"I don"t know but what you"re right. I haven"t known just what to do.
Things are pretty much mixed up. You want me to tell you?"
Jim nodded.
"It isn"t that she doesn"t care for me. I think she does. You know she"s always honest. But somehow it strikes her as a question of duty. She loves her father, and she feels that she hasn"t been loyal to him. I"ve written to her,--I"ve used up all my arguments,--but she puts it in such a way that I can"t say another word without actually hurting her. To her mind it"s just a plain case of right and wrong, and that settles it. You know she"s that kind of a girl."
"Yes," said Jim, "I suppose she is."
"I"ve gone over and over it until I"m all at sea. I don"t seem to have a grip on myself. I can"t write to her or go to see her. It would be simply dishonorable after the way she has talked to me--and written." Harvey rose and walked to the mantel, resting his elbows on it and looking at the photograph.
"When was it?" asked Jim. "That day in the Oakwood Club?"
"Yes."
"And you know she loves you?"
"I didn"t say I knew it."
"Well, then, I do."
At this Harvey turned, but Jim"s face was quiet.
"Yes, I know it. You say there is nothing in the way but her father?"
"That is all I know about."
"I can ease your mind on that. I had a short talk with Porter Tuesday, and I think he"s a little ashamed of himself. He told me that he was against that kidnapping scheme and that he has broken with McNally. Probably Miss Porter has had a talk with him by this time,--I don"t see how they could help it,--and if she has, I guess some of her ideas have changed a little."
Jim paused, but as Harvey stood facing the mantel without speaking he went on:--
"There"s just one thing for you to do, West. You go down there and begin all over again. If she"s got any pride, she won"t write to you--Why, man, any girl would expect--You"ve got to! Understand? You"ve got to!"
As he spoke Jim rose and stood erect; then, as Harvey still was silent, he took to pacing the floor. Harvey was looking, not at the picture, but through it into a calm summer night on the river, when Katherine had given him that first glimpse of herself, the woman he loved and was always to love. He saw her beside him in the trap, watching with bright, eager eyes the striding bays, and later tugging at his watch-fob. He saw her in the gray twilight, bending down over him and saying in that low thrilling voice: "We don"t know what may happen. We only know what is right for us now." As he slowly turned around he felt a mist come over his eyes and he was not ashamed. Jim stopped and stood looking at him. Harvey asked simply,--
"Can you spare me over Sunday?"
"You"d better go to-morrow."
"But the work?"
"I don"t want to hear about that,"--Jim"s voice was gruff,--"you take the morning train. Don"t come back till you"re ready."
Their eyes met in embarra.s.sed silence, then Harvey sat at the table and wrote a few words.
"Will you have your man send that tonight?" he asked, handing it to Jim.
"It"s a telegram."
Jim took it, slowly folded it, and put it into his pocket. He reached for his coat, and Harvey helped him put it on. Several times Jim started to speak, but it was not until one glove was on and his hat in his hand that he got it out:--
"I"ll tell you, West, I--A man learns something from experience, one way or another. I"ve known what such things are--I know what it means to love a woman, and to try to live without her." He suddenly gripped Harvey"s hand, holding it for a moment with a silent, nervous pressure, and Harvey felt the perspiration on his palm. "I made a mistake, West, and I"ve paid for it--I"m paying for it now. If I hadn"t--If I had made it right, she would have been--you would have--" The words seemed to choke him, and with a strange expression he loosened his grip and started toward the door.
Halfway he turned. As he stood there, stalwart yet humble, a new pathos crept into his features. "West, a man doesn"t get much in this world if he waits for things to straighten themselves out. Good night."
Before Harvey could recover from a certain awkwardness, Jim had gone. He could hear the heavy tread on the stairs. Then came the slam of a carriage door, and he knew that Jim was going back to the big, empty house.
The next morning, Friday, Harvey took the early train for Truesdale. He picked up a carriage at the station and drove rapidly out to Porter"s home. From the porte-cochere he hastened to the door, rang the bell, and asked for her. In the wide hall he stood, coat still b.u.t.toned, hat in hand, looking eagerly up the stairway. In a moment she appeared (he could not know that she had been watching for him), coming slowly down the stairs, not hesitating, but holding back with a touch of the old dignity.
For the moment her beauty, her strong womanhood, gave Harvey a sense of awe, and he stood looking up at her, not knowing that his eyes told the story. And then, as she stayed on the lower step, a quiet a.s.sertiveness came over him, and he stepped forward.
"Katherine," he said, and extended both hands.
She still hesitated, looking at him with eyes that seemed to question, to read his as if searching for something she feared might not be there; then she took the last step and stood before him.
"Katherine," he repeated, but stopped again, for now her eyes were shining on him with a look that thrilled and exalted him, and with sudden joy in his heart he drew her to him.