"Are you in pain now, Sally? What can I do for you?" I asked.
"No, I am better. Don"t worry," she answered.
Then, because there seemed nothing further to say, I stood in silence, while she moved from me, as if the burden of her weight was too much for her, and sank down on the couch, hiding her face in the pillows.
Two days later there came down a great specialist from New York for a consultation; and while he was upstairs in her closed bedroom, I walked up and down the floor of the library, over the Turkish rugs, between the black oak bookcases, as I had walked in that other house on the night of my failure. How small a thing that seemed to me now compared with this!
What I remembered best from that night was the look in her face when she had turned and run back to me with her arms outstretched, and the warm, flattened braid of her hair that had brushed my cheek. I understood at last, as I walked restlessly back and forth, waiting for the verdict from the closed room, that I had been happy then--if I had only known it! The warmth stifled me, and going to the window, I flung it open, and leaned out into the mild November weather. In the street below leaves were burning, and while the odour floated up to me I saw again her red shoes dancing over the sunken graves in the churchyard.
The door opened above, there was the sound of a slow heavy tread on the staircase, and I went forward to meet the great specialist as he came into the room.
For a minute he looked at me enquiringly over a pair of black-rimmed gla.s.ses, while I stood there neither thinking nor feeling, but waiting.
Something in my brain, which until then had seemed to tick the slow movement of time, came suddenly to a stop like a clock that has run down.
"In my opinion an operation is unnecessary, Mr. Starr," he said, drawing out his watch as he spoke, "and in your wife"s present condition I seriously advise against it. The injury to the spine may not be permanent, but there is only one cure for it--time--time and rest. To make recovery possible she should have absolute quiet, absolute freedom from care. She must be taken to a milder climate,--I would suggest southern California,--and she must be kept free from mental disturbance for a number of years."
"In that case there is hope of recovery?"
For an instant he stared at me blankly, his gaze wandering from his watch to the clock on the mantel, as if there were a discrepancy in the time, which he would like to correct.
"Ah, yes, hope," he replied suddenly, in a cheerful voice, "there is always hope." Then having uttered his confession of faith, he appeared to grow nervous. "Have you a time-table on your desk?" he enquired. "I"d like to look up an earlier train than the Florida special."
Having looked up his train, he turned to shake hands with me, while the abstracted and preoccupied expression in his face grew a trifle more human, as if he had found what he wanted.
"What your wife needs, my dear sir," he remarked, as he went out, "is not medical treatment, but daily and hourly care."
A minute later, when the front door had closed after him, and the motor car had borne him on his way to the station, I stood alone in the room, repeating his words with a kind of joy, as if they contained the secret of happiness for which I had sought. "Daily and hourly care, daily and hourly care." I tried to think clearly of what it meant--of the love, the sacrifice, the service that would go into it. I tried, too, to think of her as she was lying now, still and pale in the room upstairs, with the expression of touching helplessness, of pathetic courage, about her mouth; but even as I made the effort, the scent of burning leaves floated again through the window and I could see her only in her red shoes dancing over the sunken graves. "Daily and hourly care," I repeated aloud.
The words were still on my lips when old Esdras, stepping softly, came in and put a telegram into my hands, and as I tore it open, I said over slowly, like one who impresses a fact on the memory, "What your wife needs is daily and hourly care." Ah, she should have it. How she should have it! Then my eyes fell on the paper, and before I read the words, I knew that it was the offer of the presidency of the Great South Midland and Atlantic Railroad. The end of my ambition, the great adventure of my boyhood, lay in my grasp.
With the telegram still in my hand, I went up the staircase, and entered the bedroom where Sally was lying, with wide, bright eyes, in the dimness.
"It"s good news," I said, as I bent over her, "there"s only good news to-day."
She looked up at me with that searching brightness I had seen when she gazed straight beyond me for the help that I could not give.
"It means going away from everything I have ever known," she said slowly; "it means leaving you, Ben."
"It means never leaving me again in your life," I replied; "not for a day--not for an hour."
"You will go, too?" she asked, and the faint wonder in her face pierced to my heart.
"Do you think I"d be left?" I demanded.
Her eyes filled and as she turned from me, a tear fell on my hand.
"But your work, your career--oh, no, no, Ben, no."
"You are my career, darling, I have never in my heart had any career but you. What I am, I am yours, Sally, but there are things that I cannot give you because they are not mine, because they are not in me. These are the things that were George"s."
Lifting my hand she kissed it gently and let it fall with a gesture that expressed an acquiescence in life rather than a surrender to love.
"I"ve sometimes thought that if I hadn"t loved you first, Ben--if I could ever have changed, I should have loved George," she said, and added very softly, like one who seeks to draw strength from a radiant memory, "but I had already loved you once for all, I suppose, in the beginning."
"I am yours, such as I am," I returned. "Plain I shall always be--plain and rough sometimes, and forgetful to the end of the little things--but the big things are there as you know, Sally, as you know."
"As I know," she repeated, a little sadly, yet with the pathetic courage in her voice; "and it is the big things, after all, that I"ve wanted most all my life."
Then she shook her head with a smile that brought me to my knees at her side.
"You"ve forgotten the railroad," she said. "You"ve forgotten the presidency of the South Midland--that"s what _you_ wanted most."
My laugh answered her. "Hang the presidency of the South Midland!" I responded gaily.
Her brows went up, and she looked at me with the shadow of her old charming archness. By this look I knew that the spirit of the Blands would fight on, though always with that faint wonder. Then her eyes fell on the crumpled telegram I still held in my hand, and she reached to take it.
"What is that, dear?" she asked.
Breaking away from her, I walked to the fireplace and tossed the offer of the presidency of the South Midland and Atlantic Railroad into the grate. It caught slowly, and I stood there while it flamed up, and then crumbled with curled fiery ends among the ashes. When it was quite gone, I turned and came back to her.
"Only a bit of waste paper," I answered.
Mr. JAMES LANE ALLEN"S NOVELS
The Choir Invisible
"One reads the story for the story"s sake, and then re-reads the book out of pure delight in its beauty. The story is American to the very core.... Mr. Allen stands to-day in the front rank of American novelists. _The Choir Invisible_ will solidify a reputation already established and bring into clear light his rare gifts as an artist. For this latest story is as genuine a work of art as has come from an American hand."--Hamilton Mabie in _The Outlook_.
The Reign of Law. A Tale of the Kentucky Hempfields
"Mr. Allen has a style as original and almost as perfectly finished as Hawthorne"s, and he has also Hawthorne"s fondness for spiritual suggestion that makes all his stories rich in the qualities that are lacking in so many novels of the period.... If read in the right way, it cannot fail to add to one"s spiritual possessions."--_San Francisco Chronicle._
The Mettle of the Pasture
"It may be that _The Mettle of the Pasture_ will live and become a part of our literature; it certainly will live far beyond the allotted term of present-day fiction. Our princ.i.p.al concern is that it is a notable novel, that it ranks high in the range of American and English fiction, and that it is worth the reading, the re-reading, and the continuous appreciation of those who care for modern literature at its best."--By E. F. E. in the _Boston Transcript_.
Summer in Arcady. A Tale of Nature
"This story by James Lane Allen is one of the gems of the season.
It is artistic in its setting, realistic and true to nature and life in its descriptions, dramatic, pathetic, tragic, in its incidents; indeed, a veritable masterpiece that must become cla.s.sic. It is difficult to give an outline of the story; it is one of the stories which do not outline; it must be read."--_Boston Daily Advertiser._
_Shorter Stories_