"Er--ah--oh, yes, very well--er--very well."
"That"s good. I"m glad."
There was a brief pause. A torrent of words swept to the tip of the younger man"s tongue; but nothing found voice except another faltering "Er--yes, very well!" which Burke had not meant to say at all. There was a second brief pause, then John Denby sat down.
"You will find Brett in his office. You have come to work, I dare say,"
he observed, as he turned to the letters on his desk.
"Er--yes," stammered the young man. The next moment he found himself alone, white and shaken, the other side of his father"s door.
To work? Oh, yes, he had come to work; but he had come first to talk.
There were a whole lot of things he had meant to say to his father.
First, of course, there would have had to be something in the nature of an apology or the like to patch up the quarrel. Then he would tell him how he was really going to make good--he and Helen. After that they could get down to one of their old-time chats. They always had been chums--he and dad; and they hadn"t had a talk for four weeks. Why, for three weeks he had been saving up a story, a dandy story that dad would appreciate! And there were other things, serious things, that--
And here already he had seen his father, and it was over. And he had not said a word--nothing of what he had meant to say. He believed he would go back--
With an angry gesture Burke Denby turned and extended his hand halfway toward the closed door. Then, with an impatient shrug, he whirled about and strode toward the door marked "J. A. Brett, General Manager."
If young Denby had obeyed his first impulse and reentered his father"s office he would have found the man with his head bowed on the desk, his arms outflung.
John Denby, too, was white and shaken. He, too, had been dreading this meeting, and longing for it--that it might be over. There was now, however, on his part, no feeling of chagrin and impotence because of things that had not been said. There was only a shuddering relief that things had _not_ been said; that he had been able to carry it straight through as he had planned; that he had not shown his boy how much he--cared. He was glad that his pride had been equal to the strain; that he had not weakly succ.u.mbed at the first glimpse of his son"s face, the first touch of his son"s hand, as he had so feared that he would do.
And he had not succ.u.mbed--though he had almost gone down before the quick terror and affectionate dismay that had leaped into his son"s voice and eyes at sight of his own changed appearance. (Why _could_ not he keep those abominable portions of his anatomy from being so wretchedly telltale?) But he had remembered in time. Did the boy think, then, that a mere word of sympathy now could balance the scale against so base a disregard of everything loyal and filial a month ago? Then he would show that it could not.
And he had shown it.
What if he did know now, even better than he had known it all these last miserable four weeks, that his whole world had lain in his boy"s hand, that his whole life had been bounded by his boy"s smile, his whole soul immersed in his boy"s future? What if he did know that all the power and wealth and fame of name that he had won were as the dust in his fingers--if he might not pa.s.s them on to his son? He was not going to let Burke know this. Indeed, no!
Burke had made his own bed. He should lie in it. Deliberately he had chosen to cast aside the love and companionship of a devoted father at the beck of an almost unknown girl"s hand. Should the father then offer again the once-scorned love and companionship? Had he no pride--no proper sense of simple right and justice? No self-respect, even?
It was thus, and by arguments such as these, that John Denby had lashed himself into the state of apparently cool, courteous indifference that had finally carried him successfully through the interview just closed.
For a long time John Denby sat motionless, his arms outflung across the letters that might have meant so much, but that did mean so little, to him--now. Then slowly he raised his head and fixed somber, longing eyes on the door that had so recently closed behind his son.
The boy was in there with Brett now--his boy. He was being told that his wages for the present were to be fifteen dollars a week, and that he was expected to live within his income--that the wages were really very liberal, considering his probable value to the company at the first. He _would_ begin at the bottom, as had been planned years ago; but with this difference: he would be promoted now only when he had earned it. He would have been pushed rapidly ahead to the top, had matters been as they once were. Now he must demonstrate and prove his ability.
All this Brett was telling Burke now. Poor Burke! Brett was so harsh, so uncompromising. As if it weren"t tough enough to have to live on a paltry fifteen dollars a week, without--
John Denby sighed and rose to his feet. Aimlessly he fidgeted about the s.p.a.cious, well-appointed office. Twice he turned toward the door as if to leave the room. Once he reached a hesitating hand toward the push-b.u.t.ton on this desk. Then determinedly he sat down and picked up one of his letters.
Brett was right. It was the best way; the only way. And it was well, indeed, that Brett had been delegated to do the telling. If it had been himself now--! Shucks! If it had been himself, the boy would only have had to _look_ his reproach--and his wages would have been doubled on the spot! Fifteen dollars a week--_Burke!_ Why, the boy could not-- Well, then, he need not have been so foolish, so headstrong, so heartlessly disregardful of his father"s wishes. He had brought it upon himself, entirely, entirely!
Whereupon, with an angry exclamation, John Denby shifted about in his hand the letter which for three minutes he had been holding before his eyes upside down.
CHAPTER V
THE WIFE
Helen Denby had never doubted her ability to be a perfect wife. As a girl, her vision had pictured a beauteous creature moving through a glorified world of love and admiration, ease and affluence.
Later, at the time of her marriage to Burke Denby, her vision had altered sufficiently to present a picture of herself as the sweet good-angel of the old Denby Mansion, the forgiving young wife who lays up no malice against an unappreciative father-in-law. Even when, still later (upon their return from their wedding trip and upon her learning of John Denby"s decree of banishment), the vision was necessarily warped and twisted all out of semblance to its original outlines, there yet remained unchanged the basic idea of perfect wifehood.
Helen saw herself now as the martyr wife whose superb courage and self-sacrifice were to be the stepping-stones of a husband"s magnificent success. She would be guide, counselor, and friend. (Somewhere she had seen those words. She liked them very much.) Unswervingly she would hold Burke to his high purpose. Untiringly she would lead him ever toward his goal of "making good."
She saw herself the sweet, loving wife, graciously presiding over the well-kept home, always ready, daintily gowned, to welcome his coming with a kiss, and to speed his going with a blessing. Then, when in due course he had won out, great would be her reward. With what sweet pride and gentle dignity would she accept the laurel wreath of praise (Helen had seen this expression somewhere, too, and liked it), which a remorseful but grateful world would hasten to lay at the feet of her who alone had made possible the splendid victory--the once despised, flouted wife--the wife who was to drag him down!
It was a pleasant picture, and Helen frequently dwelt upon it--especially the sweet-and-gentle-dignity-wife part. She found it particularly soothing during those first early days of housekeeping in the new apartment.
Not that she was beginning in the least to doubt her ability to be that perfect wife. It was only that to think of things as they would be was a pleasant distraction from thinking of things as they were. But of course it would be all right very soon, anyway,--just as soon as everything got nicely to running.
Helen did wonder sometimes why the getting of "everything nicely to running" was so difficult. That a certain amount of training and experience was necessary to bring about the best results never occurred to her. If Helen had been asked to take a position as stenographer or church soloist, she would have replied at once that she did not know how to do the work. Into the position of home-maker, however, she stepped with cheerful confidence, her eyes only on the wonderful success she was going to make.
To Helen housekeeping was something like a clock that you wound up in the morning to run all day. And even when at the end of a week she could not help seeing that not once yet had she got around to being the "sweet, daintily gowned wife welcoming her husband to a well-kept home,"
before that husband appeared at the door, she still did not doubt her own capabilities. It was only that "things hadn"t got to running yet."
And it was always somebody else"s fault, anyway,--frequently her husband"s. For if he did not come to dinner too early, before a thing was done, he was sure to be late, and thus spoil everything by her trying to keep things hot for him. And, of course, under such circ.u.mstances, n.o.body could _expect_ one to be a sweet and daintily gowned wife!
Besides, there was the cookbook.
"Do you know, Burke," she finally wailed one night, between sobs, "I don"t believe it"s good for a thing--that old cookbook! I haven"t got a thing out of it yet that"s been real good. I"ve half a mind to take it back where I got it, and make them change it, or else give me back my money. I have, so there!"
"But, dearie," began her husband doubtfully, "you said yourself yesterday that you forgot the salt in the omelet, and the baking powder in the cake, and--"
"Well, what if I did?" she contended aggrievedly. "What"s a little salt or baking powder? "Twasn"t but a pinch or a spoonful, anyhow, and I remembered all the other things. Besides, if those rules were any good they"d be worded so I _couldn"t_ forget part of the things. And, anyhow, I don"t think it"s very nice of you to b-blame me all the time when I"m doing the very best I can. I _told_ you I couldn"t cook, but you _said_ you"d like anything I made, because I did it, and--"
"Yes, yes, darling, and so I do," interrupted the remorseful husband, hurriedly. And, to prove it, he ate the last sc.r.a.p of the unappetizing concoction on his plate, which his wife said was a fish croquette.
Afterwards still further to show his remorse, he helped her wash the dishes and set the rooms in order. Then together they went for a walk in the moonlight.
It was a beautiful walk, and it quite restored Helen to good nature.
They went up on West Hill (where Helen particularly loved to go), and they laid wonderful plans of how one day they, too, would build a big stone palace of a home up there--though Burke did say that, for his part, he liked Elm Hill quite as well; but Helen laughed him out of that "old-fashioned idea." At least he said no more about it.
They talked much of how proud Burke"s father was going to be when Burke had made good, and of how ashamed and sorry he would be that he had so misjudged his son"s wife. And Helen uttered some very sweet and beautiful sentiments concerning her intention of laying up no malice, her firm determination to be loving and forgiving.
Then together they walked home in the moonlight; and so thrilled and exalted were they that even the cheap little Dale Street living-room looked wonderfully dear. And Helen said that, after all, love was the only thing that mattered--that they just loved each other. And Burke said, "Yes, yes, indeed."
The vision of the sweet, daintily gowned wife and the perfect home was very clear to Helen as she dropped off to sleep that night; and she was sure that she could begin to realize it at once. But unfortunately she overslept the next morning--which was really Burke"s fault, as she said, for he forgot to wind the alarm clock, and she was not used to getting up at such an unearthly hour, anyway, and she did not see why _he_ had to do it, for that matter--he was really the son of the owner, even if he was _called_ an apprentice.
This did not help matters any, for Burke never liked any reference to his position at the Works. To be sure, he did not say much, this time, except to observe stiffly that he _would_ like his breakfast, if she would be so good as to get it--as if she were not already hurrying as fast as she could, and herself only half-dressed at that!
Of course the breakfast was a failure. Helen said that perhaps some people could get a meal of victuals on to the table, with a hungry man eyeing their every move, but she could not. Burke declared then that he really did not want any breakfast anyway, and he started to go; but as Helen only cried the more at this, he had to come back and comfort her--thereby, in the end, being both breakfastless and late to his work.
Helen, after he had gone, spent a blissfully wretched ten minutes weeping over the sad fate that should doom such a child of light and laughter as herself to the somber role of martyr wife, and wondered if, after all, it would not be really more impressive and more soul-torturing-with-remorse for the cruel father-in-law, if she should take poison, or gas, or something (not disfiguring), and lay herself calmly down to die, her beautiful hands crossed meekly upon her bosom.
Attractive as was this picture in some respects, it yet had its drawbacks. Then, too, there was the laurel wreath of praise due her later. She had almost forgotten that. On the whole, that would be preferable to the poison, Helen decided, as she began, with really cheerful alacrity, to attack the messy breakfast dishes.
It was not alone the cooking that troubled the young wife during that first month of housekeeping. Everywhere she found pitfalls for her unwary feet, from managing the kitchen range to keeping the living-room dusted.