"Good," she said, with the first smile of the day. "I"ll hold you to it. But it will be an honourable bargain. Get Dr. Murdoch to overhaul you thoroughly, with a view to the Army. If he pa.s.ses you, take a commission. Dad says he can easily get you one through his old friend General Gadsby at the War Office. If he doesn"t, and you"re unfit, I"ll stick to you through thick and thin, and make the young women of Durdlebury wish they"d never been born."
She put out her hand. Doggie took it.
"Very well," said he, "I agree."
She laughed, and ran to the door.
"Where are you going?"
"To the telephone--to ring up Dr. Murdoch for an appointment."
"You"re flabby," said Dr. Murdoch the next morning to an anxious Doggie in pink pyjamas; "but that"s merely a matter of unused muscles.
Physical training will set it right in no time. Otherwise, my dear Trevor, you"re in splendid health. I was afraid your family history might be against you--the child of elderly parents, and so forth. But nothing of the sort. Not only are you a first-cla.s.s life for an insurance company, but you"re a first-cla.s.s life for the Army--and that"s saying a good deal. There"s not a flaw in your whole const.i.tution."
He put away his stethoscope and smiled at Doggie, who regarded him blankly as the p.r.o.nouncer of a doom. He went on to prescribe a course of physical exercises, so many miles a day walking, such and such back-breaking and contortional performances in his bathroom; if possible, a skilfully graduated career in a gymnasium, but his words fell on the ears of a Doggie in a dream; and when he had ended, Doggie said:
"I"m afraid, Doctor, you"ll have to write all that out for me."
"With pleasure," smiled the doctor, and gripped him by the hand. And seeing Doggie wince, he said heartily: "Ah! I"ll soon set that right for you. I"ll get you something--an india-rubber contrivance to practise with for half an hour a day, and you"ll develop a hand like a gorilla"s."
Dr. Murdoch grinned his way, in his little car, to his next patient.
Here was this young slacker, coddled from birth, absolutely horse-strong and utterly confounded at being told so. He grinned and chuckled so much that he nearly killed his most valuable old lady patient, who was crossing the High Street.
But Doggie crept out of bed and put on a violet dressing-gown that clashed horribly with his pink pyjamas, and wandered like a man in a nightmare to his breakfast. But he could not eat. He swallowed a cup of coffee and sought refuge in his own room. He was frightened.
Horribly frightened, caught in a net from which there was no escape--not the tiniest break of a mesh. He had given his word--and in justice to Doggie, be it said that he held his word sacred--he had given his word to join the Army if he should be pa.s.sed by Murdoch. He had been pa.s.sed--more than pa.s.sed. He would have to join. He would have to fight. He would have to live in a muddy trench, sleep in mud, eat in mud, plough through mud, in the midst of falling sh.e.l.ls and other instruments of death. And he would be an officer, with all kinds of strange and vulgar men under him, men like Chipmunk, for instance, whom he would never understand. He was almost physically sick with apprehension. He realized that he had never commanded a man in his life. He had been mortally afraid of Briggins, his late chauffeur. He had heard that men at the front lived on some solid horror called bully-beef dug out of tins, and some liquid horror called cocoa, also drunk out of tins; that men kept on their clothes, even their boots, for weeks at a time; that rats ran over them while they tried to sleep; that lice, hitherto a.s.sociated in his mind with the most revolting type of tramp, out there made no distinction of persons.
They were the common lot of the lowest Tommy and the finest gentleman.
And then the fighting. The noise of the horrid guns. The disgusting sights of men shattered to b.l.o.o.d.y bits. The horrible stench. The terror of having one"s face shot half away and being an object of revolt and horror to all beholders for the rest of life. Death.
Feverishly he ruffled his comely hair. Death. He was surprised that the contemplation of it did not freeze the blood in his veins. Yes. He put it clearly before him. He had given his word to Peggy that he would go and expose himself to Death. Death. What did it mean? He had been brought up in orthodox Church of England Christianity. His flaccid mind had never questioned the truth of its dogmas. He believed, in a general sort of way, that good people went to Heaven and bad people went to h.e.l.l. His conscience was clear. He had never done any harm to anybody. As far as he knew, he had broken none of the Ten Commandments. In a technical sense he was a miserable sinner, and so proclaimed himself once a week. But though, perhaps, he had done nothing in his life to merit eternal bliss in Paradise, yet, on the other hand, he had committed no action which would justify a kindly and just Creator in consigning him to the eternal flames of h.e.l.l.
Somehow the thought of Death did not worry him. It faded from his mind, being far less terrible than life under prospective conditions.
Discomfort, hunger, thirst, cold, fatigue, pain; above all the terror of his fellows--these were the soul-racking antic.i.p.ations of this new life into which it was a matter of honour for him to plunge. And to an essential gentleman like Doggie a matter of honour was a matter of life. And so, dressed in his pink pyjamas and violet dressing-gown, amid the peac.o.c.k-blue and ivory hangings of his boudoir room, and stared at by the countless unsympathetic eyes of his little china dogs, Doggie Trevor pa.s.sed through his first Gethsemane.
His decision was greeted with joy at the Deanery. Peggy threw her arms round his neck and gave him the very first real kiss he had ever received. It revived him considerably. His Aunt Sophia also embraced him. The Dean shook him warmly by the hand, and talked eloquent patriotism. Doggie already felt a hero. He left the house in a glow, but the drive home in the two-seater was cold and the pitch-dark night presaged other nights of mercilessness in the future; and when Doggie sat alone by his fire, sipping the hot milk which Peddle presented him on a silver tray, the doubts and fears of the morning racked him again. An ign.o.ble possibility occurred to him. Murdoch might be wrong.
Murdoch might be prejudiced by local gossip. Would it not be better to go up to London and obtain the opinion of a first-cla.s.s man to whom he was unknown? There was also another alternative. Flight. He might go to America, and do nothing. To the South of France, and help in some sort of way with hospitals for French wounded. He caught himself up short as these thoughts pa.s.sed through his mind, and he shuddered. He took up the gla.s.s of hot milk and put it down again. Milk? He needed something stronger. A glance in a mirror showed him his sleek hair tousled into an upstanding wig. In a kind of horror of himself he went to the dining-room and for the first time in his life drank a stiff whisky and soda for the sake of the stimulant. Reaction came. He felt a man once more. Rather suicide at once than such d.a.m.nable dishonour.
According to the directions which the Dean, a man of affairs, had given him, he sat down and wrote his application to the War Office for a commission. Then--unique adventure!--he stole out of the barred and bolted house, without thought of hat and overcoat (let the traducers of alcohol mark it well), ran down the drive and posted the letter in the box some few yards beyond his entrance gates.
The Dean had already posted his letter to his old friend General Gadsby at the War Office.
So the die was cast. The Rubicon was crossed. The bridges were burnt.
The irrevocable step was taken. Dr. Murdoch turned up the next morning with his prescription for physical training. And then Doggie trained a.s.siduously, monotonously, wearily. He grew appalled by the senselessness of this apparently unnecessary exertion. Now and then Peggy accompanied him on his prescribed walks; but the charm of her company was discounted by the glaring superiority of her powers of endurance. While he ached with fatigue, she pressed along as fresh as Atalanta at the beginning of her race. When they parted by the Deanery door, she would stand flushed, radiant in her youth and health, and say:
"We"ve had a topping walk, old dear. Now isn"t it a glorious thing to feel oneself alive?"
But poor Doggie of the flabby muscles felt half dead.
The fateful letter burdening Doggie with the King"s commission arrived a few weeks later: a second lieutenancy in a Fusilier battalion of the New Army. Dates and instructions were given. The impress of the Royal Arms at the head of the paper, with its grotesque perky lion and unicorn, conveyed to Doggie a sense of the grip of some uncanny power.
The typewritten words scarcely mattered. The impress fascinated him.
There was no getting away from it. Those two pawing beasts held him in their clutch. They headed a Death Warrant, from which there was no appeal.
Doggie put his house in order, dismissed with bounty those of his servants who would be no longer needed, and kept the Peddles, husband and wife, to look after his interests. On his last night at home he went wistfully through the familiar place, the drawing-room sacred to his mother"s memory, the dining-room so solid in its half-century of comfort, his own peac.o.c.k and ivory room so intensely himself, so expressive of his every taste, every mood, every emotion. Those strange old-world musical instruments--he could play them all with the touch or breath of a master and a lover. The old Italian theorbo. He took it up. How few to-day knew its melodious secret! He looked around. All these daintinesses and prettinesses had a meaning. They signified the magical little beauties of life--things which a.s.serted a range of spiritual truths, none the less real and consolatory because vice and crime and ugliness and misery and war co-existed in ghastly fact on other facets of the planet Earth. The sweetness here expressed was as essential to the world"s spiritual life as the sweet elements of foodstuffs to its physical life. To the getting together of all these articles of beauty he had devoted the years of his youth....
And--another point of view--was he not the guardian by inheritance--in other words, by Divine Providence--of this beautiful English home, the trustee of English comfort, of the sacred traditions of sweet English life that had made England the only country, the only country, he thought, that could call itself a Country and not a Compromise, in the world?
And he was going to leave it all. All that it meant in beauty and dignity and ease of life. For what?
For horror and filthiness and ugliness, for everything against which his beautiful peac.o.c.k and ivory room protested. Doggie"s last night at Denby Hall was a troubled one.
Aunt Sophia and Peggy accompanied him to London and stayed with him at his stuffy little hotel off Bond Street, while Doggie got his kit together. They bought everything in every West End shop that any salesman a.s.sured them was essential for active service. Swords, revolvers, field-gla.s.ses, pocket-knives (for gigantic pockets), compa.s.ses, mess-tins, cooking-batteries, sleeping-bags, waterproofs, boots innumerable, toilet accessories, drinking-cups, thermos flasks, field stationery cases, periscopes, tinted gla.s.ses, Gieve waistcoats, cholera belts, portable medicine cases, earplugs, tin-openers, corkscrews, notebooks, pencils, luminous watches, electric torches, pins, housewives, patent seat walking-sticks--everything that the man of commercial instincts had devised for the prosecution of the war.
The amount of warlike equipment with which Doggie, with the aid of his Aunt Sophia and Peggy, enc.u.mbered the narrow little pa.s.sages of Sturrocks"s Hotel, must have weighed about a ton.
At last Doggie"s uniforms--several suits--came home. He had devoted enormous care to their fit. Attired in one he looked beautiful. Peggy decreed a dinner at the Carlton. She and Doggie alone. Her mother could get some stuffy old relation to spend the evening with her at Sturrocks"s. She wanted Doggie all to herself, so as to realize the dream of many disgusting and humiliating months. And as she swept through the palm court and up the broad stairs and wound through the crowded tables of the restaurant with the khaki-clad Doggie by her side, she felt proud and uplifted. Here was her soldier whom she had made. Her very own man in khaki.
"Dear old thing," she whispered, pressing his arm as they trekked to their table. "Don"t you feel glorious? Don"t you feel as if you could face the universe?"
Peggy drank one gla.s.s of the quart of champagne. Doggie drank the rest.
On getting into bed he wondered why this unprecedented quant.i.ty of wine had not affected his sobriety. Its only effect had been to stifle thought. He went to bed and slept happily, for Peggy"s parting kiss had been such as would conduce to any young man"s felicity.
The next morning Aunt Sophia and Peggy saw him off to his depot, with his ton of luggage. He leaned out of the carriage window and exchanged hand kisses with Peggy until the curve of the line cut her off. Then he settled down in his corner with the _Morning Post_. But he could not concentrate his attention on the morning news. This strange costume in which he was clothed seemed unreal, monstrous; no longer the natty dress in which he had been proud to prink the night before, but a nightmare, Nessus-like invest.i.ture, signifying some abominable burning doom.
The train swept him into a world that was upside down.
CHAPTER VII
Those were proud days for Peggy. She went about Durdlebury with her head in the air, and her step was as martial as though she herself wore the King"s uniform, and she regarded the other girls of the town with a defiant eye. If only she could discover, she thought, the sender of the abominable feather! In Timpany"s drapery establishment she raked the girls at the counter with a searching glance. At the cathedral services she studied the demure faces of her contemporaries.
Now that Doggie was a soldier she held the anonymous exploit to be cowardly and brutal. What did people know of the thousand and one reasons that kept eligible young men out of the Army? What had they known of Marmaduke? As soon as the illusion of his life had been dispelled, he had marched away with as gallant a tread as anybody; and though Doggie had kept to himself his shrinkings and his terrors, she knew that what to the average hardily bred young man was a gay adventure, was to him an ordeal of considerable difficulty. She longed for his first leave, so that she could parade him before the town, in the event of there being a lurking sceptic who still refused to believe that he had joined the Army.
Conspicuous in the drawing-room, framed in silver, stood a large full-length photograph of Doggie in his new uniform.
She wrote to him daily, chronicling the little doings of the town, at times reviling it for its dullness. Dad, on numberless committees, was scarcely ever in the house, except for hurried meals. Most of the pleasant young clergy had gone. Many of the girls had gone too: Dorothy Bruce to be a probationer in a V.A.D. hospital. If Durdlebury were not such a rotten out-of-the-world place, the infirmary would be full of wounded soldiers, and she could do her turn at nursing. As things were, she could only knit socks for Tommies and a silk khaki tie for her own boy. But when everybody was doing their bit, these occupations were not enough to prevent her feeling a little slacker.
He would have to do the patriotic work for both of them, tell her all about himself, and let her share everything with him in imagination.
She also expressed her affection for him in shy and slangy terms.
Doggie wrote regularly. His letters were as shy and conveyed less information. The work was hard, the hours long, his accommodation Spartan. They were in huts on Salisbury Plain. Sometimes he confessed himself too tired to write more than a few lines. He had a bad cold in the head. He was better. They had inoculated him against typhoid and had allowed him two or three slack days. The first time he had unaccountably fainted; but he had seen some of the men do the same, and the doctor had a.s.sured him that it had nothing to do with cowardice. He had gone for a route march and had returned a dusty lump of fatigue. But after having shaken the dust out of his moustache--Doggie had a playful turn of phrase now and then--and drunk a quart of shandy-gaff, he had felt refreshed. Then it rained hard, and they were all but washed out of the huts. It was a very strange life--one which he never dreamed could have existed. "Fancy me," he wrote, "glad to sleep on a drenched bed!" There was the riding-school.
Why hadn"t he learned to ride as a boy? He had been told that the horse was a n.o.ble animal and the friend of man. He was afraid he would return to his dear Peggy with many of his young illusions shattered.
The horse was the most ign.o.ble, malevolent beast that ever walked, except the sergeant-major in the riding-school. Peggy was filled with admiration for his philosophic endurance of hardships. It was real courage. His letters contained simple statements of fact, but not a word of complaint. On the other hand, they were not ebullient with joy; but then, Peggy reflected, there was not much to be joyous about in a ramshackle hut on Salisbury Plain. "Dear old thing," she would write, "although you don"t grouse, I know you must be having a pretty thin time. But you"re bucking up splendidly, and when you get your leave I"ll do a girl"s very d----dest (don"t be shocked; but I"m sure you"re learning far worse language in the Army) to make it up to you."
Her heart was very full of him.
Then there came a time when his letters grew rarer and shorter. At last they ceased altogether. After a week"s waiting she sent an anxious telegram. The answer came back. "Quite well. Will write soon."
She waited. He did not write. One evening an unstamped envelope, addressed to her in a feminine hand, which she recognized as that of Marmaduke"s anonymous correspondent, was found in the Deanery letter-box. The envelope enclosed a copy of a cutting from the "Gazette" of the morning paper, and a sentence was underlined and adorned with exclamation marks at the sides.
"R. Fusiliers. Tempy. 2nd Lieutenant J. Trevor resigns his commission."