DOCTOR. I refuse to. (Pause.) What do you complain of?
STRANGER (with uncertainty). Sleeplessness.
DOCTOR. That"s not a disease, but a symptom. Have you already seen a doctor?
STRANGER. I"ve been lying ill in an... inst.i.tution. I was feverish. I"ve a strange malady.
DOCTOR. What was so strange about it?
STRANGER. May I ask this? Can one go about as usual; and yet be delirious?
DOCTOR. If you"re mad; not otherwise. (The STRANGER lets up, but then sits down again.) What was the hospital called?
STRANGER. St. Saviour.
DOCTOR. That"s not a hospital.
STRANGER. A convent, then.
DOCTOR. No. It"s an asylum. (The STRANGER gets up, the DOCTOR does so, too, and calls.) Sister! Shut the front door. And the gate leading to the road. (To the STRANGER.) Won"t you sit down? I have to keep the doors here locked. There are so many tramps.
STRANGER (calms himself). Be frank with me: do you think me... insane?
DOCTOR. No one ever gets a frank answer to that question, as you know.
And no one who suffers in that way ever believes what he"s told. So my opinion must be a matter of indifference to you. (Pause.) But if it"s your soul, go to a spiritual healer.
STRANGER. Could you take his place for a moment?
DOCTOR. I haven"t the vocation.
STRANGER. But...
DOCTOR (interrupting). Or the time. We"re getting ready for a wedding here!
STRANGER. I dreamed it!
DOCTOR. It may ease your mind to know that I"ve consoled myself, as it"s called. You may be pleased, it would be natural... but I see, on the contrary, it makes you suffer more. There must be a reason. Why, should you be upset at my marrying a widow?
STRANGER. With two children?
DOCTOR. Two children! Now we have it! A d.a.m.nable supposition worthy of you. If there were a h.e.l.l, you should be h.e.l.l"s overseer, for your skill in finding means of punishment exceeds my wildest inventions. Yet I"m called a werewolf!
STRANGER. It might happen that...
DOCTOR (cutting him short). For a long time, I hated you, because by an unforgiveable action you cheated me of my good name. But when I grew older and wiser I saw that, although the punishment wasn"t earned, I deserved it for other things that had never been discovered. Besides, you were a boy with enough conscience to be able to punish yourself. So you need worry no more about the whole thing. Is that what you wanted to speak of?
STRANGER. Yes.
DOCTOR. Then you"ll be content, if I let you go? (The STRANGER is about to ask a question.) Did you think I"d shut you up? Or cut you in pieces with those instruments? Kill you? "Perhaps such poor devils ought to be put out of their misery!" (The STRANGER looks at his watch.) You can still catch the boat.
STRANGER. Will you give me your hand?
DOCTOR. Impossible. And what is the use of my forgiving you, if you lack the strength to forgive yourself? (Pause.) Some things can only be cured by making them undone. So this never can be.
STRANGER. St. Saviour...
DOCTOR. Helped you. You challenged destiny and were broken. There"s no shame in losing such a fight. I did the same; but, as you see, I"ve got rid of my woodpile. I want no thunder in my home. And I shall play no more with the lightning.
STRANGER. One station more, and I shall reach my goal.
DOCTOR. You"ll never reach your goal. Farewell!
STRANGER. Farewell!
SCENE XVII
A STREET CORNER
[The same as Scene I. The STRANGER is sitting on the seat beneath the tree, drawing in the sand.]
LADY (entering). What are you doing?
STRANGER. Writing in the sand... still.
LADY. Can you hear singing?
STRANGER (pointing to the church). Yes. But from there! I"ve been unjust to someone, unwittingly.
LADY. I think our wanderings must be over, now we"ve come back here.
STRANGER. Where we began... at the street corner, between the inn, the church and the post office. By the way... isn"t there a registered letter for me there, that I never fetched?
LADY. Yes. Because there was nothing but unpleasantness in it.
STRANGER. Or legal matters. (Striking his forehead.) Then that"s the explanation.
LADY. Fetch it then. In the belief that what it contains is good.
STRANGER (ironically). Good!
LADY. Believe it. Imagine it!
STRANGER (going to the post office). I"ll make the attempt.
(The LADY waits on the pavement. The STRANGER comes back with a letter.)
LADY. Well?