Loving my tyrant, I did not protest further, though firm in my own mind as to my duty. As it turned out, I need not have denied her, for the end of the month found me with but little added strength; and though I tried to work two or three times, I was forced to abandon the attempts without accomplishing anything. My wonder is that I gained strength at all, in my discouragement over the loss of Mr. Whitely"s work, my three months"
idleness, the heavy doctor"s bills, and the steadily accruing interest on the debt.
On the 21st of June Mr. Blodgett came to see me, as indeed he had done daily since Mrs. Blodgett left town.
"The boss writes," he announced, "ordering me to come up to-day, and directing that before I leave New York I am to do forty-seven things, ranging in importance from buying her the last novels to matching some white"--he looked at his letter, and spelled out--""f-l-o-s-s" as per sample inclosed. I haven"t time to do more than forty-five, and I"m afraid I"ll never hear the last of the remaining two unless you"ll save me."
"How?"
"Well, three times in her letter she tells me that I"ve got to bring you, the last time as good as saying that my life won"t be an insurable risk if I don"t. Since she puts so much stress on your presence, it"s just possible that if I fill that order she"ll forget the rest."
"I would go, Mr. Blodgett, but"--
"Oh, I understand all that," he interrupted. "Of course, if you stay in the cool fresh air of the city, you won"t run any risk of the malaria the Berkshires are full of; I know the New York markets have peas as large and firm as bullets, while those in our garden are poor little shriveled affairs hardly worth the trouble of eating; our roads are not Belgian blocks, but only soft dirt, and we haven"t got a decent flagged sidewalk within ten miles of My Fancy. I understand perfectly that you"ll get well faster here, and so get to work sooner; but all the same, just as a favor, you might pull me out of this sc.r.a.pe."
I need not say I had to yield, and together we took the afternoon express. On the train we found Mr. Whitely,--as great a surprise, apparently, to Mr. Blodgett as it was to me.
"h.e.l.lo!" exclaimed the banker. "Where are you bound for?"
"I presume for the same destination you are," Mr. Whitely replied. "I am going up to see Miss Walton, and if Mrs. Blodgett cannot give me a night"s hospitality, I shall go to the hotel."
"Plenty of room at My Fancy, and I"ll guarantee your welcome," promised Mr. Blodgett pleasantly. "Here"s the doctor going up for a bit of nursing."
Much to my surprise, my former employer entered the compartment, and, offering me his hand, sat down by the lounge I was stretched upon.
"You"ve had a serious illness," he remarked, with a bland attempt at sympathy.
I only nodded my head.
"I hope you will recover quickly, for you are needed in the office," he went on.
I could not have been more surprised if he had struck me, though I did not let it appear in my face.
"Whitely"s been trying to go it alone on his editorials, and the papers have all been laughing at him," chuckled Mr. Blodgett. "Just read us your famous one, Whitely,--that one about The Tendency of Modern Art, with the original Hebrew from Solomon you put in."
I saw my employer redden, and in pity for his embarra.s.sment I said, "I do not think I shall ever come back to the office, Mr. Whitely."
"Why not?" he exclaimed. "You committed an unwise action, but business is business, and I see no cause why we need let a single mistake terminate a relation mutually profitable."
"I have learned the lesson that one cannot sell one"s honesty without wronging other people, and I shall never do it again."
"This is purely sentimental"--he began.
Mr. Blodgett, however, interrupted by saying, "Now don"t go to exciting the doctor, for he"s to sleep on the trip. Besides, I"ve got something in mind better than the job he"s had under you, Whitely. Come and have a smoke, and leave him to nap a bit."
They left me, and I set to puzzling over many questions: how you would greet me at My Fancy; how you would welcome Mr. Whitely; what was the meaning of his friendliness towards me; and what new kindness Mr.
Blodgett had in store for me. Finally I fell asleep, to be awakened only when we reached our destination.
Agnes met us at the station, and at the house Mrs. Blodgett gave me the warmest of welcomes, but not till I came downstairs before dinner did you and I meet. Your greeting was formal, yet courteous and gracious as of old, almost making me question if our last two interviews could be realities.
Before the dinner was finished Mrs. Blodgett ordered me to the divan on the veranda, and sent dessert and fruit out to me. You all joined me when the moment came for coffee and cigars; but the evening was cloudy and rather breezy, and presently Mrs. Blodgett said it was too cold for her, and suggested a game of whist indoors. "You must stay out here,"
she told me, "but if you feel cool be sure to use the shawl."
You turned and said to Mr. Whitely, "You will play, I hope?" and he a.s.sented so eagerly that it was all I could do to keep from laughing outright when you continued, "Agnes and Mr. Whitely will make your table, Mrs. Blodgett, so I will stay here and watch the clouds." The whole thing was so palpably with an object that I felt at once that you wished to see me alone, to learn if I had anything more to say concerning Mr. Whitely; and as I realized this, I braced myself for the coming ordeal.
For a few moments you stood watching the gathering storm, and then took a chair by the divan on which I lay.
"Are you too honorable," you began,--and though I could not see your face in the darkness, your voice told me you were excited,--"to pardon dishonorable conduct in others? For I have come to beg of you forgiveness for a wrong."
"Of me, Miss Walton?"
"Last April," you went on, "Mrs. Blodgett brought me a book and asked me to read it. A few paragraphs revealed to me that it was something written by an old friend of mine. After reading a little further, I realized for the first time that I was violating a confidence. Yet though I knew this, and struggled to close the book, I could not, but read it to the end. Can you forgive me?"
"Oh, Miss Walton!" I protested. "Why ask forgiveness of me? What is your act compared to the wrong"--
"Hush, Don," you said gently, and your use of my name, so long unheard, told me in a word that the feeling of our childhood days was come again.
"Tell me you forgive me!" you entreated.
"I am not the one to forgive, Maizie."
"I did wrong, and I ask your pardon," you begged humbly. "Yet I"m not sorry in the least, and I should do it again," you instantly added, laughing merrily at your own perverseness. Then in a moment you were serious again, saying, "I never received the letters or the photograph, Donald. My uncle confesses that he put them in the fire." And before I could speak, a new thought seized you, for you continued sadly, "I shall never forgive myself for my harshness and cruelty when you were so ill."
"That is nothing," I replied, "since all our misunderstandings are gone.
Why, even my debt, Maizie, ceases now to be a burden; in the future it will be only a joy to work."
"Donald!" you exclaimed. "You don"t suppose I shall let you pay me another cent!"
"I must."
"But I am rich," you protested. "The money is nothing to me. You shall not ruin your career to pay it. I scorn myself when I think that I refused to see you that night, and so lost my only chance of saving you from what followed. My cowardice, my wicked cowardice! It drove you to death"s door by overwork, to give me wealth I do not know how to spend.
You parted with your library that I might let money lie idle in bank. I forced you to sell your book--your fame--to that thief. Oh, Donald, think of the wrong it has done already, and don"t make it do greater!"
"Maizie, you do not understand"--
"I understand it all," you interrupted. "You must not--you shall not--I won"t take it--I"--
"For his sake!"
"But I love him, too!" you pleaded. "Don"t you see, Donald, that it was never the money,--that was nothing; but they told me his love--and yours, for they said you had known all the time--was only pretense, a method by which you might continue to rob me. And I came to believe it,--though I should have known better,--because, since you never wrote, it seemed to me you had both dropped me out of your thoughts as soon as you could no longer plunder me. Even then, scorning you,--like you in your feeling over my neglect of your letters,--I could not help loving you, for those Paris and Tyrol days were the happiest I have ever known; and though I knew, Don, that I ought to forget you, as I believed you had forgotten me, I could not do so. I have never dared to speak in public of either of you, for fear I should break down. Try as I might, I could not help loving you both as I have never loved any one else. That I turned you away from my house was because I did not dare to meet you,--I knew I could not control myself. After the man took the message, I sobbed over having to insult you by sending it by a servant. But for my want of courage--had I seen you as I ought--If I had only understood, as your journal has made me,--had only known that my name was on his lips when he died! No money could pay for what he gave to me. Could he ask me now for twice the sum, it would be my pleasure to give it to him, for I love him dearly, and"--
"If you love him, Maizie, you will let me clear his name as far as lies within my power."
For an instant you were silent, and then said softly, "You are right, Donald, we will clear his name."
I took your hand and touched it to my lips. "To hear you speak of him"--I could go no further, in my emotion.
There was a pause before you asked, "Donald, do you remember our talk here last autumn?"
"Every word."