"That"s just your father"s way," exclaimed Mrs. Emery, who had not her daughter"s fondness for the Judge"s tricks of speech.
"He lives as no Dago ditch-digger with a particle of get-up-and-get in him would be willing to," said Judge Emery finally.
Lydia turned to her mother.
"Why, it"s nothing that would interest you in the least, dear," said the matron, taking in admiringly Lydia"s French dress. "Only for a little while everybody was talking about how strangely he acted. He was an insurance man, like Marietta"s husband, and getting on finely, when all of a sudden, for no reason on earth, he threw it all up and went to live in the woods. Do you mean to say you only paid twenty dollars for that dress?"
"In the woods!" repeated Lydia.
"Yes; the real woods. His father was a farmer, and left him--why you know, you"ve been there ever so many times--the Black Rock woods, the picnic woods. He has built him a little hut there and makes his furniture out of the trees."
Lydia"s pa.s.sing curiosity had faded. "Not quite twenty, even--only ninety-two francs," she at last answered her mother"s question. "You never saw anything like the bargains there in summertime. Well, I should think your carpenter man _was_ crazy." She glanced down with satisfaction at the hang of her skirt.
"Oh, not dangerous," her mother rea.s.sured her; "just socialistic, I suppose, and all that sort of thing."
"Well, who"s crazier than a socialist?" cried her father genially. He added, "Where are you going, Daughter?"
Lydia stopped in the doorway, with a look of apology for her lack of interest in their talk. "I thought I"d just slip into the hall and see if there"s anything new there. There"s so much I want to see--all at once."
Her fond impatience brought her parents forward with a start of pleasure, and the tour of inspection began. She led them from one room to another, swooping with swallow-like motions upon them for sudden caresses, dazzling them with her changing grace. She liked it all--all--she told them, a thousand times better than she remembered.
She liked the new arrangement of the butler"s pantry; she loved the library for being all done over new; she adored the hall for being left exactly the way it was. The dining-room was the best of all, she declared, with so much that was familiar and so much that was new. "Only no sideboard," she commented. "Have they gone out of fashion while I was away?"
Mrs. Emery, whose delight at Lydia"s approval had been mounting with every breath, looked vexed. "I knew you"d notice that!" she said. "We tried so hard to get the new one put in before you got back, but Mr.
Rankin won"t deliver a thing till it"s just so!"
"Rankin!" cried Lydia, stopping so short in one of her headlong rushes across the room that she gave the impression of having encountered an invisible obstacle, "Who"s that?"
"Oh, that"s the crazy cabinet-maker we were talking about. The one who--"
"Why, I"ve met a Mr. Rankin," said Lydia, with more emphasis than the statement seemed to warrant.
"It"s a common enough name," said her mother, struck oddly by her accent.
"But here, in Endbury. Only it can"t be the same person. He wasn"t queer; he was awfully nice. I met him once when a crowd of us were out skating that last Christmas I was home from school; the time when you and Father were in Washington and left me at Dr. Melton"s with Aunt Julia. I used to see him there a lot. He used to talk to the doctor by the hour, and Aunt Julia and I were doing that set of doilies in Hardanger work and we used to sit and sew and count threads and listen."
"That"s the one," said her father. "Melton has one of his flighty notions that the man is something wonderful."
"But he wasn"t queer or anything then!" protested Lydia. "He never talked to me any, of course, I was such a kid, but it was awfully interesting to hear him and G.o.dfather go on about morals, and the universe, and the future of man, and such--I never heard such talk before or after--but it can"t be that one!" Lydia broke off to marvel incredulously at the possibility. "He was--why, he was awfully nice!"
she fell back on reiteration to help out her affirmation.
"They say there"s queer blood in the family, and I guess he"s got his share," Judge Emery summed up and dismissed the case with a gesture of finality. He glanced up at a tall clock standing in the corner, compared its time with his watch, exclaimed impatiently, "Slow again!" and addressed himself with a householder"s seriousness to setting it right.
A new aspect of the matter they had been discussing struck Lydia. "But what does he--what do people do about him?" she asked.
This misty inquiry was as intelligible to her mother as a cipher to the holders of a key. "Oh, he"s very nice about that. He has dropped out of society completely and keeps out of everybody"s way. Of course you see him when he comes to set up a piece of his furniture or to take an order, but that"s all. And he used to be so popular!" The regret in the last clause was that of a thrifty person before waste of any kind. "I understand he still goes to Dr. Melton"s a good deal, but that just counts him in as one of the doctor"s collection of freaks; it doesn"t mean anything. You know how your G.o.dfather goes on about--" She broke off to look out the window. "Oh, Lydia! your trunks are here. Quick!
where are your keys? It seems as though I couldn"t wait to see your dresses!" She hurried to the door and vanished.
Lydia did not stir for a moment. She was looking down at the table, absorbed in watching the dim reflections of her pink finger-tips as she pressed them one after another upon the dark polished wood. Her father opened the door of the clock with a little click, but she did not heed it. She drew her hand away from the table and inspected her finger-tips intently, as though to detect some change in them. When her father closed the clock-door and turned away she started, as though she had forgotten his presence. Her gaze upon him gave him an odd feeling of wonder, which he took to be apologetic realization that he had spent a longer time oblivious of her than he had meant. His explanation had a little compunction in it. "I have a time with that pendulum always. I can"t seem to get it the right length!"
Lydia continued to look at him blankly for a moment. Then she drew a long breath and took an aimless step away from the table. "Well, if that isn"t too queer for anything!" she exclaimed.
Judge Emery stared. "Why, no; it"s quite common in pendulum clocks," he told her.
CHAPTER IV
THE DAWN
The morning after her return from Europe, Lydia awoke with a start, as though in answer to a call. The confusion of the last days had been such that she had for a moment the not uncommon experience of an entire blankness as to her whereabouts and ident.i.ty. Realization of where and who she was came back to her with much more than the usual neutral relief at slipping into one"s own personality as into the first protection available against the vague horror of nihility. After an instant"s uncomfortable wandering in chaos, Lydia found herself with a thrill of exultation. She was not negatively relieved that she was somebody; she rejoiced to find herself Lydia Emery. She pounced on her own personality with a positive joy which for a moment moved her to a devout thanksgiving.
It all seemed, as she said to herself, too good to be true--certainly more than she deserved. Among her unmerited blessings she quaintly placed being herself, but this was the less nave in that she placed among her blessings nearly everything of which she was conscious in her world. Her world at this time was not a large one, and every element in it seemed to her ideal. Her loving, indulgent father, who always had a smile for her as he looked up over his newspaper at the table, and who, though she knew he was too good to be wealthy, always managed somehow to pay for dresses just a little prettier than other girls" clothes; her devoted, idolizing mother, whose one thought was for her daughter"s pleasure; her rich big Brother George in Cleveland, whom she saw so seldom, but whose handsome presents testified to an affection that was to be numbered among the objects of her grat.i.tude; good, sharp-tongued Sister Etta, who said such quick, bright things and ran her house so wonderfully; Aunt Julia, dear, dear Aunt Julia, whose warm heart was one of Lydia"s happiest homes, and Aunt Julia"s brother, Dr. Melton--ah, how could anyone be grateful enough for such an all-comprehending, quick-helping, ever-ready ally, teacher, mentor, playmate, friend and comrade as her G.o.dfather!
As she lay in her soft white bed and looked about her pretty room with an ineffable sense of well-being, it seemed to her that everything that had happened to her was lovely and that the prospect of her future could contain only a crescendo of good-fortune. It was not that she imagined for herself a future remarkably different in detail from what was the past of the people about her. Even now at what she felt was the beginning of the first chapter, she knew the general events of the story before her; but this morning she was penetrated with the keenest sense of the unfathomable difference it made in those events in that they were about to happen to her. She had been pa.s.sively watching the excited faces of people hurling themselves down-hill on toboggans, but now she was herself poised on the crest of the slope, tense with an excitement not only more real, but somehow more vital to the scheme of things, than that felt by other people who had made the thrilling trip before her.
She lay still for a few moments, luxuriating in the innocent egotism of this view of her future, which was none the less absorbing for being so entirely unterrifying, and then sprang up, impatient to begin it. No one else in the house was awake. She saw with surprise that it was barely five o"clock. She wondered that she felt so little sleepy, since she had been up late the night before. All the family and connections had gathered, and she had talked with an eager breathlessness and had listened as eagerly to pick up all those details of home news which do not go into letters; those insignificant changes and events that make up the physiognomy of an existence, without which one cannot again become an integral part of a life once familiar. It had been a fatiguing, illuminating evening.
A change of mood had come in the night. As she dressed she felt that, in some way, neither the fatigue nor the illumination had lasted on through the blankness of her sound young sleep. She felt restlessly fresh and vigorous, like a creature born anew with the morning light, and she did not feel herself as yet an integral part of the busy, absorbing life to which she had returned. The countless tendrils of Endbury feelings, standards, activities, brushed against her, but had not as yet laid hold on her. Europe had never been more real to her young-lady eyes than an immense World"s Exposition, rather overwhelmingly full of objects to be inspected, and now, here in Ohio, even that impression was dim and remote. But so, also, was Endbury; she had left the one, she had not yet arrived at the other. She felt herself for the moment in a neutral territory that was scarcely terrestrial.
The silent house was a kingdom of delight to be rediscovered. She wandered about it, enchanted with the impressions which her solitude gave her leisure to savor and digest. She threw open a window, and was struck with the sweet freshness of the morning air, as though it were a joy new in the history of the world. She looked out on the lawn, with its dew-studded cobwebs, and felt her heart contract with pleasure. When she stepped out on the veranda, the look of the trees, the breath of the light wind across her cheek, the odor of dawn, all the indefinable personality of that early hour was like an enchantment about her.
She ran out to her favorite arbor and plucked one of the heavy cl.u.s.ters of purple grapes, finding their cool acidity an exquisite surprise. She raised her face to the sky with wonder. She had never, it seemed to her, seen so pure yet colorful a sky. The horizon was still faintly flushed with the promise of a dawn already fulfilled in the fresh splendor of the sunbeams slanting across the fresh splendor of her own youth.
Never again did Lydia see the things she saw that morning. Never again did she have so unquestioningly the happy child"s conception of the whole world as magically centered in indulgent kindness about herself.
As she looked up the clean, empty street stretching away under the shade of its thrifty young trees, it seemed made only to lead her forward into the life for which she had been so long preparing herself. Endbury, with its shops, its bustle of factories so unmeaning to her, the great bulk of its inexplicable "business," existed only as the theater upon the stage of which she was to play the leading role in the drama of life--she almost consciously thought of it in those terms--which, after some exciting and pleasurable incidents and a few thrilling situations, was to have a happy ending, none the less actual to her mind because lost in so vague a golden shimmer. Her father"s house, as familiar to her as her hand, took on a new and rich dignity as the background for the unfolding of that wonderful creature, herself; that unknown, future, grown-up self, which was to be all that everyone who loved her expected, and more than she in her inexperience knew how to expect.
She was in a little heaven, made up of the most ingenuous aspirations, the innocence of which seemed to her a guarantee of their certain fulfillment. Her fervent desire to be good was equal to and of the same quality as her desire to be a successful debutante. It would make her family so happy to have her both. These somewhat widely diverging aims were all a part of the current of her life, the impulse to be what those she loved would like to have her. It was not that she was willing to give up her own individuality to gratify the impulse, but rather that she did not for an instant conceive of the necessity for such a sacrifice. It was part of her immense happiness that she had always loved to be what it pleased everyone to have her, and that, apparently, people wished to have her only what she wished to be. She was like a child guarded by her elders from any knowledge of forbidden food. All the goodies of which she had ever heard were hers for the asking. In such a carefully arranged nursery it would be perversity to doubt the everlasting quality of the coincidence between one"s desires and one"s obedience. It was no more remarkable a coincidence than that both dew and sunshine were good for the gra.s.s over which she now ran lightly to another corner of the grounds about her parents" house. Here, just outside the circle of deep shade cast by an exuberantly leaved maple, she stood for a moment, her hands full of grapes, her eyes wandering about the green, well-kept double acres called diversely in the family "the grounds" (Mrs. Emery"s name) and "the yard." Lydia always clung to her father"s name; she had very little inborn feeling for the finer shades of her mother"s vocabulary. Mrs. Emery rejoiced in the careless unconsciousness of the importance of such details, but she felt that Lydia should be cautioned against going too far. It was one of the girl"s odd ways to be fond of the few phrases left over in the Emery dictionary from their simpler earlier days. She always called the two servants "the girls" or "the help" instead of "the maids," spoke of the "washwoman" instead of the "laundress," and, as did her father, called the man who took care of the grounds, ran the furnace, and drove the Emery"s comfortable surrey, the "hired man" instead of the "gardener" or the "coachman," or, in Mrs. Emery"s elegantly indefinite phrase, "our man."
Lydia explained this whimsical reaction rather incoherently by saying that those nice old words were so much more fun than the others, and in spite of remonstrance she clung to her fancy with so lightly laughing an obstinacy that neither she nor anyone suspected it of being a surface indication of a significant tendency.
She had occasionally other droll little ways of differing from the family, which were called indulgently "Lydia"s notions." Her mother would certainly have thus named this flight out into the early morning.
She would have found extravagant, and a little disconcerting, the completeness of Lydia"s content in so simple a thing as standing in the first sunshine of an early morning in September, and she would have been unquestionably disturbed, perhaps even a little alarmed, by the beatific expression of Lydia"s face as she gazed fixedly up into the sky, the tempered radiance of which was as yet not too bright for her clear gaze.
All the restless joy of a few minutes before, which had driven her about from one delight to another, fused under the sun"s first warmth into a trance-like quiet. She stood still in the sunshine, a slow flush, like a reflection of dawn, rising to her cheeks, her lips parted, her eyes bright and vacant. An old person coming upon her at this moment would have been painfully moved by that tragic pity which age feels for the unreasoning joy of youth. She looked a child, open-eyed and breathless before the fleeting beauties of a bubble, most iridescent when about to disappear.
It was a man by no means old who swung suddenly into sight around the corner, walking swiftly and noiselessly upon the close-cut gra.s.s, and the startled expression with which he found himself close to Lydia was by no means one of pity. He fell back a step, and in the instant before the girl was aware of his presence his gaze upon her was that of a man dazzled by an incredible vision.
She brought her eyes down to him, and for the s.p.a.ce of a breath the expression was hers as well. The sunlight glowing about them seemed the reflection of their faces. Then, for a moment longer, though mutual recognition flashed into their eyes, they did not speak, looking at each other long and seriously.
Finally, with a nymph-like stir of all her slender body, Lydia roused herself. "Well, I can speak--can you?" she asked whimsically. "Don"t you remember me?"
The man drew a long breath and took off his cap, showing close-cropped auburn hair gleaming, like his beard, red in the sun. "You took my breath away!" he exclaimed.
"What was the matter with me?" asked Lydia, prettily confident of a compliment to follow.
It came in so much less direct a form than she had expected that before she recognized it she had returned it with nave impulsiveness.