There was a tense silence. Burke"s face plainly showed the struggle within him. A moment more, and he spoke.
"Dad, I"ll have to think it out," he temporized brokenly. "I"ll let you know in the morning."
"Good!" If John Denby was disappointed, he did not show it. "We"ll let it go till morning, then. Meanwhile, it can do no harm to look at these, however," he smiled, with a wave of his hand toward the maps and time-tables.
"No, of course not," acquiesced Burke promptly, relieved that his father agreed so willingly to the delay.
Half an hour later he went upstairs to his old room to bed.
It was a fine old room. He had forgotten that a bedroom could be so large--and so convenient. Benton, plainly, had been there. Also, plainly, his hand had not lost its cunning, nor his brain the memory of how Master Burke "liked things."
The arrangement of the lights, the gla.s.s of milk by his bed, the turned-down spread and sheet, the latest magazine ready to his hand--even the size and number of towels in his bathroom testified to Benton"s loving hand and good memory.
With a sigh that was almost a sob Burke dropped himself into a chair and looked about him.
It was all so peaceful, so restful, so comfortable. And it was so quiet.
He had forgotten that a room could be so quiet.
In spite of his weariness, Burke"s preparations for bed were both lengthy and luxurious--he had forgotten what absolute content lay in plenty of s.p.a.ce, towels, and hot water, to say nothing of soap that was in its proper place, and did not have to be fished out of a baby-basket or a kitchen sink.
Burke did not intend to go to sleep at once. He intended first to settle in his mind what he would do with this proposition of his father"s. He would have to refuse it, of course. It would not do. Still, he ought to give it proper consideration for dad"s sake. That much was due dad.
He stretched himself luxuriously on the bed (he had forgotten that a bed could be so soft and so "just right") and began to think. But the next thing he knew he was waking up.
His first feeling was a half-unconscious but delightful sensation of physical comfort. His next a dazed surprise as his slowly opened eyes encountered shapes and shadows and arc-light beams on the walls and ceiling quite unlike those in his Dale Street bedroom. Then instantly came a vague but poignant impression that "something had happened,"
followed almost as quickly by full realization.
Like a panorama, then, the preceding evening lay before him: Helen, the crying baby, the trailing ink, the angry words, the flight, dad, his welcome, the pleasant chat, the remarkable proposition. Oh, yes! And it was of the proposition that he was going to think. He could not accept it, of course, but--
What a trump dad had been to offer it! What a trump he had been in the _way_ he offered it, too! What a trump he had been all through about it, for that matter. Not a word of reproach, not a hint of patronage. Not even a look that could be construed into that hated "I told you so."
Just a straight-forward offer of this check for Helen, and the trip for himself, and actually in a casual, matter-of-fact tone of voice as if ten-thousand-dollar checks and Alaskan trips were everyday occurrences.
But they weren"t! A trip like that did not drop into a man"s plate every day. Of course he could not take it--but what a dandy one it would be!
And with dad--!
For that matter, dad really needed him. Dad ought not to go off like that alone, and so far. Besides, dad _wanted_ him. How his voice had trembled when he had said, "I don"t think you know, boy, how your old dad has missed you"! As if he didn"t, indeed! As if he hadn"t done _some_ missing on his own account!
And the check. Of course he could not let Helen accept that, either,--ten thousand dollars! But how generous of dad to offer it--and of course it _would_ be good for Helen. Poor Helen! She needed a rest, all right, and she deserved one. It _would_ be fine for her to go back to her old home town for a little while, and no mistake. Not that she would need to spend the whole ten thousand dollars on that, of course.
But even a little slice of a sum like that would give her all the frills and furbelows she wanted for herself and the baby, and send them into the country for all the rest of the summer, besides leaving nine-tenths of it for a nest-egg for the future. And what a comfortable feeling it would give her--always a little money when she wanted it for anything!
No more of the hated pinching and starving, for he should tell her to spend it and take some comfort with it. That was what it was for.
Besides, when it was gone, _he_ would have some for her. What a boon it would be to her--that ten thousand dollars! Of course, looking at it in that light, it was almost his _duty_ to accept the proposition, and give her the chance to have it.
But then, after all, he couldn"t. Why, it was like accepting charity; he hadn"t earned it. Still, if hard work and anguish of mind counted, he _had_ earned it twice over, slaving away at the beck of Brett and his minions. And he had made good--so far. Dad had said so. What a trump dad was to speak as he did! And when _dad_ said a thing like that, it meant something!
Well, there was nothing to do, of course, but to go back and buckle down to work--and to life in the Dale Street flat. To be sure, there was the baby. Of course he was fond of the baby; and it was highly interesting to see her achieve teeth, hair, a backbone, and sense--if only she would hurry up a little faster, though. Did babies always take so long to grow up?
Burke stretched himself luxuriously and gazed about the room. The arc-light outside had gone out and dawn was approaching. More and more distinctly each loved object in the room was coming into view. To his nostrils came the perfume of the roses and honeysuckles in the garden below his window. To his ears came the chirp and twitter of the bird-calls from the trees. Over his senses stole the soothing peace of absolute physical ease.
Once more, drowsily, he went back to his father"s offer. Once more, in his mind, he argued it--but this time with a difference. Thus, so potent, sometimes, is the song of a bird, the scent of a flower, the shape of a loved, familiar object, or even the feel of a soft bed beneath one.
After all, might he not be making a serious mistake if he did not accede to his father"s wishes? Of course, so far as he, personally, was concerned, the answer would be an unequivocal refusal of the offer. But there was his father to consider, and there was Helen to think of; yes, and the baby. How much better it would be for them--for all of them, if he accepted it!
Helen and the baby could have months of fresh air, ease, and happiness without delay, to say nothing of innumerable advantages later. Why, when you came to think of it, that would be enough, if there were nothing else! But there was something else. There was dad. Good old dad! How happy he"d be! Besides, dad really needed him. How ever had he thought for a moment of sending dad off to Alaska alone, and just after an illness, too! What could he be thinking of to consider it for a moment?
That settled it. He should go. He would stifle all silly feelings of pride and the like, and he would make dad, Helen, and the baby happy.
Which question having been satisfactorily decided, Burke turned over and settled himself for a doze before breakfast. He did not get it, however.
His mind was altogether too full of time-tables, boat schedules, mountain peaks, and forest trails.
Jove, but that was going to be a dandy trip!
It was later, while Burke was leisurely dressing and planning out the day before him, that the bothersome question came to him as to how he should tell Helen. He was reminded, also, emphatically, of the probable scene in store for him when he should go home at six o"clock that night.
And he hated scenes. For that matter, there would probably be another one, too, when he told her that he was going away for a time. To be sure, there was the ten-thousand-dollar check; and of course very soon he could convince her that it was really all for her best happiness.
After she gave it a little thought, it would be all right, he was positive, but there was certain to be some unpleasantness at first, particularly as she was sure to be not a little difficult over his running--er--rather, _going_ away the night before. And he wished he could avoid it in some way. If only he did not have to go home--
His face cleared suddenly. Why, of course! He would write. How stupid of him not to have thought of it before! He could say, then, just what he wanted to say, and she would have a chance to think it over calmly and sensibly, and see how really fine it was for her and the baby. That was the way to do it, and the only way. Writing, he could not be unnerved by her tears (of course she would cry at first--she always cried!) or exasperated into saying things he would be sorry for afterwards. He could say just enough, and not too much, in a letter, and say it right.
Then, early in the following week, just before he was to start on his trip he would go down to the Dale Street house and spend the last two or three days with Helen and the baby, picking up his traps, and planning with Helen some of the delightful things she could do with that ten thousand dollars. By that time she would, of course, have entirely come around to his point of view (even if she had not seen it quite that way at first), and they could have a few really happy days together--something which would be quite impossible if they should meet now, with the preceding evening fresh in their minds, and have one of their usual wretched scenes of tears, recriminations, and wranglings.
For the present, then, he would stay where he was. Helen would be all right--with Bridget. His father would be overjoyed, he knew; and as for the few toilet necessities--he could buy those. He needed some new things to take away. So that was settled.
With a mind at rest again and a heart aflame with joy, Burke hurried into his garments and skipped downstairs like a boy.
His face, before his lips got a chance, told his father of his decision.
But his lips did not lag long behind. He had expected that his father would be pleased; but he was not quite prepared for the depth of emotion that shook his father"s voice and dimmed his father"s eyes, and that ended the half-uttered declaration of joy with what was very near a sob.
If anything, indeed, were needed to convince Burke that he was doing just right in taking this trip with his father, it could be needed no longer after the look of ineffable peace and joy on that father"s face.
Breakfast, with so much to talk of, prolonged itself like a college spread, until Burke, with a cry of dismay, pulled out his watch and leaped to his feet.
"Jove! Do you know what time it is, dad?" he cried laughingly. "Behold how this life of luxury has me already in its clutches! I should have been off an hour ago."
John Denby lifted a detaining hand.
"Not so fast, my boy," he smiled. "I"ve got you, and I mean to keep you--a few minutes longer."
"But--"
"Oh, I telephoned Brett this morning that you wouldn"t be down till late, if you came at all."
"You telephoned _this morning_!" puzzled Burke, sinking slowly into his chair again. "But you didn"t know then that I--" He stopped once more.
"No, I didn"t know then that you"d agree to my proposition," answered John Denby, with a characteristically grim smile. "But I knew, if you did agree, we"d _both_ have some talking to do. And if you didn"t--_I_ should. I meant still to convince you, you see."
"I see," nodded the younger man, smiling in his turn.
"So I wouldn"t go down this morning. We"ve lots of plans to make.
Besides, there"s your letter."
"Yes, there"s--my--letter." This time the young man did not smile. "I"ve got to write my letter, of course."