"Well, it"s only t.i.t for tat if she does," he said. "But I thought----" He did not finish; did not say that he had thought Christine cared too much for him ever to give a thought to another fellow. He turned his head against the cushions and pretended to sleep, and presently Sangster went quietly away.
He thought that Christine had--well, not behaved badly. How could anyone blame her for anything she chose to do or not to do, after what had occurred? But, still, he was vaguely disappointed in her; he thought she ought to have come--just to see how Jimmy really was.
But Christine was not thinking very much about Jimmy in those days at all. Somehow the foreground of her life seemed to have got filled up with the figure of another man; a man whom she had never once seen since that drive over to Heston.
Sometimes she thought she would write a little note and ask him to come to tea; sometimes she thought she would walk the way in which she knew she could always meet him, but something restrained her.
And then one afternoon, quite unexpectedly, she ran into him in the village.
He was coming out of the little post office as she was going in, and he pulled up short with a muttered apology before he recognised her; then--well, then they both got red, and a little flame crept into Kettering"s eyes.
"I thought I was never going to see you any more," Christine said rather nervously. "Are you angry with me?"
"Angry!" He laughed a little. "Why ever should I be angry with you? . . . I--the fact is, I"ve been in London on business."
"Oh!" She looked rather sceptical; she raised her chin a dignified inch. "You ought to have told me," she said, unthinkingly.
He looked at her quickly and away again.
"I missed you," said Christine navely.
"That is very kind of you." There was a little silence. "May I--may I walk a little way with you?" he asked diffidently.
"If you care to."
He checked a smile. "I shall be delighted," he said gravely.
They set out together.
Christine felt wonderfully light-hearted all at once; her eyes sparkled, her cheeks were flushed. Kettering hardly looked at her at all. It made him afraid because he was so glad to be with her once more; he knew now how right Gladys had been when she asked him not to come to Upton House again. He rushed into conversation; he told her that the weather had been awful in London, and that he had been hopelessly bored. "I know so few people there," he said. "And I kept wondering what you were----" He broke off, biting his lip.
"What I was doing?" Christine finished it for him quickly. "Well, I was sitting at the window most of the time, wondering why you didn"t come and see me," she said with a laugh.
"Were you----"
She frowned a little; she looked up at him with impatient eyes.
"What is the matter? I know something is the matter; I can feel that there is. You are angry with me; you----"
"My dear child, I a.s.sure you I am not. There is nothing the matter except, perhaps I am a little--worried and--and unhappy."
He laughed to cover his sudden gravity. "Tell me about yourself and--and Jimmy. How is Challoner?"
He had never spoken to her of Jimmy before; his name had been tacitly unmentioned between them. Christine flushed; she shrugged her shoulders. "I don"t know; he wasn"t very well last week, but I dare say he is all right again now." Her voice was very flippant. In spite of himself Kettering was shocked; he hated to hear her speak like that; he had always thought her so sweet and unaffected.
"He ought to come down here for a change," he said in his most matter-of-fact tones. "Why don"t you insist that he comes down here for a change? Country air is a fine doctor; he would enjoy it."
"I don"t think he would; he hates the country." She spoke without looking at him. "I am sure that he is having a much better time in London than he would have here----" She broke off. "Mr. Kettering, will you come back and have tea with me?"
Kettering coloured; he tried to refuse; he wanted to refuse; but somehow her brown eyes would not let him; somehow----
"I shall be delighted," he heard himself say.
He had not meant to say it; he would have given a great deal to recall the words as soon as they were spoken, but it was too late. Another moment and they were in the house.
He looked round him with a sense of great pleasure. It seemed a lifetime since he had been here; it was like coming home again to be here and with the woman he loved. He looked at little Christine with wistful eyes.
"Gladys is out," she said, "so you will have to put up with me alone; do you mind?"
"Do I mind!" She coloured beneath his gaze; her heart was beating fast.
He followed her across the hall. He knew he was doing the weak thing; knew that he ought to turn on his heel and go away, but he knew that he intended staying.
An hour with Christine alone; it was worth risking something for to have that. Christine opened the drawing-room door.
"We"ll have tea here," she said; "it"s much more cosy. I----"
She stopped dead; her voice broke off into silence with a curious little jarring sound.
A man had risen from the sofa by the window; a tall young man, with a pale face and worried-looking eyes--Jimmy Challoner!
CHAPTER XX
LOVE LOCKED OUT
Jimmy only glanced at Christine; his eyes went past her almost immediately to the man who was following her into the room; a streak of red crept into his pale face.
It was Kettering who recovered himself first; he went forward with outstretched hand.
"Well, I never! We were just talking about you."
His voice was quite steady, perfectly friendly, but his heart had given one bitter throb of disappointment at sight of Christine"s husband.
This was the end of their little half-hour together. Perhaps it was Fate stepping in opportunely to prevent him making a fool of himself.
Jimmy and he shook hands awkwardly. Jimmy had made no attempt to greet his wife. One would have thought that they had met only an hour or two previously, to judge by the coolness of their meeting, though beneath her black frock Christine"s heart was racing, and for the first few moments she hardly knew what she was doing or what she said.
Jimmy looked ill; she knew that, and it gave her a faint little heartache; she avoided looking at him if she could help it. She left the two men to entertain each other, and busied herself with the tea-tray.
Kettering rose to the occasion n.o.bly. He talked away as if this unwelcome meeting were a pleasure to him. He did his best to put Christine at her ease, but all the time he was wondering how soon he could make his excuses and escape; how soon he could get out of this three-cornered situation, which was perhaps more painful to him than to either of his companions.
He handed the tea for Christine, and sat beside her, screening her a little from Jimmy"s worried eyes. How was she feeling? he was asking himself jealously. Was she glad to see her husband, or did she feel as he did--that Jimmy"s unexpected presence had spoilt for them both an hour which neither would easily have forgotten?
"How is your brother?" he asked Jimmy presently. "I haven"t heard from him just lately. I suppose he has thought no more of coming home? He has talked of it for so long."
Jimmy roused himself with an effort. He had not touched his tea, and he had given the cake he had mechanically taken to Christine"s terrier.