Through the open doorway she could see into the parlour of the tenant who lived on the other side of the hall and who, likewise, had flung back his door for spring to enter.
She saw a cherry-red sofa with embroidered antimaca.s.sars symmetrically plastered on its old-fashioned scroll arms. She saw framed wreaths of dried flowers with inscriptions hanging on the walls; she saw an artillery officer"s helmet and two swords with sword-knots crossed beneath. She saw China lions serving as cigar holders, ladies in dancing att.i.tudes holding tallow candles, photographs of family groups with peac.o.c.k feathers stuck behind, a spherical aquarium containing gold fish, and a spotted goat skin. Amid all these comfortable-looking knick-knacks she saw a young man walking up and down with a book in his hand murmuring studiously. He would appear and reappear in the field of vision allowed by the hall door.
This young man awakened Lilly"s sympathy at the very first glance.
He wore his waving light hair brushed from his forehead in free and easy fashion, and carried his head boldly erect. His brown and lilac necktie seemed to her aristocratic perfection.
She pa.s.sed in review all her favourite heroes to see which of them he most resembled. After some wavering she finally decided he came nearest to Herr von Fink, the rogue in _Soll und Haben_.
Since the young man did not notice her, she could study him at leisure.
Each time he appeared she felt a warm wave pour over her body, and when he remained away too long by the fraction of a second, she experienced a sensation of nausea, as if some one were trying to cheat her of a dear possession.
This continued until once he looked up from his book, became aware of the open door to the circulating library with the young lady on the other side observing him, started in dismay, and quickly stepped back to the invisible part of the room.
The next time he came into view he had a.s.sumed a conscious and studied manner. He looked at his book a little too closely and moved his lips one degree too zealously, while a severe frown clouded his countenance.
Lilly, too, had found it necessary somewhat to improve the picture she presented. She smoothed her hair, which she wore parted Madonna fashion, and let her arm droop over the side of the chair in idle dreaminess.
Some maids, who had come to exchange books for their mistresses, put an end to this dual posing. On leaving they closed the door and Lilly did not venture to open it again.
But that night she carried the vision of the new hero into her dreams.
It was too late in the day to speak to Mrs. Asmussen, who was now in the habit of preparing her medicine some time before the evening meal. The next morning, however, she seemed to be in a gracious humour, and Lilly felt emboldened to make a few inquiries concerning the neighbours, of whom she knew practically nothing.
"What are the neighbours to you, Miss Inquisitive?"
Such was the tone of intercourse that had developed from the first state of enchantment.
Lilly took heart, and concocted a story of a steady customer who had asked about the neighbours the day before, and Lilly had not been able to give any information.
Mrs. Asmussen, who cherished boundless respect for the customers"
wishes, forthwith became communicative.
They were two very good people, but of low station, with whom she, Mrs.
Asmussen, a woman of greater aristocracy both of mind and heart, could not, of course, a.s.sociate. The man, a sergeant out of service, was clerk in some office, and the woman sewed neckwear for a living.
Lilly blushed. She recalled the brown and lilac tie, the sheen of which had been dazzling her eyes since the day before.
An idea might be obtained of the vulgar existence those plebeians led, Mrs. Asmussen continued, if one knew they considered potato soup with sliced sausage in it a festal delicacy, whereas anyone with refined tastes would shudder at the mere thought.
Lilly, who, like the good-for-nothing daughters, had long lost her joy in the daily mush, could not quite sympathise with this statement. On the contrary, she felt her mouth watering, and in order to change the subject quickly she timidly inquired whether anyone else was living next door.
"Not that I know of," replied Mrs. Asmussen. "But there"s a son. He goes to high school. I don"t know why such people have their sons study."
"I know," thought Lilly. "Because he"s one of the elect, because genius shines in his eyes, because destiny has marked him to be a ruler on earth."
That afternoon she kept the door open. But it had turned bitter cold, and the idea of friendly reciprocation occurred to n.o.body next door.
After an hour spent in studying the oval door plate on which was inscribed:
L. Redlich Please ring hard,
she found herself under the necessity of closing the door, because her legs were depending from her body like icicles and she had the humiliating consciousness of being scorned.
Henceforth she kept on the watch for one o"clock, when the students living in the house returned from school. Holding her forehead pressed against the window-pane, she could recognise at an inconceivable distance the blue and white rimmed caps worn by high school students.
When he came up the steps leading to the porch in front of the house, she slipped behind the curtain, and in a joyous tremour caught the shamed, sidelong glance he sent her. If he looked straight ahead she was unhappy and afraid she had hurt his feelings.
Other blue and white rimmed caps besides his entered the house. They belonged to friends who came to cram with him.
Lilly loved them all. She felt she was a secret member of the union of these young souls who were going to storm the world, and when they seated themselves in the room she took her invisible place in the circle.
Some of them Lilly recognised, not by their features, because they pa.s.sed her too quickly for that, but by their caps, which she distinguished accurately. There was the "sad one," the "washed-out one,"
the "stylish one" and the "wireless one." She could also recognise their walk and the manner in which they rang the bell at the opposite door.
Even if occupied with customers, she could tell, without having looked through the window, exactly how many and which of the friends were working with young Redlich, and she would revolve in her mind why this or that one had not come that day.
Spring advanced. The inmates of the house began occasionally to sit on the front porch, where there were benches on either side of the door.
Before leaving, the young gentlemen would remain there a while chatting, and now and then He would lean over the railing in the twilight, dreaming, no doubt, of future conquests.
With fluttering heart Lilly would stand behind a bookcase where she had cunningly contrived an observatory for herself by removing a number of books, and from there read the world-stirring thoughts that lay on the bold soaring forehead.
The benches on the right side of the porch, in front of the windows of the circulating library, generally remained unoccupied, because Mrs.
Asmussen, to whom this side belonged, preferred not to desert her evening medicine, and Lilly lacked courage to ask for permission to sit there by herself.
But one evening in May, when dark blue clouds hung in the heavens shot with red, enticing rather than threatening, when the streets were so quiet that Lilly could hear the distant plashing of the fountain in the market-place, when the only stir was created by swallows darting hither and thither, she could no longer stand the library"s pasty, leathery smell, and fetching her embroidery--more for show than from eagerness to sew--she went out to sit on the porch.
She knew he had gone out and was not in the habit of remaining away after ten o"clock.
So he would be bound to pa.s.s her at all events.
Half an hour went by, another half hour, then a quarter of an hour.
Finally she saw a blue and white cap come swinging down the street in the last glow of evening.
Her first thought was to run into the library with all possible speed.
But she was ashamed of the idea, and remained seated.
He came, he saw her, he raised his cap and went in.
She thought gleefully:
"Well, he bowed at last."
At the end of scarcely ten minutes he reappeared on the scene, seated himself on the bench belonging to _his_ side of the house, toyed with pebbles, whistled softly, and acted altogether as if he did not see her.
Lilly sat in her corner with her face turned aside, rolling and unrolling her embroidery, and every now and then fetching a little sigh, not to show her love--oh, certainly not!--but because her breath came short.
About half an hour pa.s.sed in this fashion and Lilly was beginning to lose all hope of a rapprochement, when all of a sudden he said, half raising his cap: