We went through the same business every night, and I took a nap every afternoon when she did. She told me, what I wasn"t much surprised to hear, that she and Mr. Ferrau were engaged--or just about--when this precious Janet died, and that now she wouldn"t hear of it and had refused to marry him till she was well again. And I must say I think she was right. Of course the old gentleman didn"t see it that way, and we had many a discussion about it, he and I.
"G.o.d Almighty, Miss Jessop, my dear," he used to say to me, "you know as well as I do--I"m speaking, of course, to a woman of practical sense and experience, and therefore I speak plainly--you know as well as I do that the day after the wedding all this will be done for! We"ll never hear of that d.a.m.ned Janet nonsense again. Now, would we?"
"Well, Commodore, maybe not, but you can"t tell," I"d say. "It"s a good bet, but--it"s a bet, after all. It would be awkward if it didn"t work out, you know."
"Oh, bosh, bosh!" he"d burst out, and roll off to the Yacht Club.
People that live in big houses like that, I"ve noticed, always have to go out to get a little peace, they say, and privacy. It"s funny.
The weather was bad, so we didn"t go on the motor trip at all, and that was just as well, for if we had, I should never have gone up to the hospital that day and never seen old Margaret. She was an old darky woman that used to come in to clean the wards when they were short of help, and all the nurses knew her, because she used to tell fortunes with cards and a gla.s.s ball she looked into--pretty fair fortunes, too.
I"ve known of some awfully queer things she told different nurses that were only too true. She always liked me because I used to jolly her up, and I stopped to speak to her, and she asked me where I was working.
"Oh, a grand place on the Avenue, Margaret," I told her, "marble stairs and a fountain in the hall."
"What"s the sickness, honey?" she asked, for those darkies are always curious.
"The patient"s got a ghost, Margaret," I said, just to see what she"d say, "and I"m sorry to say we can"t seem to cure her."
"Co"se you cayn"t cure her," says she, "no stuff in bottles for that, honey! What the ghos" want?"
"Nothing at all," said I. "It just sits on the bed and looks."
"Laws, honey, Miss Jessop, but that yer kine"s the wors" of all," says she, staring at me. "She"ll jes" have ter leave it onto somebody else, that"s all."
"Why, can you do that?" I asked.
"Sure you can do it," she says. "Was it one that loved her?"
"They all say so," said I.
She struck her hands together.
"I knew it--I knew it!" she cried out. "It"s always that-a-way. My ole mudder she had that ha"nt fer ten years, and it was her half-sister that brung her up from three years ole! She"ll jes" have ter leave it onto some one."
"Well, I"ll tell her so," said I, just in joke, of course.
"You do," says she, solemn as the grave, "you do, Miss Jessop, honey, an" she"ll bless you all her life. You get some one ter say they"ll take that ha"nt off her _right w"ile it"s there, so it hears "em_, and w"ile there"s a witness there ter hear bofe sides, an" you hear to me, now, she"ll go free!"
"I"ll certainly tell her, Margaret," I said, and I went on and never gave it another thought, of course.
We went up to the Elton"s camp in Maine all of a sudden, for Miss Elton got the idea she"d feel better there, and though it was cold as Greenland, it did seem for a little as if she got a bit more sleep.
But not for long. We slept out on pine-bough beds around a big fire, for that made more light, and that precious Janet seemed to be fainter, but she was there, just the same, and the poor girl had lost eighteen pounds and I felt pretty blue about it. It didn"t really look as if we got ahead any, as I told the doctor, and she hardly spoke all day. I"m not much for the country, as a rule, it always smells so damp at night, but the Lord knows I"d have lived there a year if it would have helped her any.
Then came the night when Mr. Ferrau ran up to see how she was getting along. It was too cold for Madam and the Commodore, so we were there alone except for a gang of guides and servants and chauffeurs and ma.s.seuses. She had a bad night that night, for she got the idea that this lovely Janet was sitting up nearer and nearer to her, and she had it in her head that when she got to a certain point it would be all up with her. And when I told the doctor that, over the telephone, all he said was:
"Too bad, too bad!" So I knew how _he_ felt.
Well, she got talking rather hysterically for her, and I began to wish somebody else was around, when Mr. Ferrau jumps out of his door in the bachelor quarters and dashes over to us in a heavy bathrobe, white as a sheet.
"For G.o.d"s sake, Miss Jessop, _do_ something!" he said, but I just shrugged my shoulders. There was nothing to _do_, you see. She was all bundled up in a seal-skin sleeping-bag with a wool helmet over her head; her eyes certainly looked bad. I just about gave up hope, then.
The moon made everything a sort of bluish-white and we all must have looked pretty ghastly.
"I think I"ll give her a little codeine," I said. "Just stay here a moment, will you?"
He knelt down by her bunk while I began to unwind myself from all the stuff you have to get into up there.
"Oh, Anne, my dearest, dearest girl," he said, "if only I could take this instead of you! If only I could see her, and you not!"
"Would you--would you, really, Louis?" I heard her say. "You _do_ love me, don"t you? But that would be too dreadful. I couldn"t allow that to happen."
"Heavens, my dear girl, I"d take it in a minute, if I could!" he cried.
"Oh, Anne, do try to look at it in that way--try to give it to me!
Perhaps if you used your will-power enough for that----"
"That can"t be, Louis," she said, "this is just my fate. I must bear it--till it kills me. But if it could be, I"ll tell you this: I _would_ give it to you, dearest, for you are stronger, and maybe a man could fight it better."
I was off to the main camp then, but when I got back with the codeine she was asleep with her head on his shoulder, and he kneeled there till four without moving--he was game, that Mr. Ferrau, and no mistake!
She slept right through till eight, and I left them together all day, as much as I could, and I let her off her nap, she begged so. I could see from the solemn way she talked that she was saying good-bye to him, as much as he"d let her. She told me that as soon as it began to get on her brain, really, and she got worse (we always called it "getting worse"), she was going up to Dr. Jarvyse"s place, and he wasn"t to see her at all.
"I want him to remember me--as I was," she said. It certainly was tough. I used to cry about it, when I was alone, sometimes. You get awfully fond of some patients.
He stayed the next night, too, and I took my regular nap from ten to one. I could nearly always count on that, and I"d got so I woke the moment she did. I was fast asleep when I felt her touch me, and I woke, feeling scared, for she almost never did that.
"What is it?" I said, half awake. "Is she coming nearer?"
"Miss Jessop, dear Miss Jessop, she isn"t here at all!" she said, shaking and crying. "I"ve been awake an hour, and she hasn"t come to-night! Oh, _do_ you think, _do_ you----"
"Yes, I do," I said, though I was pretty excited myself, I can tell you. "I believe you"re getting better, Miss Elton, and now I think I"ll have Miss Avidson rub you, and see if we can get through the night all right."
The Swedish woman put her right to sleep, working over her head, and we never opened our eyes till nine. One of the guides told me that Mr.
Ferrau had been called to the city early, and had left quietly, not to disturb us, but we were both so delighted and yet so anxious not to be delighted too soon, that we didn"t notice his going much. She ate three good meals that day, besides her tea, and we walked five or six miles--I wanted to wear her out. And that night she slept right through!
We waited one night more, to be certain, and then I "phoned the doctor.
"Hurray!" he yelled, so I nearly dropped the receiver. "Bully for you!
Keep out for a week and then move in--with a light. Drop the light in another week. Then I"ll send "em all off to Beachmount." This was their Long Island place.
Well, it all worked out perfectly. She gained nine pounds in three weeks, and I don"t know when I"ve been so pleased. The old people came up to see her, and I spent most of my time convincing them that it was no case for tiaras and sunbursts, as I never wore them. Mrs. Elton really looked almost human. She cried so that I finally had to take a little string of pearls. They were small, but all matched, and she said I could wear them under my blouse and I could always sell them.
You"d have thought that I"d cured the girl, when, as I told them, the thing had just run its natural course, and her youth and good sense and the outdoor life had done the rest.
Of course, there was no more use for me, and I went right off on a big operation case--a very interesting one, indeed. I promised to come to the wedding, if I possibly could; she told me she would be married just as soon as Mr. Ferrau wished, she felt she"d made him go through so much in the last four months. And it seemed that he _had_ felt the strain more than they thought, for her mother told me that just as Anne recovered, he seemed to give way and got very nervous and had gone off on a yacht with some of his college friends to the south somewhere. I was rather surprised not to see him at the house, and so was Miss Anne, I thought; but he sent the loveliest flowers every day and telegrams, and of course they were working on the trousseau and pretty busy, anyway.
I couldn"t get to the wedding, after all, for my patient was taken to Lakewood and simply refused to let me off, which was rather mean of her, for I could have run up for the afternoon as well as not. But that"s what you have to expect, if you go into nursing, and you get used to it.
Mrs. Elton called me up once at the hotel, to see if I couldn"t get away (they were going to send the car for me if I could), and I asked if Mr. Ferrau was all right again.
"Really, Miss Jessop," said she--and I could just see how she must have looked, from her voice--"really, my dear, I am terribly, _terribly_ worried about Louis. He looks frightfully, so pale and nervous and run down. And he simply _won"t_ see a doctor, and when I earnestly begged him to consult Dr. Stanchon, he flew out at me--he really flew out!"
"What can it be?" said I. "What does Miss Elton think?"