Then she opened the door, and ran up to her room without waiting to speak to Irene, who had come into the hall at the sound of her father"s key in the door.
"I guess your mother wants to see you upstairs," said Lapham, looking away.
Her mother turned round and faced the girl"s wondering look as Irene entered the chamber, so close upon her that she had not yet had time to lay off her bonnet; she stood with her wraps still on her arm.
"Irene!" she said harshly, "there is something you have got to bear.
It"s a mistake we"ve all made. He don"t care anything for you. He never did. He told Pen so last night. He cares for her."
The sentences had fallen like blows. But the girl had taken them without flinching. She stood up immovable, but the delicate rose-light of her complexion went out and left her colourless. She did not offer to speak.
"Why don"t you say something?" cried her mother. "Do you want to kill me, Irene?"
"Why should I want to hurt you, mamma?" the girl replied steadily, but in an alien voice. "There"s nothing to say. I want to see Pen a minute."
She turned and left the room. As she mounted the stairs that led to her own and her sister"s rooms on the floor above, her mother helplessly followed. Irene went first to her own room at the front of the house, and then came out leaving the door open and the gas flaring behind her. The mother could see that she had tumbled many things out of the drawers of her bureau upon the marble top.
She pa.s.sed her mother, where she stood in the entry. "You can come too, if you want to, mamma," she said.
She opened Penelope"s door without knocking, and went in. Penelope sat at the window, as in the morning. Irene did not go to her; but she went and laid a gold hair-pin on her bureau, and said, without looking at her, "There"s a pin that I got to-day, because it was like his sister"s. It won"t become a dark person so well, but you can have it."
She stuck a sc.r.a.p of paper in the side of Penelope"s mirror. "There"s that account of Mr. Stanton"s ranch. You"ll want to read it, I presume."
She laid a withered boutonniere on the bureau beside the pin. "There"s his b.u.t.ton-hole bouquet. He left it by his plate, and I stole it."
She had a pine-shaving fantastically tied up with a knot of ribbon, in her hand. She held it a moment; then, looking deliberately at Penelope, she went up to her, and dropped it in her lap without a word.
She turned, and, advancing a few steps, tottered and seemed about to fall.
Her mother sprang forward with an imploring cry, "O "Rene, "Rene, "Rene!"
Irene recovered herself before her mother could reach her. "Don"t touch me," she said icily. "Mamma, I"m going to put on my things. I want papa to walk with me. I"m choking here."
"I--I can"t let you go out, Irene, child," began her mother.
"You"ve got to," replied the girl. "Tell papa ta hurry his supper."
"O poor soul! He doesn"t want any supper. HE knows it too."
"I don"t want to talk about that. Tell him to get ready."
She left them once more.
Mrs. Lapham turned a hapless glance upon Penelope.
"Go and tell him, mother," said the girl. "I would, if I could. If she can walk, let her. It"s the only thing for her." She sat still; she did not even brush to the floor the fantastic thing that lay in her lap, and that sent up faintly the odour of the sachet powder with which Irene liked to perfume her boxes.
Lapham went out with the unhappy child, and began to talk with her, crazily, incoherently, enough.
She mercifully stopped him. "Don"t talk, papa. I don"t want any one should talk with me."
He obeyed, and they walked silently on and on. In their aimless course they reached the new house on the water side of Beacon, and she made him stop, and stood looking up at it. The scaffolding which had so long defaced the front was gone, and in the light of the gas-lamp before it all the architectural beauty of the facade was suggested, and much of the finely felt detail was revealed. Seymour had pretty nearly satisfied himself in that rich facade; certainly Lapham had not stinted him of the means.
"Well," said the girl, "I shall never live in it," and she began to walk on.
Lapham"s sore heart went down, as he lumbered heavily after her. "Oh yes, you will, Irene. You"ll have lots of good times there yet."
"No," she answered, and said nothing more about it. They had not talked of their trouble at all, and they did not speak of it now.
Lapham understood that she was trying to walk herself weary, and he was glad to hold his peace and let her have her way. She halted him once more before the red and yellow lights of an apothecary"s window.
"Isn"t there something they give you to make you sleep?" she asked vaguely. "I"ve got to sleep to-night!"
Lapham trembled. "I guess you don"t want anything, Irene."
"Yes, I do! Get me something!" she retorted wilfully. "If you don"t, I shall die. I MUST sleep."
They went in, and Lapham asked for something to make a nervous person sleep. Irene stood poring over the show-case full of brushes and trinkets, while the apothecary put up the bromide, which he guessed would be about the best thing. She did not show any emotion; her face was like a stone, while her father"s expressed the anguish of his sympathy. He looked as if he had not slept for a week; his fat eyelids drooped over his gla.s.sy eyes, and his cheeks and throat hung flaccid.
He started as the apothecary"s cat stole smoothly up and rubbed itself against his leg; and it was to him that the man said, "You want to take a table-spoonful of that, as long as you"re awake. I guess it won"t take a great many to fetch you." "All right," said Lapham, and paid and went out. "I don"t know but I SHALL want some of it," he said, with a joyless laugh.
Irene came closer up to him and took his arm. He laid his heavy paw on her gloved fingers. After a while she said, "I want you should let me go up to Lapham to-morrow."
"To Lapham? Why, to-morrow"s Sunday, Irene! You can"t go to-morrow."
"Well, Monday, then. I can live through one day here."
"Well," said the father pa.s.sively. He made no pretence of asking her why she wished to go, nor any attempt to dissuade her.
"Give me that bottle," she said, when he opened the door at home for her, and she ran up to her own room.
The next morning Irene came to breakfast with her mother; the Colonel and Penelope did not appear, and Mrs. Lapham looked sleep-broken and careworn.
The girl glanced at her. "Don"t you fret about me, mamma," she said.
"I shall get along." She seemed herself as steady and strong as rock.
"I don"t like to see you keeping up so, Irene," replied her mother.
"It"ll be all the worse for you when you do break. Better give way a little at the start."
"I shan"t break, and I"ve given way all I"m going to. I"m going to Lapham to-morrow,--I want you should go with me, mamma,--and I guess I can keep up one day here. All about it is, I don"t want you should say anything, or LOOK anything. And, whatever I do, I don"t want you should try to stop me. And, the first thing, I"m going to take her breakfast up to her. Don"t!" she cried, intercepting the protest on her mother"s lips. "I shall not let it hurt Pen, if I can help it.
She"s never done a thing nor thought a thing to wrong me. I had to fly out at her last night; but that"s all over now, and I know just what I"ve got to bear."
She had her way unmolested. She carried Penelope"s breakfast to her, and omitted no care or attention that could make the sacrifice complete, with an heroic pretence that she was performing no unusual service. They did not speak, beyond her saying, in a clear dry note, "Here"s your breakfast, Pen," and her sister"s answering, hoa.r.s.ely and tremulously, "Oh, thank you, Irene." And, though two or three times they turned their faces toward each other while Irene remained in the room, mechanically putting its confusion to rights, their eyes did not meet. Then Irene descended upon the other rooms, which she set in order, and some of which she fiercely swept and dusted. She made the beds; and she sent the two servants away to church as soon as they had eaten their breakfast, telling them that she would wash their dishes.
Throughout the morning her father and mother heard her about the work of getting dinner, with certain silences which represented the moments when she stopped and stood stock-still, and then, readjusting her burden, forced herself forward under it again.
They sat alone in the family room, out of which their two girls seemed to have died. Lapham could not read his Sunday papers, and she had no heart to go to church, as she would have done earlier in life when in trouble. Just then she was obscurely feeling that the church was somehow to blame for that counsel of Mr. Sewell"s on which they had acted.
"I should like to know," she said, having brought the matter up, "whether he would have thought it was such a light matter if it had been his own children. Do you suppose he"d have been so ready to act on his own advice if it HAD been?"
"He told us the right thing to do, Persis,--the only thing. We couldn"t let it go on," urged her husband gently.
"Well, it makes me despise Pen! Irene"s showing twice the character that she is, this very minute."