VI
At a little town at the end of steel Ben and Ezram ended the first lap of their journey. They had had good traveling these past days. Steadily they had gone north, through the tilled lands of Northern Washington, through the fertile valleys of lower British Columbia, traversing great mountain ranges and penetrating gloomy forests, and now had come to the bank of a north-flowing river,--a veritable flood and one of the monarch rivers of the North. Every hour their companionship had been more close and their hopes higher. Every waking moment Ben had been swept with thankfulness for the chance that had come to him.
They had worked for their meals and pa.s.sage--hard, manual toil--but it had seemed only play to them both. Sometimes they mended fence, sometimes helped at farm labor, and one gala morning, with entire good will and cheer, they beat into cleanliness every carpet in a widow"s cottage. And the sign of the outcast was fading from Ben"s flesh.
The change was marked in his face. His eye seemed more clear and steadfast, his lips more firm, the lines of his face were not so hard and deep. His fellows of the underworld would have scarcely known him now,--his lips and chin darkening with beard and this new air of self-respect upon him. Perhaps they had forgotten him, but it was no less than he had done to them. The prison walls seemed already as if they hadn"t been true. He loved every minute of the journey, freshness instead of filth, freedom instead of confinement, fragrant fields and blossoming flowers. Ever the stars and the moon, remembered of old, yielded him a peace and happiness beyond his power to tell. And his grat.i.tude to Ezram grew apace.
Besides self-confidence and the constant, slow unraveling of his memory problems, each day yielded rich gifts: no less than added trust in each other. Always they found each other steadfast, utterly to be relied upon. Ezram never regretted for a moment his offer to Ben. The young man had seemingly developed under his eye and was a real aid to him in all the problems of the journey.
As the days pa.s.sed, the whole tone and key of the land had seemed to change. They were full in the mountains now, snow gleaming on the heights, forests blue-black on the slopes; and Ben"s response was a growing excitement that at first he could not a.n.a.lyze. The air was sweeter, more bracing, and sometimes he discerned a fleeting, delicate odor that drew him up short in his talk and held him entranced. There was a sparkle and stir in the air, unknown in the cities he had left; and to breathe it deeply thrilled him with an unexplainable happiness.
Some way it was all familiar, all dear to him as if it had once been close to his life. The sparkle in the air was not new, only recalled: long and long ago he had wakened to find just such a delicate fragrance in his nostrils. But the key hadn"t come to him yet. His memory pictures were ever stronger of outline, clearer in his mind"s eye, yet they were still too dim for him to interpret them. In these days Ezram watched him closely, with a curious, intense interest.
It was no longer pleasant to sleep out in the hay. For the sake of warmth alone they were obliged to hire their night"s lodging at cheap hotels. Spring was full in the land they had left: it was just beginning here. The mountains, visible from the village of Saltsville where they left the railroad, were still swept with snow.
Ben felt that he would have liked to take a day off at this point and venture with his companion into the high, wooded hills that fronted the town, but he agreed with Ezram that they could not spare the time. They swiftly made preparations for their journey down-river. A canoe was bought for a reasonable sum--they were told they had a good chance of selling it again when they left the river near Snowy Gulch--and at the general store they bought an axe, rudimentary fishing tackle, tobacco, blankets, and all manner of simpler provisions, such as flour, rice, bacon, coffee, canned milk, and sugar. And for a ridiculously small sum which he mysteriously produced from the pocket of his faded jeans Ezram bought a second-hand rifle--an ancient gun of large caliber but of enduring quality--and a box of sh.e.l.ls to match.
"Old Hiram left me a gun, but we"ll each need one," Ezram explained.
"And they tell me there"s a chance to pick up game, like as not, goin"
down the river."
They would have need of good canoe-craft before the journey"s end, the villagers told them. Ezram had not boasted of any such ability, and at first Ben regarded the plan with considerable misgivings. And it was with the most profound amazement that, when they pushed off, he saw Ezram deliberately seat himself in the bow, leaving the more important place to his young companion.
"Good heavens, I"ll capsize you in a minute," Ben said. "How do you dare risk it----"
"Push off and stop botherin" me," Ezram answered. "There"s a paddle--go ahead and shoot "er."
The waters caught the canoe, speeding it downstream; and in apprehension of immediate disaster Ben seized the paddle. Swiftly he thrust it into the streaming water at his side.
He was not further aware of Ezram"s searching gaze. He did not know of the old man"s delight at the entire incident--first the anxious, hurried stroke of the paddle, then the movement of Ben"s long fingers as he caught a new hold, finally the white flame of exultation that came into his face. For himself, Ben instantly knew that this was his own sphere.
He suddenly found himself an absolute master of his craft: at the touch of the paddle controlling it as a master mechanic controls a delicate machine.
The white waters were no more to be feared. He found that he knew, as if by instinct, every trick of the riverman"s trade,--the slow stroke, the fast stroke, the best stroke for a long day"s sail, the little half-turn in his hands that put the blade on edge in the water and gave him the finest control. It was all so familiar, so unspeakably dear to him.
Clear, bright memories hovered close to him, almost within his grasp.
"Do you remember when you shot the Athabaska Rapids?" Ezram had asked.
It was all clear enough. In that life that was forgotten he had evidently lived much in a canoe, knowing every detail of river life.
Perhaps he had been a master canoeist; at least he felt a strange, surging sense of self-confidence and power. He understood, now, why the image of rushing waters had come so often into his dreams. Dim pictures of river scenes--cataracts white with foam, rapids with thunderous voices, perilous eddies, and then, just beyond, gla.s.sy waters where the shadow of the canoe was unbroken in the blue depths--streamed through his mind, but they were not yet bright enough for him to seize and hold.
He enjoyed the first few hours of paddling, but in the long, warm afternoon came indolence, and they were both willing to glide with the current and watch the ever-changing vista of the sh.o.r.e. For the first time since they had come into the real North, Ben found opportunity to observe and study the country.
Already they were out of sight of the last vestige of a habitation; and the evergreen forests pushed down to the water"s edge. From the middle of the stream the woods appeared only as a dark wall, but this was immeasurably fascinating to Ben. It suggested mystery, adventure; yet its deeper appeal, the thing that stirred him and thrilled him to the quick, he could neither understand nor a.n.a.lyze.
Sometimes a little clump of trees stood apart, and from their shape he identified them as the incomparable spruce, perhaps the most distinguished and beautiful of all the evergreens. He marked their great height, their slender forms, their dark foliage that ever seemed to be silvered with frost; and they seemed to him to answer, to the fullest extent, some vague expectation of which he had scarcely been aware.
The wild life of the river filled him with speechless delight. Sometimes he saw the waters break and gleam at the leap of a mighty salmon--the king fish of the North on his spring rush to the headwaters where he would sp.a.w.n and die--and often the canoe sent flocks of waterfowl into flight. Ben dimly felt that on the tree-clad sh.o.r.es larger, more glorious living creatures were standing, hiding, watching the canoe glide past. The thought thrilled him.
Late afternoon, and they worked closer to the sh.o.r.e. They were watching for a place to land. But because the shadows of twilight were already falling, the forest itself was hardly more vivid to their eyes. Once it seemed to Ben that he saw the underbrush move and waver at the water"s edge, and his heart leaped; but whatever stirred kept itself concealed.
And now, in the gray of twilight, Ezram saw the place to land.
It was a small lagoon into which a creek emptied, and beyond was an open meadow, found so often and so unexpectedly in the North woods. Swiftly Ben turned the canoe into sh.o.r.e.
Ezram climbed out and made fast, and so busy was he with his work that he did not glance at Ben, otherwise he might have beheld a phenomenon that would have been of keen interest to the alienist, Forest. His young charge had suddenly grown quite pale. Ben himself was neither aware of this nor of the fact that his heart was hammering wildly in his breast and his blood racing, like wild rivers, through his veins: he was only thrilled and held by a sense of vast, impending developments. Every nerve tingled and thrilled, and why he did not know.
Ezram began to unload; but now, his blue eyes shining, he began a covert watch of his young companion. He saw the man from prison suddenly catch his breath in inexpressible awe and his eye kindle with a light of unknown source. A great question was shaping itself in Ben"s mind, but as yet he could not find the answer.
All at once Ben knew this place. Here was nothing strange or new: it was all as he had known it would be in his inmost heart. All of it spoke to him with familiar voice, seemingly to welcome him as a son is welcomed after long absence. There was nothing here that had not been known and beloved of old. Vivid memories, bright as lightning, swept through him.
He had always known this wholesome, sweet breath that swept into his face. It was merely that of the outdoors, the open places that were his own haunts. It was wholly fitting and true that the silence should lie over the dark spruce that ringed about him, a silence that, in its infinite harmony with some queer mood of silence in his own heart, was more moving than any voice. All was as he had secretly known: the hushed tree aisles, the gray radiance--soft as a hand upon the brow--of the afterglow; the all-pervading health and peace of the wilderness. Except for an old and trusted companion, he was alone with it all, and that too was as it should be. Just he and the forest, his companion and the gliding river.
He didn"t try to understand, at first, the joy and the wonder that thrilled him, nor could he speak aloud the thoughts that came to him.
Ravished and mystified, he walked softly to the dark, still edge of the forest, penetrated it a distance, then sat down to wait.
For the first time in years, it seemed to him, he was at peace. A strange sense of self-realization--lost to him in his years of exile--climbed like fire through him; and with it the return of a lost virility, a supreme vigor tingling each little nerve; a sense of strength and power that was almost blinding.
He sat still. He saw the twilight descending, ever heavier, over the forest. The sharp edges of the individual trees faded and blended, the trunks blurred. He turned one fleeting glance of infinite, inexpressible grat.i.tude toward Ezram--the man who had brought him here and who now was busily engaged in unpacking the canoe and making camp--then looked back to his forests. The wind brought the wood smells,--spruce and moldering earth and a thousand more no man could name. The great, watchful, brooding spirit of the forest went in to him.
All at once his heart seemed to pause in his breast. He was listening,--for what he did not know. His eyes strained into the shadows. Brush wavered, a twig cracked with a miniature explosion. And then two figures emerged into the beaver meadow opposite him.
They were only creatures of the wild, an old cow moose, black and ungainly, and her long-legged, awkward calf. Yet they supplied the detail that was missing. They were the one thing needed to complete the picture--the crowning touch that revealed this land as it was--the virgin wilderness where the creatures of the wild still held full sway.
But it did more. All at once a great clarity seemed to take possession of his mind. Here, in these dark forests, were the _stimuli_ of which Forest, the alienist, had spoken; and his brain seemed to leap, as in one impulse, to the truth. Suddenly he knew the answer to all the questions and problems that had troubled him so long.
Many times, in the past years, he had seen logs jammed in the water, a veritable labyrinth that defied dissolution. Suddenly, as if by magic, the key log would be ejected, and the whole jam would break, shatter down in one stupendous crash, settle and dissolve, leaving at last only drift logs floating quietly in the river. Thus it was with the confusion in his brain. All at once it seemed to dissolve, the tangled skeins straightened out, the a.s.sociation areas of his mind stirred full into life once more. As he sat there, pale as the twilight sky, the mists of amnesia lifted from him. He was cured as if by the touch of a holy man.
No wonder these forests depths were familiar. His boyhood and early manhood, clear until the vortex of war had engulfed him, had been spent amid just such surroundings, in just such silences, on the banks of just such wilderness rivers. The same sky line of dark, heaven-reaching spruce had fronted him of old. He sprang up, his eyes blazing. "I remember everything," an inaudible voice spoke within him. Then he whispered, fervently, to his familiar wilds. "And I have come home."
VII
Everything was as it should be, as he and Ezram made the camp. He himself cut the boughs for their beds, laid them with his remembered skill, spread the blankets, and kept the fire blazing while Ezram cooked; afterwards he knew the indescribable peace of a pipe smoke beside the glowing coals. He saw the moon come up at last, translating the spruce forest into a fairy land.
Of course he had remembered the moon. How many times had he watched for its argent gleam on the sky line, the vivid, detailed silhouette of the spruce against it; and then its slow-spreading glory through the still, dark forests! The spires of the trees grew ensilvered, as always; immense nebulous patches lay between the trunks, shadows stole mysteriously, phantoms met, lingered, and vanished.
This was his own North! The stir and vigor in the very air told him that. This was the land he had dreamed of, under the moon; the primeval forests that had tried him, tested him, staked their cruel might against him, but yet had blessed him with their infinite beneficence and hospitality. It was ever somber, yet its dusky beauty stirred him more than any richness he had seen in bright cities. He knew its every mood: ecstasy in spring; gentleness in summer; brooding melancholy in the gray days of fall; remorseless, savage, but unspeakably beautiful in the winter. He felt his old pity for the spring flowers, blossoming so hopefully in this gentle season. How soon they would be covered with many feet of snow!
"It"s all come clear again," he told Ezram. And the two men talked over, quietly and happily, old days at Thunder Lake. He remembered now that Ezram had always been the most intimate friend of his own family: a spry old G.o.dfather to himself and young sister, a boon companion to his once successful rival, Ben"s father. Ben did not wonder, now, at his own perplexity when Forest had spoken of "Wolf" Darby. That was his own name known throughout hundreds of square miles of forest and in dozens of little river hamlets in an Eastern province. Partly the name was in token of his skill as a woodsman and frontiersman, partly in recognition of certain traits that his fellow woodsmen had seen and wondered at in him. It was not an empty nickname, in his case. It was simply that the name suited him.
"The boys had reason a-plenty for callin" you that," Ezram told him. "Up here, as you know, men don"t get no complimentary epithets unless they deserve "em. Some men, Ben, are like weasels. You"ve seen "em. You"ve seen human rats, too. As if the souls they carried around with "em was the souls of rats. Of course you remember "Grizzly" Silverdale? Did you ever see any one who in disposition and looks and walk and everything reminded you so much of a grizzly bear? I"ve known men like sheep, and men with the faithful souls of dogs. You remember when you got in the big fight in the Le Perray bar?"
"I don"t think I"ll ever forget it again."
"That"s the night the name came on you, to stay. You remember how you"d drive into one of them, leap away, then tear into another. Like a wolf for all the world! You was always hard to get into a fight, but you know as well as I do, and I ain"t salvin" you when I say it, that you"re the most terrible, ferocious fighter, forgettin" everything but blood, that ever paddled a canoe on the Athabaska. Some men, Ben, seem to have the spirit of the wolf right under their skins, a sort of a wild instinct that might have come straight down from the stone age, for all I know. You happen to be one of "em, the worst I ever saw. Maybe you don"t remember, but you took your bull moose before you was thirteen years old."