"Then you had much better let Mr. Gereth go, and stay by yourself and make me a pleasant visit. You can talk with him when you like, but it is the first time you"ve been to see me."
This appeal had evidently a certain effect; Mrs. Brigstock visibly wavered. "I can"t talk with him whenever I like," she returned; "he hasn"t been near us since I don"t know when. But there are things that have brought me here."
"They are not things of any importance," Owen, to Fleda"s surprise, suddenly a.s.serted. He had not at first taken up Mrs. Brigstock"s expression of a wish to carry him off: Fleda could see that the instinct at the bottom of this was that of standing by her, of seeming not to abandon her. But abruptly, all his soreness working within him, it had struck him that he should abandon her still more if he should leave her to be dealt with by her other visitor. "You must allow me to say, you know, Mrs. Brigstock, that I don"t think you should come down on Miss Vetch about anything. It"s very good of her to take the smallest interest in us and our horrid little squabble. If you want to talk about it, talk about it with _me_." He was flushed with the idea of protecting Fleda, of exhibiting his consideration for her. "I don"t like your cross-questioning her, don"t you see? She"s as straight as a die: _I_"ll tell you all about her!" he declared with an excited laugh. "Please come off with me and let her alone."
Mrs. Brigstock, at this, became vivid at once; Fleda thought she looked most peculiar. She stood straight up, with a queer distention of her whole person and of everything in her face but her mouth, which she gathered into a small, tight orifice. Fleda was painfully divided; her joy was deep within, but it was more relevant to the situation that she should not appear to a.s.sociate herself with the tone of familiarity in which Owen addressed a lady who had been, and was perhaps still, about to become his mother-in-law. She laid on Mrs. Brigstock"s arm a repressive hand. Mrs. Brigstock, however, had already exclaimed on her having so wonderful a defender. "He speaks, upon my word, as if I had come here to be rude to you!"
At this, grasping her hard, Fleda laughed; then she achieved the exploit of delicately kissing her. "I"m not in the least afraid to be alone with you, or of your tearing me to pieces. I"ll answer any question that you can possibly dream of putting to me."
"I"m the proper person to answer Mrs. Brigstock"s questions," Owen broke in again, "and I"m not a bit less ready to meet them than you are." He was firmer than she had ever seen him: it was as if she had not known he could be so firm.
"But she"ll only have been here a few minutes. What sort of a visit is that?" Fleda cried.
"It has lasted long enough for my purpose. There was something I wanted to know, but I think I know it now."
"Anything you don"t know I dare say I can tell you!" Owen observed as he impatiently smoothed his hat with the cuff of his coat.
Fleda by this time desired immensely to keep his companion, but she saw she could do so only at the cost of provoking on his part a further exhibition of the sheltering att.i.tude, which he exaggerated precisely because it was the first thing, since he had begun to "like" her, that he had been able frankly to do for her. It was not in her interest that Mrs. Brigstock should be more struck than she already was with that benevolence. "There may be things you know that I don"t," she presently said to her, with a smile. "But I"ve a sort of sense that you"re laboring under some great mistake."
Mrs. Brigstock, at this, looked into her eyes more deeply and yearningly than she had supposed Mrs. Brigstock could look; it was the flicker of a certain willingness to give her a chance. Owen, however, quickly spoiled everything. "Nothing is more probable than that Mrs. Brigstock is doing what you say; but there"s no one in the world to whom you owe an explanation. I may owe somebody one--I dare say I do; but not you, no!"
"But what if there"s one that it"s no difficulty at all for me to give?"
Fleda inquired. "I"m sure that"s the only one Mrs. Brigstock came to ask, if she came to ask any at all."
Again the good lady looked hard at her young hostess. "I came, I believe, Fleda, just, you know, to plead with you."
Fleda, with a bright face, hesitated a moment. "As if I were one of those bad women in a play?"
The remark was disastrous. Mrs. Brigstock, on whom her brightness was lost, evidently thought it singularly free. She turned away, as from a presence that had really defined itself as objectionable, and Fleda had a vain sense that her good humor, in which there was an idea, was taken for impertinence, or at least for levity. Her allusion was improper, even if she herself wasn"t; Mrs. Brigstock"s emotion simplified: it came to the same thing. "I"m quite ready," that lady said to Owen rather mildly and woundedly. "I do want to speak to you very much."
"I"m completely at your service." Owen held out his hand to Fleda.
"Good-bye, Miss Vetch. I hope to see you again to-morrow." He opened the door for Mrs. Brigstock, who pa.s.sed before the girl with an oblique, averted salutation. Owen and Fleda, while he stood at the door, then faced each other darkly and without speaking. Their eyes met once more for a long moment, and she was conscious there was something in hers that the darkness didn"t quench, that he had never seen before and that he was perhaps never to see again. He stayed long enough to take it--to take it with a sombre stare that just showed the dawn of wonder; then he followed Mrs. Brigstock out of the house.
XVI
He had uttered the hope that he should see her the next day, but Fleda could easily reflect that he wouldn"t see her if she were not there to be seen. If there was a thing in the world she desired at that moment, it was that the next day should have no point of resemblance with the day that had just elapsed. She accordingly aspired to an absence: she would go immediately down to Maggie. She ran out that evening and telegraphed to her sister, and in the morning she quitted London by an early train. She required for this step no reason but the sense of necessity. It was a strong personal need; she wished to interpose something, and there was nothing she could interpose but distance, but time. If Mrs. Brigstock had to deal with Owen she would allow Mrs.
Brigstock the chance. To be there, to be in the midst of it, was the reverse of what she craved: she had already been more in the midst of it than had ever entered into her plan. At any rate she had renounced her plan; she had no plan now but the plan of separation. This was to abandon Owen, to give up the fine office of helping him back to his own; but when she had undertaken that office she had not foreseen that Mrs.
Gereth would defeat it by a manoeuvre so simple. The scene at her father"s rooms had extinguished all offices, and the scene at her father"s rooms was of Mrs. Gereth"s producing. Owen, at all events, must now act for himself: he had obligations to meet, he had satisfactions to give, and Fleda fairly ached with the wish that he might be equal to them. She never knew the extent of her tenderness for him till she became conscious of the present force of her desire that he should be superior, be perhaps even sublime. She obscurely made out that superiority, that sublimity, mightn"t after all be fatal. She closed her eyes and lived for a day or two in the mere beauty of confidence. It was with her on the short journey; it was with her at Maggie"s; it glorified the mean little house in the stupid little town. Owen had grown larger to her: he would do, like a man, whatever he should have to do. He wouldn"t be weak--not as she was: she herself was weak exceedingly.
Arranging her few possessions in Maggie"s fewer receptacles, she caught a glimpse of the bright side of the fact that her old things were not such a problem as Mrs. Gereth"s. Picking her way with Maggie through the local puddles, diving with her into smelly cottages and supporting her, at smellier shops, in firmness over the weight of joints and the taste of cheese, it was still her own secret that was universally inter-woven In the puddles, the cottages, the shops she was comfortably alone with it; that comfort prevailed even while, at the evening meal, her brother-in-law invited her attention to a diagram, drawn with a fork on too soiled a tablecloth, of the scandalous drains of the Convalescent Home. To be alone with it she had come away from Ricks; and now she knew that to be alone with it she had come away from London. This advantage was of course menaced, but not immediately destroyed, by the arrival, on the second day, of the note she had been sure she should receive from Owen. He had gone to West Kensington and found her flown, but he had got her address from the little maid and then hurried to a club and written to her. "Why have you left me just when I want you most?" he demanded.
The next words, it was true, were more rea.s.suring on the question of his steadiness. "I don"t know what your reason may be," they went on, "nor why you"ve not left a line for me; but I don"t think you can feel that I did anything yesterday that it wasn"t right for me to do. As regards Mrs. Brigstock, certainly, I just felt what was right and I did it. She had no business whatever to attack you that way, and I should have been ashamed if I had left her there to worry you. I won"t have you worried by any one; no one shall be disagreeable to you but me. I didn"t mean to be so yesterday, and I don"t to-day; but I"m perfectly free now to want you, and I want you much more than you"ve allowed me to explain. You"ll see if I"m not all right, if you"ll let me come to you. Don"t be afraid--I"ll not hurt you nor trouble you. I give you my honor I"ll not hurt any one. Only I _must_ see you, on what I had to say to Mrs. B. She was nastier than I thought she could be, but I"m behaving like an angel.
I a.s.sure you I"m all right--that"s exactly what I want you to see. You owe me something, you know, for what you said you would do and haven"t done; what your departure without a word gives me to understand--doesn"t it?--that you definitely can"t do. Don"t simply forsake me. See me, if you only see me once. I shan"t wait for any leave--I shall come down to-morrow. I"ve been looking into trains and find there"s something that will bring me down just after lunch and something very good for getting me back. I won"t stop long. For G.o.d"s sake, be there."
This communication arrived in the morning, but Fleda would still have had time to wire a protest. She debated on that alternative; then she read the note over and found in one phrase an exact statement of her duty. Owen"s simplicity had expressed it, and her subtlety had nothing to answer. She owed him something for her obvious failure, and what she owed him was to receive him. If indeed she had known he would make this attempt she might have been held to have gained nothing by her flight.
Well, she had gained what she had gained--she had gained the interval.
She had no compunction for the greater trouble she should give the young man; it was now doubtless right that he should have as much trouble as possible. Maggie, who thought she was in her confidence, but was immensely not, had reproached her for having left Mrs. Gereth, and Maggie was just in this proportion gratified to hear of the visitor with whom, early in the afternoon, she would have to ask to be left alone.
Maggie liked to see far, and now she could sit upstairs and rake the whole future. She had known that, as she familiarly said, there was something the matter with Fleda, and the value of that knowledge was augmented by the fact that there was apparently also something the matter with Mr. Gereth.
Fleda, downstairs, learned soon enough what this was. It was simply that, as he announced the moment he stood before her, he was now all right. When she asked him what he meant by that state he replied that he meant he could practically regard himself henceforth as a free man: he had had at West Kensington, as soon as they got into the street, such a horrid scene with Mrs. Brigstock.
"I knew what she wanted to say to me: that"s why I was determined to get her off. I knew I shouldn"t like it, but I was perfectly prepared," said Owen. "She brought it out as soon as we got round the corner; she asked me point-blank if I was in love with you."
"And what did you say to that?"
"That it was none of her business."
"Ah," said Fleda, "I"m not so sure!"
"Well, _I_ am, and I"m the person most concerned. Of course I didn"t use just those words: I was perfectly civil, quite as civil as she. But I told her I didn"t consider she had a right to put me any such question.
I said I wasn"t sure that even Mona had, with the extraordinary line, you know, that Mona has taken. At any rate the whole thing, the way _I_ put it, was between Mona and me; and between Mona and me, if she didn"t mind, it would just have to remain."
Fleda was silent a little. "All that didn"t answer her question."
"Then you think I ought to have told her?"
Again our young lady reflected. "I think I"m rather glad you didn"t."
"I knew what I was about," said Owen. "It didn"t strike me that she had the least right to come down on us that way and ask for explanations."
Fleda looked very grave, weighing the whole matter. "I dare say that when she started, when she arrived, she didn"t mean to "come down.""
"What then did she mean to do?"
"What she said to me just before she went: she meant to plead with me."
"Oh, I heard her!" said Owen. "But plead with you for what?"
"For you, of course--to entreat me to give you up. She thinks me awfully designing--that I"ve taken some sort of possession of you."
Owen stared. "You haven"t lifted a finger! It"s I who have taken possession."
"Very true, you"ve done it all yourself." Fleda spoke gravely and gently, without a breath of coquetry. "But those are shades between which she"s probably not obliged to distinguish. It"s enough for her that we"re singularly intimate."
"I am, but you"re not!" Owen exclaimed.
Fleda gave a dim smile. "You make me at least feel that I"m learning to know you very well when I hear you say such a thing as that. Mrs.
Brigstock came to get round me, to supplicate me," she went on; "but to find you there, looking so much at home, paying me a friendly call and shoving the tea-things about--that was too much for her patience. She doesn"t know, you see, that I"m after all a decent girl. She simply made up her mind on the spot that I"m a very bad case."
"I couldn"t stand the way she treated you, and that was what I had to say to her," Owen returned.
"She"s simple and slow, but she"s not a fool: I think she treated me, on the whole, very well." Fleda remembered how Mrs. Gereth had treated Mona when the Brigstocks came down to Poynton.
Owen evidently thought her painfully perverse. "It was you who carried it off; you behaved like a brick. And so did I, I consider. If you only knew the difficulty I had! I told her you were the n.o.blest and straightest of women."