The Sign of the Spider.
by Bertram Mitford.
CHAPTER I.
"SWEET HOME!"
She was talking _at_ him.
This was a thing she frequently did, and she had two ways of doing it.
One was to talk at him through a third party when they two were not alone together; the other to convey moralizings and innuendo for his edification when they were--as in the present case.
Just now she was extolling the superabundant virtues of somebody else"s husband, with a tone and meaning which were intended to convey to Laurence Stanninghame that she wished to Heaven one-twentieth part of them was vested in hers.
He was accustomed to being thus talked at. He ought to be, seeing he had known about thirteen years of it, on and off. But he did not like it any the better from force of habit. We doubt if anybody ever does. However, he had long ceased to take any notice, in the way of retort, no matter how acrid the tone, how biting the innuendo. Now, pushing back his chair from the breakfast-table, he got up, and, turning to the mantelpiece, proceeded to fill a pipe. His spouse, exasperated by his silence, continued to talk at--his back.
The sickly rays of the autumn sun struggled feebly through the murk of the suburban atmosphere, creeping half-ashamedly over the well-worn carpet, then up to the dingy wall-paper, whose dinginess had this redeeming point, that it toned down what otherwise would have been staring, crude, hideous. The furniture was battered and worn, and there was an atmosphere of dustiness, thick-laid, grimy, which seemed inseparable from the place. In the street a piano-organ, engineered by a brace of sham Italians, was rapping out the latest music-hall abomination. Laurence Stanninghame turned again to his wife, who was still seated at the table.
"Continue," he said. "It is a great art knowing when to make the most of one"s opportunities, which, for present purposes, may be taken to mean that you had better let off all the steam you can, for you have only two days more to do it in--only two whole days."
"Going away again?" (staccato).
Laurence nodded, and emitted a cloud or two of smoke.
There rumbled forth a cannonade of words, which did not precisely express approval. Then, staccato:
"Where are you going to this time?"
"Johannesburg."
"What? But it"s nonsense."
"It"s fact."
"Well--of course you can"t go."
"Who says so?"
"Of course you can"t go, and leave us here all alone," she replied, speaking quickly. "Why, it"s too preposterous! I"ve been treated shamefully enough all these years, but this puts the crowning straw on to it," she went on, beginning to mix her metaphor, as angry people--and especially angry women--will. "Of course you can"t go!"
To one statement, as made above, he was at no pains to reply. He had heard it so often that it had long since pa.s.sed into the category of "not new, not true, and doesn"t matter." To the other he answered:
"I"ve an idea that the term "of course" makes the other way; I _can_ go, and I am going--in fact, I have already booked my pa.s.sage by the _Persian_, sailing from Southampton the day after to-morrow. Look! will that convince you?" holding out the pa.s.sage ticket.
Then there was a scene--an awful racket. It was infamous. She would not put up with such treatment. It amounted to desertion, and so forth. Yes, it was a "scene," indeed. But force of habit had utterly dulled its effectiveness as a weapon. Indeed, the only effect it might have been calculated to produce in the mind of the offending party had he not already secured his berth, would be that of moving him to sally forth and carry out that operation on the spot.
"Look here!" he said, when failure of breath and vocabulary had perforce effected a lull. "I"ve had about enough of this awful life, and so I"m going to try if I can"t do something to set things right again, before it"s too late. Now, the Johannesburg "boom" is the thing to do it, if anything will. It"s kill or cure."
"And what if it"s kill?"
"What if it"s kill? Then, one may as well take it fighting. Better, anyway, than scattering one"s brains on that hearth-rug some morning in the small hours out of sheer disgust with the dead hopelessness of life.
That"s what it is coming to as things now are."
"All very well. But, in that case, what is to become of me--of us?"
A very hard look came into the man"s face at the question.
"In that case--draw on the other side of the house. There"s plenty there," he answered shortly, re-lighting his pipe, which had gone out in mid-blast.
The reply seemed to fan up her wrath anew, and she started in to talk at him again. Under which circ.u.mstances, perhaps it was just as well that a couple of heavy bangs overhead and a series of appalling yells, betokening a nursery catastrophe, should cut short her eloquence, and start her off, panic-stricken, to investigate.
Left alone, still standing with his back to the mantelpiece, Laurence Stanninghame put forth a hand. It shook--was, in fact, all of a tremble.
"Look at that!" he said to himself. "The squalid racket of this rough-and-tumble life is playing the devil with my nerves. I believe I couldn"t drink a winegla.s.sful of grog at this moment without spilling half of it on the floor. I"ll try, anyhow."
He unlocked a chiffonier, produced a whisky bottle, and, having poured some into a winegla.s.s, not filling it, tossed off the "nip."
"That"s better," he said. Then mechanically he moved to the window and stood looking out, though in reality seeing nothing. He was thinking--thinking hard. The course he had decided to adopt was the right thing--as to that he had no sort of doubt. He had no regular income, and such remnant of capital as he still possessed was dwindling alarmingly. Men had made fortunes at places like Johannesburg, starting with almost literally the traditional half-crown, why should not he? Not that he expected to make a fortune; a fair competence would satisfy him, a sufficiency. The thought of no longer being obliged to hold an inquest on every sixpence; of bidding farewell forever to this life of pinching and s.c.r.e.w.i.n.g; of dwelling decently instead of pigging it in a cramped and jerry-built semi-detached; of enjoying once more some of life"s brightnesses--sport, for instance, of which he was pa.s.sionately fond; of the means to wander, when disposed, through earth"s fairest places--these reflections would have fired his soul as he stood there, but that the flame of hopefulness had long since died within him and gone out. Now they only evoked bitterness by their tantalizing allurement.
Other men had made their pile, why should not he? Rainsford, for instance, who had been, if possible, more down on his luck than himself--Rainsford had gone out to the new gold town while it was yet very new and had made a good thing of it. Two or three other acquaintances of his had gone there and had made very much more than a good thing of it. Why should not he?
Laurence Stanninghame was just touching middle age. As he stood at the window, the murky September sun seemed to bring out the lines and wrinkles of his clear-cut face, which was distinctly the face of a man who has not made a good thing of life, and who can never for a moment lose sight of that fact. There were lines above the eyes, clear, blue, and somewhat sunken eyes, which denoted the habit of the brows to contract on very slight provocation, and far oftener than was good for their owner"s peace of mind, and the bronze underlying the clear skin told of a former life in the open--possibly under a warmer sun than that now playing upon it. As to its features, it was a strong face, but there was a certain indefinable something about it when off its guard, which would have told a close physiognomist of the possession of latent instincts, unknown to their possessor, instincts which, if stifled, choked, were not dead, and which, if ever their depths were stirred, would yield forth strange and dangerous possibilities.
He was of fine const.i.tution, active and wiry; but the cramped life and squalid worry of a year-in year-out, semi-detached, suburban existence had, as he told himself, played the mischief with his nerves, and now to this was added the ghastly vista of impending actual beggary. Whatever he did and wherever he went this thought would not be quenched. It was ever with him, gnawing like an aching tooth. Lying awake at night it would glare at him with spectral eyes in the darkness; then, unless he could force himself by all manner of strange and artificial means, such as repeating favourite verse, and so forth, to throw it off, good-bye to sleep--result, nerves yet further shaken, a succession of brooding days, and system thrown off its balance by domestic friction and strife. Many a man has sought a remedy for far less ill in the bottle, whether of grog or laudanum; but this one"s character was in its strength proof against the first, while for the latter, that might come, but only as a very last extremity. Meanwhile ofttimes he wondered how that blank, hopeless feeling of having completely done with life could be his, seeing that he was still in his prime. Formerly eager, sanguine, warm-hearted, glowing with good impulses; now indifferent, sceptical, with a heart of stone and the chronic sneer of a cynic.
He was one of those men who seem born never to succeed. With everything in his favour apparently, Laurence Stanninghame never did succeed.
Everything he touched seemed to go wrong. If he speculated, whether it was a half-crown bet or a thousand-pound investment, smash went the concern. He was of an inventive turn and had patented--of course at considerable expenditure--a thing or two; but by some crafty twist of the law"s subtle rascalities, others had managed to reap the benefit. He had tried his hand at writing, but press and publisher alike shied at him. He was too bitter, too bold, too sweeping, too thorough. So he threw that, as he had thrown other things, in sheer disgust and hopelessness.
Now he was going to cast in the net for a final effort, and already his spirits began to revive at the thought. Any faint spark of lingering sentiment, if any there were, was quenched in the thought that the turn of the wheel might bring good luck, but it was impossible it could strand him in worse case. For the sentimental side of it--separation, long absence--well, the droop of the cynical corners of the mouth became more emphasized at the recollection of that faded old figment, "home, sweet home," and glowing aspirations after the so-called holy and pure joys of the family circle; whereas the reality, a sort of Punch and Judy show at best. No, there was no sentimental side to this undertaking.
Yet Laurence Stanninghame"s partner in life was by no means a bad sort of a woman. She had plenty of redeeming qualities, in that she was good-hearted at bottom and well-meaning, and withal a most devoted mother. But she had a tongue and a temper, together with an exceedingly injudicious, not to say foolish twist of mind; and this combination, other good points notwithstanding, the quality which should avail to redeem has. .h.i.therto remained undiscoverable in any live human being.
Furthermore, she owned a will. When two wills come into contact the weakest goes under, and that soon. Then there may be peace. In this case neither went under, because, presumably, evenly balanced.
Result--warfare, incessant, chronic.
Having finished his pipe, Laurence Stanninghame got out a hat and an umbrella, and set to work to brush the former and furl the latter prior to going out. The hat was not of that uniform and glossy smoothness which one could see into to shave, and the umbrella was weather-beaten of aspect. The morning coat, though well cut, was shiny at the seams.
Yet, in spite of the wear and tear of his outer gear, with so unmistakably thoroughbred a look was their wearer stamped that it seemed he might have worn anything. Many a man would have looked and felt shabby in this long service get-up; this one never gave it a thought, or, if he did, it was only to wonder whether he should ever again, after this time, put on that venerable "stove-pipe," and if so, what sort of experiences would have been his in the interim.
Now there was a patter of feet in the pa.s.sage, the door-handle turned softly, and a little girl came in. She was a sweetly-pretty child, with that rare combination of dark-lashed brown eyes and golden hair. Here, if anywhere, was Laurence Stanninghame"s soft place. His other progeny was represented by two st.u.r.dy boys, combative of instinct and firm of tread, and whose gambols, whether pacific or bellicose, were apt to shake the rattletrap old semi-detached and the parental nerves in about equal proportions; const.i.tuting, furthermore, a standing bone of parental contention. This little one, however, having turned ten, was of a companionable age; and to the male understanding the baby stage does not, as a rule, commend itself.
She was full of the racket which had just taken place overhead; but to this Laurence hardly listened. There was always a racket overhead, a fight or a fall or a b.u.mping. One more or less hardly mattered. He was thinking of his own weakness. Would she feel parting with him? Children as a rule were easily consoled. A new and gaudy toy would make them forget anything. And appositely to this thought, the little one"s mind was also full of a marvellous engine she had seen the last time she had been taken into London--one which wound up with a key and ran a great distance without stopping.
Being alone--for by this time he had come to regard all display of affection before others as a weakness--Laurence drew the child to him and kissed her tenderly.
"And supposing that engine were some day to come puffing in, Fay; to-morrow or the day after?" he said.
The little one"s eyes danced. The toy was an expensive one, quite out of reach for her, she knew. If only it were not! And now her delighted look and her reply made him smile with a strange mixture of sadness and cynicism. And as approaching footsteps heralded further invasion, he put the child from him hurriedly, and went out. Hailing a tram car, he made his way up to town to carry out the remainder of his sudden, though not very extensive, preparations.