"What have you found out since you came in?"
"That you must strip the leaf off clean and throw it into the big trough that slides it downstairs somewhere."
A smile crossed his face. "If I give you a job it won"t be much more than running up and down stairs with messages," he said; "that"s what a n.i.g.g.e.r can"t do." He hesitated an instant; "but that"s the way I began,"
he added kindly, "under General Bolingbroke."
I looked up quickly, "And was it the way _he_ began?"
"Oh, well, hardly. He belongs to one of the old families, you know. His father was a great planter and he started on top."
My crestfallen look must have moved his pity, I think, for he said as he turned away and we walked down the long room, "It ain"t the start that makes the man, youngster, but the man that makes the start."
The doors swung together behind us, and we descended the dark staircase, with the piercing soprano voices fluting in our ears.
"Christ leads de ole sheep by still watah, watah, Christ leads de ole sheep by still watah, watah."
That afternoon I went home, full of hope, to my attic in the Old Market quarter. Then as the weeks went on, and I took my place gradually as a small laborious worker in the buzzing hive of human industry, whatever romance had attached itself to the tobacco factory, scattered and vanished in the hard, dry atmosphere of the reality. My part was to run errands up and down the dark staircase for the manager of the leaf department, or to stand for hours on hot days in the stagnant air, amid the reeking smells of the big room, where the army of "stemmers" rocked ceaselessly back and forth to the sound of their savage music. In all those weary weeks I had pa.s.sed General Bolingbroke but once, and by the blank look on his great perspiring face, I saw that my hero had forgotten utterly the incident of my existence. Yet as I turned on the curbing and looked after him, while he ploughed, wiping his forehead, up the long hill, under the leaves of mulberry and catalpa trees, I felt instinctively that my future triumphs would be in a measure the overthrow of the things for which he and his generation had stood. The manager"s casual phrase "the old families," had bred in me a secret resentment, for I knew in my heart that the genial aristocracy, represented by the president of the Great South Midland and Atlantic Railroad, was in reality the enemy, and not the friend, of such as I.
The long, hot summer unfolded slowly while I trudged to the factory in the blinding mornings and back again to the Old Market at the suffocating hour of sunset. Over the doors of the negro hovels luxuriant gourd vines hung in festoons of large fan-shaped leaves, and above the high plank fences at the back, gaudy sunflowers nodded their heads to me as I went wearily by. The richer quarter of the city had blossomed into a fragrant bower, but I saw only the squalid surroundings of the Old Market, with its covered wagons, its overripe melons, its prowling dogs hunting in refuse heaps, and beyond this the crooked street, which led to the tobacco factory and then sagged slowly down to the river-bottom.
Sometimes I would lean from my little window at night into the stifling atmosphere, where the humming of a mosquito, or the whirring of a moth, made the only noise, and think of the enchanted garden lying desolate and lovely under the soft shining of the stars. Were the ghosts moving up and down the terraces in the mazes of scented box, I wondered? Then the garden would fade far away from me into a cool, still distance, while I knelt with my head in my hands, panting for breath in the motionless air. Outside the shadow of the Old Market lay over all, stretching sombre and black to where I crouched, a lonely, half-naked child at my attic window. And so at last, bathed in sweat, I would fall asleep, to awaken at dawn when the covered wagons pa.s.sed through the streets below, and the cry of "Wa-ter-mil-lion! Wa-ter-mil-lion!" rang in the silence. Then the sun would rise slowly, the day begin, and Mrs.
Chitling"s cheerful bustle would start anew. Tired, sleepless, despairing, I would set off to work at last, while the Great South Midland Railroad receded farther and farther into the dim province of inaccessible things.
After a long August day, when the factory had shut down while it was yet afternoon, I crept up to Church Hill, and looked again over the spiked wall into the enchanted garden. It was deserted and seemed very sad, I thought, for its only tenants appeared to be the swallows that flew, with short cries, in and out of the white columns. On the front door a large sign hung, reading "For Sale"; and turning away with a sinking heart, I went on to Mrs. Cudlip"s in the hope of catching a glimpse of baby Jessy, whom I had not seen since I ran away. She was playing on the sidewalk, a pretty, golden-haired little girl, with the melting blue eyes of my father; and when she caught sight of me, she gave a gurgling cry and ran straight to me out of the arms of President, who, I saw to my surprise, was standing in the doorway of our old home. He was taller than my father now, with the same kind, sheepish face, and the awkward movements as of an overgrown boy.
"Wall, if it ain"t Benjy!" he exclaimed, his slow wits paralysed by my unexpected appearance. "If it ain"t Benjy!"
Turning aside he spat a wad of tobacco into the gutter, and then coming toward me, seized both my hands and wrung them in his big fists with a grip that hurt.
"You"re comin" along now, ain"t you, Benjy?" he inquired proudly.
"t.i.th my Pethedent," lisped baby Jessy at his knees, and he stooped from his great height and lifted her in his arms with the gentleness of a woman.
"What about an eddication, Benjy boy?" he asked over the golden curls.
"I can"t get an education and work, too," I answered, "and I"ve got to work. How"s pa?"
"He"s taken an awful fondness to the bottle," replied President, with a sly wink, "an" if thar"s a thing on earth that can fill a man"s thoughts till it crowds out everything else in it, it"s the bottle. But speakin"
of an eddication, you see I never had one either, an" I tell you, when you don"t have it, you miss it every blessed minute of yo" life.
Whenever I see a man step on ahead of me in the race, I say to myself, "Thar goes an eddication. It"s the eddication in him that"s a-movin" an"
not the man." You mark my words, Benjy, I"ve stood stock still an" seen "em stridin" on that didn"t have one bloomin" thing inside of "em except an eddication."
"But how am I to get it, President?" I asked dolefully. "I"ve got to work."
"Get it out of books, Benjy. It"s in "em if you only have the patience to stick at "em till you get it out. I never had on o"count of my eyes and my slowness, but you"re young an" peart an" you don"t get confused by the printed letters."
Diving into his bulging pockets, he took out a big leather purse, from which he extracted a dollar and handed it to me. "Let that go toward an eddication," he said, adding: "If you can get it out of books I"ll send you a dollar toward it every week I live. That"s a kind of starter, anyway, ain"t it?"
I replied that I thought it was, and carefully twisted the money into the torn lining of my pocket.
"I"m goin" back to West Virginy to-night," he resumed. "Arter I"ve seen you an" the little sister thar ain"t any use my hangin" on out of work."
"Have you got a good place, President?"
"As good as can be expected for a plain man without an eddication," he responded sadly, and a half hour later, when I said good-by to him, with a sob, he came to the brow of the hill, with little Jessy clinging to his hand, and called after me solemnly, "Remember, Benjy boy, what you want is an eddication!"
So impressed was I by the earnestness of this advice, that as I went back down the dreary hill, with its musty second-hand clothes" shops, its noisy barrooms, and its general aspect of decay and poverty, I felt that my surroundings smothered me because I lacked the peculiar virtue which enabled a man to overcome the adverse circ.u.mstances in which he was born. The hot August day was drawing to its end, and the stagnant air in which I moved seemed burdened with sweat until it had become a tangible thing. The gourd vines were hanging limp now over the negro hovels, as if the weight of the yellow globes dragged them to the earth; and in the small square yards at the back, the wilted sunflowers seemed trying to hide their scorched faces from the last gaze of a too ardent lover. Whole families had swarmed out into the streets, and from time to time I stepped over a negro urchin, who lay flat on his stomach, drinking the juice of an overripe watermelon out of the rind. Above the dirt and squalor the street cries still rang out from covered wagons which crawled ceaslessly back and forth from the country to the Old Market. "Wa-ter-mil-lion. Wa-ter-mil-l-i-o-n! Hyer"s yo" Wa-ter-mil-lion fresh f"om de vi-ne!" And as I shut my eyes against the dirt, and my nostrils against the odours, I saw always in my imagination the enchanted garden, with its cool sweet magnolias and laburnums, and its great white columns from which the swallows flew, with short cries, toward the sunset.
A white shopkeeper and a mulatto woman had got into a quarrel on the pavement, and turning away to avoid them, I stumbled by accident into the open door of a second-hand shop, where the proprietor sat on an old cooking-stove drinking a gla.s.s of beer. As I started back my frightened glance lit on a heap of dusty volumes in one corner, and in reply to a question, which I put the next instant in a trembling voice, I was informed that I might have the whole pile for fifty cents, provided I"d clear them out on the spot. The bargain was no sooner clinched than I gathered the books in my arms and staggered under their weight in the direction of Mrs. Chitling"s. Even for a grown man they would have made a big armful, and when at last I toiled up to my attic, and dropped on my knees by the open window, I was shaking from head to foot with exhaustion. The dust was thick on my hands and arms, and as I turned them over eagerly by the red light of the sunset, the worm-eaten bindings left queer greenish stains on my fingers. Among a number of loose magazines called _The Farmer"s Friend_, I found an ill.u.s.trated, rather handsome copy of "Pilgrim"s Progress," presented, as an inscription on the flyleaf testified, to one Jeremiah Wakefield as a reward for deportment; the entire eight volumes of "Sir Charles Grandison"; a complete Johnson"s Dictionary, with the binding missing; and Burton"s "Anatomy of Melancholy" in faded crimson morocco. When I had dusted them carefully on an old shirt, and arranged them on the three-cornered shelf at the head of my cot, I felt, with a glow of satisfaction, that the foundations of that education to which President had contributed were already laid in my brain. If the secret of the future had been imprisoned in those mouldy books, I could hardly have attacked them with greater earnestness; and there was probably no accident in my life which directed so powerfully my fortunes as the one that sent me stumbling into that second-hand shop on that afternoon in mid-August. I can imagine what I should have been if I had never had the help of a friend in my career, but when I try to think of myself as unaided by Johnson"s Dictionary, or by "Sir Charles Grandison," whose prosiest speeches I committed joyfully to memory, my fancy stumbles in vain in the attempt. For five drudging years those books were my constant companions, my one resource, and to conceive of myself without them is to conceive of another and an entirely different man. If there was harm in any of them, which I doubt, it was clothed to appeal to an older and a less ignorant imagination than mine; and from the elaborate treatises on love melancholy in Burton"s "Anatomy," I extracted merely the fine aromatic flavour of his quotations.
CHAPTER IX
I LEARN A LITTLE LATIN AND A GREAT DEAL OF LIFE
My opportunity came at last when Bob Brackett, the manager of the leaf department, discovered me one afternoon tucked away with the half of Johnson"s Dictionary in a corner of the stemming room, where the negroes were singing "Swing Low, Sweet Chariot."
"I say, Ben, why ain"t you out on the floor?" he asked.
I laid the book face downwards on the window-sill, and came out, embarra.s.sed and secretive, to where he stood. "I just dropped down there a minute ago to rest," I replied.
"You weren"t resting, you were reading. Show me the book."
Without a word I handed him the great dictionary, and he fingered the dog-eared pages with a critical and reflective air.
"Holy Moses! it ain"t a blessed thing except words!" he exclaimed, after a minute. "Do you mean to tell me you can sit down and read a dictionary for the pure pleasure of reading?"
"I wasn"t reading, I was learning," I answered.
"Learning how?"
"Learning by heart. I"ve already got as far as the _d_"s."
"You mean you can say every last word of them _a_"s, _b_"s, and _c_"s straight off?"
I nodded gravely, my hands behind my back, my eyes on the beams in the ceiling. "As far as the _d_"s."
"And you"re doing all this learning just to get an education, ain"t you?"
My eyes dropped from the beams and I shook my head, "I don"t believe it"s there, sir."
"What? Where?"
"I don"t believe an education is in them. I did once."