"What is it the flowers mean when they ask him not to be harsh to their sister, eh?" he asked, looking down at her curiously and wrinkling his dull red forehead.
Thea glanced at him in surprise. "I suppose he thinks they are asking him not to be harsh to his sweetheart--or some girl they remind him of."
"And why TRAURIGER, BLa.s.sER MANN?"
They had come back to the grape arbor, and Thea picked out a sunny place on the bench, where a tortoise-sh.e.l.l cat was stretched at full length.
She sat down, bending over the cat and teasing his whiskers. "Because he had been awake all night, thinking about her, wasn"t it? Maybe that was why he was up so early."
Wunsch shrugged his shoulders. "If he think about her all night already, why do you say the flowers remind him?"
Thea looked up at him in perplexity. A flash of comprehension lit her face and she smiled eagerly. "Oh, I didn"t mean "remind" in that way! I didn"t mean they brought her to his mind! I meant it was only when he came out in the morning, that she seemed to him like that,--like one of the flowers."
"And before he came out, how did she seem?"
This time it was Thea who shrugged her shoulders. The warm smile left her face. She lifted her eyebrows in annoyance and looked off at the sand hills.
Wunsch persisted. "Why you not answer me?"
"Because it would be silly. You are just trying to make me say things.
It spoils things to ask questions."
Wunsch bowed mockingly; his smile was disagreeable. Suddenly his face grew grave, grew fierce, indeed. He pulled himself up from his clumsy stoop and folded his arms. "But it is necessary to know if you know some things. Some things cannot be taught. If you not know in the beginning, you not know in the end. For a singer there must be something in the inside from the beginning. I shall not be long in this place, may-be, and I like to know. Yes,"--he ground his heel in the gravel,--"yes, when you are barely six, you must know that already. That is the beginning of all things; DER GEIST, DIE PHANTASIE. It must be in the baby, when it makes its first cry, like DER RHYTHMUS, or it is not to be. You have some voice already, and if in the beginning, when you are with things-to-play, you know that what you will not tell me, then you can learn to sing, may-be."
Wunsch began to pace the arbor, rubbing his hands together. The dark flush of his face had spread up under the iron-gray bristles on his head. He was talking to himself, not to Thea. Insidious power of the linden bloom! "Oh, much you can learn! ABER NICHT DIE AMERICANISCHEN FRAULEIN. They have nothing inside them," striking his chest with both fists. "They are like the ones in the MARCHEN, a grinning face and hollow in the insides. Something they can learn, oh, yes, may-be! But the secret--what make the rose to red, the sky to blue, the man to love--IN DER BRUST, IN DER BRUST it is, UND OHNE DIESES GIEBT ES KEINE KUNST, GIEBT ES KEINE KUNST!" He threw up his square hand and shook it, all the fingers apart and wagging. Purple and breathless he went out of the arbor and into the house, without saying good-bye. These outbursts frightened Wunsch. They were always harbingers of ill.
Thea got her music-book and stole quietly out of the garden. She did not go home, but wandered off into the sand dunes, where the p.r.i.c.kly pear was in blossom and the green lizards were racing each other in the glittering light. She was shaken by a pa.s.sionate excitement. She did not altogether understand what Wunsch was talking about; and yet, in a way she knew. She knew, of course, that there was something about her that was different. But it was more like a friendly spirit than like anything that was a part of herself. She thought everything to it, and it answered her; happiness consisted of that backward and forward movement of herself. The something came and went, she never knew how. Sometimes she hunted for it and could not find it; again, she lifted her eyes from a book, or stepped out of doors, or wakened in the morning, and it was there,--under her cheek, it usually seemed to be, or over her breast,--a kind of warm sureness. And when it was there, everything was more interesting and beautiful, even people. When this companion was with her, she could get the most wonderful things out of Spanish Johnny, or Wunsch, or Dr. Archie.
On her thirteenth birthday she wandered for a long while about the sand ridges, picking up crystals and looking into the yellow p.r.i.c.kly-pear blossoms with their thousand stamens. She looked at the sand hills until she wished she WERE a sand hill. And yet she knew that she was going to leave them all behind some day. They would be changing all day long, yellow and purple and lavender, and she would not be there. From that day on, she felt there was a secret between her and Wunsch. Together they had lifted a lid, pulled out a drawer, and looked at something.
They hid it away and never spoke of what they had seen; but neither of them forgot it.
XII
One July night, when the moon was full, Dr. Archie was coming up from the depot, restless and discontented, wishing there were something to do. He carried his straw hat in his hand, and kept brushing his hair back from his forehead with a purposeless, unsatisfied gesture. After he pa.s.sed Uncle Billy Beemer"s cottonwood grove, the sidewalk ran out of the shadow into the white moonlight and crossed the sand gully on high posts, like a bridge. As the doctor approached this trestle, he saw a white figure, and recognized Thea Kronborg. He quickened his pace and she came to meet him.
"What are you doing out so late, my girl?" he asked as he took her hand.
"Oh, I don"t know. What do people go to bed so early for? I"d like to run along before the houses and screech at them. Isn"t it glorious out here?"
The young doctor gave a melancholy laugh and pressed her hand.
"Think of it," Thea snorted impatiently. "n.o.body up but us and the rabbits! I"ve started up half a dozen of "em. Look at that little one down there now,"--she stooped and pointed. In the gully below them there was, indeed, a little rabbit with a white spot of a tail, crouching down on the sand, quite motionless. It seemed to be lapping up the moonlight like cream. On the other side of the walk, down in the ditch, there was a patch of tall, rank sunflowers, their s.h.a.ggy leaves white with dust.
The moon stood over the cottonwood grove. There was no wind, and no sound but the wheezing of an engine down on the tracks.
"Well, we may as well watch the rabbits." Dr. Archie sat down on the sidewalk and let his feet hang over the edge. He pulled out a smooth linen handkerchief that smelled of German cologne water. "Well, how goes it? Working hard? You must know about all Wunsch can teach you by this time."
Thea shook her head. "Oh, no, I don"t, Dr. Archie. He"s hard to get at, but he"s been a real musician in his time. Mother says she believes he"s forgotten more than the music-teachers down in Denver ever knew."
"I"m afraid he won"t be around here much longer," said Dr. Archie. "He"s been making a tank of himself lately. He"ll be pulling his freight one of these days. That"s the way they do, you know. I"ll be sorry on your account." He paused and ran his fresh handkerchief over his face. "What the deuce are we all here for anyway, Thea?" he said abruptly.
"On earth, you mean?" Thea asked in a low voice.
"Well, primarily, yes. But secondarily, why are we in Moonstone? It isn"t as if we"d been born here. You were, but Wunsch wasn"t, and I wasn"t. I suppose I"m here because I married as soon as I got out of medical school and had to get a practice quick. If you hurry things, you always get left in the end. I don"t learn anything here, and as for the people--In my own town in Michigan, now, there were people who liked me on my father"s account, who had even known my grandfather. That meant something. But here it"s all like the sand: blows north one day and south the next. We"re all a lot of gamblers without much nerve, playing for small stakes. The railroad is the one real fact in this country.
That has to be; the world has to be got back and forth. But the rest of us are here just because it"s the end of a run and the engine has to have a drink. Some day I"ll get up and find my hair turning gray, and I"ll have nothing to show for it."
Thea slid closer to him and caught his arm. "No, no. I won"t let you get gray. You"ve got to stay young for me. I"m getting young now, too."
Archie laughed. "Getting?"
"Yes. People aren"t young when they"re children. Look at Thor, now; he"s just a little old man. But Gus has a sweetheart, and he"s young!"
"Something in that!" Dr. Archie patted her head, and then felt the shape of her skull gently, with the tips of his fingers. "When you were little, Thea, I used always to be curious about the shape of your head.
You seemed to have more inside it than most youngsters. I haven"t examined it for a long time. Seems to be the usual shape, but uncommonly hard, some how. What are you going to do with yourself, anyway?"
"I don"t know."
"Honest, now?" He lifted her chin and looked into her eyes.
Thea laughed and edged away from him.
"You"ve got something up your sleeve, haven"t you? Anything you like; only don"t marry and settle down here without giving yourself a chance, will you?"
"Not much. See, there"s another rabbit!"
"That"s all right about the rabbits, but I don"t want you to get tied up. Remember that."
Thea nodded. "Be nice to Wunsch, then. I don"t know what I"d do if he went away."
"You"ve got older friends than Wunsch here, Thea."
"I know." Thea spoke seriously and looked up at the moon, propping her chin on her hand. "But Wunsch is the only one that can teach me what I want to know. I"ve got to learn to do something well, and that"s the thing I can do best."
"Do you want to be a music-teacher?"
"Maybe, but I want to be a good one. I"d like to go to Germany to study, some day. Wunsch says that"s the best place,--the only place you can really learn." Thea hesitated and then went on nervously, "I"ve got a book that says so, too. It"s called "My Musical Memories." It made me want to go to Germany even before Wunsch said anything. Of course it"s a secret. You"re the first one I"ve told."
Dr. Archie smiled indulgently. "That"s a long way off. Is that what you"ve got in your hard noddle?" He put his hand on her hair, but this time she shook him off.
"No, I don"t think much about it. But you talk about going, and a body has to have something to go TO!"
"That"s so." Dr. Archie sighed. "You"re lucky if you have. Poor Wunsch, now, he hasn"t. What do such fellows come out here for? He"s been asking me about my mining stock, and about mining towns. What would he do in a mining town? He wouldn"t know a piece of ore if he saw one. He"s got nothing to sell that a mining town wants to buy. Why don"t those old fellows stay at home? We won"t need them for another hundred years. An engine wiper can get a job, but a piano player! Such people can"t make good."
"My grandfather Alstrom was a musician, and he made good."
Dr. Archie chuckled. "Oh, a Swede can make good anywhere, at anything!
You"ve got that in your favor, miss. Come, you must be getting home."