""Attack"!" he muttered brusquely, ""attack"! One would imagine I had pulled you through pneumonia or peritonitis! If, after constant sapping and mining and starving-out the garrison, it gives way and falls defeated, you choose to call the day of surrender a yielding to an attack, then you have had an attack."
And again he left her abruptly, a prey to creeping, ugly doubts. For she had been very sorry for herself and the fatality that had stranded her on the dreary coast where so many of her friends had met mysterious wreckage.
"Has the doctor sent patients here before?" she asked her attendant the next morning, when she sat, fresh and fragrant in her invalid ruffles, at the window, watching the poultry yard, which somehow she had not noticed before, and the cow browsing beside the brook where the white ducks paddled, gossiping.
"Oh, yes, often," said the busy sister (she was Hester; the other was Ann). "We are never without some one. So many people are ill in the city. Now I am going to clean your room, and perhaps you will feel like stepping out on the balcony?"
Surprised, for she had not seen any such addition to the simple frame house, she stepped through a window cut down somewhat clumsily, but efficiently enough, and hinged to swing outward, onto a shallow, roofed _loggia_ with vines grown from boxes on the sides and two long, low chairs faced to the view of the hills. In one of these sat a woman, slender and motionless, whose glistening white wrapper seemed to melt in the strong sun into the white of the painted wooden bal.u.s.trade that protected the balcony. Flushed with an invalid"s quick irritation and resentful of any other occupant, for her raw nerves were not yet healed, she was about to turn back hastily into the room when a second glance a.s.sured her that it was only one of her own white wrappers draped along the chair. The face and hands that her vexed irritation must have supplied amazed her, in retrospect, with their distinctness of outline, and she trembled at her weak nerves.
From inside the room came the swishing of water and the sound of scrubbing; soon the strong clean flavour of soapy boards floated out, and the flick of the drops into the pail; from where she sat she could see out of the corner of her eye the fluff of snowy suds that foamed over the shining bucket as Hester rubbed the milky cake of soap with the bristles. Her strong strokes had a definite rhythm and set the time for the stern old hymn-tune she crooned. The listener on the balcony obeyed her growing interest and turned her chair to face into the room. The kilted Hester, on her knees, her brow bound with a glistening towel, threw her body forward with the regularity of a rower, her strong, muscled arms shot out in a measured curve; on her little island of dry boards she sang amid her clean, damp sea, high-priestess of a l.u.s.tral service as old as the oldest temple of man, and the odour of her incense, the keen, sweet freshness of her cleansing soap, rose to the heaven of her hymn.
"You sing as if you liked it," said the watcher.
"And so I do," said Hester. "Things must be clean, and I like to make them so."
"Why, you are doing just what we did in the gymnasium the year I went there," cried the invalid, with the first real interest she had felt in anything outside herself. "We kneeled on the floor and swept our arms out just like that!"
"If there were many of you, it must soon have been clean," said Hester, moving the rug she knelt on deftly. "Oh, we were not cleaning it,"
said the invalid smiling. "It was only the same motion."
"Indeed? Then why were you doing it?" Hester asked, turning her flushed face in surprise toward the ruffled whiteness in the window.
She stared at the worker, but even as she stared she frowned uncomfortably.
"Why, for--for exercise--for strength," she said slowly, and coloured under Hester"s smile....
Later in the day she moved out again upon the balcony, regretful for the first time that no one of her own world could be there to talk with her. Hester, wiping bed, chair and mirror with the white cloth that never seemed to soil, whipping the braided rag rugs below her on the green with strong, firm strokes that recalled the scheduled blows she had practised at a swinging leather ball, vexed her, somehow, and she was conscious of a whimsical wish that her delusion of the white wrapper stretched along the reclining chair had proved a reality. The soft grey shadows of early evening covered the little balcony, the chairs were plunged in it, and it was with a cry of apology that she stepped into a grey gown, so soft and thin that she had taken it for a deeper shadow, merely, and had actually started to seat herself in the long chair where the slender woman lay. Her own body appeared so robust beside this delicate creature"s that pity smothered the surprise at her quiet presence there, and the swift feeling that she herself was by no means the frailest of the doctor"s patients added to her composure as she begged pardon for her clumsiness.
"I thought I was the only patient here," she explained. "Miss Hester and Miss Ann have a wonderful way of getting quiet and privacy in their little house, haven"t they?"
"Is it so little?" the stranger asked. She felt embarra.s.sed, suddenly, and tactless, for she had taken it for granted that they were both of the cla.s.s to which the modest cottage must seem small.
"I only meant," she added hastily, for it seemed that at any cost this gentle, pale creature must not be hurt, "I only meant that to take in strangers, in this way, and to keep the family life entirely separate requires, usually, much more s.p.a.ce."
"But do they keep it separate--the family life!"
("Evidently," she thought, "they have not been able to give her a private room, like mine, or perhaps she eats with them.")
"I think that is how they do it," the stranger went on, "by not having any separate life, really. It is all one life, with them."
"All one life..." the other repeated, vaguely, recalling, for some reason, the doctor"s words, "but, of course, in a larger establishment that would not be possible. With servants..."
"I suppose that is why they have no servants," said the stranger.
There was a soft a.s.surance in the tone, soft, but undoubtedly there.
And yet what a.s.surance should a woman have who did not find this house small? She discovered that she was still a little irritable, for she spoke brusquely.
"People do not employ servants, I imagine, for the very simple reason that they cannot afford to."
"Not always," said the other quietly. "I have known Ann and Hester many years, and there has never been a time when they could not have afforded at the least one servant."
"Tastes differ, I suppose," she answered shortly. "I should have supposed that every woman would take the first opportunity of relieving herself from the strain of household drudgery, which any ignorant person can accomplish."
"Have you found so many of them to accomplish it for you?"
She flushed angrily.
"Dr. Stanchon has been talking about me!" she cried with hot memories of her interminable domestic woes.
"Indeed not," said the grey lady. "I knew nothing.... I only asked if ignorant persons really accomplished their drudgery to any one"s satisfaction nowadays? They used not to when--when I employed them...."
So she had been wrecked beyond repair, this shadowy, large-eyed thing!
She spoke as of a day long over. The other woman felt ashamed of her suspicion.
"No, indeed," she answered wearily, "that was an exaggeration, naturally. But they might, if they would take pains. They are paid enough for it, heaven knows."
"Ann and Hester are not paid," said the voice from the dim chair.
"Perhaps that is why they take pains."
The woman nodded fretfully.
"That is all very well," she said, "and sounds very poetic, but it would be rather impractical for us all to do, on that account."
"Impractical? _Impractical?_"
A hint of gentle laughter from the long chair. "But it seems to me that Ann and Hester are the least impractical of people--are they not?
They are surely less hara.s.sed than you were?"
("I must have been very sleepy: I don"t remember telling her all about it," thought the woman, "but she seems to know.")
"Yes," she said aloud, "I was hara.s.sed. Nearly to death, it seems. I am hardly myself yet. I suppose you have been through it all?"
"I have been through a great deal, yes."
The shadows deepened and a thin, new moon sank lower and lower. The grey figure grew less and less distinct to her, and before she knew it, she slept. When she woke, she was alone on the balcony, and the sunlight lay in blue-white pools upon the floor. For the first time in her life she had slept alone under the stars, with no one to settle her into her dreams or to attend on her when she woke from them, and suspicion and displeasure darkened for a moment the freshest awakening she could remember. Had they really forgotten her? No one seemed to be coming, and after a quarter of an hour"s impatient waiting she left the long, couch-like chair, opened the door of her room and went with quick determined steps down the narrow hall, down the stairs, straight to the sounds of women"s voices in the distance. They led her through a shining kitchen, where a patient, old clock presided, through a cool, dim b.u.t.tery into a primitive laundry, or washing shed, with deal tubs and big copper cauldrons and a swept stone floor. But no odour of the keen cleanliness she had learned to connect with Hester"s soap ruled the wash-house this morning: a breeze from Araby the blest blew through the piles of dewy crimson strawberries that heaped themselves in yellow bowls, in silver-tinted pans, in leaf-lined wicker baskets, and brought all the gardens of June into the bare, stone room. Hester"s quick fingers twisted the delicate hulls from the scarlet, scented globes, and near her, measuring mounds of glittering sugar, stood a broader, squarer woman with greying hair, who smiled gravely at her, facing her.
"Here she is, now," said this woman, whom she guessed to be Ann, and Hester, turning to her, added, as one who finishes a sentence, merely,
"And I was just getting ready a dish of strawberries for you. Mother has stepped out for your egg: the brown hen has just laid. The rolls are in the oven and mother has the chocolate ready. I thought you would be early this morning, you were sleeping so soundly."
"Early? early?" she repeated, taken aback by their easy greeting of her. "Why, what do you mean?" And just then the clock struck seven, deliberately.
"Why--why, I thought--then you did not forget--" she began, uncertainly.
"There is nothing like the open air for sleeping, when one is ready for it," said Hester. "Did you not notice the cover I threw over you? You must have gone off before it grew dark, quite."
"Oh, no, because I was with--" then she stopped abruptly. For it dawned on her that the other woman must have been a dream, since she perceived that she was unwilling to ask about her, so faintly did that conversation recall itself to her, so uncertain her memory proved as to how that other came and went, or when.