There were other sounds around him, other movements. He ignored them until Pavek-mortal Pavek, who did not understand-stood before him with a length of cloth torn from the treasures of ancient Yaramuke in one hand and the critic-lizard"s honey pot in the other.
Windreaver stirred, casting his shadow between them. "You waste your time, manikin. The Troll-Scorcher neither feels nor heals."
Pavek said nothing, and his thoughts were tightly shuttered in his druid-templar way. He poured the honey over Hamanu"s wound-an old soldier"s remedy, Javed would approve, Telhami, too-then wrapped the cloth around it, hiding it from sight. Hamanu closed his eyes and reveled in a newfound pain.
CHAPTER TEN.
Hamanu banished his companions from the workroom. He"d lived too long outside the bounds of compa.s.sion to be comfortable within its embrace. Not that Windreaver had suddenly mellowed; the shadowy troll departed in a gust of bitter laughter. Hamanu didn"t know where his ancient enemy had gone-to Ur Draxa, perhaps, where he should have been all along, spying on Rajaat.
In truth, Hamanu didn"t care where Windreaver was. It was Pavek who weighed heavily in his thoughts, and Pavek who ignored his command. The stubborn, insignificant mortal stopped one stride short of the doorway.
"Your hand-" he said, defiance and fear entwined in his voice. Then he held out the honey jar.
"I am the almighty, immortal Lion-King of Urik, or weren"t you paying attention?" Hamanu snarled. "My flesh doesn"t heal, but it won"t putrefy. I require neither your service nor your concern."
Pavek stayed where he was, not talking, not thinking-at least not thinking thoughts that could be skimmed from his mind. Twisting human lips into a scowl, Hamanu shaped and shifted his illusionary body. He intended to s.n.a.t.c.h the jar from the templar"s hand faster than Pavek"s mortal eyes could perceive. But Hamanu had a real injury: his reflexes, both illusory and real, were impaired. His fingers slid past the jar. The improvised bandage snagged the rough-glazed pottery and tugged the raw edges of his wound as well.
The Lion-King flinched, the jar shattered on the floor, and Pavek blinked-simply blinked.
Hamanu cradled his hand-the real hand within the illusion-trying to remember the last time he"d misjudged the balance between reality and his own illusions. Before the templar was born, before his grandparents had been born.
"You cannot take my measure, Pavek. A mortal cannot imagine me or judge me." There was more edge to his words than he"d intended, but that was just as well, if it would get the templar moving.
Pavek folded his arms across his chest. "You were mortal when you measured Myron of Yoram and Rajaat. You didn"t hesitate to judge them," he said, omitting the Lion-King"s t.i.tles and honors, as if he and Hamanu were equals.
"Go now," Hamanu commanded.
But he wasn"t surprised when the templar disobeyed; he would have been disappointed otherwise. Pavek didn"t share Hamanu"s hot temper, but the mortal man had a quiet stubbornness that served the same purpose. An ill-omened purpose for any mortal when a champion"s mood was more bleak than it had been in an age.
"Go, Pavek, before my patience is exhausted. I do not choose to be lessoned tonight, not by you, Windreaver, or anyone."
"You didn"t finish your tale."
"Men have died-and died unpleasantly-" The rest of Hamanu"s threat went unspoken. He wouldn"t kill tonight, and he"d never kill a man who dared to tell him the truth. "Not tonight, Pavek. Some other time. Go home, Pavek. Eat a late supper with your friends. Sleep well. I"ll summon you when I need you."
A thought formed on the surface of Pavek"s mind, so clear and simple that Hamanu questioned every a.s.sumption he"d ever made about the man"s innocence or simplicity. Surely my king needs sleep and food, Surely my king needs sleep and food, Pavek thought. Pavek thought. Surely he needs friends about him tonight. Surely he needs friends about him tonight.
I do not sleep, Pavek, Hamanu replied, shoving the words directly into the templar"s mind, which was enough, at last, to send him staggering across the threshold. Hamanu replied, shoving the words directly into the templar"s mind, which was enough, at last, to send him staggering across the threshold.
"Friends," the king muttered to himself when he was finally alone. "A troll who loathes me, justly, and a templar who defies me. Friends. Nonsense. A pox on friends."
But the thought of friendship was no easier to banish than Pavek had been. No one had known Hamanu longer, or knew him better, than the last troll general. Urik"s history was their history, laced with venom and bile, but shared all the same. What was Windreaver, if not a friend, as well as an enemy?
And what was a friend, if not a mortal man who overcame his own-good sense to bandage a dragon"s hand?
Hamanu"s hand, down to its patterned whorls and calluses, was illusion, but the wound was real-he had the power to pierce his own defenses, even absentmindedly. There had been other wounds over the ages, which he"d hidden within illusion. Tonight, sorcery and illusion had failed, or, more truly, Hamanu himself had failed. The sight of molten metal in his palm had filled him with horror and self-loathing, and given Pavek an opportunity no mortal should have had. had the power to pierce his own defenses, even absentmindedly. There had been other wounds over the ages, which he"d hidden within illusion. Tonight, sorcery and illusion had failed, or, more truly, Hamanu himself had failed. The sight of molten metal in his palm had filled him with horror and self-loathing, and given Pavek an opportunity no mortal should have had.
Ordinary cloth would have burned or rotted when it touched a champion"s changeable flesh. There was only one piece of suitably enchanted cloth in the workroom: the celadon gown of Sieiba Sprite-Claw, champion and queen of Yaramuke. She had worn it when she died in the Lion-King"s arms, with his obsidian knife piercing her heart.
Had Windreaver guessed Pavek"s intentions while Hamanu was preoccupied? Had the troll whispered a suggestion in Pavek"s mortal ears- Or, had some instinct guided the templar"s search? Some druid druid instinct? Some druid guardian whose presence a champion"s magic couldn"t detect? instinct? Some druid guardian whose presence a champion"s magic couldn"t detect?
Hamanu had thought himself clever when he conceived his campaign to win Pavek"s support as a means to win the druid guardian"s protection for his city. His bandaged hand could be taken as a sign that he was succeeding-but, at what cost?
A wound?
That was nothing. Windreaver spoke the truth: Rajaat"s champions didn"t heal, but the raw crater would be consumed by Hamanu"s inexorable metamorphosis. In the meantime, he"d had a thousand year"s practice ignoring worse agony.
A wound, then, was no cost, but what about the nagging emptiness around his slow-beating heart, hinting that he"d lived too long?
He had Urik, and for a thousand years, Urik had been enough. Mortals came and went; Urik endured. The city was immortal; the city had become Hamanu"s life. The pa.s.sions of his minions had supplanted any natural yearning for love or friendship. Then he conceived the notion of writing his history, and after that-after ages of attention and nurturing-his precious minions wandered the city like lost children while he confessed his private history on sheets of vellum.
Hamanu berated himself for their neglect and sought his favorites through the netherworld.
Lord Ursos reclined in his scented bath while adolescents satisfied his whims, his needs. Elegant fingers cupped a beardless chin and drew it close.
The Lion-King turned away. Lord Ursos"s bents were familiar, stale, and without fascination. The bath faded from his imagination. He looked around the workroom for another stylus.
I don"t know how long I remained strung between life and death, locked in a mind-bender"s battle with Myron of Yoram. That"s what it was, a netherworld war: the Troll-Scorcher"s imagery against mine, his years of experience against the purity of my rage, my hatred. I was, if not dead, at least not truly unconscious when the battle ended. Our battle had lasted long enough and was loud enough to disturb the War-Bringer"s peace, and that was what truly mattered.
Rajaat burned through the Gray to find me, though I could not appreciate my rescue or his undoubtedly spectacular appearance on the plains. I was aware of nothing except the pain, the darkness, the silence and-very dimly-that my enemy no longer rose to the challenges I continued, in my mad, mindless way, to hurl at him.
Then there was a ray of light in my black abyss, a wedge of sound, a voice I recognized as power incarnate, telling me to desist.
Your pleas are heard, your wishes granted.
Rajaat. No need for him to state his name, then or ever. When the first sorcerer was present in my mind, the world was Rajaat and Rajaat was the world, endless and eternal.
Look for yourself- He gave me a kes"trekel"s vision and hearing. Peering down from a soaring height, I saw mekillots pulling a four-wheeled cart along a barrens road. There was a cage on the cart, and Myron of Yoram was in the cage. The Troll-Scorcher had himself been scorched. He lay on his back, a bloated, blackened carca.s.s. His charred skin hung in tattered strips that swayed in rhythm with the creaking cart. A cloud of buzzing insects feasted on his suppurating wounds.
I"d judged Yoram a corpse; I was wrong. With Rajaat"s aid, I heard pathetic whimpers in the depths of his flame-ravaged throat. I saw delicate silver chains nearly lost in the rotting folds at his wrists and ankles: links of sorcery potent enough to render a champion helpless.
I was pleased, but not satisfied. It was not enough that the Troll-Scorcher suffered for his betrayal of the human cause. The war against the trolls had to be fought and won- In time, Manu. In due time. Wait. Rest- A soft shadow surrounded me, not the bleak darkness of my recent torment, but oblivion all the same. I wasn"t interested in oblivion or resting or waiting. Childish and petulant, I tried to escape the shadow.
My uncanny vision shifted: There was a second cart. Like the first, it ferried a human husk across the barrens. The second body was little more than a black-boned skeleton held together with rags. Its knees were drawn up. Its arms were crossed and fused together. They hid what remained of its face.
Of my face...
The husk was alive; the husk was me.
All the pain I"d felt was nothing compared to my imagination when I saw what had become of Manu, the lithe dancer of Deche. I no longer fought Rajaat"s shadow. I surrendered myself to its numbing softness.
Don"t despair, Rajaat told me with a grandfather"s kindly voice. Rajaat told me with a grandfather"s kindly voice. Pain belongs to your past. Soon you will be reborn and you will never know pain or suffering again. Pain belongs to your past. Soon you will be reborn and you will never know pain or suffering again.
From the first, I doubted that promise: a life without pain or suffering wouldn"t be a human life. But my living corpse was strong in my mind, so I banished my doubts and drifted until I heard his voice again.
It is time.
The soft shadow faded. My mind returned slowly to my body. At first, there was only pressure. Then I distinguished movement within the pressure. At last, there was a sense of unfolding, of stretching, of sound. I had ears again.
"It is time for you to be reborn."
The pressure was Rajaat"s sorcery-laden hands restoring my body around me. His thumbs traced the curves of my eye sockets. Bone grew like bread rising in a baker"s oven, but Rajaat"s miracle was not without discomfort. Bone was not meant to grow and harden so quickly. For one unbearable moment, the pain was so intense that I would have begged him to stop, if I"d had a mouth or tongue.
Rajaat knew my thoughts. "Patience, child. The worst is behind you. The best is barely begun."
I hadn"t been anyone"s child for years. I did not care to be reminded of what I"d lost, and I wasn"t willing to cede my hard-won manhood, even to a G.o.d. A low, rumbling chuckle echoed through my mind. My thoughts scattered as chaff on the wind.
Today, perhaps, I could keep a secret from my creator-certainly that is why I have a spell simmering beside me-but not that day under the relentless sun. I took refuge in the manners my parents had taught me and thanked him properly. Chuckles became a kirre"s contented purr.
Pressure shifted. Rajaat began restoring my cheekbones and jaw.
My reborn ears made me aware that Rajaat and I were not alone.
"Look at him," a deep-voiced man said. "A farmer. A dung-skull, no better than a slave. I tell you, there"s no need. The Scorcher"s finished, but so are the gnomes. There"s no need for the War-Bringer to replace replace him. My army stands ready. They could finish the trolls in a single campaign." him. My army stands ready. They could finish the trolls in a single campaign."
In the Troll-Scorcher"s army, we"d heard of the other armies cleansing the human heartland, and of the leader of them all. Even before I knew his true name-before I knew what Rajaat was or what I was to become-I knew that Gal-lard, Bane of Gnomes, was not half the military genius he believed himself to be. Gnomes had been sly and wily, as he was, himself. Gallard"s stealthy strategies were effective in the dwindling forests where they dwelt, but Windreaver would have carved the Gnome-Bane and his army into kes"trekel bait.
The Gnome-Bane wasn"t my only audience.
"A peasant," a woman agreed. "He might be useful, useful, when the War-Bringer"s done with him." Her name, I later learned, was Sielba. I would learn more about her notion of usefulness as the years went on, but at that moment, I had no interest in them or her. when the War-Bringer"s done with him." Her name, I later learned, was Sielba. I would learn more about her notion of usefulness as the years went on, but at that moment, I had no interest in them or her.
"He can hear you," a third voice, another man, cautioned. He was no less contemptuous of me than the other two had been, but Borys of Ebe always saw much farther into a maze of consequences. "He will be one of us when the War-Bringer"s done with him."
After that, they spoke silently, if they spoke at all. My mind filled with eager curiosity; I didn"t yet know what being one of us one of us meant. I thought only of leading an army-my army-against the trolls. I envisioned slaughter and victory. Once again, Rajaat"s amus.e.m.e.nt swept over me, dulling my consciousness as he shaped smooth muscles across the newly hardened bones of my face. meant. I thought only of leading an army-my army-against the trolls. I envisioned slaughter and victory. Once again, Rajaat"s amus.e.m.e.nt swept over me, dulling my consciousness as he shaped smooth muscles across the newly hardened bones of my face.
When my eyelids were finished, I opened them, curious to see my savior.
I was stunned senseless. In my life, I"d seen only humans and trolls. Myron of Yoram was a fat, bloated sack of a man, but he was-I believed he was-a human man. Beyond humans, there were only trolls. Rajaat War-Bringer wasn"t a troll. Trolls were handsome, well-formed mortals, compared to my savior.
In all ways Rajaat lacked the simple left and right symmetry a man expects to see in another man, be he human, troll or some other sentient race. The first sorcerer"s head was huge and grotesque. Wisps of colorless hair sprouted between the bulbous swellings that covered his skull like lava seeps. His eyes were mismatched in color, size, and position. His nose was a shapeless growth above a coa.r.s.e-lipped mouth that was lined with snaggleteeth. Rajaat wheezed when he inhaled, and when he exhaled, his breath stank of death and disease.
If he were resurrecting me in his own image...
Rajaat laughed and promised me he wasn"t. His gnarled, magical fingers tilted my head so I could see the men and women he"d called to witness his making-and unmaking-of a champion.
Ah-they were a magnificent gathering, epitomes of human perfection, and every one of them cloaked in illusion, though I did not guess that then. An aura of unspeakable power hung about them. That was real enough, and almost as tangible as their collective disdain.
They are flawed, my savior a.s.sured me, turning my head again so my eyes beheld nothing but him. my savior a.s.sured me, turning my head again so my eyes beheld nothing but him. Each of them bears a mistake to which you are the correction. You are my last champion, Manu of Deche, Hamanu Troll-Scorcher. You will cleanse the land of impurities. Athas will become blue again. Each of them bears a mistake to which you are the correction. You are my last champion, Manu of Deche, Hamanu Troll-Scorcher. You will cleanse the land of impurities. Athas will become blue again.
In my ignorance, I imagined my familiar world transformed to a world of blue mountains and sand, blue barrens, and blue himali fields. Rajaat changed my mind, showing me blue water beneath a blue sky. I overlooked the oceans; so much water meant nothing to me.
Where was the land? I wondered. Rajaat showed me islands and drifting cities shaped like schooners running before the wind. Where were the people of this blue world? I wondered. The cities teemed with life. Human life, I a.s.sumed, and Rajaat did not correct me. Then.
His hands moved from my head to my neck, from my neck to my shoulders and onward, down my body. Bone, sinew, nerve, and every other part of me quickened beneath his fingers. Bit by bit, I became a man again. The pain was exquisite-I ground my regrown tongue until it was a b.l.o.o.d.y rag between my teeth, lest my soon-to-be peers heard me scream or moan.
Daylight faded. Cool, gray shadows reached across the cart before Rajaat was satisfied with my regeneration. He bid me move each limb, then rise slowly. I sat, stood, and took a tentative step, watching my feet, ankles, knees, and hips as if I had never seen them before. I was myself again, a sound-bodied man, as I had not been when Myron of Yoram"s bullies dragged me from the pit. The scars of war and farming were gone, hut my mother would have known me by the crooked big toe on my left foot.
My audience was clad in silk and jewels or sparkling armor such as Athas has never seen, before or since. I, of course, was birth-naked and subject to intense scrutiny. Visions of grunting beasts and sweating slaves were thrust into my consciousness. Flame-haired Sielba ran her possessive pa.s.sions over my body. She took me by surprise; I flushed with shame, not because I was a hot-blooded man, easily aroused, but because she meant me to be ashamed.
Only Borys of Ebe would have nothing to do with me. His contempt was complete. Dwarves interested him; my shame and suffering didn"t.
"Can you walk?" Rajaat asked.
The War-Bringer stood on a beaten dirt path. Behind him stood a slender spire so amber bright that it seemed aflame, though the color was only the setting sun"s reflection on pristine white stone. Myron of Yoram"s cart rested beside the path. His flayed, tattered skin moved as he breathed, and his mewling echoed in my ears.
My legs would bear me, but I couldn"t walk toward my savior without walking past that cart. I hesitated, summoning my courage. Gallard, Sielba, and the others mocked me; my shame was immense, but it wouldn"t move my feet. Rajaat made a slight, two-fingered gesture, after which my strength or courage were of no importance: his his will brought me to his side. will brought me to his side.
"Prepare a feast," the first sorcerer said, speaking to those magnificent men and women as if they were slaves.
He pointed at the cart where he"d restored me and where a ma.s.s of tall, crystal goblets instantly stood. I saw outrage flicker, then die, on their faces as, one after another, they started toward the cart. And all the while, Rajaat"s steady control over me never wavered. It would be a king"s age before I could seize the minds of so many mortals and direct them to separate actions. I cannot, even today, seize a champion"s thoughts, nor can any of my peers, but Rajaat could hold us all... easily.
Rajaat was cautious with me. He turned me sunwise; toward the brilliant tower, away from the cart where Myron of Yoram lay. But there wasn"t enough caution to spare me the understanding of what food, what drink, would be served at the impending feast. I braced myself against my savior"s influence. My new body trembled like a smoke-eater"s.
Walk! Rajaat roared in my mind. Rajaat roared in my mind. Your destiny awaits. Your destiny awaits.
Destiny. Deche and Dorean. Jikkana and Bult. Myron Troll-Scorcher and Hamanu... My destiny was my justice and my will. I faced the second cart, raised my arm, and lightly touched the mound of ruined flesh. It howled, a shrill, acid warble like no sound I"d heard before. A pair of smoldering red eyes appeared on its otherwise featureless face and, with them, a mind-bender"s wall of malevolence.
What are you? I asked, shattering the wall, though my true question was: what will I become? I asked, shattering the wall, though my true question was: what will I become?
Rajaat intervened before I had an answer to either question. A cold, gray mist enveloped me. Walk! Walk! he commanded a second time, and with his will wrapped around mine, I entered the Gray. he commanded a second time, and with his will wrapped around mine, I entered the Gray.
I emerged in a small chamber where light flashed brightly and without warning. The floor beneath my bare feet was quicksilver gla.s.s, as cold as a tomb at midnight. A stride ahead, the quicksilver angled into a pool of still, dark water. The ceiling above me was a rainbow of colored crystals, six stones mounted in a ring around a seventh crystal that was darkness incarnate.
While I watched in mute wonder and awe, jagged streams of colored light pulsed from the crystals in the rainbow ring. Each pulse was stronger than the preceding one and brought the separate streams closer to a conjunction at the center of the dark crystal.
Watch, Rajaat told me, though I needed no encouragement. Rajaat told me, though I needed no encouragement.
A pinpoint of pure, colorless light sprang into being the instant the jagged streams touched. It swallowed the rainbow colors and began to swell, growing brighter as it did, until the dark crystal was filled with more light than my still-mortal eyes could bear. I closed my eyes, turned my head, and felt a faint concussion through my private darkness. When I opened my eyes again, the room was dark, as it had been when I entered it, and the jagged rainbow streams were no longer than my finger.
"The Dark Lens in the Steeple of Crystals," Rajaat whispered in my ear. "Do not ask what it is, how it was made, or where it comes from. In all the planes of existence, there is nothing that compares to it. Stand in the pool beneath it and become my greatest creation, my final champion."
My family did not raise a fool for a son. I didn"t need questions to know that the gift Rajaat offered was nothing any sane man should accept. Yet I knew as well that I would not survive refusing it. I"d chosen death once before when I"d faced Myron Troll-Scorcher-and Rajaat had restored me. My life had become too precious to squander a second time. Stubbornness failed, and my legs took me forward, across the quicksilver and into the opaque water as the rainbow streams pulsed toward each other again.
"You will not regret this," Rajaat a.s.sured me.
"I already-"
The colored lights merged into a lance of pristine light that pierced my skull with fire. I screamed mortal agony and slowly began to rise. The Dark Lens burst open. Inside, it was exactly as high as a man, exactly as broad as his outstretched arms. When my heart was at its center, it sealed into a perfect sphere again. Rajaat"s sorcery took many-colored shape around me. It became a pillar of light, lifting me and the Lens into the sunset sky.
What can I recount of my final mortal moments? My flesh became fire, my bones red-hot steel on the smith"s anvil. Even my memories were reduced to flame and ash. Then, when there was nothing left but light itself, the Lens focused inward. Drawing substance from the dying sun, the risen moons, and the countless stars above our cloudless sky, Rajaat created his final champion.