Mortimer glowered at her. He had many grievances. For the moment he forgot that she might have any against him.
"And out here in broad daylight, almost on the street, in that tea gown--"
"I have often been quite on the street in similar ones. Going over to Aileen"s. You forget that the Western Addition is like a great park set with the homes of people more or less intimate."
Mortimer made no further remarks. He had never pretended to be a match for her in words. But the agitating incident seemed to have lifted him temporarily at least out of the nether depths of his depression, for although he talked little at dinner he appeared to eat with more relish. As he settled himself to his cigar in a comfortable wicker chair on the terrace and she was about to return to the house he spoke abruptly in a faint firm voice.
"Will you stay here? I"ve got something to say to you."
"Oh?"
She wheeled about. His face was a sickly greenish white in the heavy shade of the trees.
"It"s--it"s--something I"ve been wanting to say--tell you ... as well now as any time."
"Oh, very well. I must write just one letter."
She ran into the house and up the stairs and shut herself in the library, breathless, panic-stricken. He was going to confess! How awful! How awful! How could she ever go through with it? Why, why, hadn"t she spoken at once and got it over?
She sat quite still until she had ceased trembling and her heart no longer pounded and affected her breathing. Then she set her teeth and went downstairs.
CHAPTER XII
I
Mortimer was walking up and down the hall.
"Come in here," he said. He entered the drawing-room, and Alexina followed like a culprit led to the bar. Nevertheless, it crossed her mind that he wanted the moral support of a mantelpiece.
She almost stumbled into a chair. Mortimer did not avail himself of the chimneypiece toward which he had unconsciously gravitated, but walked back and forth. Two electric lights hidden under lamp shades were burning, but the large room was rather somber.
Alexina composed herself once more with a violent effort and asked in a crisp tone: "Well? What is this mystery? Are you in love with some one else? Been, making love--"
"Alexina!"
He confronted her with stricken eyes. "You know that I am literally incapable of such a thing. But of course you were jesting."
"Of course. But something is so manifestly wrong with you, and ... well ... of course you would be justified."
"Not in my own eyes. Besides, I shall never give up the hope of winning you back again. I live for that ... although now! ... that is the whole trouble.... How am I going to say it?"
"Well, let me help you out. You took the bonds."
"You"ve been to the bank! I wanted to tell you first ... the day you came back.... I couldn"t...."
"There is only one thing I am really curious about. How did you get in?
Of course you knew where I kept the key, but--"
"I--" His voice was so lifeless that if dead men could speak it must be in the same flat faint tones. "I had the old power of attorney."
"But I revoked it."
"I mean the instrument--the paper. You did not ask for it. I did not think of it either.... I trusted to the keeper taking it on its face value, not looking it up. He didn"t. You see--" He gave a dreadful sort of laugh. "I am well known and have a good reputation."
"Why didn"t you cable and ask me to lend you the money?"
"There wasn"t time. Besides, you might have refused. I was desperate--"
"I don"t want to hear the particulars. I am not in the least curious.
What I must talk to you about--"
"I must tell you the whole thing. I can"t go about with it any longer.
Then, perhaps, you will understand."
His voice was still flat and as he continued to walk he seemed to draw half-paralyzed legs after him. Alexina set her lips and stared at the floor. He meant to talk. No getting out of it.
"I--I--have only done well occasionally since the very first. It didn"t matter so long as your mother was alive, and for a little while after.
But when you took things into your own hands ... after that it was capital I turned over to you nearly every month--hardly ever profits."
"What? Why didn"t you tell me?"
"I hadn"t the courage. I was too anxious to stand well with you. And I always hoped, believed, I would do better as times improved. I had great hopes of myself and I had a pretty good start. But as time went on I grew to understand that my abilities were third-rate. I should have done all right with a large capital--say a hundred and fifty thousand dollars--but only a man far cleverer than I am could have got anywhere in that business with a paltry sixteen thousand to begin on. I got one or two connections and did pretty well, off and on, for a time; but if I hadn"t made one or two lucky strikes in stocks my capital would simply have run away in household expenses long ago."
"Then why did you join that expensive club?"
"It was good business," he said evasively. "I meet the right sort of men there. That"s where I got my stock pointers."
"Did you take the bonds to gamble with?"
"No. I"d never have done that. I gambled in another way, though. I thought I saw a chance to sell a certain commodity at that particular time and I plunged and sent for a large quant.i.ty of it. It looked sure.
I have a friend over there and got it on credit. I banked on an immediate sale and a big profit. But something delayed the shipping in Hong Kong. When it arrived the market was swamped. Some one else had had the same idea. I had to pay for the goods, as well as other big outstanding bills, or go into bankruptcy. So I took the bonds. It wasn"t easy. But there was nothing else to do.... There were about ten thousand dollars left and I tried another coup. That failed too."
"How is it possible to go on with the business?"
"It isn"t. I have closed out. But I have escaped bankruptcy. People on the street think that I wanted to get into the real estate business--with Andrew Weston, a young man who has recently come here from Los Angeles. He"s doing fairly well and has a good office. He wanted a hustler and a partner who had good connections. But it is slow work. There are the old firms, again, to compete with. I wouldn"t have looked at it if I"d had any choice, but it was a case of a port in a storm."
"Well? Is that all? There is another matter to discuss. Our future mode of living."
"No, it isn"t all. I wish you would tell Gora something. I can never go through this again. While she was away--in Honolulu--that lawyer of my aunt sent out ten thousand dollars" worth more of stock, that had been looked upon as so much waste paper, but suddenly appreciated--some little railroad that was abandoned half finished, but has since been completed. This had been left to Gora alone. We had some correspondence and he sent it to me as Gora was traveling. It came at the wrong time for me ... on top of everything else.... I plunged in a new mine Bob Cheever and Baseom Luning were interested in. It turned out to be no good. We lost every cent."
II