"Why don"t you go out into the playground?" she asked him. "I thought you"d love that place, with a sandbox for your trucks and all." He swallowed and the food went down his throat in a lump that was dry and hard. "Maybe I will," he said, turning to the radio and fiddling with it.
"And all those neat hedge animals," she said, taking his empty plate. "Your father"s got to get out and trim them pretty soon."
"Yeah," he said.
(Just nasty things... once it had to do with those d.a.m.n hedges clipped to look like animals...) "If you see your father before I do, tell him I"m lying down."
"Sure, Mom." She put the dirty dishes in the sink and came back over to him. "Are you happy here, Danny?" He looked at her guilelessly, a milk mustache on his lip. "Uh-huh."
"No more bad dreams?"
"No." Tony had come to him once, one night while he was lying in bed, calling his name faintly and from far away. Danny had squeezed his eyes tightly shut until Tony had gone.
"You sure?"
"Yes, Mom." She seemed satisfied. "How"s your hand?" He flexed it for her. "All better." She nodded. Jack had taken the nest under the Pyrex bowl, full of frozen wasps, out to the incinerator in back of the equipment shed and burned it. They had seen no more wasps since. He had written to a lawyer in Boulder, enclosing the snaps of Danny"s hand, and the lawyer had called back two days ago-that had put Jack in a foul temper all afternoon. The lawyer doubted if the company that had manufactured the bug bomb could be sued successfully because there was only Jack to testify that he had followed directions printed on the package. Jack had asked the lawyer if they couldn"t purchase some others and test them for the same defect. Yes, the lawyer said, but the results were highly doubtful even if all the test bombs malfunctioned. He told Jack of a case that involved an extension ladder company and a man who had broken his back. Wendy had commiserated with Jack, but privately she had just been glad that Danny had gotten off as cheaply as he had. It was best to leave lawsuits to people who understood them, and that did not include the Torrances. And they had seen no more wasps since.
"Go and play, doc. Have fun." But he hadn"t had fun. He had wandered aimlessly around the hotel, poking into the maids" closets and the janitor"s rooms, looking for something interesting, not finding it, a small boy padding along a dark blue carpet woven with twisting black lines. He had tried a room door from time to time, but of course they were all locked. The pa.s.skey was hanging down in the office, he knew where, but Daddy had told him he shouldn"t touch that. And he didn"t want to. Did he?
(Why are you here?) There was nothing aimless about it after all. He had been drawn to Room 217 by a morbid kind of curiosity. He remembered a story Daddy had read to him once when he was drunk. That had been a long time ago, but the story was just as vivid now as when Daddy had read it to him. Mommy had scolded Daddy and asked what he was doing, reading a three-year-old baby something so horrible. The name of the story was Bluebeard. That was clear in his mind too, because he had thought at first Daddy was saying Bluebird, and there were no bluebirds in the story, or birds of any kind for that matter. Actually the story was about Bluebeard"s wife, a pretty lady that had corn-colored hair like Mommy. After Bluebeard married her, they lived in a big and ominous castle that was not unlike the Overlook. And every day Bluebeard went off to work and every day he would tell his pretty little wife not to look in a certain room, although the key to that room was hanging right on a hook, just like the pa.s.skey was hanging on the office wall downstairs. Bluebeard"s wife had gotten more and more curious about the locked room. She tried to peep through the keyhole the way Danny had tried to look through Room 217"s peephole with similar unsatisfying results.
There was even a picture of her getting down on her knees and trying to look under the door, but the crack wasn"t wide enough. The door swung wide and...
The old fairy tale book had depicted her discovery in ghastly, loving detail.
The image was burned on Danny"s mind. The severed heads of Bluebeard"s seven previous wives were in the room, each one on its own pedestal, the eyes turned up to whites, the mouths unhinged and gaping in silent screams. They were somehow balanced on necks ragged from the broadsword"s decapitating swing, and there was blood running down the pedestals.
Terrified, she had turned to flee from the room and the castle, only to discover Bluebeard standing in the doorway, his terrible eyes blazing. "I told you not to enter this room," Bluebeard said, unsheathing his sword. "Alas, in your curiosity you are like the other seven, and though I loved you best of all your ending shall be as was theirs. Prepare to die, wretched woman!" It seemed vaguely to Danny that the story had a happy ending, but that had paled to insignificance beside the two dominant images: the taunting, maddening locked door with some great secret behind it, and the grisly secret itself, repeated more than half a dozen times. The locked door and behind it the heads, the severed beads.
His hand reached out and stroked the room"s doork.n.o.b, almost furtively. He had no idea how long he had been here, standing hypnotized before the bland gray locked door.
(And maybe three times I"ve thought I"ve seen things... nasty things...) But Mr. Hallorann-d.i.c.k-had also said he didn"t think those things could hurt you. They were like scary pictures in a book, that was all. And maybe he wouldn"t see anything. On the other hand...
He plunged his left hand into his pocket and it came out holding the pa.s.skey.
It had been there all along, of course.
He held it by the square metal tab on the end which had OFFICE printed on it in Magic Marker. He twirled the key on its chain, watching it go around and around. After several minutes of this he stopped and slipped the pa.s.skey into the lock. It slid in smoothly, with no hitch, as if it had wanted to be there all along.
(I"ve thought I"ve seen things... nasty things... promise me you won"t go in there.) (I promise.) And a promise was, of course, very important. Still, his curiosity itched at him as maddeningly as poison ivy in a place you aren"t supposed to scratch. But it was a dreadful kind of curiosity, the kind that makes you peek through your fingers during the scariest parts of a scary movie. What was beyond that door would be no movie.
(I don"t think those things can hurt you... like scary pictures in a book.
..) Suddenly he reached out with his left hand, not sure of what it was going to do until it had removed the pa.s.skey and stuffed it back into his pocket. He stared at the door a moment longer, blue-gray eyes wide, then turned quickly and walked back down the corridor toward the main hallway that ran at right angles to the corridor he was in.
Something made him pause there and he wasn"t sure what for a moment. Then he remembered that directly around this corner, on the way back to the stairs, there was one of those old-fashioned fire extinguishers curled up against the wall. Curled there like a dozing snake.
They weren"t chemical-type extinguishers at all, Daddy said, although there were several of those in the kitchen. These were the forerunner of the modern sprinkler systems. The long canvas hoses hooked directly into the Overlook"s plumbing system, and by turning a single valve you could become a one-man fire department. Daddy said that the chemical extinguishers, which sprayed foam or CO, were much better. The chemicals smothered fires, took away the oxygen they needed to burn, while a high-pressure spray might just spread the flames around.
Daddy said that Mr. Ullman should replace the old-fashioned hoses right along with the old-fashioned boiler, but Mr. Ullman would probably do neither because he was a CHEAP p.r.i.c.k. Danny knew that this was one of the worst epithets his father could summon. It was applied to certain doctors, dentists, and appliance repairmen, and also to the head of his English Department at Stovington, who had disallowed some of Daddy"s book orders because he said the books would put them over budget. "Over budget, h.e.l.l," he had fumed to Wendy-Danny had been listening from his bedroom where he was supposed to be asleep. "He"s just saving the last five hundred bucks for himself, the CHEAP p.r.i.c.k." Danny looked around the corner.
The extinguisher was there, a fiat hose folded back a dozen times on itself, the red tank attached to the wall. Above it was an ax in a gla.s.s case like a museum exhibit, with white words printed on a red background: IN CASE OF EMERGENCY, BREAK GLa.s.s. Danny could read the word EMERGENCY, which was also the name of one of his favorite TV shows, but was unsure of the rest. But he didn"t like the way the word was used in connection with that long fiat hose. EMERGENCY was", fire, explosions, car crashes, hospitals, sometimes death. And he didn"t like the way that hose hung so blandly on the wall. When he was alone, he always skittered past these extinguishers as fast as he could. No particular reason. It just felt better to go fast. It felt safer.
Now, heart thumping loudly in his chest, he came around the corner and looked down the hall past the extinguisher to the stairs. Mommy was down there, sleeping. And if Daddy was back from his walk, he would probably be sitting in the kitchen, eating a sandwich and reading a book. He would just walk right past that old extinguisher and go downstairs.
He started toward it, moving closer to the far wall until his right arm was brushing the expensive silk paper. Twenty steps away. Fifteen. A dozen.
When he was ten steps away, the bra.s.s nozzle suddenly rolled off the fat loop it had been lying (sleeping?) on and fell to the hall carpet with a dull thump. It lay there, the dark bore of its muzzle pointing at Danny. He stopped immediately, his shoulders twitching forward with the suddenness of his scare. His blood thumped thickly in his ears and temples. His mouth had gone dry and sour, his hands curled into fists. Yet the nozzle of the hose only lay there, its bra.s.s casing glowing mellowly, a loop of flat canvas leading back up to the red-painted frame bolted to the wall.
So it had fallen off, so what? It was only a fire extinguisher, nothing else.
It was stupid to think that it looked like some poison snake from "Wide World of Animals" that had heard him and woken up. Even if the st.i.tched canvas did look a little bit like scales. He would just step over it and go down the hall to the stairs, walking a little bit fast, maybe, to make sure it didn"t snap out after him and curl around his foot...
He wiped his lips with his left hand, in unconscious imitation of his father, and took a step forward. No movement from the hose. Another step. Nothing.
There, see how stupid you are? You got all worked up thinking about that dumb room and that dumb Bluebeard story and that hose was probably ready to fall off for the last five years. That"s all.
Danny stared at the hose on the floor and thought of wasps.
Eight steps away, the nozzle of the hose gleamed peacefully at him from the rug as if to say: Don"t worry. I"m just a hose, that"s all. And even if that isn"t all, what I do to you won"t be much worse than a bee sting. Or a wasp sting. What would I want to do to a nice little boy like you... except bite... and bite... and bite?
Danny took another step, and another. His breath was dry and harsh in his throat. Panic was close now. He began to wish the hose would move, then at last be would know, he would be sure. He took another step and now he was within striking distance. But it"s not going to strike at you, he thought hysterically.
How can it strike at you, bite at you, when it"s just a hose?
Maybe it"s full of wasps.
His internal temperature plummeted to ten below zero. He stared at the black bore in the center of the nozzle, nearly hypnotized. Maybe it was full of wasps, secret wasps, their brown bodies bloated with poison, so full of autumn poison that it dripped from their stingers in clear drops of fluid.
Suddenly he knew that he was nearly frozen with terror; if he did not make his feet go now, they would become locked to the carpet and he would stay here, staring at the black hole in the center of the bra.s.s nozzle like a bird staring at a snake, he would stay here until his daddy found him and then what would happen?
With a high moan, he made himself run. As he reached the hose, some trick of the light made the nozzle seem to move, to revolve as if to strike, and he leaped high in the air above it; in his panicky state it seemed that his legs pushed him nearly all the way to the ceiling, that he could feel the stiff back hairs that formed his cowlick brushing the hallway"s plaster ceiling, although later he knew that couldn"t have been so.
He came down on the other side of the hose and ran, and suddenly he heard it behind him, coming for him, the soft dry whicker of that bra.s.s snake"s head as it slithered rapidly along the carpet after him like a rattlesnake moving swiftly through a dry field of gra.s.s. It was coming for him, and suddenly the stairs seemed very far away; they seemed to retreat a running step into the distance for each running step he took toward them.
Daddy! he tried to scream, but his closed throat would not allow a word to pa.s.s. He was on his own. Behind him the sound grew louder, the dry sliding sound of the snake, slipping swiftly over the carpet"s dry hackles. At his heels now, perhaps rising up with the clear poison dribbling from its bra.s.s snout.
Danny reached the stairs and had to pinwheel his arms crazily for balance. For one moment it seemed sure that he would cartwheel over and go head-for-heels to the bottom.
He threw a glance back over his shoulder.
The hose had not moved. It lay as it had lain, one loop off the frame, the bra.s.s nozzle on the hall floor, the nozzle pointing disinterestedly away from him. You see, stupid? he berated himself. You made it all up, scaredy-cat. It was all your imagination, scaredy-cat, scaredy-cat.
He clung to the stairway railing, his legs trembling in reaction.
(It never chased you) his mind told him, and seized on that thought, and played it back.
(never chased you, never chased you, never did, never did) It was nothing to be afraid of. Why, he could go back and put that hose right into its frame, if he wanted to. He could, but he didn"t think he would. Because what if it had chased him and had gone back when it saw that it couldn"t... quite... catch him?
The hose lay on the carpet, almost seeming to ask him if he would like to come back and try again.
Panting, Danny ran downstairs.
20 - Talking to Mr. Ullman
The Sidewinder Public Library was a small, retiring building one block down from the town"s business area. It was a modest, vine-covered building, and the wide concrete walk up to the door was lined with the corpses of last summer"s flowers. On the lawn was a large bronze statue of a Civil War general Jack had never heard of, although he had been something of a Civil War buff in his teenage years.
The newspaper files were kept downstairs. They consisted of the Sidewinder Gazette that had gone bust in 1963, the Estes Park daily, and the Boulder Camera. No Denver papers at all.
Sighing, Jack settled for the Camera.
When the files reached 1965, the actual newspapers were replaced by spools of microfilm ("A federal grant," the librarian told him brightly. "We hope to do 1958 to "64 when the next check comes through, but they"re so slow, aren"t they?
You will be careful, won"t you? I just know you will. Call if you need me.").
The only reading machine had a lens that had somehow gotten warped, and by the time Wendy put her hand on his shoulder some forty-five minutes after he had switched from the actual papers, he had a juicy thumper of a headache.
"Danny"s in the park," she said, "but I don"t want him outside too long. How much longer do you think you"ll be?"
"Ten minutes," he said. Actually he had traced down the last of the Overlook"s fascinating history-the years between the gangland shooting and the takeover by Stuart Ullman & Co. But he felt the same reticence about telling Wendy.
"What are you up to, anyway?" she asked. She ruffed his hair as she said it, but her voice was only half-teasing.
"Looking up some old Overlook history," he said.
"Any particular reason?"
"No, (and why the h.e.l.l are you so interested anyway?) just curiosity."
"Find anything interesting?"
"Not much," he said, having to strive to keep his voice pleasant now. She was prying, just the way she had always pried and poked at him when they had been at Stovington and Danny was still a crib-infant. Where are you going, Jack? When will you be back? How much money do you have with you? Are you going to take the car? Is Al going to be with you? Will one of you stay sober? On and on. She had, pardon the expression, driven him to drink. Maybe that hadn"t been the only reason, but by Christ let"s tell the truth here and admit it was one of them.
Nag and nag and nag until you wanted to clout her one just to shut her up and stop the (Where? When? How? Are you? Will you?) endless flow of questions. It could give you a real (headache? hangover?) headache. The reader. The d.a.m.ned reader with its distorted print. That was why he had such a c.u.n.t of a headache.
"Jack, are you all right? You look pale-" He snapped his head away from her fingers. "I am fine!" She recoiled from his hot eyes and tried on a smile that was a size too small.
"Well... if you are... I"ll just go and wait in the park with Danny..." She was starting away now, her smile dissolving into a bewildered expression of hurt.
He called to her: "Wendy?"
She looked back from the foot of the stairs. "What, Jack?"
He got up and went over to her. "I"m sorry, babe. I guess I"m really not all right. That machine... the lens is distorted. I"ve got a really bad headache. Got any aspirin?"
"Sure." She pawed in her purse and came up with a tin of Anacin. "You keep them." He took the tin. "No Excedrin?" He saw the small recoil on her face and understood. It had been a bitter sort of joke between them at first, before the drinking had gotten too bad for jokes. He had claimed that Excedrin was the only nonprescription drug ever invented that could stop a hangover dead in its tracks. Absolutely the only one. He had begun to think of his morning-after thumpers as Excedrin Headache Number Vat 69.
"No Excedrin," she said. "Sorry."
"That"s okay," he said, "these"ll do just fine." But of course they wouldn"t, and she should have known it, too. At times she could be the stupidest b.i.t.c.h...
"Want some water?" she asked brightly.
(No I just want you to GET THE f.u.c.k OUT OF HERE!) "I"ll get some at the drinking fountain when I go up. Thanks."
"Okay." She started up the stairs, good legs moving gracefully under a short tan wool skirt. "We"ll be in the park."
"Right." He slipped the tin of Anacin absently into his pocket, went back to the reader, and turned it off. When he was sure she was gone, he went upstairs himself. G.o.d, but it was a lousy headache. If you were going to have a vise- gripper like this one, you ought to at least be allowed the pleasure of a few drinks to balance it off.
He tried to put the thought from his mind, more ill tempered than ever. He went to the main desk, fingering a matchbook cover with a telephone number on it.
"Ma"am, do you have a pay telephone?"
"No, sir, but you can use mine if it"s local."
"It"s long-distance, sorry."
"Well then, I guess the drugstore would be your best bet. They have a booth."
"Thanks." He went out and down the walk, past the anonymous Civil War general. He began to walk toward the business block, hands stuffed in his pockets, head thudding like a leaden bell. The sky was also leaden; it was November 7, and with the new month the weather had become threatening. There had been a number of snow flurries. There had been snow in October too, but that had melted. The new flurries had stayed, a light frosting over everything-it sparkled in the sunlight like fine crystal. But there had been no sunlight today, and even as he reached the drugstore it began to spit snow again.
The phone booth was at the back of the building, and he was halfway down an aisle of patent medicines, jingling his change in his pocket, when his eyes fell on the white boxes with their green print. He took one of them to the cashier, paid, and went back to the telephone booth. He pulled the door closed, put his change and matchbook cover on the counter, and dialed O.
"Your call, please?"
"Fort Lauderdale, Florida, operator." He gave her the number there and the number in the booth. When she told him it would be a dollar ninety for the first three minutes, he dropped eight quarters into the slot, wincing each time the bell bonged in his ear.
Then, left in limbo with only the faraway clickings and gabblings of connection-making, he took the green-bottle of Excedrin out of its box, pried up the white cap, and dropped the wad of cotton batting to the floor of the booth.
Cradling, the phone receiver between his ear and shoulder, he shook out three of the white tablets and lined them up on the counter beside his remaining change.
He recapped the bottle and put it in his pocket.
At the other end, the phone was picked up on the first ring.
"Surf-Sand Resort, how may we help you?" the perky female voice asked.
"I"d like to speak with the manager, please."
"Do you mean Mr. Trent or-"
"I mean Mr. Ullman."
"I believe Mr. Ullman is busy, but if you would like me to check-"