Have to make that next ledge. Put your foot on my knee and catch something to pull by."
Thea went up over his shoulder. "It"s hard ground up here," she panted.
"Did I wrench your arm when I slipped then? It was a cactus I grabbed, and it startled me."
"Now, one more pull and we"re on the level."
They emerged gasping upon the black plateau. In the last five minutes the darkness had solidified and it seemed as if the skies were pouring black water. They could not see where the sky ended or the plain began.
The light at the ranch house burned a steady spark through the rain.
Fred drew Thea"s arm through his and they struck off toward the light.
They could not see each other, and the rain at their backs seemed to drive them along. They kept laughing as they stumbled over tufts of gra.s.s or stepped into slippery pools. They were delighted with each other and with the adventure which lay behind them.
"I can"t even see the whites of your eyes, Thea. But I"d know who was here stepping out with me, anywhere. Part coyote you are, by the feel of you. When you make up your mind to jump, you jump! My gracious, what"s the matter with your hand?"
"Cactus spines. Didn"t I tell you when I grabbed the cactus? I thought it was a root. Are we going straight?"
"I don"t know. Somewhere near it, I think. I"m very comfortable, aren"t you? You"re warm, except your cheeks. How funny they are when they"re wet. Still, you always feel like you. I like this. I could walk to Flagstaff. It"s fun, not being able to see anything. I feel surer of you when I can"t see you. Will you run away with me?"
Thea laughed. "I won"t run far to-night. I"ll think about it. Look, Fred, there"s somebody coming."
"Henry, with his lantern. Good enough! Halloo! Hallo--o--o!" Fred shouted.
The moving light bobbed toward them. In half an hour Thea was in her big feather bed, drinking hot lentil soup, and almost before the soup was swallowed she was asleep.
VIII
ON the first day of September Fred Ottenburg and Thea Kronborg left Flagstaff by the east-bound express. As the bright morning advanced, they sat alone on the rear platform of the observation car, watching the yellow miles unfold and disappear. With complete content they saw the brilliant, empty country flash by. They were tired of the desert and the dead races, of a world without change or ideas. Fred said he was glad to sit back and let the Santa Fe do the work for a while.
"And where are we going, anyhow?" he added.
"To Chicago, I suppose. Where else would we be going?" Thea hunted for a handkerchief in her handbag.
"I wasn"t sure, so I had the trunks checked to Albuquerque. We can recheck there to Chicago, if you like. Why Chicago? You"ll never go back to Bowers. Why wouldn"t this be a good time to make a run for it? We could take the southern branch at Albuquerque, down to El Paso, and then over into Mexico. We are exceptionally free. n.o.body waiting for us anywhere."
Thea sighted along the steel rails that quivered in the light behind them. "I don"t see why I couldn"t marry you in Chicago, as well as any place," she brought out with some embarra.s.sment.
Fred took the handbag out of her nervous clasp and swung it about on his finger. "You"ve no particular love for that spot, have you? Besides, as I"ve told you, my family would make a row. They are an excitable lot.
They discuss and argue everlastingly. The only way I can ever put anything through is to go ahead, and convince them afterward."
"Yes; I understand. I don"t mind that. I don"t want to marry your family. I"m sure you wouldn"t want to marry mine. But I don"t see why we have to go so far."
"When we get to Winslow, you look about the freight yards and you"ll probably see several yellow cars with my name on them. That"s why, my dear. When your visiting-card is on every beer bottle, you can"t do things quietly. Things get into the papers." As he watched her troubled expression, he grew anxious. He leaned forward on his camp-chair, and kept twirling the handbag between his knees. "Here"s a suggestion, Thea," he said presently. "Dismiss it if you don"t like it: suppose we go down to Mexico on the chance. You"ve never seen anything like Mexico City; it will be a lark for you, anyhow. If you change your mind, and don"t want to marry me, you can go back to Chicago, and I"ll take a steamer from Vera Cruz and go up to New York. When I get to Chicago, you"ll be at work, and n.o.body will ever be the wiser. No reason why we shouldn"t both travel in Mexico, is there? You"ll be traveling alone.
I"ll merely tell you the right places to stop, and come to take you driving. I won"t put any pressure on you. Have I ever?" He swung the bag toward her and looked up under her hat.
"No, you haven"t," she murmured. She was thinking that her own position might be less difficult if he had used what he called pressure. He clearly wished her to take the responsibility.
"You have your own future in the back of your mind all the time," Fred began, "and I have it in mine. I"m not going to try to carry you off, as I might another girl. If you wanted to quit me, I couldn"t hold you, no matter how many times you had married me. I don"t want to overpersuade you. But I"d like mighty well to get you down to that jolly old city, where everything would please you, and give myself a chance. Then, if you thought you could have a better time with me than without me, I"d try to grab you before you changed your mind. You are not a sentimental person."
Thea drew her veil down over her face. "I think I am, a little; about you," she said quietly. Fred"s irony somehow hurt her.
"What"s at the bottom of your mind, Thea?" he asked hurriedly. "I can"t tell. Why do you consider it at all, if you"re not sure? Why are you here with me now?"
Her face was half-averted. He was thinking that it looked older and more firm--almost hard--under a veil.
"Isn"t it possible to do things without having any very clear reason?"
she asked slowly. "I have no plan in the back of my mind. Now that I"m with you, I want to be with you; that"s all. I can"t settle down to being alone again. I am here to-day because I want to be with you to-day." She paused. "One thing, though; if I gave you my word, I"d keep it. And you could hold me, though you don"t seem to think so. Maybe I"m not sentimental, but I"m not very light, either. If I went off with you like this, it wouldn"t be to amuse myself."
Ottenburg"s eyes fell. His lips worked nervously for a moment. "Do you mean that you really care for me, Thea Kronborg?" he asked unsteadily.
"I guess so. It"s like anything else. It takes hold of you and you"ve got to go through with it, even if you"re afraid. I was afraid to leave Moonstone, and afraid to leave Harsanyi. But I had to go through with it."
"And are you afraid now?" Fred asked slowly.
"Yes; more than I"ve ever been. But I don"t think I could go back. The past closes up behind one, somehow. One would rather have a new kind of misery. The old kind seems like death or unconsciousness. You can"t force your life back into that mould again. No, one can"t go back." She rose and stood by the back grating of the platform, her hand on the bra.s.s rail.
Fred went to her side. She pushed up her veil and turned her most glowing face to him. Her eyes were wet and there were tears on her lashes, but she was smiling the rare, whole-hearted smile he had seen once or twice before. He looked at her shining eyes, her parted lips, her chin a little lifted. It was as if they were colored by a sunrise he could not see. He put his hand over hers and clasped it with a strength she felt. Her eyelashes trembled, her mouth softened, but her eyes were still brilliant.
"Will you always be like you were down there, if I go with you?" she asked under her breath.
His fingers tightened on hers. "By G.o.d, I will!" he muttered.
"That"s the only promise I"ll ask you for. Now go away for a while and let me think about it. Come back at lunchtime and I"ll tell you. Will that do?"
"Anything will do, Thea, if you"ll only let me keep an eye on you. The rest of the world doesn"t interest me much. You"ve got me in deep."
Fred dropped her hand and turned away. As he glanced back from the front end of the observation car, he saw that she was still standing there, and any one would have known that she was brooding over something. The earnestness of her head and shoulders had a certain n.o.bility. He stood looking at her for a moment.
When he reached the forward smoking-car, Fred took a seat at the end, where he could shut the other pa.s.sengers from his sight. He put on his traveling-cap and sat down wearily, keeping his head near the window.
"In any case, I shall help her more than I shall hurt her," he kept saying to himself. He admitted that this was not the only motive which impelled him, but it was one of them. "I"ll make it my business in life to get her on. There"s nothing else I care about so much as seeing her have her chance. She hasn"t touched her real force yet. She isn"t even aware of it. Lord, don"t I know something about them? There isn"t one of them that has such a depth to draw from. She"ll be one of the great artists of our time. Playing accompaniments for that cheese-faced sneak!
I"ll get her off to Germany this winter, or take her. She hasn"t got any time to waste now. I"ll make it up to her, all right."
Ottenburg certainly meant to make it up to her, in so far as he could.
His feeling was as generous as strong human feelings are likely to be.
The only trouble was, that he was married already, and had been since he was twenty.
His older friends in Chicago, people who had been friends of his family, knew of the unfortunate state of his personal affairs; but they were people whom in the natural course of things Thea Kronborg would scarcely meet. Mrs. Frederick Ottenburg lived in California, at Santa Barbara, where her health was supposed to be better than elsewhere, and her husband lived in Chicago. He visited his wife every winter to reinforce her position, and his devoted mother, although her hatred for her daughter-inlaw was scarcely approachable in words, went to Santa Barbara every year to make things look better and to relieve her son.
When Frederick Ottenburg was beginning his junior year at Harvard, he got a letter from d.i.c.k Brisbane, a Kansas City boy he knew, telling him that his FIANCEE, Miss Edith Beers, was going to New York to buy her trousseau. She would be at the Holland House, with her aunt and a girl from Kansas City who was to be a bridesmaid, for two weeks or more. If Ottenburg happened to be going down to New York, would he call upon Miss Beers and "show her a good time"?
Fred did happen to be going to New York. He was going down from New Haven, after the Thanksgiving game. He called on Miss Beers and found her, as he that night telegraphed Brisbane, a "ripping beauty, no mistake." He took her and her aunt and her uninteresting friend to the theater and to the opera, and he asked them to lunch with him at the Waldorf. He took no little pains in arranging the luncheon with the head waiter. Miss Beers was the sort of girl with whom a young man liked to seem experienced. She was dark and slender and fiery. She was witty and slangy; said daring things and carried them off with NONCHALANCE. Her childish extravagance and contempt for all the serious facts of life could be charged to her father"s generosity and his long packing-house purse. Freaks that would have been vulgar and ostentatious in a more simpleminded girl, in Miss Beers seemed whimsical and picturesque. She darted about in magnificent furs and pumps and close-clinging gowns, though that was the day of full skirts. Her hats were large and floppy.
When she wriggled out of her moleskin coat at luncheon, she looked like a slim black weasel. Her satin dress was a mere sheath, so conspicuous by its severity and scantness that every one in the dining-room stared.
She ate nothing but alligator-pear salad and hothouse grapes, drank a little champagne, and took cognac in her coffee. She ridiculed, in the raciest slang, the singers they had heard at the opera the night before, and when her aunt pretended to reprove her, she murmured indifferently, "What"s the matter with you, old sport?" She rattled on with a subdued loquaciousness, always keeping her voice low and monotonous, always looking out of the corner of her eye and speaking, as it were, in asides, out of the corner of her mouth. She was scornful of everything,--which became her eyebrows. Her face was mobile and discontented, her eyes quick and black. There was a sort of smouldering fire about her, young Ottenburg thought. She entertained him prodigiously.
After luncheon Miss Beers said she was going uptown to be fitted, and that she would go alone because her aunt made her nervous. When Fred held her coat for her, she murmured, "Thank you, Alphonse," as if she were addressing the waiter. As she stepped into a hansom, with a long stretch of thin silk stocking, she said negligently, over her fur collar, "Better let me take you along and drop you somewhere." He sprang in after her, and she told the driver to go to the Park.
It was a bright winter day, and bitterly cold. Miss Beers asked Fred to tell her about the game at New Haven, and when he did so paid no attention to what he said. She sank back into the hansom and held her m.u.f.f before her face, lowering it occasionally to utter laconic remarks about the people in the carriages they pa.s.sed, interrupting Fred"s narrative in a disconcerting manner. As they entered the Park he happened to glance under her wide black hat at her black eyes and hair--the m.u.f.f hid everything else--and discovered that she was crying.