"What"s that paper? Anything in it?" he asked.
Ossipon started like a scared somnambulist.
"Nothing. Nothing whatever. The thing"s ten days old. I forgot it in my pocket, I suppose."
But he did not throw the old thing away. Before returning it to his pocket he stole a glance at the last lines of a paragraph. They ran thus: "_An impenetrable mystery seems destined to hang for ever over this act of madness or despair_."
Such were the end words of an item of news headed: "Suicide of Lady Pa.s.senger from a cross-Channel Boat." Comrade Ossipon was familiar with the beauties of its journalistic style. "_An impenetrable mystery seems destined to hang for ever_... . " He knew every word by heart. "_An impenetrable mystery_... . "
And the robust anarchist, hanging his head on his breast, fell into a long reverie.
He was menaced by this thing in the very sources of his existence. He could not issue forth to meet his various conquests, those that he courted on benches in Kensington Gardens, and those he met near area railings, without the dread of beginning to talk to them of an impenetrable mystery destined... . He was becoming scientifically afraid of insanity lying in wait for him amongst these lines. "_To hang for ever over_." It was an obsession, a torture. He had lately failed to keep several of these appointments, whose note used to be an unbounded trustfulness in the language of sentiment and manly tenderness. The confiding disposition of various cla.s.ses of women satisfied the needs of his self-love, and put some material means into his hand. He needed it to live. It was there. But if he could no longer make use of it, he ran the risk of starving his ideals and his body ... "_This act of madness or despair_."
"An impenetrable mystery" was sure "to hang for ever" as far as all mankind was concerned. But what of that if he alone of all men could never get rid of the cursed knowledge? And Comrade Ossipon"s knowledge was as precise as the newspaper man could make it-up to the very threshold of the "_mystery destined to hang for ever_... ."
Comrade Ossipon was well informed. He knew what the gangway man of the steamer had seen: "A lady in a black dress and a black veil, wandering at midnight alongside, on the quay. "Are you going by the boat, ma"am," he had asked her encouragingly. "This way." She seemed not to know what to do. He helped her on board. She seemed weak."
And he knew also what the stewardess had seen: A lady in black with a white face standing in the middle of the empty ladies" cabin. The stewardess induced her to lie down there. The lady seemed quite unwilling to speak, and as if she were in some awful trouble. The next the stewardess knew she was gone from the ladies" cabin. The stewardess then went on deck to look for her, and Comrade Ossipon was informed that the good woman found the unhappy lady lying down in one of the hooded seats. Her eyes were open, but she would not answer anything that was said to her. She seemed very ill. The stewardess fetched the chief steward, and those two people stood by the side of the hooded seat consulting over their extraordinary and tragic pa.s.senger. They talked in audible whispers (for she seemed past hearing) of St Malo and the Consul there, of communicating with her people in England. Then they went away to arrange for her removal down below, for indeed by what they could see of her face she seemed to them to be dying. But Comrade Ossipon knew that behind that white mask of despair there was struggling against terror and despair a vigour of vitality, a love of life that could resist the furious anguish which drives to murder and the fear, the blind, mad fear of the gallows. He knew. But the stewardess and the chief steward knew nothing, except that when they came back for her in less than five minutes the lady in black was no longer in the hooded seat. She was nowhere. She was gone. It was then five o"clock in the morning, and it was no accident either. An hour afterwards one of the steamer"s hands found a wedding ring left lying on the seat. It had stuck to the wood in a bit of wet, and its glitter caught the man"s eye. There was a date, 24th June 1879, engraved inside. "_An impenetrable mystery is destined to hang for ever_... . "
And Comrade Ossipon raised his bowed head, beloved of various humble women of these isles, Apollo-like in the sunniness of its bush of hair.
The Professor had grown restless meantime. He rose.
"Stay," said Ossipon hurriedly. "Here, what do you know of madness and despair?"
The Professor pa.s.sed the tip of his tongue on his dry, thin lips, and said doctorally:
"There are no such things. All pa.s.sion is lost now. The world is mediocre, limp, without force. And madness and despair are a force. And force is a crime in the eyes of the fools, the weak and the silly who rule the roost. You are mediocre. Verloc, whose affair the police has managed to smother so nicely, was mediocre. And the police murdered him.
He was mediocre. Everybody is mediocre. Madness and despair! Give me that for a lever, and I"ll move the world. Ossipon, you have my cordial scorn. You are incapable of conceiving even what the fat-fed citizen would call a crime. You have no force." He paused, smiling sardonically under the fierce glitter of his thick gla.s.ses.
"And let me tell you that this little legacy they say you"ve come into has not improved your intelligence. You sit at your beer like a dummy.
Good-bye."
"Will you have it?" said Ossipon, looking up with an idiotic grin.
"Have what?"
"The legacy. All of it."
The incorruptible Professor only smiled. His clothes were all but falling off him, his boots, shapeless with repairs, heavy like lead, let water in at every step. He said:
"I will send you by-and-by a small bill for certain chemicals which I shall order to-morrow. I need them badly. Understood-eh?"
Ossipon lowered his head slowly. He was alone. "_An impenetrable mystery_... . " It seemed to him that suspended in the air before him he saw his own brain pulsating to the rhythm of an impenetrable mystery.
It was diseased clearly... . "_This act of madness or despair_."
The mechanical piano near the door played through a valse cheekily, then fell silent all at once, as if gone grumpy.
Comrade Ossipon, nicknamed the Doctor, went out of the Silenus beer-hall.
At the door he hesitated, blinking at a not too splendid sunlight-and the paper with the report of the suicide of a lady was in his pocket. His heart was beating against it. The suicide of a lady-_this act of madness or despair_.
He walked along the street without looking where he put his feet; and he walked in a direction which would not bring him to the place of appointment with another lady (an elderly nursery governess putting her trust in an Apollo-like ambrosial head). He was walking away from it.
He could face no woman. It was ruin. He could neither think, work, sleep, nor eat. But he was beginning to drink with pleasure, with antic.i.p.ation, with hope. It was ruin. His revolutionary career, sustained by the sentiment and trustfulness of many women, was menaced by an impenetrable mystery-the mystery of a human brain pulsating wrongfully to the rhythm of journalistic phrases. " ... _Will hang for ever over this act_... . It was inclining towards the gutter ... _of madness or despair_."
"I am seriously ill," he muttered to himself with scientific insight.
Already his robust form, with an Emba.s.sy"s secret-service money (inherited from Mr Verloc) in his pockets, was marching in the gutter as if in training for the task of an inevitable future. Already he bowed his broad shoulders, his head of ambrosial locks, as if ready to receive the leather yoke of the sandwich board. As on that night, more than a week ago, Comrade Ossipon walked without looking where he put his feet, feeling no fatigue, feeling nothing, seeing nothing, hearing not a sound.
"_An impenetrable mystery_... ." He walked disregarded... . "_This act of madness or despair_."
And the incorruptible Professor walked too, averting his eyes from the odious mult.i.tude of mankind. He had no future. He disdained it. He was a force. His thoughts caressed the images of ruin and destruction. He walked frail, insignificant, shabby, miserable-and terrible in the simplicity of his idea calling madness and despair to the regeneration of the world. n.o.body looked at him. He pa.s.sed on unsuspected and deadly, like a pest in the street full of men.