"Oh, never mind," I said crossly--for I felt that Peter HAD disgraced us--"She"s just mad--and no wonder. Whatever made you act so crazy, Peter?"
"Well, I didn"t mean to. And I wanted to laugh twice before that and DIDN"T. It was the Story Girl"s stories made me want to laugh, so I don"t think it"s fair for her to be mad at me. She hadn"t ought to tell me stories about people if she don"t want me to laugh when I see them.
When I looked at Samuel Ward I thought of him getting up in meeting one night, and praying that he might be guided in his upsetting and downrising. I remembered the way she took him off, and I wanted to laugh. And then I looked at the pulpit and thought of the story she told about the old Scotch minister who was too fat to get in at the door of it, and had to h"ist himself by his two hands over it, and then whispered to the other minister so that everybody heard him.
""_This pulpit door was made for speerits_"--and I wanted to laugh.
And then Mr. Frewen come--and I thought of her story about his sidewhiskers--how when his first wife died of information of the lungs he went courting Celia Ward, and Celia told him she wouldn"t marry him unless he shaved them whiskers off. And he wouldn"t, just to be stubborn. And one day one of them caught fire, when he was burning brush, and burned off, and every one thought he"d HAVE to shave the other off then. But he didn"t and just went round with one whisker till the burned one grew out. And then Celia gave in and took him, because she saw there wasn"t no hope of HIM ever giving in. I just remembered that story, and I thought I could see him, taking up the cents so solemn, with one long whisker; and the laugh just laughed itself before I could help it."
We all exploded with laughter on the spot, much to the horror of Mrs.
Abraham Ward, who was just driving past, and who came up the next day and told Aunt Janet we had "acted scandalous" on the road home from church. We felt ashamed ourselves, because we knew people should conduct themselves decently and in order on Sunday farings-forth. But, as with Peter, it "had laughed itself."
Even Felicity laughed. Felicity was not nearly so angry with Peter as might have been expected. She even walked beside him and let him carry her Bible. They talked quite confidentially. Perhaps she forgave him the more easily, because he had justified her in her predictions, and thus afforded her a decided triumph over the Story Girl.
"I"m going to keep on going to church," Peter told her. "I like it.
Sermons are more int"resting than I thought, and I like the singing.
I wish I could make up my mind whether to be a Presbyterian or a Methodist. I s"pose I might ask the ministers about it."
"Oh, no, no, don"t do that," said Felicity in alarm. "Ministers wouldn"t want to be bothered with such questions."
"Why not? What are ministers for if they ain"t to tell people how to get to heaven?"
"Oh, well, it"s all right for grown-ups to ask them things, of course.
But it isn"t respectful for little boys--especially hired boys."
"I don"t see why. But anyhow, I s"pose it wouldn"t be much use, because if he was a Presbyterian minister he"d say I ought to be a Presbyterian, and if he was a Methodist he"d tell me to be one, too. Look here, Felicity, what IS the difference between them?"
"I--I don"t know," said Felicity reluctantly. "I s"pose children can"t understand such things. There must be a great deal of difference, of course, if we only knew what it was. Anyhow, I am a Presbyterian, and I"m glad of it."
We walked on in silence for a time, thinking our own young thoughts.
Presently they were scattered by an abrupt and startling question from Peter.
"What does G.o.d look like?" he said.
It appeared that none of us had any idea.
"The Story Girl would prob"ly know," said Cecily.
"I wish I knew," said Peter gravely. "I wish I could see a picture of G.o.d. It would make Him seem lots more real."
"I"ve often wondered myself what he looks like," said Felicity in a burst of confidence. Even in Felicity, so it would seem, there were depths of thought unplumbed.
"I"ve seen pictures of Jesus," said Felix meditatively. "He looks just like a man, only better and kinder. But now that I come to think of it, I"ve never seen a picture of G.o.d."
"Well, if there isn"t one in Toronto it isn"t likely there"s one anywhere," said Peter disappointedly. "I saw a picture of the devil once," he added. "It was in a book my Aunt Jane had. She got it for a prize in school. My Aunt Jane was clever."
"It couldn"t have been a very good book if there was such a picture in it," said Felicity.
"It was a real good book. My Aunt Jane wouldn"t have a book that wasn"t good," retorted Peter sulkily.
He refused to discuss the subject further, somewhat to our disappointment. For we had never seen a picture of the person referred to, and we were rather curious regarding it.
"We"ll ask Peter to describe it sometime when he"s in a better humour,"
whispered Felix.
Sara Ray having turned in at her own gate, I ran ahead to join the Story Girl, and we walked up the hill together. She had recovered her calmness of mind, but she made no reference to Peter. When we reached our lane and pa.s.sed under Grandfather King"s big willow the fragrance of the orchard struck us in the face like a wave. We could see the long rows of trees, a white gladness in the moonshine. It seemed to us that there was in the orchard something different from other orchards that we had known. We were too young to a.n.a.lyze the vague sensation. In later years we were to understand that it was because the orchard blossomed not only apple blossoms but all the love, faith, joy, pure happiness and pure sorrow of those who had made it and walked there.
"The orchard doesn"t seem the same place by moonlight at all," said the Story Girl dreamily. "It"s lovely, but it"s different. When I was very small I used to believe the fairies danced in it on moonlight nights. I would like to believe it now but I can"t."
"Why not?"
"Oh, it"s so hard to believe things you know are not true. It was Uncle Edward who told me there were no such things as fairies. I was just seven. He is a minister, so of course I knew he spoke the truth. It was his duty to tell me, and I do not blame him, but I have never felt quite the same to Uncle Edward since."
Ah, do we ever "feel quite the same" towards people who destroy our illusions? Shall I ever be able to forgive the brutal creature who first told me there was no such person as Santa Claus? He was a boy, three years older than myself; and he may now, for aught I know, be a most useful and respectable member of society, beloved by his kind. But I know what he must ever seem to me!
We waited at Uncle Alec"s door for the others to come up. Peter was by way of skulking shamefacedly past into the shadows; but the Story Girl"s brief, bitter anger had vanished.
"Wait for me, Peter," she called.
She went over to him and held out her hand.
"I forgive you," she said graciously.
Felix and I felt that it would really be worth while to offend her, just to be forgiven in such an adorable voice. Peter eagerly grasped her hand.
"I tell you what, Story Girl, I"m awfully sorry I laughed in church, but you needn"t be afraid I ever will again. No, sir! And I"m going to church and Sunday School regular, and I"ll say my prayers every night. I want to be like the rest of you. And look here! I"ve thought of the way my Aunt Jane used to give medicine to a cat. You mix the powder in lard, and spread it on his paws and his sides and he"ll lick it off, "cause a cat can"t stand being messy. If Paddy isn"t any better to-morrow, we"ll do that."
They went away together hand in hand, children-wise, up the lane of spruces crossed with bars of moonlight. And there was peace over all that fresh and flowery land, and peace in our little hearts.
CHAPTER VI. THE MYSTERY OF GOLDEN MILESTONE
Paddy was smeared with medicated lard the next day, all of us a.s.sisting at the rite, although the Story Girl was high priestess. Then, out of regard for mats and cushions, he was kept in durance vile in the granary until he had licked his fur clean. This treatment being repeated every day for a week, Pat recovered his usual health and spirits, and our minds were set at rest to enjoy the next excitement--collecting for a school library fund.
Our teacher thought it would be an excellent thing to have a library in connection with the school; and he suggested that each of the pupils should try to see how much money he or she could raise for the project during the month of June. We might earn it by honest toil, or gather it in by contributions levied on our friends.
The result was a determined rivalry as to which pupil should collect the largest sum; and this rivalry was especially intense in our home coterie.
Our relatives started us with a quarter apiece. For the rest, we knew we must depend on our own exertions. Peter was handicapped at the beginning by the fact that he had no family friend to finance him.
"If my Aunt Jane"d been living she"d have given me something," he remarked. "And if my father hadn"t run away he might have given me something too. But I"m going to do the best I can anyhow. Your Aunt Olivia says I can have the job of gathering the eggs, and I"m to have one egg out of every dozen to sell for myself."
Felicity made a similar bargain with her mother. The Story Girl and Cecily were each to be paid ten cents a week for washing dishes in their respective homes. Felix and Dan contracted to keep the gardens free from weeds. I caught brook trout in the westering valley of spruces and sold them for a cent apiece.
Sara Ray was the only unhappy one among us. She could do nothing. She had no relatives in Carlisle except her mother, and her mother did not approve of the school library project, and would not give Sara a cent, or put her in any way of earning one. To Sara, this was humiliation indescribable. She felt herself an outcast and an alien to our busy little circle, where each member counted every day, with miserly delight, his slowly increasing h.o.a.rd of small cash.
"I"m just going to pray to G.o.d to send me some money," she announced desperately at last.
"I don"t believe that will do any good," said Dan. "He gives lots of things, but he doesn"t give money, because people can earn that for themselves."