She turned to him, stiffening up tight. "I told you first thing, Papa. I have an obligation to give witness."
"Are you stupid, Fawn!"
Dag caught his breath at the hard black rip through Fawn"s ground; his eyes went to Nattie, but she gave no visible reaction, though her face was turned toward the pair.
Papa Bluefield went on, "Your obligations are here, for all you"ve run off and turned your back on them this past month! You"ve had enough gallivanting for a while, believe you me!"
Dag interposed quietly and quite truthfully, "Actually, Spark, my arm"s not doing all that well tonight. I wouldn"t mind a day or two to rest up."
She turned anxious eyes up at him, as if not sure whether she was hearing support or betrayal.
He gave her a small, rea.s.suring nod.
Papa Bluefield gave Dag a sideways look. "You"d be welcome to go on, if you"ve a need."
"Papa!" snapped Fawn, gyrating back to something not strained show, but blazingly sincere.
"The idea! Dag saved my life three three times, twice at great risk to his own, once from the bandits, once from the malice-the bogle-and once again the night after the bogle... hurt me, because I would have bled to death right there in the woods if he hadn"t helped me. I will times, twice at great risk to his own, once from the bandits, once from the malice-the bogle-and once again the night after the bogle... hurt me, because I would have bled to death right there in the woods if he hadn"t helped me. I will not not have him turned out on the road by himself with two bad arms! For shame! Shame on this house if you dare!" She actually stamped her foot; the parlor floor sounded like a drum. have him turned out on the road by himself with two bad arms! For shame! Shame on this house if you dare!" She actually stamped her foot; the parlor floor sounded like a drum.
Papa Bluefield had stepped backward. His wife was staring at Dag with eyes wide, holding the gla.s.s bowl tightly. Nattie... was amazingly hard to read, but she had a strange little smile on her lips.
"Oh." Papa Bluefield cleared his throat. "You hadn"t exactly made that plain, Fawn."
Fawn said wearily, "How could I? No one would let me finish a story without telling me I must be making things up."
Her father glanced at Dag. "He"s a quiet one."
Dag could not touch his temple; he had to settle for a short nod. "Thinking. Sir."
"Are you, now?"
It was not, in the Bluefield household, apparently possible to finish to finish a debate. But when the squabbling finally died into a.s.sorted mumblings, drifting away up stairs or down halls in the dark, Dag ended up with his bedroll set down beside Aunt Nattie"s loom, with an impressive pile of quilts and pillows arranged for his ease. He could hear the shortest two women of the family rustling around in the bedroom beyond in low-voiced preparation for bed, and then the creak of the bed frames as they settled down. a debate. But when the squabbling finally died into a.s.sorted mumblings, drifting away up stairs or down halls in the dark, Dag ended up with his bedroll set down beside Aunt Nattie"s loom, with an impressive pile of quilts and pillows arranged for his ease. He could hear the shortest two women of the family rustling around in the bedroom beyond in low-voiced preparation for bed, and then the creak of the bed frames as they settled down.
Dag disposed his throbbing arm awkwardly, grateful for the pillows. Save for the night on the Horsefords" kitchen floor, he had never slept inside a farmer"s house, certainly not as an invited guest, though his patrols had sometimes been put up, by arrangement, in farmers"
barns. This beat a drafty hayloft with snow sifting in all hollow. Before he"d met Fawn"s family, he would scarcely have understood why she would want to leave such comforts.
He wasn"t sure if it was worse to be loved yet not valued than valued but not loved, but surely it was better to be both. For the first time, he began to think a farm"s brightest treasure need not be furtively stolen; it might be honestly won. But the hopes forming in his mind would have to wait on tomorrow for their testing.
Chapter 14.
The next morning pa.s.sed quietly. To Fawn"s eye Dag looked tired, moved slowly, and said little, and she thought his arm was probably troubling him more than he let on. She found herself caught up, will or nil, in the never-ending rhythm of farm ch.o.r.es; cows took no holidays even for homecomings. She and Dag did take a walk around the place in the midmorning, and she pointed out the scenes and sites from her tales of childhood. But her guess about his arm was confirmed when, after lunch, he took some more of the pain powder that had helped him through yesterday"s long ride. He slipped out-wordlessly-to the front porch overlooking the river valley and sat leaning against the house wall, nursing the arm and thinking... whatever he was thinking about all this. Fawn found herself a.s.signed to stirring apple b.u.t.ter in the kitchen, and while you are about it, dear, why don"t you make up some pies for supper?
She was fluting the edge of the second one and reluctantly contemplating building up the fire under the hearth oven, which would make the hot room hotter still, when Dag came in.
"Drink?" she guessed.
"Please..."
She held the water ladle to his lips; when he"d drained it, he added, "There"s a young fellow who"s tethered his horse in your front woods. I believe he imagines he"s sneaking up the hill in secret. His ground seems pretty unsettled, but I don"t think he"s a house robber."
"Did you see him?" she asked, then halted, considering what an absurd question that sounded if you didn"t know Dag. And then how well she had had come to know Dag, that it should fall so readily from her lips. come to know Dag, that it should fall so readily from her lips.
"Just a glimpse."
"Was he bright blond?"
"Yes."
She sighed. "Sunny Sawman. I"ll bet Clover told folks that I"m back, and he"s come to see for himself if it"s true."
"Why not ride openly up the lane?"
She flushed a little, not that he"d likely notice in this heat, and admitted, "He used to sneak up to steal kisses from me that way, from time to time. He was afraid of my brothers finding out, I think."
"Well, he"s afraid of something." He hesitated. "Do you want me to stay?"
She tilted her head, frowning. "I better talk to him alone. He won"t be truthful if he"s in front of anyone." She glanced up uneasily at him. "Maybe... don"t go far?"
He nodded; she didn"t seem to need to explain further. He stepped into Aunt Nattie"s weaving room, flanking the kitchen, and set the door open. She heard him dragging a chair behind it, and the creak of wood and possibly of Dag as he settled into it.
A few moments later, footsteps sounded on the porch, attempted tiptoe; they paused outside the kitchen window above the drainboard. She stepped up and stared without pleasure at Sunny"s face, craning around and peering in. He jerked back as he saw her, then whispered, "Are you alone?"
"For now."
He nodded and nipped in through the back door. She regarded him, testing her feelings.
Straw-gold hair still curled around his head in soft locks, his eyes were still bright blue, his skin fair and fine and summer-flushed, his shoulders broad, his muscular arms, tanned where his sleeves were rolled up, coated with a shimmer of gold hairs that had always seemed to make him gleam in sunlight. His physical charm was unchanged, and she wondered how it was that she was now so wholly unmoved by it, who had once trembled beneath it in a wheatfield in such wild, flattered elation.
His daughter would have been a pretty girl. The thought twisted in her like a knife, and she fought to set it aside.
"Where is everyone?" he asked cautiously, looking around again.
"Papa and the boys are up cutting hay, Mama is out giving the chickens a dusting with that antilice powder she got from your uncle, and Aunt Nattie"s bad knee hurt so she went to lie down after lunch."
"Nattie"s blind, she won"t see me anyhow. Good." He loomed nearer, staring hard at her.
No-just at her belly. She resisted an impulse to slump and push it out.
His head c.o.c.ked. "As little as you are, I"d have thought you"d be popping out by now. Clover sure would have bleated about it if she"d noticed."
"You talk to her?"
"Saw her at noon, down in the village." He shifted restlessly. "It"s all the talk there, you turning up again." He turned again, scowling. "So, did you come back to fuss at me some more? It won"t do you any good. I"m betrothed to Violet now."
"So I heard," said Fawn, in a flat voice. "I actually hadn"t planned to see you at all. We wouldn"t have stayed on today except for Dag"s broken arm."
"Yeah, Clover said you had some Lakewalker fellow trailing you. Tall as a flagpole, with one arm wooden and the other broke, who didn"t hardly say boo. Sounds about useless. You been running around alone with him for three or four weeks, seemingly." He wet his lips. "So, what"s your plan? Switching horses in the middle of the river? Going to tell him the baby is his and hope he can"t count too good?"
A cast-iron frying pan was sitting on the drainboard. Swung in an appropriate arc, it would just fit Sunny"s round face, Fawn thought through a red haze. "No."
"I"m not playing your little game, Fawn," said Sunny tightly. "You won"t pin this on me. I meant what I said." His hands were trembling slightly. But then, so were hers.
Her voice went, if possible, even flatter. "Well, you can put your mind and your nasty tongue to rest. I miscarried down near Gla.s.sforge the day the blight bogle nearly killed me. So there"s nothing left to pin on anyone, except bad memories."
His breath of relief was visible and audible; he squeezed his eyes shut with it. The tension in the room seemed to drop by half. She thought Sunny must have gone into a flying panic when he"d heard of her return, watching his comfortable little world teeter, and felt grimly recompensed. Her Her world had been turned upside down. But if she could now turn it back upright, make all her misery not have been, at the cost of losing all she"d learned on the road to Gla.s.sforge-would she? world had been turned upside down. But if she could now turn it back upright, make all her misery not have been, at the cost of losing all she"d learned on the road to Gla.s.sforge-would she?
She could not, she thought, in all fairness judge Sunny for acting as though his daughter weren"t real to him; she"d scarcely seemed real to Fawn a deal of the time either, after all.
She asked instead, "So where did you think I"d gone?"
He shrugged. "I thought at first you might have thrown yourself in the river. Gave me a turn, for a while."
She tossed her head. "But not enough of one to do anything about it, seemingly."
"What would there have been to do at that point? It seemed like the sort of stupid thing you"d do when you get a mad on. You always did have a temper. I remember how your brothers"d get you so wound up you could scarcely breathe for screaming, sometimes, till your pa"d tear his hair and come beat you for making such awful noise. Then the word got around that some of your clothes had gone missing, which made it seem you"d run off, since not even you would take three changes to go drowning. Your folks all looked, but I guess not far enough."
"You didn"t help look then, either, I take it."
"Do I I look stupid? I didn"t want to find you! You got yourself into this fix, you could get yourself out." look stupid? I didn"t want to find you! You got yourself into this fix, you could get yourself out."
"Yeah, that"s what I figured." Fawn bit her lip.
Silence. More staring.
Just go away, you awful lout. "I haven"t forgotten what you said to me that night, Sunny Sawman. You aren"t welcome in my sight. In case you"d any doubt."
He shrugged irritably. His golden brows drew together over his snub nose. "I figured the blight bogle was a tall tale. What really happened?"
"Bogles are real enough. One touched me. Here and there." She fingered her neck where the dents glowed an angry red, and, reluctantly, laid her palm over her belly. "Lakewalkers make special knives to kill malices-that"s their name for blight bogles. Dag had one. Between us, we did for the bogle, but it was too late for the child. It was almost too late for the two of us, but not quite."
"Oh, magic knives, now, as well as magic monsters? Sure, I believe that. Or maybe some of those secret Lakewalker medicines did the job, and the rest is a nice tale to cover it, make you look good in front of your family, eh?" He moved closer to her. She moved back.
"They don"t even know I was pregnant. I didn"t tell them that part." She drew a long breath.
"Do you really care which, so long as it"s not on you? Feh!" She gripped her hair, then drew her hands down hard over her face. "You know, I really don"t give two pennies what you think as long as you go think it somewhere else." Aunt Nattie had once remarked that the opposite of love was not hate, but indifference. Fawn felt she was beginning to see the point of that.
Sunny edged closer again; she could feel his breath stir the sweat-dampened hairs on her neck. "So... have you been letting that patroller fellow poke you? Does your family know that that?"
Fawn"s breath clogged in rage. She would not not scream... "After a scream... "After a miscarriage miscarriage? You got no brains at all, Sunny Sawman!"
He did hesitate at that, doubt flickering in his blue eyes.
"Besides," she went on, "you"re marrying Violet Stonecrop. Are you poking her yet?"
His lips drew back in something like a smile, except that it was devoid of humor. He stepped closer still. "I was right. You are are a little s.l.u.t." And grinned in countertriumph at the fury she knew was reddening her face. "Don"t give me that scowl," he added, lifting a hand to squeeze her breast. "I a little s.l.u.t." And grinned in countertriumph at the fury she knew was reddening her face. "Don"t give me that scowl," he added, lifting a hand to squeeze her breast. "I know know how easy you are." how easy you are."
Her fingers groped for the frying-pan handle.
Long footsteps sounded from the weaving room; Sunny jumped back hurriedly.
"h.e.l.lo, Spark," said Dag. "Any more of that cider around?"
"Sure, Dag," she said, backing away from Sunny and escaping across the room to the crock on the shelf. She shifted the lid and drew a cup, willing her hands to stop shaking.
Somehow, Dag was now standing between her and Sunny. "Caller?" he inquired, with a nod at Sunny. Sunny looked as though he was furiously wondering whether Dag had just come in, if they had been overheard, and if the latter, how incriminatingly much.
"This here"s Sunny Sawman," said Fawn. "He"s leaving. Dag Redwing Hickory, a Lakewalker patroller. He"s staying."
Sunny, looking unaccustomedly up, gave a wary nod. Dag looked back down without a whole lot of expression one way or another.
"Interestin" to meet you at last, Sunny," said Dag. "I"ve heard a lot about you. All true, seemingly."
Sunny"s mouth opened and closed-shocked that his slanderous threats had failed to silence Fawn? Well, he had only his own mouth to blame now. He looked toward the weaving room, which had no other exit except into Nattie and Fawn"s bedroom, and did not come up with a reply.
Dag continued coolly, "So... Sunny... has anyone ever offered to cut out your tongue and feed it to you?"
Sunny swallowed. "No." He might have been trying for a bold tone, but it came out rather a croak.
"I"m surprised," said Dag. He gently scratched the side of his nose with his hook, a quiet warning, Fawn thought, if both un.o.bserved and unheeded by Sunny.
"Are you trying to start something?" asked Sunny, recovering his belligerence.
"Alas." Dag indicated his broken arm with a slight movement of the sling. "I"ll have to take you up later."
Sunny"s eyes brightened as the apparent helplessness of the patroller dawned on him. "Then maybe you"d better keep a still tongue in your your head till then, Lakewalker. Ha! Only Fawn would be fool enough to pick a cripple for a bullyboy!" head till then, Lakewalker. Ha! Only Fawn would be fool enough to pick a cripple for a bullyboy!"
Dag"s eyes thinned to gold slits as Fawn cringed. In that same level, affable tone, he murmured, "Changed my mind. I"ll take you up now. Spark, you said this fellow was leaving.
Open the door for him, would you?"
Plainly unable to imagine what Dag could possibly do to him, Sunny set his teeth, planted his legs, and glowered. Dag stood quite still. Confused, Fawn hastily set down the cup, slopping cider on the table; she swung the screen door inward and held it.
When Dag moved, his speed was shocking. She caught only a glimpse of him swerving half-around Sunny, his leg coming up hard behind Sunny"s knees, and his left arm whipping around with a wicked whir and glint of his hook. Suddenly Sunny was flailing forward, mouth agape, lifted by Dag"s hook through the seat of his trousers. His feet churned but barely touched the floor; he looked like someone tumbling on ice. Three long Dag-strides, a loud ripping noise, and Sunny was sailing through the air in truth, headfirst all the way over the porch boards to land beyond the steps in an awkward heap, haunches up, face sc.r.a.ping the dirt.
It was partly terrorized relief that Dag hadn"t just torn Sunny"s throat out with his hook as calmly as he"d slain that mud-man, but Fawn burst into a shriek of laughter. She clapped her hand across her mouth and stared at the ridiculously cheering sight of Sunny"s drawers flapping through the new vent in his britches.
Sunny twisted around and glared up, his face flushing a dull, mottled red, then scrambled to his feet, fists clenching. Between the dirt and the curses filling his mouth his spluttering was nearly incoherent, but the general sense of I"ll get you, Lakewalker! I"ll get you both I"ll get you, Lakewalker! I"ll get you both! came through clearly enough, and Fawn"s breath caught in new alarm.
"Best bring a few friends," Dag recommended dryly. "If you have any." Aside from the flaring of his nostrils, he seemed barely winded.
Sunny took two steps up onto the porch, but then veered back uncertainly as that hook came quietly to the fore. Fawn darted for the frying pan. As Sunny hovered in doubt, his head jerked up at a thumping and shuffling sounding from the weaving room-blind Aunt Nattie with her cane. She had risen from her nap at last. Sunny stared wildly around, tripped backward down the steps, turned, and fled around the side of the house.