"They"ve stopped carrying pa.s.sengers and the rooms are fitted up for them, quite private, she writes, and the boy weighed nine pounds. I"m thinking of going down to see them, when they get in to this country again, mother. Would you care to see her husband"s picture? He"s a fine looking chap--six feet, she writes."
"I don"t care about it," said Mrs. d.i.c.kett, through thin lips. "It is a relief, however, to learn that she is no longer a chambermaid."
"Come, come, mother, the ship"s boy did all the emptying, you know,"
Mr. d.i.c.kett urged tolerantly. "It seems a roving sort of life, to us, I know, and unsettled, but if they like it, why I can"t see any real harm..."
"Tastes differ," said his wife grimly--and so, G.o.d knows, they do!
THE GOSPEL
For the first few days of her stay there, she thought little enough of the strangeness of the situation. To think of it, to marvel at the neat stillness, the quiet precision of all the domestic arrangements, would have been to let her mind dwell on just what she had to avoid.
She was sick to her very soul of all that the words "domestic arrangements" implied; sick with an actual spiritual nausea. It was honestly no exaggeration to say that she would gladly have died rather than take the trouble to arrange the details of living.
So every morning she woke when her dreams ended and lay staring idly, through the cross-bars of the primitive window-netting, at the swaying, sinking, tree-tops, and the floating white above them, so white between the blue and green; and then her breakfast came, fresh and chill and shining, with a flaming nasturtium on the snowy linen; and then a dreamy time, when thought ranged among stray lines of poetry and memories of childhood; and then some one rubbed and kneaded and ironed out her tired muscles and she slept again. Sometimes foaming milk came in a beaded brown pitcher that smelt of dairies; sometimes luscious, quartered fruits, smothered in clotting cream, tempted a palate nearly dulled beyond recall; sometimes rich, salted broth steamed in a dim, blue bowl till she regretted to see the bottom of it.
And just at that time she was lifted into a long, basket chair and, propped in lavendered pillows, looked dreamily into the hills and pastures rolling out in front of her. Cows wandered here and there, birds swooped lazily through the June blue, the faintest scent of grapevines hung on the wind. But no human figures blotted the landscape; only the faint, musical clash of distant scythes (a sound as natural as the cawing and lowing and interminable twittering of the busy animal world all around) spoke of men.
Then one day (it might have been a week"s time) she caught herself listening for sounds of household labour. Where was the breaking, the slamming, the whistling, the quarrelling, the brushing and the rattling that these thin part.i.tions ought to filter through? Simply, it was not. A little faint, suspicious worry came to her: the house was a tomb, then? Did it have to be? Was she as bad as that?
And when her tray came next, some kind of savoury stew, by now, with fresh picked strawberries on a sea-green grape leaf, she looked directly at the woman who brought it to the bed.
"How still this house is!" she said, and flushed with weakness, for it was her first real sentence, and it occurred to her that only little sighs of fatigue or groans of relief and halting exclamations of, "That feels good," or "No more, thanks," had pa.s.sed her lips.
The woman smiled. She wore a straight gown of some cool stripe of white and grey and her eyes were grey.
"We live in a quiet place," she said, and lifted the pillows higher.
But it seemed that after that--perhaps it was because she listened--she began to hear faint sounds. The clear falling of poured out water, and the tinkling of dish on dish, now and then, and later, the soft murmur of exchanging women"s voices.
Another day she spoke of the freshness of her morning egg, and that afternoon she leaned nearer the cas.e.m.e.nt to catch the cluck of a motherly hen with her brood, and smiled at the scurry of wing and feet as grain was scattered somewhere.
It must have been at that time that the doctor came up to see her, a big brown man, whose beard hid his smile when he chose, but nothing could cover the keen, reading beam of the eye.
"I see you are doing well," he said.
"It is wonderful," she answered him, "but I am sure it is not the world."
"The world is very large," he said, and went away.
"And I never asked about--about anybody," she murmured, her eyes filling, "but I am sure they are all right, or he would have said!"
She was ashamed, afterward, to remember for how long she had thought the woman who attended on her a servant. And yet she did think her so until the morning when it suddenly occurred to her that it was not possible any ordinary servant should be so deft and self-contained at once: servants were not so calm--that was it, so calm. Even the best of them were hurried and anxious, and if they were old and valued, they got on one"s nerves the more: one had to consider them. Of course, this was a trained nurse. She had decided suddenly that she felt equal to rising for her bath, and congratulated herself on discerning the nurse in time, for now she could ask for help, if she needed it.
"If you will show me the bathroom," she said, "and will be there to help me over the edge of the tub, in case I feel weak----"
"I will be there," said the woman, "but I must get it ready: the tub is not high."
And when she stepped into the next room she realised, with a little smile, how far she was from white porcelain and tiled walls. On the scrubbed deal floor there stood a white deal tub, clean as new milk, round and copper bound. Towels and soaps and sponges were there in plenty, and great metal ewers full of hot and cold water, and nothing else but one chair in all the scrubbed cleanliness. The woman poured the water over her as she crouched in the fragrant wooden pool and dried her gently and quickly in towels pressed away in lavender, with the deft, sure movements of one well practised in her business; but when she lay, just happily tired from the new exertion, among the fragrant sheets, a tiny shadow seemed about to haunt her sleep. She placed the little discomfort with difficulty, but at length expressed it.
"That tub is very heavy, now," she said drowsily. "Is there a man to lift it?"
For the first time the woman smiled. Till then she had been hands and feet merely, tireless and tactful, but impersonal: now she smiled, and her face was very sweet.
"I shall empty it," she said. "I am quite strong. Go to sleep, now."
Very soon again the doctor came, and at her quiet request gave her news of husband, children and home; all well, it seemed, and smoothly ordered. Days of absolute stillness had broken the habit of insistent speech, and many things that once would have said themselves before she thought, now halted behind her lips and seemed not worth the muscular effort. But one thing she did mention.
"Ought not the nurses here to have more help?" she asked. "Mine lifts out my bath-water every day. Are there not servants enough? I could pay for it..."
"There are no servants here at all," he said, "and there is n.o.body you could pay more than you are already paying."
"Then they are all nurses?"
"There are no trained nurses here, if you mean that," he said.
"Then who--what is the woman who takes care of me?" she asked, vaguely displeased.
"She is one of the daughters of the house," he said. "She is no more a nurse than her mother is a cook or her sister a laundress. They do what is to be done, that is all. Each has done and can do the others"
tasks."
She felt in some way corrected, yet it was hard to say in what she had offended. But Dr. Stanchon was an odd man in many ways. "All the same," she persisted, "I think I had better have a nurse, now. I shall feel more comfortable. Ask Miss Jessop if she could come out to me. I believe I could get along with her, now. I"m afraid I was childish, before."
But he only shook his head. "The time for Miss Jessop has pa.s.sed, dear friend," he said quietly. "No nurse ever comes here."
"Then this is a private house," she began again, "their own home. And I do not even know their names!"
"It is private because it is their own home--just that," he said.
"That is what a home is. It is a simple fact, but one that seems not to have been included in your education."
"Why, Dr. Stanchon, what can you mean?" she cried. "My mother"s hospitality----"
"I mean that I do not consider an art museum a home, no matter how highly the chef is paid," he said shortly.
"But there is the place on the Hudson----"
"That is a country club, nothing more," he interrupted. "Your mother dismissed a butler once, because, though he offered eight liqueurs to a guest, the guest asked for a ninth and the butler had neglected to order it. I have attended her there for a really painful attack of sciatica when none of her visitors knew that anything ailed her, though she had been away from them for forty-eight hours."
"But that is mother"s house, not mine," she protested, "and I do not pretend to keep up----"
"You do not pretend to, because you could not do it," he interrupted again. "Your father is a multi-millionaire and your husband is not.
But it is your constant ideal, nevertheless, and your failures to realise it, even in the degree to which you have tried, have sapped your vitality to a point which even you can understand now, I should suppose."
She looked doubtingly at him.
"Do you really mean, Dr. Stanchon," she began, "that this dreadful attack----"