STRANGER. Yes, I could. There are moments when I feel as if I bore all the sin and sorrow, all the filth and shame of the whole world. There are moments when I believe we are condemned to sin and do bad actions as a punishment! (Pause.) Not long ago I lay sick of a fever, and amidst all that happened to me, I dreamed that I saw a crucifix without the Crucified. And when I asked the Dominican--for there was a Dominican among many others--what it could mean, he said: "You will not allow Him to suffer for you. Suffer then yourself!" That"s why mankind have grown so conscious of their own sufferings.
LADY. And why consciences grow so heavy, if there"s no one to help to bear the burden.
STRANGER. Have you also come to think so?
LADY. Not yet. But I"m on the way.
STRANGER. Put your hand in mine. From here let us go on together.
LADY. Where?
STRANGER. Back! The same way we came. Are you weary?
LADY. Now no longer.
STRANGER. Several times I sank exhausted. But I met a strange beggar--perhaps you remember him: he was thought to be like me. And he begged me, as an experiment, to believe his good intentions. I did believe--as an experiment--and....
LADY. Well?
STRANGER. It went well with me. And since then I feel I"ve strength to go on my way....
LADY. Let"s go together!
STRANGER (turning to the sea). Yes. It"s growing dark and the clouds are gathering.
LADY. Don"t look at the clouds.
STRANGER. And below there? What"s that?
LADY. Only a wreck.
STRANGER (whispering). Three crosses! What new Golgotha awaits us?
LADY. They"re white ones. That means good fortune.
STRANGER. Can good fortune ever come to us?
LADY. Yes. But not yet.
STRANGER. Let"s go!
SCENE XV
ROOM IN AN HOTEL
[The room is as before. The LADY is sitting by the side of the STRANGER, crocheting.]
LADY. Do say something.
STRANGER. I"ve nothing but unpleasant things to say, since we came here.
LADY. Why were you so anxious to have this terrible room?
STRANGER. I don"t know. It was the last one I wanted. I began to long for it, in order to suffer.
LADY. And are you suffering?
STRANGER. Yes. I can no longer listen to singing, or look at anything beautiful. During the day I hear the mill and see that great panorama now expanding to embrace the universe.... And, at night...
LADY. Why did you cry out in your sleep?
STRANGER. I was dreaming.
LADY. A real dream?
STRANGER. Terribly real. But you see what a curse is on me. I feel I must describe it, and to no one else but you. Yet I daren"t tell you, for it would be rattling at the door of the locked chamber....
LADY. The past!
STRANGER. Yes.
LADY (simply). It"s foolish to have any such secret place.
STRANGER. Yes. (Pause.)
LADY. And now tell me!
STRANGER. I"m afraid I must. I dreamed your first husband was married to my first wife.
LADY. Only you could have thought of such a thing!
STRANGER. I wish it were so. (Pause.) I saw how he ill-treated my children. (Getting up.) I put my hands to his throat.... I can"t go on.... But I shall never rest till I know the truth. And to know it, I must go to him in his own house.
LADY. It"s come to that?
STRANGER. It"s been coming for some time. Nothing can now prevent it. I must see him.
LADY. But if he won"t receive you?
STRANGER. I"ll go as a patient, and tell him of my sickness....
LADY (frightened). Don"t do that!
STRANGER. You think he might be tempted to shut me up as mad! I must risk it. I want to risk everything--life, freedom, welfare. I need an emotional shock, strong enough to bring myself into the light of day. I demand this torture, that my punishment may be in just proportion to my sin, so that I shall not be forced to drag myself along under the burden of my guilt. So down into the snake pit, as soon as may be!
LADY. Could I come with you?