"I"ll see."
"You must. I want you to reserve your whole strength for the drama.
That"s your true vocation, and it would be a sin for you to turn to the right or left." He continued silent, and she went on: "Are you still thinking about our sc.r.a.p this morning? Well, then, I"ll promise never to begin it again. Will that do?"
"Oh, I don"t know that you began it. And I wasn"t thinking--I was thinking of an idea for a play--the eventuation of good in evil--love evolving in hate."
"That will be grand, if you can work it out. And now you see, don"t you, that there is some use in squabbling, even?"
"I suppose nothing is lost," said Maxwell. He took out his pocket-book, and folded G.o.dolphin"s check into it.
XII.
A week later there came another letter from G.o.dolphin. It was very civil, and in its general text it did not bear out the promise of severity in its change of address to _Dear Sir_, from the _Dear Mr.
Maxwell_ of the earlier date.
It conveyed, in as kindly terms as could have been asked, a fact which no terms could have flattered into acceptability.
G.o.dolphin wrote, after trying the play two nights and a matinee in Chicago, to tell the author that he had withdrawn it because its failure had not been a failure in the usual sense but had been a grievous collapse, which left him no hopes that it would revive in the public favor if it were kept on. Maxwell would be able to judge, he said, from the newspapers he sent, of the view the critics had taken of the piece; but this would not have mattered at all if it had not been the view of the public, too. He said he would not pain Maxwell by repeating the opinions which he had borne the brunt of alone; but they were such as to satisfy him fully and finally that he had been mistaken in supposing there was a part for him in the piece. He begged to return it to _Maxwell_, and he ventured to send his prompt-book with the original ma.n.u.script, which might facilitate his getting the play into other hands.
The parcel was brought in by express while they were sitting in the dismay caused by the letter, and took from them the hope that G.o.dolphin might have written from a mood and changed his mind before sending back the piece. Neither of them had the nerve to open the parcel, which lay upon Maxwell"s desk, very much sealed and tied and labelled, diffusing a faint smell of horses, as express packages mostly do, through the room.
Maxwell found strength, if not heart, to speak first. "I suppose I am to blame for not going to Chicago for the rehearsals." Louise said she did not see what that could have done to keep the play from failing, and he answered that it might have kept G.o.dolphin from losing courage. "You see, he says he had to take the brunt of public opinion _alone_. He was sore about that."
"Oh, well, if he is so weak as that, and would have had to be bolstered up all along, you are well rid of him."
"I am certainly rid of him," Maxwell partially a.s.sented, and they both lapsed into silence again. Even Louise could not talk. They were as if stunned by the blow that had fallen on them, as all such blows fall, when it was least expected, and it seemed to the victims as if they were least able to bear it. In fact, it was a cruel reverse from the happiness they had enjoyed since G.o.dolphin"s check came, and although Maxwell had said that they must not count upon anything from him, except from hour to hour, his words conveyed a doubt that he felt no more than Louise. Now his gloomy wisdom was justified by a perfidy which she could paint in no colors that seemed black enough. Perhaps the want of these was what kept her mute at first; even when she began to talk she could only express her disdain by urging her husband to send back G.o.dolphin"s check to him. "We want nothing more to do with such a man. If he felt no obligation to keep faith with you, it"s the same as if he had sent that money out of charity."
"Yes, I have thought of that," said Maxwell. "But I guess I shall keep the money. He may regard the whole transaction as child"s play; but I don"t, and I never did. I worked very hard on the piece, and at the rates for s.p.a.ce-work, merely, I earned his money and a great deal more.
If I can ever do anything with it, I shall be only too glad to give him his three hundred dollars again."
She could see that he had already gathered spirit for new endeavor with the play, and her heart yearned upon him in pride and fondness. "Oh, you dear! What do you intend to do next?"
"I shall try the managers."
"Brice!" she cried in utter admiration.
He rose and said, as he took up the express package, and gave G.o.dolphin"s letter a contemptuous push with his hand, "You can gather up this spilt milk. Put it away somewhere; I don"t want to see it or think of it again." He cut open the package, and found the prompt-book, which he laid aside, while he looked to see if his own copy of the play were all there.
"You are going to begin at once?" gasped Louise.
"This instant," he said. "It will be slow enough work at the best, and we mustn"t lose time. I shall probably have to go the rounds of all the managers, but I am not going to stop till I have gone the rounds. I shall begin with the highest, and I sha"n"t stop till I reach the lowest."
"But when? How? You haven"t thought it out."
"Yes, I have. I have been thinking it out ever since I got the play into G.o.dolphin"s hands. I haven"t been at peace about him since that day when he renounced me in Magnolia, and certainly till we got his check there has been nothing in his performance to restore my confidence. Come, now, Louise, you mustn"t stop me, dear," he said, for she was beginning to cling about him. "I shall be back for lunch, and then we can talk over what I have begun to do. If I began to talk of it before, I should lose all heart for it. Kiss me good luck!"
She kissed him enough for all the luck in the world, and then he got himself out of her arms while she still hardly knew what to make of it all. He was half-way down the house-stairs, when her eye fell on the prompt-book. She caught it up and ran out upon the landing, and screamed down after him, "Brice, Brice! You"ve forgotten something."
He came flying back, breathless, and she held the book out to him. "Oh, I don"t want that," he panted, "It would damage the play with a manager to know that G.o.dolphin had rejected it."
"But do you think it would be quite right--quite frank--to let him take it without telling him?"
"It will be right to show it him without telling him. It will be time enough to tell him if he likes it."
"That is true," she a.s.sented, and then she kissed him again and let him go; he stood a step below her, and she had to stoop a good deal; but she went in doors, looking up to him as if he were a whole flight of steps above her, and saying to herself that he had always been so good and wise that she must now simply trust him in everything.
Louise still had it on her conscience to offer Maxwell reparation for the wrong she thought she had done him when she had once decided that he was too self-seeking and self-centred, and had potentially rejected him on that ground. The first thing she did after they became engaged was to confess the wrong, and give him a chance to cast her off if he wished; but this never seemed quite reparation enough, perhaps because he laughed and said that she was perfectly right about him, and must take him with those faults or not at all. She now entered upon a long, delightful review of his behavior ever since that moment, and she found that, although he was certainly as self-centred as she had ever thought or he had owned himself to be, self-seeking he was not, in any mean or greedy sense. She perceived that his self-seeking, now, at least, was as much for her sake as his own, and that it was really after all not self-seeking, but the helpless pursuit of aims which he was born into the world to achieve. She had seen that he did not stoop to achieve them, but had as haughty a disdain of any but the highest means as she could have wished him to have, and much haughtier than she could have had in his place. If he forgot her in them, he forgot himself quite as much, and they were equal before his ambition. In fact, this seemed to her even more her charge than his, and if he did not succeed as with his genius he had a right to succeed, it would be constructively her fault, and at any rate she should hold herself to blame for it; there would be some satisfaction in that. She thought with tender pathos how hard he worked, and was at his writing all day long, except when she made him go out with her, and was then often so f.a.gged that he could scarcely speak.
She was proud of his almost killing himself at it, but she must study more and more not to let him kill himself, and must do everything that was humanly possible to keep up his spirits when he met with a reverse.
She accused herself with shame of having done nothing for him in the present emergency, but rather flung upon him the burden of her own disappointment. She thought how valiantly he had risen up under it, and had not lost one moment in vain repining; how instantly he had collected himself for a new effort, and taken his measures with a wise prevision that omitted no detail. In view of all this, she peremptorily forbade herself to be uneasy at the little reticence he was practising with regard to G.o.dolphin"s having rejected his play; and imagined the splendor he could put on with the manager after he had accepted it, in telling him its history, and releasing him, if he would, from his agreement. She imagined the manager generously saying this made no difference whatever, though he appreciated Mr. Maxwell"s candor in the matter, and should be all the happier to make a success of it because G.o.dolphin had failed with it.
But she returned from this flight into the future, and her husband"s part in it, to the present and her own first duty in regard to him; and it appeared to her, that this was to look carefully after his health in the strain put upon it, and to nourish him for the struggle before him.
It was to be not with one manager only, but many managers, probably, and possibly with all the managers in New York. That was what he had said it would be before he gave up, and she remembered how flushed and excited he looked when he said it, and though she did not believe he would get back for lunch--the manager might ask him to read his play to him, so that he could get just the author"s notion--she tried to think out the very most nourishing lunch she could for him. Oysters were in season, and they were very nourishing, but they had already had them for breakfast, and beefsteak was very good, but he hated it. Perhaps chops would do, or, better still, mushrooms on toast, only they were not in the market at that time of year. She dismissed a stewed squab, and questioned a sweetbread, and wondered if there were not some kind of game. In the end she decided to leave it to the provision man, and she lost no time after she reached her decision in going out to consult him.
He was a bland, soothing German, and it was a pleasure to talk with him, because he brought her married name into every sentence, and said, "No, Mrs. Maxwell;" "Yes, Mrs. Maxwell;" "I send it right in, Mrs. Maxwell."
She went over his whole list of provisions with him, and let him persuade her that a small fillet was the best she could offer a person whose frame needed nourishing, while at the same time his appet.i.te needed coaxing. She allowed him to add a can of mushrooms, as the right thing to go with it, and some salad; and then while he put the order up she stood reproaching herself for it, since it formed no fit lunch, and was both expensive and commonplace.
She was roused from her daze, when she was going to countermand the whole stupid order by the man"s saying: "What can I do for you this morning, Mrs. Harley?" and she turned round to find at her elbow the smouldering-eyed woman of the bathing-beach. She lifted her heavy lids and gave Louise a dull glance, which she let a sudden recognition burn through for a moment and then quenched. But in that moment the two women sealed a dislike that had been merely potential before. Their look said for each that the other was by nature, tradition, and aspiration whatever was most detestable in their s.e.x.
Mrs. Harley, whoever she was, under a name that Louise electrically decided to be fict.i.tious, seemed unable to find her voice at first in their mutual defiance, and she made a pretence of letting her strange eyes rove about the shop before she answered. Her presence was so repugnant to Louise that she turned abruptly and hurried out of the place without returning the good-morning which the German sent after her with the usual addition of her name. She resented it now, for if it was not tantamount to an introduction to that creature, it was making her known to her, and Louise wished to have no closer acquaintance with her than their common humanity involved. It seemed too odious to have been again made aware that they were inhabitants of the same planet, and the anger that heaved within her went out in a wild flash of resentment towards her husband for having forever fixed that woman in her consciousness with a phrase. If it had not been for that, she would not have thought twice of her when they first saw her, and she would not have known her when they met again, and at the worst would merely have been hara.s.sed with a vague resemblance which would never have been verified.
She had climbed the stairs to their apartment on the fourth floor, when she felt the need to see more, know more, of this hateful being so strong upon her, that she stopped with her latch-key in her door and went down again. She did not formulate her intention, but she meant to hurry back to the provision store, with the pretext of changing her order, and follow the woman wherever she went, until she found out where she lived; and she did not feel, as a man would, the disgrace of d.o.g.g.i.ng her steps in that way so much as she felt a fatal dread of her.
If she should be gone by the time Louise got back to the shop, she would ask the provision man about her, and find out in that way. She stayed a little while to rehea.r.s.e the terms of her inquiry, and while she lingered the woman herself came round the corner of the avenue and mounted the steps where Louise stood and, with an air of custom, went on upstairs to the second floor, where Louise heard her putting a latch-key into the door, which then closed after her.
XIII.
Maxwell went to a manager whom he had once met in Boston, where they had been apparently acceptable to each other in a long talk they had about the drama. The manager showed himself a shrewd and rather remorseless man of business in all that he said of the theatre, but he spoke as generously and reverently of the drama as Maxwell felt, and they parted with a laughing promise to do something for it yet. In fact, if it had not been for the chances that threw him into G.o.dolphin"s hand afterwards, he would have gone to this manager with his play in the first place, and he went to him now, as soon as he was out of G.o.dolphin"s hands, not merely because he was the only manager he knew in the city, but because he believed in him as much as his rather sceptical temper permitted him to believe in any one, and because he believed he would give him at least an intelligent audience.
The man in the box-office, where he stood in the glow of an electric light at midday, recovered himself from the disappointment he suffered when Maxwell asked for the manager instead of a seat for the night"s performance. He owned that the manager was in his room, but said he was very much engaged, and he was hardly moved from this conviction by Maxwell"s urgence that he should send in his card; perhaps something in Maxwell"s tone and face as of authority prevailed with him; perhaps it was the t.i.tle of the Boston _Abstract_, which Maxwell wrote under his name, to recall himself better to the manager"s memory. The answer was a good while getting back; people came in and bought tickets and went away, while Maxwell hung about the vestibule of the theatre and studied the bill of the play which formed its present attraction, but at last the man in the box-office put his face sidewise to the semi-circular opening above the gla.s.s-framed plan of seats and, after he had identified Maxwell, said, "Mr. Grayson would like to see you." At the same time the swinging doors of the theatre opened, and a young man came out, to whom the other added, indicating Maxwell, "This is the gentleman;" and the young man held the door open for him to pa.s.s in, and then went swiftly before him into the theatre, and led the way around the orchestra circle to a little door that opened in the wall beside one of the boxes. There was a rehearsal going on in the glare of some grouped incandescent bulbs on the stage, and people moving about in top hats and bonnets and other every-day outside gear, which Maxwell lost sight of in his progress through the wings and past a rough brick wall before he arrived at another door down some winding stairs in the depths of the building. His guide knocked at it, and when an answering voice said, "Come in!" he left Maxwell to go in alone. The manager had risen from his chair at his table, and stood, holding out his hand, with a smile of kindly enough welcome. He said, "I"ve just made you out, Mr.
Maxwell. Do you come as a friendly interviewer, or as a deadly dramatist!"
"As both or as neither, whichever you like," said Maxwell, and he gladly took the manager"s hand, and then took the chair which he cleared of some prompt-books for him to sit down in.
"I hadn"t forgotten the pleasant talk I had with you in Boston, you see," the manager began again, "but I had forgotten whom I had it with."
"I can"t say I had even done that," Maxwell answered, and this seemed to please the manager.
"Well, that counts you one," he said. "You noticed that we have put on "Engaged?" We"ve made a failure of the piece we began with; it"s several pieces now. _Couldn"t_ you do something like "Engaged?""
"I wish I could! But I"m afraid Gilbert is the only man living who can do anything like "Engaged." My hand is too heavy for that kind."