"As you will," he said, with a shrug of the shoulders.
"And besides," she continued, "your wish is almost an insult to your wife, Murray; it is cruel in tone, cruel in wording--harsh as it is unjust--unfair."
"Do I not say," he exclaimed, angrily, "do as you will? I gave you my opinion as to what I thought would be best, and you differ. Very well; one of us must give way, and I have yielded. What more would you have?
Do I ever play the domestic tyrant? Am I ever unreasonable?"
Lady Gernon was silent, and stood pale and motionless, looking at the table upon which she rested her hand. She was still very beautiful; but there was a sharpness about her features that told of suffering, and the workings of a troubled heart. It was evident that she wished to speak, but the words would not come, and at last, fearing to display her agitation, she glided back to her seat.
But she had gained her end: there was to be reconciliation, and a friendly feeling preserved between the two families. And why not? she asked herself. Were they to be always enemies on account of the past?
Sinking thoughtfully back in her chair, she rested her forehead upon her hand, dreaming over the incidents of the past few years, and even while feeling a dread of the impending meeting, she felt a longing desire to look once more upon her old lover--upon the man who, upon her wedding-day, had seemed, as it were, to cast a blight upon her future life, as he appeared like one rising from the dead to upbraid her with her falling away.
Lady Gernon did not see the curious way in which her husband sat and watched her, marking every change in her countenance, noting every sign.
He had been startled by the earnestness with which she had combated his wishes. Her manner had been so new, her eager words so unusual; for during their married life her actions had been of the most subdued nature, and, as if resigning herself to her fate, she had been the quiet, uncomplaining wife, to whom his word had been law, while, proud of her beauty and accomplishments, he had been content.
But no words pa.s.sed till, rousing herself, Lady Gernon sought to remove any strange impression her utterances might have made--sought, but in vain, for she had unwittingly sown seeds that had already begun to germinate, striking root deeply in her husband"s breast, soon to flourish for ill in a way that should defy her utmost efforts to uproot them.
Book 1, Chapter XII.
FOOD FOR SUSPICION.
"Who?" exclaimed Mrs Norton, aghast, as her servant hurriedly made an announcement.
"Sir Murray and Lady Gernon. I saw the carriage come in at the lower gate. There they are, ma"am," said the girl, as the grating of wheels upon the drive preceded a loud peal at the bell.
"For Heaven"s sake be calm, Philip!" exclaimed Mrs Norton, as she saw him turn ghastly pale, all save the great scar upon his face, which seemed to glow and throb.
"Not at home! We can"t see them!" he exclaimed hoa.r.s.ely.
"Too late," she said, unwittingly giving him another pang, as she quoted his despairing words of the day when he had last seen Marion. "But, Philip, love, dear husband, recollect yourself," she whispered imploringly; and then, trying to recover her composure, she rose as Sir Murray and Lady Gernon entered the room--the former courtly and at ease, the latter to run to Ada, throw her arms round her neck, and kiss her fondly, holding her for a few moments to her throbbing breast, while, overcome by the warmth of the greeting, Mrs Norton as lovingly returned the embrace.
To her great delight, though, as she raised her eyes from her cousin, it was to see that, quite composed and courteously, Philip Norton had advanced to meet his guest, they had shaken hands, and Norton had now turned to greet Marion.
Ada"s heart palpitated, and she hardly dared watch her husband, but turned to look at Sir Murray, who was narrowly scanning every glance and act. But Lady Gernon"s greeting of her old lover was graceful, kind, and yet dignified; her every word and look was unimpeachable, and Ada Norton"s agitation gave place to a feeling of thankfulness as she saw her husband take Marion"s hand without a shade crossing his countenance, press it slightly in a frank greeting, and then place for her a chair; when, apparently himself relieved, Sir Murray engaged his wife"s cousin in conversation, his old stiff, courtly manner being more proud and polished than ever, as he talked of their long absence, the changes that had taken place, expressing, too, a hope that he should see her often at the Castle.
"Will you take me into the garden, Captain Norton?" said Lady Gernon, in a low tone. "I have something to say to you." Then aloud: "Do you not find the weather very oppressive? I am always longing for the fresh air."
The remark was too pointed to escape observation, for Lady Gernon was no way skilled in subterfuge, while Norton hesitated for an instant, and there was a slight change in his countenance as he rose, saying:
"You have probably not seen our poor place, Lady Gernon; will you walk round?" She rose on the instant and took his arm, and they pa.s.sed through the French window on to the lawn, while, half rising, Ada Norton looked anxiously in Sir Murray"s face.
"No," he replied calmly, as, with a bitter smile on his lip, he read off her unspoken words. "I think we will stay. They will probably return directly;" and then he started, in a cool and indolent way, a fresh topic of conversation, to which, in the agitation she could not conceal, Ada could but reply in monosyllables.
"Well, Marion," said Norton, calmly, as they stood amidst the flower-beds of the little parterre, "you wish to speak to me?"
"Yes, yes," she said, eagerly. "I know that it may seem strange, but, Philip, I could not rest till I had spoken to you. Heaven willed that we should not be one, and I am now another"s. You loved me once; will you, for the sake of that old love, make me a promise?"
"Loved you once--promise!" said Norton, bitterly.
"Yes," she cried, eagerly; "promise me, and then let the past be dead."
"What would you have me promise?" he said. "Though you fail with yours."
"Hush!" she said, imploringly; "do not be cruel. Now, at once, promise for the sake of our old dead love, that the past shall all be forgotten, and that you will treat my husband as a friend."
"The man who robbed me of all my hopes!"
"Oh, hush! Do not speak so, Philip. There was some talk, before we left England, of a meeting--of angry words between you, and it was for this that I fostered Sir Murray"s desire to live abroad. But you will promise me, will you not--on your word--yours, Philip--that there shall never be a quarrel between you?"
"Lady Gernon," said Philip, coldly, "your husband is safe from me. My madness is at an end, and I am now your cousin"s husband. There, for Heaven"s sake!" he cried, a change coming over him, "never let us refer to the past, and let us meet but seldom. Come back into the house.
Forgive me if I speak bitterly, but the sight of your happiness would drive me to forget the duties I owe to others. Why did you come?"
"For my husband"s sake," said Lady Gernon. "And now, from my soul, I thank you. I know how worthless are my promises," she said, bitterly; "but I can confide in yours. Now let us return."
The blood was mantling in Philip Norton"s forehead, and he was about to speak, when an end was put to the painful interview by the merry, prattling voice of a child, and Philip"s bright little fellow came running up, but only to draw back shyly on seeing the strange lady, who sank upon her knees with outstretched hands, as if hungering to clasp the child to her breast.
"Yours?--your boy, Philip?" she said.
"Mine, Lady Gernon," said Norton, coldly, for he had once more regained control of himself. Then, stooping over the child, "Go to that lady, Brace," he said; and in obedience the child suffered himself to be caressed, Lady Gernon kissing his bright little face eagerly, a tear or two falling the while upon his sunny hair.
Lady Gernon was still on her knees, holding the boy, who, forgetting his fear, was playing with her watch-chain, when slowly, and with courtly grace, conversing loudly the while, Sir Murray led Ada Norton into the garden, when the dread and undefined feelings in the latter"s heart were chased away, and a happy light beamed in her eye as she caught sight of the group before her; but there was an ill-concealed, angry glance directed at his wife by Sir Murray, and another at the child--an angry, jealous, envious look, but it was gone in an instant, and, stooping down, he too sought to take the child"s hand, but only for it to shrink from him hastily.
"Oh, Ada!" exclaimed Lady Gernon, with swimming eyes, as she laid her hand upon her cousin"s arm; and in those two words there seemed sufficient to disarm every doubt and suspicion--to break off the points of the thorns that had been ready to enter into her soul; and Ada, as much at rest as now seemed Lady Gernon, turned to her smilingly, ready to listen to her praises of the child"s beauty, and her prayers that they might be as of old.
"I have been so lonely abroad, Ada," said Lady Gernon, sadly. "You will renew the old days, will you not?"
Ada Norton paused for a moment before she answered, looking steadfastly in her cousin"s face, to see there now a calm, sad serenity, that she could hardly understand, when, the words being repeated almost imploringly, the reply was, "Yes."
"I am at your service, Lady Gernon," said Sir Murray at that moment, when, once more, embracing the child, Lady Gernon kissed her cousin with the same old tenderness as of yore, turning the next moment to offer her hand, with a sad, quiet smile, to Philip Norton, who led her to the carriage; and then it all seemed to him to have been a dream, while the sound of the carriage-wheels, fast subsiding into a murmur, were but a part of the imaginings of his troubled brain. But the next instant he had started back to the reality, for his wife was gazing anxiously in his troubled face, when, as his eyes met hers, his old quiet smile came back, and, catching the boy in his arms, he made the little fellow shout with glee as he galloped him round the garden, to return with flushed face and tumbled hair to his watching wife.
"Philip?" she said, looking up at him inquiringly.
"My love," he said, tenderly.
"You have something to say to me, have you not?"
"No," he said, quietly; "unless it is--better friends than enemies."
Mrs Norton said no more; but there was a pang at her heart, for she felt that her husband was keeping something from her.
Book 1, Chapter XIII.
BROODING.
People said that Lady Gernon had benefited by the change--that Italy could not have agreed with her--for day by day she seemed to be casting off the dull, heavy languor that oppressed her. There was still a quiet sadness pervading every movement; but Sir Murray, without hearing people"s remarks, noted for himself that she took more interest in the affairs of daily life: in place of disliking company, she now gladly met his wishes, concerning dinner or breakfast party. In fact, there was a complete change; but it gave no pleasure to her husband, for he watched her with jaundiced eyes, saying nothing, but followed her every movement uneasily. Even the apparent increase of affection she displayed towards him was distasteful; and he grew in private moody and dissatisfied. But only in private, for he told himself that he had a duty to perform--one which demanded all watchfulness and care, and sternly he set himself to that duty.
The intimacy with the Nortons grew daily more close, and they dined several times at the Castle, the old warm affection between the two cousins growing stronger than ever. Both Lady Gernon and Mrs Norton viewed with satisfaction the quiet, un.o.btrusive courtesy of Sir Murray; while Captain Norton grew more and more dreamy, just waking up into an animated smile when spoken to, and joining for a few minutes in the conversation; but only to subside again directly after.
No stranger could have imagined that there had ever been more than the simplest of friendly ties between the families, and Sir Murray Gernon again and again owned to himself that his wife"s conduct was unimpeachable; but, at the same time, it troubled him, that from the day of the visit to the Hall, and Lady Gernon"s unconcealed efforts to obtain a few words with her old lover in private, she had been an altered woman; and he felt that it was not on his account, else why had not the change come during the past five years. It troubled him, too, that there was nothing that he could complain of; and, as he sat one day in his library, thoughtfully brooding, he pa.s.sed over in review the conduct of those in whom he was most interested. Captain Norton called but seldom, and then with his wife; he was absent, too, a great deal, report said, at the iron mines; and when at the Castle his attentions to Lady Gernon were always of the most formal nature, while, after rendering the duties inc.u.mbent on her towards her guest, Lady Gernon seemed to avoid him. Mrs Norton was evidently much attached to her cousin, while Lady Gernon--yes, there was the knot: Lady Gernon was another woman, growing daily brighter and more elate, while his spirit refused to let him believe that it was all due to the change of scene and return to the society of parents and friends.