Distinctly, he was uneasy--though as yet perhaps but vaguely--at what I might be coming to. That was precisely my idea, and if I pitied him a little for my pressure my idea was yet what most possessed me. "Do you mean there"s nothing in him that strikes you?"
On this, unmistakably, he looked at me hard. ""Strikes" me--in that boy?
Nothing in him, that I know of, ever struck me in my life. He"s not an object of the smallest interest to me!"
I felt that if I insisted I should really stir up the old Long, the stolid c.o.xcomb, capable of rudeness, with whose redemption, reabsorption, supersession--one scarcely knew what to call it--I had been so happily impressed. "Oh, of course, if you haven"t noticed, you haven"t, and the matter I was going to speak of will have no point. You won"t know what I mean." With which I paused long enough to let his curiosity operate if his denial had been sincere. But it hadn"t. His curiosity never operated. He only exclaimed, more indulgently, that he didn"t know what I was talking about; and I recognised after a little that if I had made him, without intention, uncomfortable, this was exactly a proof of his being what Mrs. Briss, at the station, had called cleverer, and what I had so much remarked while, in the garden before dinner, he held our small company. n.o.body, nothing could, in the time of his inanity, have made him turn a hair. It was the mark of his aggrandis.e.m.e.nt. But I spared him--so far as was consistent with my wish for absolute certainty; changed the subject, spoke of other things, took pains to sound disconnectedly, and only after reference to several of the other ladies, the name over which we had just felt friction. "Mrs.
Brissenden"s quite fabulous."
He appeared to have strayed, in our interval, far. ""Fabulous"?"
"Why, for the figure that, by candle-light and in cloth-of-silver and diamonds, she is still able to make."
"Oh dear, yes!" He showed as relieved to be able to see what I meant.
"She has grown so very much less plain."
But that wasn"t at all what I meant. "Ah," I said, "you put it the other way at Paddington--which was much more the right one."
He had quite forgotten. "How then did I put it?"
As he had done before, I got rid of my ash. "She hasn"t grown very much less plain. She has only grown very much less old."
"Ah, well," he laughed, but as if his interest had quickly dropped, "youth is--comparatively speaking--beauty."
"Oh, not always. Look at poor Briss himself."
"Well, if you like better, beauty is youth."
"Not always, either," I returned. "Certainly only when it _is_ beauty.
To see how little it may be either, look," I repeated, "at poor Briss."
"I thought you told me just now not to!" He rose at last in his impatience.
"Well, at present you can."
I also got up, the other men at the same moment moved, and the subject of our reference stood in view. This indeed was but briefly, for, as if to examine a picture behind him, the personage in question suddenly turned his back. Long, however, had had time to take him in and then to decide. "I"ve looked. What then?"
"You don"t see anything?"
"Nothing."
"Not what everyone else must?"
"No, confound you!"
I already felt that, to be so tortuous, he must have had a reason, and the search for his reason was what, from this moment, drew me on. I had in fact half guessed it as we stood there. But this only made me the more explanatory. "It isn"t really, however, that Brissenden has grown less lovely--it"s only that he has grown less young."
To which my friend, as we quitted the room, replied simply: "Oh!"
The effect I have mentioned was, none the less, too absurd. The poor youth"s back, before us, still as if consciously presented, confessed to the burden of time. "How old," I continued, "did we make out this afternoon that he would be?"
"That who would?"
"Why, poor Briss."
He fairly pulled up in our march. "Have you got him on the brain?"
"Don"t I seem to remember, my dear man, that it was you yourself who knew? He"s thirty at the most. He can"t possibly be more. And there he is: as fine, as swaddled, as royal a mummy, to the eye, as one would wish to see. Don"t pretend! But it"s all right." I laughed as I took myself up. "I must talk to Lady John."
I did talk to her, but I must come to it. What is most to the point just here is an observation or two that, in the smoking-room, before going to bed, I exchanged with Ford Obert. I forbore, as I have hinted, to show all I saw, but it was lawfully open to me to judge of what other people did; and I had had before dinner my little proof that, on occasion, Obert could see as much as most. Yet I said nothing more to him for the present about Mrs. Server. The Brissendens were new to him, and his experience of every sort of facial accident, of human sign, made him just the touchstone I wanted. Nothing, naturally, was easier than to turn him on the question of the fair and the foul, type and character, weal and woe, among our fellow-visitors; so that my mention of the air of disparity in the couple I have just named came in its order and produced its effect. This effect was that of my seeing--which was all I required--that if the disparity was marked for him this expert observer could yet read it quite the wrong way. Why had so fine a young creature married a man three times her age? He was of course astounded when I told him the young creature was much nearer three times Brissenden"s, and this led to some interesting talk between us as to the consequences, in general, of such a.s.sociation on such terms. The particular case before us, I easily granted, sinned by over-emphasis, but it was a fair, though a gross, ill.u.s.tration of what almost always occurred when twenty and forty, when thirty and sixty, mated or mingled, lived together in intimacy. Intimacy of course had to be postulated. Then either the high number or the low always got the upper hand, and it was usually the high that succeeded. It seemed, in other words, more possible to go back than to keep still, to grow young than to remain so. If Brissenden had been of his wife"s age and his wife of Brissenden"s, it would thus be he who must have redescended the hill, it would be she who would have been pushed over the brow. There was really a touching truth in it, the stuff of--what did people call such things?--an apologue or a parable. "One of the pair," I said, "has to pay for the other. What ensues is a miracle, and miracles are expensive. What"s a greater one than to have your youth twice over? It"s a second wind, another "go"--which isn"t the sort of thing life mostly treats us to. Mrs. Briss had to get her new blood, her extra allowance of time and bloom, somewhere; and from whom could she so conveniently extract them as from Guy himself? She _has_, by an extraordinary feat of legerdemain, extracted them; and he, on his side, to supply her, has had to tap the sacred fount. But the sacred fount is like the greedy man"s description of the turkey as an "awkward" dinner dish. It may be sometimes too much for a single share, but it"s not enough to go round."
Obert was at all events sufficiently struck with my view to throw out a question on it. "So that, paying to his last drop, Mr. Briss, as you call him, can only die of the business?"
"Oh, not yet, I hope. But before _her_--yes: long."
He was much amused. "How you polish them off!"
"I only talk," I returned, "as you paint; not a bit worse! But one must indeed wonder," I conceded, "how the poor wretches feel."
"You mean whether Brissenden likes it?"
I made up my mind on the spot. "If he loves her he must. That is if he loves her pa.s.sionately, sublimely." I saw it all. "It"s in fact just because he does so love her that the miracle, for her, is wrought."
"Well," my friend reflected, "for taking a miracle coolly----!"
"She hasn"t her equal? Yes, she does take it. She just quietly, but just selfishly, profits by it."
"And doesn"t see then how her victim loses?"
"No. She can"t. The perception, if she had it, would be painful and terrible--might even be fatal to the process. So she hasn"t it. She pa.s.ses round it. It takes all her flood of life to meet her own chance.
She has only a wonderful sense of success and well-being. The _other_ consciousness----"
"Is all for the other party?"
"The author of the sacrifice."
"Then how beautifully "poor Briss,"" my companion said, "must have it!"
I had already a.s.sured myself. He had gone to bed, and my fancy followed him. "Oh, he has it so that, though he goes, in his pa.s.sion, about with her, he dares scarcely show his face." And I made a final induction.
"The agents of the sacrifice are uncomfortable, I gather, when they suspect or fear that you see."
My friend was charmed with my ingenuity. "How you"ve worked it out!"
"Well, I feel as if I were on the way to something."
He looked surprised. "Something still more?"
"Something still more." I had an impulse to tell him I scarce knew what.
But I kept it under. "I seem to snuff up----"
"_Quoi donc?_"