"Thanks, do, sonny." And the critic slept again.
Yes, we took an interest in our plays then. I wonder shall I ever enjoy the British Drama again as I enjoyed it in those days? Shall I ever enjoy a supper again as I enjoyed the tripe and onions washed down with bitter beer at the bar of the old Albion? I have tried many suppers after the theatre since then, and some, when friends have been in generous mood, have been expensive and elaborate. The cook may have come from Paris, his portrait may be in the ill.u.s.trated papers, his salary may be reckoned by hundreds; but there is something wrong with his art, for all that, I miss a flavour in his meats. There is a sauce lacking.
Nature has her coinage, and demands payment in her own currency. At Nature"s shop it is you yourself must pay. Your unearned increment, your inherited fortune, your luck, are not legal tenders across her counter.
You want a good appet.i.te. Nature is quite willing to supply you.
"Certainly, sir," she replies, "I can do you a very excellent article indeed. I have here a real genuine hunger and thirst that will make your meal a delight to you. You shall eat heartily and with zest, and you shall rise from the table refreshed, invigorated, and cheerful."
"Just the very thing I want," exclaims the gourmet delightedly. "Tell me the price."
"The price," answers Mrs. Nature, "is one long day"s hard work."
The customer"s face falls; he handles nervously his heavy purse.
"Cannot I pay for it in money?" he asks. "I don"t like work, but I am a rich man, I can afford to keep French cooks, to purchase old wines."
Nature shakes her head.
"I cannot take your cheques, tissue and nerve are my charges. For these I can give you an appet.i.te that will make a rump-steak and a tankard of ale more delicious to you than any dinner that the greatest chef in Europe could put before you. I can even promise you that a hunk of bread and cheese shall be a banquet to you; but you must pay my price in my money; I do not deal in yours."
And next the Dilettante enters, demanding a taste for Art and Literature, and this also Nature is quite prepared to supply.
"I can give you true delight in all these things," she answers. "Music shall be as wings to you, lifting you above the turmoil of the world.
Through Art you shall catch a glimpse of Truth. Along the pleasant paths of Literature you shall walk as beside still waters."
"And your charge?" cries the delighted customer.
"These things are somewhat expensive," replies Nature. "I want from you a life lived simply, free from all desire of worldly success, a life from which pa.s.sion has been lived out; a life to which appet.i.te has been subdued."
"But you mistake, my dear lady," replies the Dilettante; "I have many friends, possessed of taste, and they are men who do not pay this price for it. Their houses are full of beautiful pictures, they rave about "nocturnes" and "symphonies," their shelves are packed with first editions. Yet they are men of luxury and wealth and fashion. They trouble much concerning the making of money, and Society is their heaven. Cannot I be as one of these?"
"I do not deal in the tricks of apes," answers Nature coldly; "the culture of these friends of yours is a mere pose, a fashion of the hour, their talk mere parrot chatter. Yes, you can purchase such culture as this, and pretty cheaply, but a pa.s.sion for skittles would be of more service to you, and bring you more genuine enjoyment. My goods are of a different cla.s.s. I fear we waste each other"s time."
And next comes the boy, asking with a blush for love, and Nature"s motherly old heart goes out to him, for it is an article she loves to sell, and she loves those who come to purchase it of her. So she leans across the counter, smiling, and tells him that she has the very thing he wants, and he, trembling with excitement, likewise asks the figure.
"It costs a good deal," explains Nature, but in no discouraging tone; "it is the most expensive thing in all my shop."
"I am rich," replies the lad. "My father worked hard and saved, and he has left me all his wealth. I have stocks and shares, and lands and factories; and will pay any price in reason for this thing."
But Nature, looking graver, lays her hand upon his arm.
"Put by your purse, boy," she says, "my price is not a price in reason, nor is gold the metal that I deal in. There are many shops in various streets where your bank-notes will be accepted. But if you will take an old woman"s advice, you will not go to them. The thing they will sell you will bring sorrow and do evil to you. It is cheap enough, but, like all things cheap, it is not worth the buying. No man purchases it, only the fool."
"And what is the cost of the thing YOU sell then?" asks the lad.
"Self-forgetfulness, tenderness, strength," answers the old Dame; "the love of all things that are of good repute, the hate of all things evil--courage, sympathy, self-respect, these things purchase love. Put by your purse, lad, it will serve you in other ways, but it will not buy for you the goods upon my shelves."
"Then am I no better off than the poor man?" demands the lad.
"I know not wealth or poverty as you understand it," answers Nature.
"Here I exchange realities only for realities. You ask for my treasures, I ask for your brain and heart in exchange--yours, boy, not your father"s, not another"s."
"And this price," he argues, "how shall I obtain it?"
"Go about the world," replies the great Lady. "Labour, suffer, help.
Come back to me when you have earned your wages, and according to how much you bring me so we will do business."
Is real wealth so unevenly distributed as we think? Is not Fate the true Socialist? Who is the rich man, who the poor? Do we know? Does even the man himself know? Are we not striving for the shadow, missing the substance? Take life at its highest; which was the happier man, rich Solomon or poor Socrates? Solomon seems to have had most things that most men most desire--maybe too much of some for his own comfort.
Socrates had little beyond what he carried about with him, but that was a good deal. According to our scales, Solomon should have been one of the happiest men that ever lived, Socrates one of the most wretched. But was it so?
Or taking life at its lowest, with pleasure its only goal. Is my lord Tom Noddy, in the stalls, so very much jollier than "Arry in the gallery? Were beer ten shillings the bottle, and champagne fourpence a quart, which, think you, we should clamour for? If every West End Club had its skittle alley, and billiards could only be played in East End pubs, which game, my lord, would you select? Is the air of Berkeley Square so much more joy-giving than the atmosphere of Seven Dials? I find myself a piquancy in the air of Seven Dials, missing from Berkeley Square. Is there so vast a difference between horse-hair and straw, when you are tired? Is happiness multiplied by the number of rooms in one"s house? Are Lady Ermintrude"s lips so very much sweeter than Sally"s of the Alley? What IS success in life?
ON THE PLAYING OF MARCHES AT THE FUNERALS OF MARIONETTES
He began the day badly. He took me out and lost me. It would be so much better, would he consent to the usual arrangement, and allow me to take him out. I am far the abler leader: I say it without conceit. I am older than he is, and I am less excitable. I do not stop and talk with every person I meet, and then forget where I am. I do less to distract myself: I rarely fight, I never feel I want to run after cats, I take but little pleasure in frightening children. I have nothing to think about but the walk, and the getting home again. If, as I say, he would give up taking me out, and let me take him out, there would be less trouble all round.
But into this I have never been able to persuade him.
He had mislaid me once or twice, but in Sloane Square he lost me entirely. When he loses me, he stands and barks for me. If only he would remain where he first barked, I might find my way to him; but, before I can cross the road, he is barking half-way down the next street. I am not so young as I was and I sometimes think he exercises me more than is good for me. I could see him from where I was standing in the King"s Road. Evidently he was most indignant. I was too far off to distinguish the barks, but I could guess what he was saying--
"d.a.m.n that man, he"s off again."
He made inquiries of a pa.s.sing dog--
"You haven"t smelt my man about anywhere, have you?"
(A dog, of course, would never speak of SEEING anybody or anything, smell being his leading sense. Reaching the top of a hill, he would say to his companion--"Lovely smell from here, I always think; I could sit and sniff here all the afternoon." Or, proposing a walk, he would say--"I like the road by the ca.n.a.l, don"t you? There"s something interesting to catch your nose at every turn.")
"No, I haven"t smelt any man in particular," answered the other dog.
"What sort of a smelling man is yours?"
"Oh, an egg-and-bacony sort of a man, with a dash of soap about him."
"That"s nothing to go by," retorted the other; "most men would answer to that description, this time of the morning. Where were you when you last noticed him?"
At this moment he caught sight of me, and came up, pleased to find me, but vexed with me for having got lost.
"Oh, here you are," he barked; "didn"t you see me go round the corner?
Do keep closer. Bothered if half my time isn"t taken up, finding you and losing you again."
The incident appeared to have made him bad-tempered; he was just in the humour for a row of any sort. At the top of Sloane Street a stout military-looking gentleman started running after the Chelsea bus. With a "Hooroo" William Smith was after him. Had the old gentleman taken no notice, all would have been well. A butcher boy, driving just behind, would--I could read it in his eye--have caught Smith a flick as he darted into the road, which would have served him right; the old gentleman would have captured his bus; and the affair would have been ended. Unfortunately, he was that type of retired military man all gout and curry and no sense. He stopped to swear at the dog. That, of course, was what Smith wanted. It is not often he gets a scrimmage with a full-grown man. "They"re a poor-spirited lot, most of them," he thinks; "they won"t even answer you back. I like a man who shows a bit of pluck." He was frenzied with delight at his success. He flew round his victim, weaving whooping circles and curves that paralyzed the old gentleman as though they had been the mystic figures of a Merlin. The colonel clubbed his umbrella, and attempted to defend himself. I called to the dog, I gave good advice to the colonel (I judged him to be a colonel; the louder he spoke, the less one could understand him), but both were too excited to listen to me. A sympathetic bus driver leaned over, and whispered hoa.r.s.e counsel.
"Ketch "im by the tail, sir," he advised the old gentleman; "don"t you be afraid of him; you ketch "im firmly by the tail."
A milkman, on the other hand, sought rather to encourage Smith, shouting as he pa.s.sed--
"Good dog, kill him!"