He pushed his hand back into his pocket and felt the precious hard little object there. His finger clasped it, when a heavy blow sent him reeling in his chair. A pain like a knife cut through his heart and he fell heavily backward on his bent arm.
His eyes opened. He drew a deep breath. A tall, carved clock in the corner struck, and a man, a lank, sandy man beside him, seemed to have said something, for his voice was in the air.
"He must have had some papers--if there is anything wrong--good G.o.d, Webb, what shall we do?"
This was a slender, foppish man, iron-grey. Weldon sprang to his feet, pulling his right arm from behind him, wide, wide awake now. He was free! He was free!
The clock struck again.
Thrusting his hand in his coat he drew out a sheaf of papers and pressed them upon Webb.
"Here, gentlemen," he cried breathlessly, "are the papers you want!
And here," he threw a small folded slip on the floor, "is an explanation that may help you with them. I wish you good-day."
To get out! To get out! He burst through the portieres and the door, as four men, uniformed, with a black stretcher between them, entered it from without. In the moment of his withdrawal from them he saw, as one sees a stage group from his red plush seat, Potter, panting and terrified, Fayles, anguished, Dupont dazed and suspicious, their eyes fixed on Webb, who, calm as in his own office, ran over the sheaf with his snake-like eye. Even as he nodded shrewdly, the stretcher was in the room and the group dissolved.
Weldon found his hat in his hand; he polished it furiously as he strode down the corridor. He threw himself on the outside door and as he opened it, he heard through the unclosed door of the private room the great clock strike eleven. With a shudder he plunged across the threshold, out, out into the clean, free air.
THE LEGACY
Of course, it doesn"t make any difference to me whether anybody believes this or not. It"s only because Dr. Stanchon asked me to, that I"m writing it, anyway. And n.o.body needs to get the idea that I think I"m a writer, either: I"m not such a fool as all that. But there"s not a nurse in the place who wouldn"t lie down and let the doctor walk over her, if he wanted to--and he knows it, too. Not that he"s c.o.c.ky about it, though.
"You know I"m no magazine muck-rake, doctor," I said as I got out of the motor (he had taken me up through the Park to Morningside and back, while I was telling him), "and I"ll probably be a little shy on style."
"Style be d.a.m.ned," he said. "You"re long on facts, and that"s all I want, my dear. And don"t for heaven"s sake work in any of that C----r"s rot on me!"
I had to laugh, really, at that, because he was so funny about it. I took care of Mr. C----r, the novelist, when he had his appendix removed, and he used to dictate a lot to me, and Dr. Stanchon always insisted that my charts were made out in his style, after that. But of course they weren"t.
"Just tell it as it happened, you know," he said, "and in your own language. I"d like to keep it."
And of course anybody can do that. Although Mr. C----r told me once that that was the hardest job he ever tackled. He said he could write like his heroes easy enough, but not like himself. But he was always joshing, that man.
"Why, Miss Jessop," he used to say to me, "if I could write like myself, I"d have won the n.o.bel prize any time this last ten years!"
But he wrote awfully well, I always thought. Hardly a patient I had that year, but if I offered to read, they"d say:
"Oh, well, what"s the last C----r"s?" and when I got to the parts I"d taken for him (I learned stenography before I took up nursing) it used to give me a queer sort of feeling, really!
It was Dr. Stanchon that got me the case. He "phoned me to drop in at the office, and a patient of mine took me around in her car: I"d been shopping with her all the morning. She had just invited me to go out to her country place for a few days, and I was quite pleased with the idea, for I was a little tired: I was just off a hard pneumonia case that had been pretty sad in lots of ways, and I felt a little blue.
It"s an awfully funny thing, but nurses aren"t supposed to have any feelings: when that poor girl died, I felt as bad as if it had been my own sister, almost. She was lovely.
But when the doctor asked if I was free, of course I had to say yes, though my suit-case was all packed for the country.
"That"s good," he said, "for I specially want you. It"s nothing to do, really, and you"ll enjoy it, you"re such a motor-fiend. There"s a family I"m looking after wants a nurse to go along on a tour through the country--New England, I believe. They"ve got a big, dressy car, and they expect to be gone anywhere from two weeks to a month, if the weather"s reasonably good."
"What do they want of a nurse?" I said.
"Oh, they just want one along, in case of anything happening," he said.
"They can afford it, so why shouldn"t they have it?"
Well, that sounded all right, and yet I got the idea that it wasn"t the real reason, somehow. I don"t know why. Those things are queer.
Of course, there was no reason why it shouldn"t be so: I spent a month on a private yacht, one summer, just to be there in case of sickness, and n.o.body wanted me all the time we were gone, for a minute. As a matter of fact, the lady"s maid took care of me the first three days out!
But I never happened to be asked on a motor-trip in that way, and it seemed a little different. For of course you could pick up a nurse almost anywhere, if you wanted one, on that sort of a tour, and every place in the tonneau counts.
"Isn"t there anything the matter with any of them?" I asked.
"What a suspicious lot you nurses are!" he said, with his queer little chuckle (all the young doctors try to imitate it in the hospital).
"The daughter"s a little nervous, that"s all. It"s for her they"re taking the trip, to give her a change."
"Now look here, Dr. Stanchon," I said, "I"m here to tell you that I don"t want any of your old dope cases, and I might just as well say so first as last. That last young man of yours was about all I wanted.
He was a sweet creature, wasn"t he?"
This probably sounds very fresh to you, but everybody knows me: I speak right out, and if you want me, you have to stand it! And the way I slaved over that boy, and he getting morphine from his valet right along--it was simply disgusting.
"It"s nothing like that--nothing at all," said he; "don"t get so excited!"
"Oh, very well," I said, "then I suppose it"s melancholia. Not for mine, if you please. Perhaps you remember that charming woman that jumped out of the window? I"m no clairvoyant, and that was enough for me, thank you."
"You"re getting saucy, Jessop," he said, "but it"s not melancholia.
But you certainly had a hard time with that one."
And I should say I did. The foxy thing was as good as gold for three weeks, minded everything I said, fairly ate out of my hand, and got us so that we all believed she did better for me alone than when I had help handy. Of course I kept my eye on her, but nevertheless, the other nurse just above gave up the job, and used to be off learning French from the governess they had, most of the time. So when madam got us where she wanted us, she tied me to the door k.n.o.b and jumped out of the window before my eyes! And I can tell you, the thirty dollars a week that would get me on a case like that again, never left the Treasury!
"I a.s.sure you it"s not that at all," he said. "It"s a case of nerves, that"s all."
"Nerves! nerves!" I repeated (I _was_ pretty snippy, I suppose).
"That"s all right for the family, doctor, but what"s the matter with her? I"ve got to know, haven"t I, some time?"
"Well, I must say you nurses are getting to be the limit," he said.
"The truth is, I spoil you. But there"s something in what you say, of course. Now here"s the whole business. This girl, and she"s a sweet, lovely girl, too, had a maid, that was a sort of nurse, I believe, when she was a child, and had seen her grow up, and was very much attached to her, and all that. Like all those old servants she was pretty well spoilt, I imagine, and seems to have had the girl under her thumb. She always slept in the room with her. Now; the maid had bad headaches and used to take all sorts of proprietary remedies for them--coal-tar, of course, and probably had weakened her heart with them. Anyway, she waked the girl up one night with her troubles and the girl gets up and gives her an overdose in the dark, and the maid"s dead in her bed in the morning."
"Oh, I see," I said, trying to make up for my nasty att.i.tude about that suicidal woman. "So she"s blue about it, and thinks she"s to blame.
An automobile trip will certainly do her a lot of good."
"Well, there"s a little more to it than that," he said. "As a matter of fact, she"s a very sensible sort of girl and she knows she"s not to blame, really. Of course it was pretty rough, but then, the maid had no business to expect her to wait on her, and she ought to have given careful directions about the dose, anyhow. She might have gone off any time, and the girl knows it. But the night of the funeral, after the girl was in bed, what does she see but the maid sitting on the foot of the bed, looking at her! Of course she was overwrought nervously.
Only the trouble is, this was three months ago, and she swears the woman comes every night. She knows it"s hallucination, optical delusion, anything you like, and she tries to treat it as such, but she"s beginning to break down under it, and I don"t know what to do.
They"ve travelled, they"ve had her in a sanitarium, they"ve tried auto-suggestion--no use. She"s all right through the day, but at night, in any bedroom, under any circ.u.mstances, this thing appears and she just has to go through with it till morning."
"Why doesn"t she have some one sleep with her?" I asked.
"It doesn"t make the slightest difference," he said. "One week she had a bed between her father"s and mother"s, but it was just the same, and of course they got pretty bad, out of sympathy. They"d spend two or three ordinary fortunes to cure her--but it"s one of the cases where money doesn"t talk, unfortunately. So there we are. It came over me last night that I"d like to have you try what you can do with her."