She looked again at the man who had been cruel, faithless, divorced.
Again she handed the "Life" back.
"He keeps a public-house up the river," she said.
At that the tension was suddenly relieved. That, of course, was too much. They breathed freely again. The derisive clamour broke out.
"Oh, don"t you see? They"ve made it up between them--frauds!"
"Of course they have! Come and finish tea."
"She"ll be saying that was the man who brought her down next!"
"Causton, I"ll never, never believe another word you say!"
"Come on--the housekeeper will be here in a minute."
"Pig, you"ve stolen my piece of cake that I was saving!"
"Hurl the bread and b.u.t.ter, Mac."
And the crowd which had gathered about Louie dispersed to the tables again.
Not until ten minutes later, when she had gone up to her own room again, did Louie begin to wonder what had impelled her to make her surprising declaration. But in an instant her ten-years"-old habit of thought a.s.serted itself again. Why have made it? Rather, why not have made it? She would have made it sooner had occasion offered. Elwell and the Burnetts did not drag their fathers in; she had not dragged her father in either. She had not told them that her mother was Lord Moone"s sister--it was known, but she had not told them; why should she have paraded the fact that her father was this redoubtable Buck, from whose beezer the claret had flowed as he had advanced for the twenty-eighth round? They could have known it any time they had wanted! Conceal it? Why, had she not all her life been glorying in that very pride of the cobbler"s dog?
And still, deep down in her, she wondered whether it had been even that sort of pride, and not rather that secret hunger of the heart that, while she was "in at" everything, she was also "out of"
everything. Had it been that that had caused her to say quietly: "That"s my father"?
Or perhaps it was even something deeper still. Perhaps, in a word, it had been her blind groping towards that crude and strong and cruel and joyous life Richenda Earle had said she knew nothing about.
She wondered whether the girls downstairs were talking about her now.
Her eyes fell on the black-framed miniature of the fourth Lord Moone.
Then, as if her brain had received a number of disordered impressions all heaped one on the top of the other, she sat down on the edge of her bed, not so much to think as to remember again exactly what had happened.
Gradually the disorder cleared. Phrases and the tones in which they had been uttered began to stand forth more distinctly. Presently she was able to allocate each to its speaker. It was her first attempt to estimate differences in the future her declaration might have made.
Burnett Minor, of course, she could dismiss summarily. To her it had been a high lark, that but endeared Louie to her the more. But Burnett Major? What about her? "_Genista!_" she had exclaimed, shocked at her young sister"s apparent belief in the socially impossible. Yes, it would be interesting to see what difference, if any, was to be seen in Burnett Major"s att.i.tude now. And Elwell"s "_Oh!_" What about that?
And Macfarlane"s blank look? And what did Richenda Earle think?
Louie did not know yet.
And what about Mrs. Lovenant-Smith? Undoubtedly Mrs. Lovenant-Smith, knowing about it herself, would have preferred Louie to keep silence.
The thought of Mrs. Lovenant-Smith, however, always braced Louie. That curious pleased coldness came into her eyes again. She would see about Mrs. Lovenant-Smith by-and-by. In the meantime, the last thing she intended to do was to absent herself from them all. She would go down to supper.
She took a clean blouse from a drawer, laid it out on her bed, and then, reaching for a towel, started for the bathroom.
Before she reached the bathroom, however, one of her conjectures was already answered. Richenda Earle"s cubicle was on the same corridor as hers, four doors lower down, and she met Richenda herself, who had come back from her vacation a week before, by the embrasure of one of the latticed courtyard windows. It was almost dark; in the recess the little reflectored oil lamp had been lighted, and it shone on the Scholarship girl"s copper hair and angular shoulders. Louie stopped.
She did so deliberately. Let Earle allude if she dared.
"You washed?" she said, on a rising note.
"No, not yet. I--I came up for a book," said Richenda.
"You"re not studying to-night, are you?"
"Ye-es--oh yes, I must."
"Cla.s.sification?"
"Ye-es--yes."
"How far have you got now?"
Louie"s mood was on her. It was overdue, but it had come now, and she was challenging Earle. Nevertheless, she was ignorant of what she really challenged when she challenged Earle. Hard knowledge of the true weight of Life will tell, and Earle"s knowledge of that weight told now. The girl"s head was downhung, so that the nodule of bone at the back of her neck caught the light sharply. Suddenly she looked up.
"But you are Lord Moone"s niece, aren"t you?" she said, without preface.
Since her vacation, this daughter of a struggling Westbourne Grove bookseller had seemed less a.s.sertive than before, and was, somehow, none the worse for it. Louie didn"t know what had made the difference, but she momentarily dropped her point.
"Yes," she said. "Why?"
"Then----?" Richenda halted.
"Then what? The other that I told them downstairs is just as true, if that"s what you want to know."
"But--but----"
"Well, what?"
Earle evidently mitigated what she had been about to say.
"I only mean that--that you must have thought it queer, my talking as I did--that morning, you know?"
Louie saw the approach of the first att.i.tude for her garner.
"What morning?" she demanded.
"When they punished me--when I was washing the fruit trees."
"I remember. Well, why should I think anything queer?"
Earle"s head dropped again. Again the sharp nodule of bone showed.
"Do you mean," Louie said, "that if my father"s what I said, no doubt I know as much about what you were saying as you do?"
"Oh no!" Earle said, the more quickly that that probably had been what she had meant.