear of him, if fear it had been, and not indifference, was wearing away.
She seemed anxious to make friends with him if possible in a less painfully conscientious manner, and he, on his side, was beginning to tolerate her. In fact, he went so far as to own that, if it had not been for that ridiculous idea of his, he would have tolerated her from the first. It was not her fault if he had been fool enough to fall in love with her before sight or at half-sight. She had disappointed him (hence his natural disgust); but the thing had happened many times before in his experience. After all, he had had no grounds for his pa.s.sionate belief in Miss Tancred beyond the argument from defect, the vague feeling that Destiny owed him amends for her intolerable shortcomings. But Durant"s mind was too sane and versatile to be long concerned with pa.s.sion yet unborn. He was not one of those pitiable sentimentalists who imagine that every petticoat, or at any rate every well-cut skirt, conceals a probable ideal. Some women of his acquaintance had defined, not to say denounced, him as a consummate and dangerous flirt, but these were not the most discerning of their s.e.x. Durant described himself more correctly as a sympathetic, though dispa.s.sionate, observer of womankind. In other words, he was not a vulgar flirt; he flirted with understanding.
An understanding without flirtation was springing up between him and Miss Tancred. In this G.o.d-forsaken place they were comrades in boredom and isolation. She had said nothing, but in some impalpable yet intimate way he knew that she, too, was bored, that the Colonel bored her. The knowledge lay between them unnamed, untouched by either of them; they pa.s.sed it by, she in her shame and he in his delicacy, with eyes averted from it and from each other. It was as if the horror had crept out through some invisible, intangible doorway of confession; unseen, unapproached, it remained their secret and the source of their mutual pity. Meanwhile she no longer avoided him; on the contrary, she showed an unmistakable liking for his society. She would come while he was sketching and sit beside him for five minutes, fifteen minutes, half an hour, remaining silent, or merely exchanging a few frank words with him before she went her way. In these matters she was gifted with an unerring tact; without a hint on Durant"s part she seemed to know to a nicety how far her presence was agreeable or otherwise.
This time he had gone up the hill after dinner, and had found her sitting in the accustomed place. They had been alone that evening, for the Colonel was dining intimately with Mrs. Fazakerly. That lady, with a refined friendliness that did her credit, had refrained from including Miss Tancred and Durant in the invitation, thereby insuring them one evening"s immunity from whist. Durant could make no better use of his freedom than by spending it alone out of doors; it seemed that Miss Tancred had done the same with hers.
She was sitting there on the edge of the mound, clasping her knees and gazing into the distance. He apologized for his intrusion, and she waked from her abstraction with a dreamy air, making a visible effort to take him in and realize him. But, though she said simply that she was glad he had come, the effect of his coming was to plunge her into deeper abstraction. They sat for some time without speaking. Miss Tancred had a prodigious faculty for silence, and Durant let her have her way, being indeed indifferent to Miss Tancred"s way.
At last she spoke.
"It"s odd how some people take Nature," said she; "for instance, Mrs. Fazakerly says she loves it because it"s so soothing. She might just as well say she liked listening to an orchestra because it sends her to sleep. She can"t love it for its own sake."
"You"ll think me horribly rude, but I doubt if any woman can. That is the one thing a woman is incapable of--a pure pa.s.sion for Nature, a really disinterested love of life. It"s an essentially masculine sentiment."
"I don"t at all agree with you."
"Don"t you? To begin with, it argues more vitality than most women have got. They take to it as a subst.i.tute for other things; and to be content with it would mean that they had exhausted, outlived the other things."
"What other things?"
She was studying every line of his young, repugnant face, and Durant was a little embarra.s.sed by her steady gaze.